Charlotte brought home a notice from school.
It was for a survey the governement is doing. A Satisfaction Survey for the Ministry of Education. Well after going thru and doing the multiple choice portion of the survey i was on to Question 29.....A blank space where I can share my opinion of the school system....this is what popped to mind. I did it fast and then regretted not doing a once over.
I sent it off. Spelling mistakes and all. Hopefully it will be read, understood, and respected.
OveralL, I have Not been satisfied or impressed with the teaching methods used.
For example - my child was told by her teachers, that it was not only okay to use the multiplication chart in her planner for her math problems, but that they approved of the use of a calculator. When I questioned this and told them to please not allow it, they continued against my wishes and better judgement. Now I receive a report card that states my child is unable to recall multiplication tables up to 7 x 9 from memory!
Another example being the Historica fair that just passed. Parents were witheld from helping our children with the typing and writing portion of the report. The children were given sufficient time to complete it. I have many, many issues with this project.
Firstly - I find it ridiculous that a 9 year old grade 4 student is expected to type out 3 to 5 page report when they have not even been taught how to type!
Second - Its obsurd to be given a project of this magnitude filled with paragraphs, summaries, and interviews when they have barely touched on how to put information together. When I did finally see what she had been wlrking on I was disgusted. As i came to find out....she was getting most of her guidance from a fellow student in Grade 5!! i don't send my child to school to be taught by another student. I also don't send my child to school so that I can finish the teachers teachings at home.
i am not interested in signing a planner every day. Yet I am told that is part of their personal planning mark. How ludicrous! The fact that my child writes the homework down from the board should be the only thing that is marked or considered for personal planning. That goes for whether or not she reads and the fact that I am required to fill that out too so she can hand it in.
I was already in grade 4. As a matter of fact, I've even been to college and graduated from there as well. I am not intersted in doing it again.
It is my job as a parent to teach my child manners, how to dress appropriately, how to clean a bedroom, clean a pets cage, brush her teeth, eat healthy, wash her body....ect. It is not My job to teach her math or how to write. That is why we have all these educated people in these big buildings filled with rooms and desks.
In this day and age of single - working - split - blended - families it is disgusting to me that children cannot come home at the end of the day, leave their 'work' day behind and just be kids. We are required to take our children to the local library so they can finish the studies they should be getting done at the institution built for such things.
Than they are not even being taught the basics in any sort of methodical, step by step way to take them to the next level.
Its like they are being taught backwards. The cart is before the horse.
Like being taught how to add and subtract without first learning what numbers are.
Then trying to communicate with the teachers is like pulling teeth!
Honestly, if I could afford to, my child would be in private school.
I am not intersted in hearing about how overcrowded the classes are. I went to school too, as I already mentioned, and there was always 30 plus kids in the class.
I do not approve of kids all sitting with their desks next to each other as they do either. No wonder it makes keeping them on task so hard. They can visit their neighbour so easily.
I had a third, fourth and fifth, but I think my point is made.
Thank-you.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Saturday, March 15, 2008
I DIDN'T CHEAT LIKE i THOUGHT!!
Thought I'd cheated on my stupid cleanse/detox diet. I was feeling all rebellous yet guilty.....well it turns out the Taco chips I consumed were actually Corn Chips!!!
I can eat those!!
And Salsa.....Hell Ya!!!!
I 've been a good chick all week1 YaY ME!!!
however....tonight...I'll be making a lazy lasagna for the 3 of us....I think - but i could still change my mind......
I can eat those!!
And Salsa.....Hell Ya!!!!
I 've been a good chick all week1 YaY ME!!!
however....tonight...I'll be making a lazy lasagna for the 3 of us....I think - but i could still change my mind......
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Round-Up
i realize its now law that you get stopped while making your purchase of a pesticide....
They are just doing their Jobs...
....you have to be asked if you've used the product before - yes i understand its poison and children have died - i know about the pet thing too - inhaling is bad....YOU THINK!
Seriously, for the 3 times I have to hear the speech each year, i really need a Shiny
Badge i can flash.....AVID USER of ROUND UP!
than maybe I can get my purchase without holding up the line and having to look serious while I listen to the harmful affects to living things.
Maybe next time I should just say i intend to use it on my kid and my cat and see what happens....I'm pouring it in my fish pond to get rid of the algae. That way whole family is gonna sit in it on a hot day and enjoy the BBQ.
They are just doing their Jobs...
....you have to be asked if you've used the product before - yes i understand its poison and children have died - i know about the pet thing too - inhaling is bad....YOU THINK!
Seriously, for the 3 times I have to hear the speech each year, i really need a Shiny
Badge i can flash.....AVID USER of ROUND UP!
than maybe I can get my purchase without holding up the line and having to look serious while I listen to the harmful affects to living things.
Maybe next time I should just say i intend to use it on my kid and my cat and see what happens....I'm pouring it in my fish pond to get rid of the algae. That way whole family is gonna sit in it on a hot day and enjoy the BBQ.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Cleanse
I'm doin a cleanse for the next 2 weeks.
At least, that is my goal....2 weeks that is.
No dairy, no potato's, no wine....What the F! thats my whole diet
Anyone done one? How'd it turn out?
I just feel really unhealthy these days. Hopefuly this helps.
Wish me Luck!!
At least, that is my goal....2 weeks that is.
No dairy, no potato's, no wine....What the F! thats my whole diet
Anyone done one? How'd it turn out?
I just feel really unhealthy these days. Hopefuly this helps.
Wish me Luck!!
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Cheezd Off!
I am So Cheezed that my support payments have all but dried up since January!!!!
Grrrrr.
half payments over the last couple months has put me behind.....now i have the icky suspcion I might be SOL for all of it this month.....Shifting more payments and different bills around so i can make it all work......
Then again i could just be panicking too soon and all is well.
But it still picks my Butt to even have to worry about it. Picks my butt even more that i rely on it!
Picks everything else that I am going to have to go to my BF!
pride pride pride
Grrrr.
I wish i could give it all back to him and never need it again!
Stupid mortgage.
Stupid needing to eat.
Stupid Car!!
Seriously, if I did win a subsequent amount of money in the lottery I would give him back all the money's he's ever paid out for The Queen.....that would be approx. 10 000 dollars. I'm sure I could scrape that up if I won a Million!
Grrrrr.
half payments over the last couple months has put me behind.....now i have the icky suspcion I might be SOL for all of it this month.....Shifting more payments and different bills around so i can make it all work......
Then again i could just be panicking too soon and all is well.
But it still picks my Butt to even have to worry about it. Picks my butt even more that i rely on it!
Picks everything else that I am going to have to go to my BF!
pride pride pride
Grrrr.
I wish i could give it all back to him and never need it again!
Stupid mortgage.
Stupid needing to eat.
Stupid Car!!
Seriously, if I did win a subsequent amount of money in the lottery I would give him back all the money's he's ever paid out for The Queen.....that would be approx. 10 000 dollars. I'm sure I could scrape that up if I won a Million!
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
I DON'T SEE MYSELF LIKE THAT.........
.................ever wondered how Others view you???
I have been since the weekend.
There was a point in the evening where my friend Todd's wife made her way over to talk to me. I had known her back in the day, but it was brief. She was moving into the group as I was moving away.....anyhow. she made this comment that she couldn't believe she was standing there talking to me.
Why? I asked. Thinking oh shit she freakin hates me and I am totally infringing on her space.
nope. Apparently I was the illusive Hot Chick! And DAmn if I wasn't still Hot!.
WHAT?!!!
She was always so threatened when I walked into a room cause all the men wanted me.......she was quick to point out it was still happening......
WHAT?!!
Miss popularity. Center of attention.
WHAT?!!
must be why over the years when I've seen her different places...shopping or around town.....she always does the quick head turn or down the other aisle trick. I just always figured she was avoiding me cause she didn't like me....which would have been fine too. We don't have to like Everyone. But to find out that was why......She was scared to talk to me!
it was really wierd.
And the only reason she made a move to chat with me SAturday was becasue it turns out Mountain went to school with her and her Best Friend that was there!! So they were busy chatting him up. I guess i was 'safe' after that.
Mkaes me wonder what other people think of me. Casue I don't see myself the way she was describing.
Kinda like.....I wonder what will be said about me after I'm gone!!
I really would like to be a fly on the wall.
I wonder how many people truly know me and see me.
I mean, really 'see' me!!
I have been since the weekend.
There was a point in the evening where my friend Todd's wife made her way over to talk to me. I had known her back in the day, but it was brief. She was moving into the group as I was moving away.....anyhow. she made this comment that she couldn't believe she was standing there talking to me.
Why? I asked. Thinking oh shit she freakin hates me and I am totally infringing on her space.
nope. Apparently I was the illusive Hot Chick! And DAmn if I wasn't still Hot!.
WHAT?!!!
She was always so threatened when I walked into a room cause all the men wanted me.......she was quick to point out it was still happening......
WHAT?!!
Miss popularity. Center of attention.
WHAT?!!
must be why over the years when I've seen her different places...shopping or around town.....she always does the quick head turn or down the other aisle trick. I just always figured she was avoiding me cause she didn't like me....which would have been fine too. We don't have to like Everyone. But to find out that was why......She was scared to talk to me!
it was really wierd.
And the only reason she made a move to chat with me SAturday was becasue it turns out Mountain went to school with her and her Best Friend that was there!! So they were busy chatting him up. I guess i was 'safe' after that.
Mkaes me wonder what other people think of me. Casue I don't see myself the way she was describing.
Kinda like.....I wonder what will be said about me after I'm gone!!
I really would like to be a fly on the wall.
I wonder how many people truly know me and see me.
I mean, really 'see' me!!
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Monday, March 03, 2008
Friday, February 29, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
I'm Going to Bed!
and I don't have a Headache!!!
YaY Me!
on another note...............
i find myself quite enraged about this new censorship of magazines taht appears to be going on. And it was started here in Town.
I'm going to collect my thoughts, get a good nights sleep and then............
i might just need to BLOG IT BABY!!!!
and I don't have a Headache!!!
YaY Me!
on another note...............
i find myself quite enraged about this new censorship of magazines taht appears to be going on. And it was started here in Town.
I'm going to collect my thoughts, get a good nights sleep and then............
i might just need to BLOG IT BABY!!!!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Stupid Pills. Stupid! Stupid!
Sometimes i am just suddenly so tired.
FAtigue sweeps over me
the headaches are sucking.
and it soemitmes will feel like a pin is being jabbed into my skull. the front of my head the back. Make up your mind!!
Then the feeling of a hot inside my head...my eyes want to close. Do my eyes look swollen?
my mouth works backwards with my words. I get dizzy. I find myself humming a lot..........
hey is that nausea starting???
Memories of the day, the day before....the hour before lost. Bits and peices. I'm just trying to keep my eyes open.
total exhaustion.
Funky Ass Dreams! not sure if they are real sometimes or not.
Thanks for helping me move the piano Muck. Maybe thats why my right arm, shoulder and wrist is so sore.
I have been craving Chocolate Like Crazy! My body needs it.
Sleeping so heavy i drool yet waking in the night. Than the mornings and days are so long. so hot suddenly nite sweats...is it a hot flash?
My eyes feel burny.
Maybe its just a migraine. i hope its just a migraine......Its not.......
my back must be out. I need new work shoes with new supports
Effexor Sux Ass! I am Never taking it again!
FAtigue sweeps over me
the headaches are sucking.
and it soemitmes will feel like a pin is being jabbed into my skull. the front of my head the back. Make up your mind!!
Then the feeling of a hot inside my head...my eyes want to close. Do my eyes look swollen?
my mouth works backwards with my words. I get dizzy. I find myself humming a lot..........
hey is that nausea starting???
Memories of the day, the day before....the hour before lost. Bits and peices. I'm just trying to keep my eyes open.
total exhaustion.
Funky Ass Dreams! not sure if they are real sometimes or not.
Thanks for helping me move the piano Muck. Maybe thats why my right arm, shoulder and wrist is so sore.
I have been craving Chocolate Like Crazy! My body needs it.
Sleeping so heavy i drool yet waking in the night. Than the mornings and days are so long. so hot suddenly nite sweats...is it a hot flash?
My eyes feel burny.
Maybe its just a migraine. i hope its just a migraine......Its not.......
my back must be out. I need new work shoes with new supports
Effexor Sux Ass! I am Never taking it again!
Friday, February 22, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
School
There was an article in the local paper yesterday about the parking at Charlotte's school. Makes my giggle a bit. Yes the parking is atrocious. But yet I watched as some woman in her van stood in the drop off zone and chatted with moms either yelling to the ones on the street, while having a conversation, or talkign with them by her van. It was parked stopped not moving in the drop off zone in the parking lot. Kids? didn't see anymore coming. She appeared to just be enjoying her gossip and the shining sun while inconvienencing everyone else. Buses coming in behind her and in front of her to pick up daycare kids. They don't have enough room, yet she still stands there taking up space. I was parked on the road taking this all in. (my car is sick and wouldn start)
Its a drive thru lot. Park for 3 mins. pick up your darling child and then be gone. DAycare buses are supposed to be able to park there and wait for the hoards.
Yes it sucks to try to park on the road. There isn't any parking on the road. The lot is just for Staff. Then I guess you do like me and try to show up jsut after the bell so that you can drive thru lot and kid is waiting. In and out in no time as long as there is n't some stupid women parked Kaddywompus in the drop off lane and you can't get by! Or you get there a half hour early to find a spot on the Road.
Ugh!
Historica is due tomorrow.
I am just sick about it. so is Charlotte. I feel as though she hasn't done enough on her backboard. but I don't know what else to do. Model? I thought that was just if you were competing. Charlotte is arguing with me about what she has been told and what I see written down on her criteria marking sheet. I sent the 'interview' off weeks ago to city hall and Mr Ferguson.....no answer. The principal hasn't talked to me either. She was busy with parking lot issues yesterday morning I coulnd't wait. Had to race off and do errands. This morning I have to get my car to the Dr's. Oh I hope it starts.
Thats another thing. Its been running rough. Now it is barely starting. Bad. Very Bad. I'm taking it to Ford this morning and dropping it off so they can hook it up and pull the money out of my ass to fix it! Great fun.
i hope i did my taxes right
So tonight we will be in Hell here as I attempt to fluff up this report some more.
Sent a note Monday morning about the interview. Sent the backboard......nothing. I fuckin hate this! I hate asking for help and then not getting it. Its like hanging from a cliff and seeing all these people walk by, but non of them throw you a rope to climb up on. And maybe I am high maintenance. Whatver! thats fine. Then deal with me and make it so I don't feel so anxious! charlotte and I have been fighting like crazy becaseu of this thing.
I fuckin Hate It!
Its a drive thru lot. Park for 3 mins. pick up your darling child and then be gone. DAycare buses are supposed to be able to park there and wait for the hoards.
Yes it sucks to try to park on the road. There isn't any parking on the road. The lot is just for Staff. Then I guess you do like me and try to show up jsut after the bell so that you can drive thru lot and kid is waiting. In and out in no time as long as there is n't some stupid women parked Kaddywompus in the drop off lane and you can't get by! Or you get there a half hour early to find a spot on the Road.
Ugh!
Historica is due tomorrow.
I am just sick about it. so is Charlotte. I feel as though she hasn't done enough on her backboard. but I don't know what else to do. Model? I thought that was just if you were competing. Charlotte is arguing with me about what she has been told and what I see written down on her criteria marking sheet. I sent the 'interview' off weeks ago to city hall and Mr Ferguson.....no answer. The principal hasn't talked to me either. She was busy with parking lot issues yesterday morning I coulnd't wait. Had to race off and do errands. This morning I have to get my car to the Dr's. Oh I hope it starts.
Thats another thing. Its been running rough. Now it is barely starting. Bad. Very Bad. I'm taking it to Ford this morning and dropping it off so they can hook it up and pull the money out of my ass to fix it! Great fun.
i hope i did my taxes right
So tonight we will be in Hell here as I attempt to fluff up this report some more.
Sent a note Monday morning about the interview. Sent the backboard......nothing. I fuckin hate this! I hate asking for help and then not getting it. Its like hanging from a cliff and seeing all these people walk by, but non of them throw you a rope to climb up on. And maybe I am high maintenance. Whatver! thats fine. Then deal with me and make it so I don't feel so anxious! charlotte and I have been fighting like crazy becaseu of this thing.
I fuckin Hate It!
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Taxes
did my taxes last night.
I don't know if any of you qualify or know about this but...............
there is a new thing for low-income families. So if you are one look into it!
Its pretty darn awesome I must say.
Gotta take my car in tomorrow and find out what is wrong iwht it. Just to have it looked at is 102 plus tax bux!!! I'm supposed to be going out of town this weekend to see my brother, so i really want to get it fixed. not so much wanting to break down on the Coq. Been there done that.
i am loving this sun we are having!!!
One more snow-storm would do me though before spring.
Haven't heard from the principal yet. When I go in the AM she is not around. Frig! So I don't know what the hell.
Charlotte is sooo stressed out. I was going to try her on a new diet. But that was upsetting her more.
Anyhow.....got my taxes done and that makes me very very happy!
if I did it all right i will be getting a nice healthy return.
Even happier. That can pay for my car! YaY!!!
I don't know if any of you qualify or know about this but...............
there is a new thing for low-income families. So if you are one look into it!
Its pretty darn awesome I must say.
Gotta take my car in tomorrow and find out what is wrong iwht it. Just to have it looked at is 102 plus tax bux!!! I'm supposed to be going out of town this weekend to see my brother, so i really want to get it fixed. not so much wanting to break down on the Coq. Been there done that.
i am loving this sun we are having!!!
One more snow-storm would do me though before spring.
Haven't heard from the principal yet. When I go in the AM she is not around. Frig! So I don't know what the hell.
Charlotte is sooo stressed out. I was going to try her on a new diet. But that was upsetting her more.
Anyhow.....got my taxes done and that makes me very very happy!
if I did it all right i will be getting a nice healthy return.
Even happier. That can pay for my car! YaY!!!
Monday, February 18, 2008
L.A.X.
We tried the new place on Saturday night!
No we didn't eat.
lets see.....
its a new owner and the decor has changed, but the ghost of horrible service is still alive and well!
The walls are Stark, primer white. They put in nice fans to replace the old very bad ones. The trim has all been painted burgandy red. there are black sheers tied back on the windows. The chairs have all been painted and recovered. Thank goodness. they look marvelous! Burgandy tablecloths and black napkins. Nice. Bar has been re-done. Very nice. RJ's can now be seen from the front, looked nice what they'd done. As a matter of fact you can see clear across to the other side of the restuarant as there is Nothing to obstruct your view. Be careful not to talk too loud though everyone can hear you. When were they going to turn the music up and the lights down? The beautiful wood floor, that I understand they sanded.....they have covered with red indoor-outdoor carpeting.
Whatever. The girls, or whomever better keep up on the vaccuming. Everything white glows like the walls do.
Overall.....I didn't like ...
we would have stayed for dinner, but it took upwards to 15 minutes before we got our drinks. The menu was disapointing. I would have managed, but Mountain was done and very far from impressed. so we went to the Old Spaghetti FActory!
I would never order what I ordered again. Veal parmesan.....but the SErvice was spectacular. Rebecca took exceptional care of us. she was bubbly and friendly and fast.
We plan to take the girls there.
Mountain has no plan to go back to LAX. I would like to try it again in awhile. I'm sure they will iron out the bugs. It takes awhile when you open a new place. The only reason I would go back is cause that place has a place in my heart. Otherwise I would be on the same page as Mountain.
No we didn't eat.
lets see.....
its a new owner and the decor has changed, but the ghost of horrible service is still alive and well!
The walls are Stark, primer white. They put in nice fans to replace the old very bad ones. The trim has all been painted burgandy red. there are black sheers tied back on the windows. The chairs have all been painted and recovered. Thank goodness. they look marvelous! Burgandy tablecloths and black napkins. Nice. Bar has been re-done. Very nice. RJ's can now be seen from the front, looked nice what they'd done. As a matter of fact you can see clear across to the other side of the restuarant as there is Nothing to obstruct your view. Be careful not to talk too loud though everyone can hear you. When were they going to turn the music up and the lights down? The beautiful wood floor, that I understand they sanded.....they have covered with red indoor-outdoor carpeting.
Whatever. The girls, or whomever better keep up on the vaccuming. Everything white glows like the walls do.
Overall.....I didn't like ...
we would have stayed for dinner, but it took upwards to 15 minutes before we got our drinks. The menu was disapointing. I would have managed, but Mountain was done and very far from impressed. so we went to the Old Spaghetti FActory!
I would never order what I ordered again. Veal parmesan.....but the SErvice was spectacular. Rebecca took exceptional care of us. she was bubbly and friendly and fast.
We plan to take the girls there.
Mountain has no plan to go back to LAX. I would like to try it again in awhile. I'm sure they will iron out the bugs. It takes awhile when you open a new place. The only reason I would go back is cause that place has a place in my heart. Otherwise I would be on the same page as Mountain.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Roses!
Happy VD and i love you was my text.
I love you back was his.
The Queen with Hugs and Kisses greeting me in the morning with a cuddle in the bed. She loved her new shirt and bubble bath.
Mountain loved his lindoor chocolates and can't wait to love his other gift.
My beautiful red roses arranged on the kitchen table, labelling me as a girl that has a boyfriend.
Charlotte squeezing the stuffing out of the new pink frog he brought for her.
The 3 of us cuddling up on the couch to watch a good pranking.
it was a special day.
Our first Valentines.
Happy VD and i love you was my text.
I love you back was his.
The Queen with Hugs and Kisses greeting me in the morning with a cuddle in the bed. She loved her new shirt and bubble bath.
Mountain loved his lindoor chocolates and can't wait to love his other gift.
My beautiful red roses arranged on the kitchen table, labelling me as a girl that has a boyfriend.
Charlotte squeezing the stuffing out of the new pink frog he brought for her.
The 3 of us cuddling up on the couch to watch a good pranking.
it was a special day.
Our first Valentines.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
its gotta be PMS
I am sooooo close to writing a story and talking to the publisher of the local post!!!
Ffffing school!
now tomorrow is V day.
Charley can write her cards.
Aaah. but there are rules.
- Girls can give to all girls or the entire class
- Boys can give to all boys or the entire class
they don't want anyone to feel left out.
ummmm. Okay fine. Where's the class list? Oh there isn't one. Nice. So Charley is trying to remember to include everyone....result....crying child.
So she trys all girls....result....crying child.
so she is now doing what she can remember. I suppose I have to write a note about that too, to that fucking boney assed bitch!
Ffffing school!
now tomorrow is V day.
Charley can write her cards.
Aaah. but there are rules.
- Girls can give to all girls or the entire class
- Boys can give to all boys or the entire class
they don't want anyone to feel left out.
ummmm. Okay fine. Where's the class list? Oh there isn't one. Nice. So Charley is trying to remember to include everyone....result....crying child.
So she trys all girls....result....crying child.
so she is now doing what she can remember. I suppose I have to write a note about that too, to that fucking boney assed bitch!
Historica Sucks!
Stupid Frick Fracken report.
this is the single most stupidist assignment I have encountered so far.
i got there to pick up Charlotte from school yesterday. She was late getting out. so i went to find her.
she was busy packing up all her research on GUINEA PIGS!!!!
What the Fuck!
the teacher is standing right there. I'm jsut staring at it. What is all this?
The teacher smiles and says apparently she is doing a report on Guinea pigs now.
I am staring at all the pages. Ummmmmm........what about historica?
i had had a chat with the teacher last week and she had assured me Charlotte was were she was supposed to be I asked her to help her as much as she can cause I just don't have time, patience, or knowledge ot what to do. I also asked her to help C with her 'interview' questions. That hasn't happened either!!!!
...................
since I started this before I took Queen to school I have dropped her off and spoken to the principal. Told her of my frustrations.
I know Charlotte is a challenge to keep on task. Frig. She's a challenge at home too! But hell. The principal is going to look into it.
The parents have been told NOT to help. WEll fuck it! i guess I am going back into Grade 4. This program and teaching and all the above is ridiculous. She is not being taught! The report she has is awful. we are working at her backboard here at home and that is a Challenge too. You'd think it would be easy for a kid that loves art. But she doens't have any ideas of what to put on it and won't do mine! I don't want to do this anymore.
this is the single most stupidist assignment I have encountered so far.
i got there to pick up Charlotte from school yesterday. She was late getting out. so i went to find her.
she was busy packing up all her research on GUINEA PIGS!!!!
What the Fuck!
the teacher is standing right there. I'm jsut staring at it. What is all this?
The teacher smiles and says apparently she is doing a report on Guinea pigs now.
I am staring at all the pages. Ummmmmm........what about historica?
i had had a chat with the teacher last week and she had assured me Charlotte was were she was supposed to be I asked her to help her as much as she can cause I just don't have time, patience, or knowledge ot what to do. I also asked her to help C with her 'interview' questions. That hasn't happened either!!!!
...................
since I started this before I took Queen to school I have dropped her off and spoken to the principal. Told her of my frustrations.
I know Charlotte is a challenge to keep on task. Frig. She's a challenge at home too! But hell. The principal is going to look into it.
The parents have been told NOT to help. WEll fuck it! i guess I am going back into Grade 4. This program and teaching and all the above is ridiculous. She is not being taught! The report she has is awful. we are working at her backboard here at home and that is a Challenge too. You'd think it would be easy for a kid that loves art. But she doens't have any ideas of what to put on it and won't do mine! I don't want to do this anymore.
Monday, February 11, 2008
Saturday, February 09, 2008
Sex & Orgasms
My mind has been a buzz since Saturday night with the conversation the ladies were having. Made me start to think about different things from other women and men I've heard throughout the years.
Women that don't like sex.
Is it that they don't like sex? the act of it? or do they just not like it with the partner they have? then what about the orgasm? surely that wonderful friend can't have enemies. Then it makes me question their experience. Not with men but with themselves.
Being comfortable is the key. Trust; in ones self and partner.
Sex comes in so many forms. The word itself covers so many acts and isn't reserved for intercourse alone. The act of foreplay; heavy petting, making out, holding hands. Bodies grinding together, heavy breathing, earlobes, ass, cock, breast.......
*sigh*
A comment I heard was that orgasms come in different intensities.
They absolutly do!!!
A clitoral orgasm is very different from a G-spot orgasm. As well as the difference within each one. some relief, while others make the bottoms of your feet tingle. Others still, that can release so many emotions, you cry!
A G-spot or vaginal O during intercourse is always great, and always catches me off gaurd. Like a really great surprise! i don't go looking for it. As vaginal 'O's can be hard for me to achieve. So if it happens.....YIPPEE! Mountain gets a medal. But yes, your G-spot is in the same place. It doens't move. Its actaully the underside of the clitoris, just in case you didn't know. A hand job can be most pleasurable, almost as good as, or better than oral. Its a learning curve for your partner to find the little walnut buried just inside.
To stimulate it with the penis, in my experience, can sometimes be hard. But with a little practice...can be amazing. This being why most women get their best results on top. Clitoral stimulation as well as the G gives us a nice warm glow!
There are times, I find a hand job a little less intrusive than oral stimulation of the clit. The uncovering of the 'pearl' can get to be such chore at times. For both you and your partner. Not that its not pleasing. I love Good face jsut as much as the next girl. However, a good moment can be lost so quickly with the wrong flick of the tongue if he don't read the signs! Or too quick to move on, so to speak, to other things. I find there has to be a lot of communication, in some way, to let your partner know what it is you need to have just as much fun as they are having. And then sometimes.....its just not going to happen.
i begin to wonder if the act of oral sex for both men and women, is about control. A lot of sexual encounters are. For men much different than women. Sometimes, for women, its Just about the emotional connection with their partner. We don't always need to cum.
the orgasm for women.
Releasing ourselves. Not gaining control, but the giving up of it. If we are not happy with our partner its most definantly nearly impossible for a woman to have an 'O'. A partner that doesn't 'listen' or pay attention to what how we move our bodies, or the noises we make. 'Getting there' can be really hard for a girl! In my younger years, I loved to dominate a partner with Head. Being that I refused to have intercourse was a big thing too. I had to do soemthing now that I've gotten myself into this situation!
Yes, thats right. I didn't 'Fuck' around. LoL!!
That might surprise some of you. My bakers dozen accompished in my years of being active with the sex. The back half of that happening after my stint of being celibate for 2/3 years.
Yes. I was celibate for 2 & half - 3 yrs after Charlotte was born. Why? Cause I'm crazy haven't you heard!!
I wanted the next man that I slept with to be the one I married. My church roots. The morals that had been engrained in me taking a front seat. I was on the serious hunt for a husband. I dated and turned down various different men during that time. No, I didn't so much as kiss them. Kissing almost always gets me into trouble. During this sexless time i really got to know my body.
I didn't smoke, drink, eat bad stuff or Fuck. It was an amazing time of self awareness and discovery. But thats another post.
After saving myself for 3 years I met Mr. Big. Imagine my disapointment. When he wasn't BIG AT ALL. I waited months after dating him till I let him see me naked and do the deed. Excited for our first trist together. So let down when the pleasure of having him inside me was done and barely noticed! Have you ever seen the episode on Sex and the City when Samantha falls in love with a man. they finally get to bed and she says, "ok. I'm ready. Put it in" and he responds..."i am" Grunt, grunt.
It was a lot like that. Yes Size Matters! That being said. he got good at other things and I learned how to make my sexual experiences with him good ones. Did I ever tell him his penis was too small? No. But he fished a lot for an answer. I always told him his penis did what it needed to do and that was all that mattered.
I made a comment at girls night that you can have good sex with any partner. I tell you, its damn true. But you have to know your own body and pull the good from your partner. Not every encounter will make your toes curl, but at least you can enjoy it and it doesn't always have to be for them.
Foreplay is always wonderful. don't you agree?
For me, foreplay isn't reserved to just moments before intercourse. Foreplay is on going. Text messages in the middle of the day filled with messages of 'wet pussies' and 'hard cocks.' The butt grab in the kitchen. The kiss on the neck while reading the paper or making supper. The hands around your waist, in the small of your back. The slight show of cleavage. Hand placed lightly on your thigh. A gentle tickle on the arm. A hug. A grope. Playful poking and tickling. A massage. The random Phone call...."lets Fuck" and then hanging up. Staring across the dinner table from each other while you eat. Food can be VERY sexual. Especially when you watch your lovers tongue at work on the tip of a carrot! its a build. Then getting to the bedroom and your already half-way there.
BumSex?
Now this is something i haven't had to even discuss for many years. I don't like it. now I can say that having tried it. I am a firm believer that you can't say you don't like something if you haven't tried it. Kinda like when Charlotte decides she doens't like a certain food. You gotta at least try it first before you make that assumption! now here I am again. Saying I don't like it. Its been many years and i am in a new relationship. We are Very open with each other and have explored all kinds of different things with one another. Lots of firsts for the two of us which is neat!
He had been sexless for 8 months when we had that one night stand nearly 2 years ago. I was at the tail end of 10 months. Practically Virgins! LoL!
He is not as grossed out about the 'Exit Only' factor. Our sexual encounters where the touching starts to drift to that area I find myself shut down. Completly turned off. Then our discussion begins.
i am aware of the different erogoneous zones .... there.
I find myself lately dissecting exaclty what I don't like about it. So far all I 've come up with is Poo.
Poo comes out of there! Yuck! and thats as far as I can let my thoughts go. I must admit. There was this one time, during the act. That his fingers were gently whispering across my poohole and i did find myself oddly aroused. Once again though. As soon as I realized it was turning me on my mind took over and I stopped that pleasure pretty darn Quick!
This takes me back to women that have a hard time with sex. Or parts of it.
Is it just simply in the mind?
My vote would have to be yes.
Each persons 'reasons' are different. Everybodies backgrounds different too. I had a counsellor once say to me.....that if my first partner hadn't been so understanding and teaching I would not have the healthy sexual outlook I do.
I tend to believe that. Although he was a horrible Gigilo and used me, we did spend 2 years together. I thought we would be married. I was very impressionable and learned. Not just about sex, but about life. He was my first. I was 19 and the room was filled with the sound of my lost virginity.
I shook for days.
He was incredibly open sexually and answered all my curiousities to the best of his knowledge. He taught me about what men like and what they want. i had to learn about women all on my own self. Eventhough the sex with him was awful, Given time for me to grow up I'm sure it would have gotten better. I was able to talk to him about ANYTHING. A quality in a partner I'd been missing all these years ........ till now.
So will I try bumSex again? We will see. Is it for him? Yes it is. I will think on it and babystep my way there. As soon as the 'poo' stigma takes more of a backseat instead of driving. I hope it to be a pleasurable experience for both of us. For now....ICK! YUCK! and BACK THE FUCK OFF!!! EXIT ONLY!!
Not everyones sex life is the same.
Our bodies are all very similar. Its what we do with them that makes us different. How we choose to enjoy them. How much we let our minds work or not work. Letting go of the laundry, the work day, the kid......the Poo.....
Not always easy or possible.
I'm just glad I finally got a bedroom Door
Blog On Dudes!
this is based on my personal experiences. take from it what you will
Women that don't like sex.
Is it that they don't like sex? the act of it? or do they just not like it with the partner they have? then what about the orgasm? surely that wonderful friend can't have enemies. Then it makes me question their experience. Not with men but with themselves.
Being comfortable is the key. Trust; in ones self and partner.
Sex comes in so many forms. The word itself covers so many acts and isn't reserved for intercourse alone. The act of foreplay; heavy petting, making out, holding hands. Bodies grinding together, heavy breathing, earlobes, ass, cock, breast.......
*sigh*
A comment I heard was that orgasms come in different intensities.
They absolutly do!!!
A clitoral orgasm is very different from a G-spot orgasm. As well as the difference within each one. some relief, while others make the bottoms of your feet tingle. Others still, that can release so many emotions, you cry!
A G-spot or vaginal O during intercourse is always great, and always catches me off gaurd. Like a really great surprise! i don't go looking for it. As vaginal 'O's can be hard for me to achieve. So if it happens.....YIPPEE! Mountain gets a medal. But yes, your G-spot is in the same place. It doens't move. Its actaully the underside of the clitoris, just in case you didn't know. A hand job can be most pleasurable, almost as good as, or better than oral. Its a learning curve for your partner to find the little walnut buried just inside.
To stimulate it with the penis, in my experience, can sometimes be hard. But with a little practice...can be amazing. This being why most women get their best results on top. Clitoral stimulation as well as the G gives us a nice warm glow!
There are times, I find a hand job a little less intrusive than oral stimulation of the clit. The uncovering of the 'pearl' can get to be such chore at times. For both you and your partner. Not that its not pleasing. I love Good face jsut as much as the next girl. However, a good moment can be lost so quickly with the wrong flick of the tongue if he don't read the signs! Or too quick to move on, so to speak, to other things. I find there has to be a lot of communication, in some way, to let your partner know what it is you need to have just as much fun as they are having. And then sometimes.....its just not going to happen.
i begin to wonder if the act of oral sex for both men and women, is about control. A lot of sexual encounters are. For men much different than women. Sometimes, for women, its Just about the emotional connection with their partner. We don't always need to cum.
the orgasm for women.
Releasing ourselves. Not gaining control, but the giving up of it. If we are not happy with our partner its most definantly nearly impossible for a woman to have an 'O'. A partner that doesn't 'listen' or pay attention to what how we move our bodies, or the noises we make. 'Getting there' can be really hard for a girl! In my younger years, I loved to dominate a partner with Head. Being that I refused to have intercourse was a big thing too. I had to do soemthing now that I've gotten myself into this situation!
Yes, thats right. I didn't 'Fuck' around. LoL!!
That might surprise some of you. My bakers dozen accompished in my years of being active with the sex. The back half of that happening after my stint of being celibate for 2/3 years.
Yes. I was celibate for 2 & half - 3 yrs after Charlotte was born. Why? Cause I'm crazy haven't you heard!!
I wanted the next man that I slept with to be the one I married. My church roots. The morals that had been engrained in me taking a front seat. I was on the serious hunt for a husband. I dated and turned down various different men during that time. No, I didn't so much as kiss them. Kissing almost always gets me into trouble. During this sexless time i really got to know my body.
I didn't smoke, drink, eat bad stuff or Fuck. It was an amazing time of self awareness and discovery. But thats another post.
After saving myself for 3 years I met Mr. Big. Imagine my disapointment. When he wasn't BIG AT ALL. I waited months after dating him till I let him see me naked and do the deed. Excited for our first trist together. So let down when the pleasure of having him inside me was done and barely noticed! Have you ever seen the episode on Sex and the City when Samantha falls in love with a man. they finally get to bed and she says, "ok. I'm ready. Put it in" and he responds..."i am" Grunt, grunt.
It was a lot like that. Yes Size Matters! That being said. he got good at other things and I learned how to make my sexual experiences with him good ones. Did I ever tell him his penis was too small? No. But he fished a lot for an answer. I always told him his penis did what it needed to do and that was all that mattered.
I made a comment at girls night that you can have good sex with any partner. I tell you, its damn true. But you have to know your own body and pull the good from your partner. Not every encounter will make your toes curl, but at least you can enjoy it and it doesn't always have to be for them.
Foreplay is always wonderful. don't you agree?
For me, foreplay isn't reserved to just moments before intercourse. Foreplay is on going. Text messages in the middle of the day filled with messages of 'wet pussies' and 'hard cocks.' The butt grab in the kitchen. The kiss on the neck while reading the paper or making supper. The hands around your waist, in the small of your back. The slight show of cleavage. Hand placed lightly on your thigh. A gentle tickle on the arm. A hug. A grope. Playful poking and tickling. A massage. The random Phone call...."lets Fuck" and then hanging up. Staring across the dinner table from each other while you eat. Food can be VERY sexual. Especially when you watch your lovers tongue at work on the tip of a carrot! its a build. Then getting to the bedroom and your already half-way there.
BumSex?
Now this is something i haven't had to even discuss for many years. I don't like it. now I can say that having tried it. I am a firm believer that you can't say you don't like something if you haven't tried it. Kinda like when Charlotte decides she doens't like a certain food. You gotta at least try it first before you make that assumption! now here I am again. Saying I don't like it. Its been many years and i am in a new relationship. We are Very open with each other and have explored all kinds of different things with one another. Lots of firsts for the two of us which is neat!
He had been sexless for 8 months when we had that one night stand nearly 2 years ago. I was at the tail end of 10 months. Practically Virgins! LoL!
He is not as grossed out about the 'Exit Only' factor. Our sexual encounters where the touching starts to drift to that area I find myself shut down. Completly turned off. Then our discussion begins.
i am aware of the different erogoneous zones .... there.
I find myself lately dissecting exaclty what I don't like about it. So far all I 've come up with is Poo.
Poo comes out of there! Yuck! and thats as far as I can let my thoughts go. I must admit. There was this one time, during the act. That his fingers were gently whispering across my poohole and i did find myself oddly aroused. Once again though. As soon as I realized it was turning me on my mind took over and I stopped that pleasure pretty darn Quick!
This takes me back to women that have a hard time with sex. Or parts of it.
Is it just simply in the mind?
My vote would have to be yes.
Each persons 'reasons' are different. Everybodies backgrounds different too. I had a counsellor once say to me.....that if my first partner hadn't been so understanding and teaching I would not have the healthy sexual outlook I do.
I tend to believe that. Although he was a horrible Gigilo and used me, we did spend 2 years together. I thought we would be married. I was very impressionable and learned. Not just about sex, but about life. He was my first. I was 19 and the room was filled with the sound of my lost virginity.
I shook for days.
He was incredibly open sexually and answered all my curiousities to the best of his knowledge. He taught me about what men like and what they want. i had to learn about women all on my own self. Eventhough the sex with him was awful, Given time for me to grow up I'm sure it would have gotten better. I was able to talk to him about ANYTHING. A quality in a partner I'd been missing all these years ........ till now.
So will I try bumSex again? We will see. Is it for him? Yes it is. I will think on it and babystep my way there. As soon as the 'poo' stigma takes more of a backseat instead of driving. I hope it to be a pleasurable experience for both of us. For now....ICK! YUCK! and BACK THE FUCK OFF!!! EXIT ONLY!!
Not everyones sex life is the same.
Our bodies are all very similar. Its what we do with them that makes us different. How we choose to enjoy them. How much we let our minds work or not work. Letting go of the laundry, the work day, the kid......the Poo.....
Not always easy or possible.
I'm just glad I finally got a bedroom Door
Blog On Dudes!
this is based on my personal experiences. take from it what you will
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
New Pinks
I love my vitamin B12 pills!
they are so awesome. Gives me such a nice lift. I give them to Charlotte too. they seem to get her having better days as well.
Spoke with Mr. B - he won't be opening for another month or so. He is concentrating on Catering. (so he'll never open) Sounds like Robert is still with him! The Dick is pissed cause his grand opening was SuperBowl Sunday and it didn't fly. Two wanna be chef's that used to work for us and for B are trying their hand at LAX. Niether one of us would ever hire them back. Marple does alright when he shows up. Kyle is just a complete ASS.
I think I wrote about him in the summer???
I would still like to go in and see what LAX is all about. From what I've heard.....its like a Much Bigger Sammy J's! complete with mini skirts galore.
Too many bad ghosts linger there.
Thats my great wednesday wisdom.
I'm extra tired this morning. Drempt about working back at the Pantry.......What the Hell does That mean? YiKes!
my morning schedule is starting to stick a bit better. Just about time to try heading back to Curves. Its just got to happen! of course Mountain and I are in a whole different place in our relationship now.....so there is a good chance i might be able to go in the evening. I better check out their times again this morning.
Blog on Dudes!
they are so awesome. Gives me such a nice lift. I give them to Charlotte too. they seem to get her having better days as well.
Spoke with Mr. B - he won't be opening for another month or so. He is concentrating on Catering. (so he'll never open) Sounds like Robert is still with him! The Dick is pissed cause his grand opening was SuperBowl Sunday and it didn't fly. Two wanna be chef's that used to work for us and for B are trying their hand at LAX. Niether one of us would ever hire them back. Marple does alright when he shows up. Kyle is just a complete ASS.
I think I wrote about him in the summer???
I would still like to go in and see what LAX is all about. From what I've heard.....its like a Much Bigger Sammy J's! complete with mini skirts galore.
Too many bad ghosts linger there.
Thats my great wednesday wisdom.
I'm extra tired this morning. Drempt about working back at the Pantry.......What the Hell does That mean? YiKes!
my morning schedule is starting to stick a bit better. Just about time to try heading back to Curves. Its just got to happen! of course Mountain and I are in a whole different place in our relationship now.....so there is a good chance i might be able to go in the evening. I better check out their times again this morning.
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Tuesday, February 05, 2008
OUT
so yes. We went out.
I love going out with the girlz. Happens about every 6 months.
Mountain was more than happy to stay home so I could go play.
Mountain was more than happy to stay home so I could go play.There are a lot of pictures popping up on facebook. I didn't know there had been so many camera's! Holy Carp! I drank my litre of wine at dinner and was good to go home and climb into bed. Steph gave me a look and a word and i knew I was off to the Springs.
me waiting for Steph to get to my house........
me waiting for Steph to get to my house........
What did I have for dinner? Tacos with the family. Dessert at Lou's. Nummy choco cake. A must have!
So off to the springs. Its pretty fuzzy from this point on. Ran into Hot Neighbor. Remember him? He is getting married. How great is that. I am sooo happy for him. Some other guy that knew me from waaay back in the olden days. His marriage just broke up. After he found out I was most definantly unavailable, he scoped out my table of ladies and wondering which of them was single. Back off Guy! They are all mine!
it got to the point rather quickly at the pub, that if I didn't keep moving there was a really good chance I was going to fall over and not get up again. I'm sure you know that feeling. Must Keep Moving and doing things. I didn't want to smoke anymore and I had already talked to HN, So really the only thing to do was Dance. Yes thats right Dance, dance I say!!! and Dance we did. It is possible that I was alone at some point on the dance floor, but I'm really not sure.
this is my awesome hot sexy look!!
Steph got me home safe and sound. I don't remember pouring myself out of her most beautiful Pilot, but I must have. i woke up about 3AM fully dressed lying on the living room couch. Shivering. According to Mountain I came in. Sat on him. He looked in my eyes and said I was talking but there was really no one in there. Finding me as hot sexy as I obviously was. He got away from me as quick as he could! told me he was tired and going to bed. I layed down and was out before he even made it to the kitchen. So like a smart man he left me lying there. I eventually made it to bed. Slept there fully clothed for awhile, till I managed to get undressed. Where the heck were my jammies anyhow? I guess i had a good time. I didn't come home with any tattoos or extra people. Thanks Steph for making sure I got home safe.
Mountain and I sat in our jammies Sunday while he laughed at me and listened to what I could remember about conversation. Sex, Orgasms.....you know. Girl talk! Than we got ready for my Staff party................
Can't wait for the next evening out W0mens! but seriously. Next time I mean it. I am only going for Dinner! maybe.....LoL!!
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Friday, February 01, 2008
ShaZaM!
So as some of you know, Charlottes school has been pissing me off.
what else is new?
I've asked the teachers not to let the Charley use the timestables chart or calculator. But she still is. This of course results in the fact that she can't do math! She has only just begun to learn how to put a story togheter. You know...beginning body, summary. and I'm pretty sure she ain't got it. Sentence structure. Besides the fact of the day she was paged to the office and then just let to go with my sister without anyone checking. It appears that my initial in the planner is more important than anyhting else. So important in fact that Charlotte can forge it and i don't get red felted. They check for that and take the time out of the planner moment to circle in big REd Felt or pen that I haven't initialed. Yet....do not check to make sure Charlotte has what she needs to bring home. Nor are my many notes and questions answered.
Now this "historica" report! Jewels knows my frustrations on this already.
Project Book: Write a 3-5 page paper - approx. 200 wrds per pge. This must be typed. i don't remember ever signing C up for a typing class
Backboard:
References: Most students should have 3-4 different resources
Interview:
Students will be graded by their teacher and she will have her own criteria based on the above guidlines. The letter grade for Social Studies for this term is Soley based on this project. We are Doing George Ferguson. Thought it was going to be a great thing! Its not. But she wasn't allowed to switch after Christmas. Anyhow, I have been sending notes to school. Asking how Charlote is doing. Is she gonna make it okay? Is anyone helping her with her interview? No answers. So Yesterday, when Des McKay was in for lunch i picked his brain.
He is now taking this on and "gonna open some doors" So we'll see what happens. Mrs. W. is thrilled! she is passing on the News to the other mom's that have been annoyed by this project and the lack of communication or direction the kids seem to be getting.
its not totally the project that ticks us off. Its the seemingly LACK of teaching. they all seem to do it the same way. And its shitty. Our kids are in different classes and it all seems to be the same way. Lacking. So hopefully something positive comes of it.
Craig Carmicheal is the photographer we feature on the walls of the restaurant. He is local and used to work with the papers here in town. He's taken my pic a couple times for the Post. Anyhow, he was in yeaterday dealing with a pic when he told me about the new collection he has been approached to do. A 50's type pin-up collection. How fun is That? and he asked if i would like to do it!!! Hell Ya! but I would have to have dark hair for it. The contrast and my eyes pop more. i am soo flattered. I would love to. I've never been asked to model before. I told Mountain and he was NOT impressed. "i don't feel comfortable with that" hmmm, how ironic. Frig. Whatever. I told him he could be there. I might even make money from it! Could you imagine? A whole 50bux!!! hahaha.
Tomorrow night is Girlz Night! it'll be nice to get out. I'm looking forward to seeing you all. Charlotte has a b-day party in the afternoon so Mountain and I will have free time. YaY! Thats exciting too.
Then Sunday is a staff dinner at the restuarant. I like that. Being fed.
Frig. Just when I have money saved up to pick up a can of paint or brushes, girls night or staff dindin turns up. GRRRRR why does everything have to cost money?
what else is new?
I've asked the teachers not to let the Charley use the timestables chart or calculator. But she still is. This of course results in the fact that she can't do math! She has only just begun to learn how to put a story togheter. You know...beginning body, summary. and I'm pretty sure she ain't got it. Sentence structure. Besides the fact of the day she was paged to the office and then just let to go with my sister without anyone checking. It appears that my initial in the planner is more important than anyhting else. So important in fact that Charlotte can forge it and i don't get red felted. They check for that and take the time out of the planner moment to circle in big REd Felt or pen that I haven't initialed. Yet....do not check to make sure Charlotte has what she needs to bring home. Nor are my many notes and questions answered.
Now this "historica" report! Jewels knows my frustrations on this already.
Project Book: Write a 3-5 page paper - approx. 200 wrds per pge. This must be typed. i don't remember ever signing C up for a typing class
Backboard:
References: Most students should have 3-4 different resources
Interview:
Students will be graded by their teacher and she will have her own criteria based on the above guidlines. The letter grade for Social Studies for this term is Soley based on this project. We are Doing George Ferguson. Thought it was going to be a great thing! Its not. But she wasn't allowed to switch after Christmas. Anyhow, I have been sending notes to school. Asking how Charlote is doing. Is she gonna make it okay? Is anyone helping her with her interview? No answers. So Yesterday, when Des McKay was in for lunch i picked his brain.
He is now taking this on and "gonna open some doors" So we'll see what happens. Mrs. W. is thrilled! she is passing on the News to the other mom's that have been annoyed by this project and the lack of communication or direction the kids seem to be getting.
its not totally the project that ticks us off. Its the seemingly LACK of teaching. they all seem to do it the same way. And its shitty. Our kids are in different classes and it all seems to be the same way. Lacking. So hopefully something positive comes of it.
Craig Carmicheal is the photographer we feature on the walls of the restaurant. He is local and used to work with the papers here in town. He's taken my pic a couple times for the Post. Anyhow, he was in yeaterday dealing with a pic when he told me about the new collection he has been approached to do. A 50's type pin-up collection. How fun is That? and he asked if i would like to do it!!! Hell Ya! but I would have to have dark hair for it. The contrast and my eyes pop more. i am soo flattered. I would love to. I've never been asked to model before. I told Mountain and he was NOT impressed. "i don't feel comfortable with that" hmmm, how ironic. Frig. Whatever. I told him he could be there. I might even make money from it! Could you imagine? A whole 50bux!!! hahaha.
Tomorrow night is Girlz Night! it'll be nice to get out. I'm looking forward to seeing you all. Charlotte has a b-day party in the afternoon so Mountain and I will have free time. YaY! Thats exciting too.
Then Sunday is a staff dinner at the restuarant. I like that. Being fed.
Frig. Just when I have money saved up to pick up a can of paint or brushes, girls night or staff dindin turns up. GRRRRR why does everything have to cost money?
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Public Bathrooms
Seriously!
We need public bathrooms downtown.
Today I put the Big Kybosch on To Go coffee.
they come in to use the bathroom off the street. I say no, you have to be a customer. They than offer to buy a coffee to go. BAM! I have to say yes cause Boss Mitch is watching thru one of the many camera's. than they go in. Shit up a storm and leave!
Yesterday. I said no to a guy. Than he came back 15 minutes later with money for a coffee!
I spent the middle of my afternoon, wrist deep in super major Bleach water scrubbing the toilet, the floor, the sink, the door handle....cause this guy obvioulsy had diarrhea. It wreaked so badly that Sylvain had to go in and burn paper to get rid of the smell!
So if you are a public pooer, sorry. But stay the Fuck out of my restaurant!
We need public bathrooms downtown.
Today I put the Big Kybosch on To Go coffee.
they come in to use the bathroom off the street. I say no, you have to be a customer. They than offer to buy a coffee to go. BAM! I have to say yes cause Boss Mitch is watching thru one of the many camera's. than they go in. Shit up a storm and leave!
Yesterday. I said no to a guy. Than he came back 15 minutes later with money for a coffee!
I spent the middle of my afternoon, wrist deep in super major Bleach water scrubbing the toilet, the floor, the sink, the door handle....cause this guy obvioulsy had diarrhea. It wreaked so badly that Sylvain had to go in and burn paper to get rid of the smell!
So if you are a public pooer, sorry. But stay the Fuck out of my restaurant!
Monday, January 28, 2008
Saturdays Dinner
Hmmmm.
WEll, it went good.
I had set out some ground rules and covered my butt by inviting another mutual friend.... Robbi.
She was there as a buffer. As a referee if we needed one.
I had set out the rule that Mountain was not allowed to defend me or her should anything start. Just to be fair. He needed and needs her and I to find our own way. Our own relationship.
She was very charming. She was late. But that was okay. I slowed dinner down and we ate a bit later. It was amazing! I madeup this brocoli zuccini casserole that was so delish i wanted to hord the whole thing to myself! Lyle was concerned cause I didn't have a recipe, but he was pretty proud to show off my culinary skills a few hours later to his friends.
We talked about her baby.
the girl is 3 month or so pregnant. Boyz o boyz does she make that the center of attention. Whatever. Mountain sat next to me on the couch with his hand on my knee.
When it was time to go Leah and I had a moment togheter.
one in which she told me she was not after my boyfriend. Just offered up the information!
My response was I know. This is about Respect for my relationship with Lyle and my position in his life. I told her that I wanted to be given the chance to see her the way Lyle sees her and I think I got a glimpse of that tonight. I also told her I wasn't comfortable with the 3 of them spending time togeher.
she nodded and than tossed in, yah, but we're still going to hang out!.......its for Teaghan right?
Robbi walked up at that moment.
i didn't like that comment. I didn't like it one little bit!
I left it alone and stewed on it for the next couple hours while Lyle drove her and Robbi home. Robbi went for the ride all the way out to WhiteRock so that Lyle and Leah weren't alone. What a good girl! she told me she's going to start charging 25bux an hour for her services.
So when Lyle got back I told him about our conversation.
I told him I didn't like the smugness of her comment. And that I just don't like the possiblitly of the 3 of them doing things togheter. That it just wan't going to happen.
That was it. He got up, mad as Hell. We started arguing. And he left!
WTF!
I can't stand it when he does that! We Never get to finish an arguement! That totally pisses me off! AGHHHH!
So all day yesterday life sucked.
I spent many hours on the phone with Robbi. she has been on both sides of the fence, so she had much wisdom to offer. It was nice to be validated. she also opened my eyes to some stuff too. Than she chatted with Mountain.
So is he going to do things like clothes shopping just the 3 of them? Yes probably he is, once a year. Is it wierd? Yes it is. Is it sending an unhealthy message to the kid? Yup. But am I threatened about Mountain and Leah? Nope. not at all. Are my feelings going to be respected.....as long as i am respecting his, they will be. its not my business how these 2 people want to raise this little girl. As long as when she is my home she abides my rules.......
Blended families are not easy. There is no Black & White. There is a lot of grey. Grey is not easy for me. I am an all or nothing person.
So last night i heard from my man, how much he loves me. He loves me and wants to make this life with me. That he knows he is hurting me and doens't want to, but this is just how it is. As life goes on, things about ThaT relationship will change on its own. My fears that this woman is going to pull it all out from under him were heard. He is scared of that too. We will cross that bridge when we come to it.
In the big picture......
this is a man that wants to Love me and spend the rest of his life with me. He accepts me and all the nuttiness that comes along with me. He is falling in love with The Queen too. If my/our only issue is that the relationship between he and his ex is "wierd" we are going to try to figure out a way around it.
Fact is...we come from very different backgrounds. Its like a clash of worlds. and in a clash of worlds there is a lot of grey.
I trust him more than I ever thought possible. Her is not my problem. Tea is my problem when she is in my house. When he needs to vent to me, as his partner I will listen and push my personal feelings and judgements to myself. Keep my opinions to myself too till I can either put them here or call a girlfriend.
this is an area of his life and past I may Never understand. so we have to agree to disagree.
so from time to time you here in this space of mine will read my opinions of that situation. Thank-you for validating me.
blog on
WEll, it went good.
I had set out some ground rules and covered my butt by inviting another mutual friend.... Robbi.
She was there as a buffer. As a referee if we needed one.
I had set out the rule that Mountain was not allowed to defend me or her should anything start. Just to be fair. He needed and needs her and I to find our own way. Our own relationship.
She was very charming. She was late. But that was okay. I slowed dinner down and we ate a bit later. It was amazing! I madeup this brocoli zuccini casserole that was so delish i wanted to hord the whole thing to myself! Lyle was concerned cause I didn't have a recipe, but he was pretty proud to show off my culinary skills a few hours later to his friends.
We talked about her baby.
the girl is 3 month or so pregnant. Boyz o boyz does she make that the center of attention. Whatever. Mountain sat next to me on the couch with his hand on my knee.
When it was time to go Leah and I had a moment togheter.
one in which she told me she was not after my boyfriend. Just offered up the information!
My response was I know. This is about Respect for my relationship with Lyle and my position in his life. I told her that I wanted to be given the chance to see her the way Lyle sees her and I think I got a glimpse of that tonight. I also told her I wasn't comfortable with the 3 of them spending time togeher.
she nodded and than tossed in, yah, but we're still going to hang out!.......its for Teaghan right?
Robbi walked up at that moment.
i didn't like that comment. I didn't like it one little bit!
I left it alone and stewed on it for the next couple hours while Lyle drove her and Robbi home. Robbi went for the ride all the way out to WhiteRock so that Lyle and Leah weren't alone. What a good girl! she told me she's going to start charging 25bux an hour for her services.
So when Lyle got back I told him about our conversation.
I told him I didn't like the smugness of her comment. And that I just don't like the possiblitly of the 3 of them doing things togheter. That it just wan't going to happen.
That was it. He got up, mad as Hell. We started arguing. And he left!
WTF!
I can't stand it when he does that! We Never get to finish an arguement! That totally pisses me off! AGHHHH!
So all day yesterday life sucked.
I spent many hours on the phone with Robbi. she has been on both sides of the fence, so she had much wisdom to offer. It was nice to be validated. she also opened my eyes to some stuff too. Than she chatted with Mountain.
So is he going to do things like clothes shopping just the 3 of them? Yes probably he is, once a year. Is it wierd? Yes it is. Is it sending an unhealthy message to the kid? Yup. But am I threatened about Mountain and Leah? Nope. not at all. Are my feelings going to be respected.....as long as i am respecting his, they will be. its not my business how these 2 people want to raise this little girl. As long as when she is my home she abides my rules.......
Blended families are not easy. There is no Black & White. There is a lot of grey. Grey is not easy for me. I am an all or nothing person.
So last night i heard from my man, how much he loves me. He loves me and wants to make this life with me. That he knows he is hurting me and doens't want to, but this is just how it is. As life goes on, things about ThaT relationship will change on its own. My fears that this woman is going to pull it all out from under him were heard. He is scared of that too. We will cross that bridge when we come to it.
In the big picture......
this is a man that wants to Love me and spend the rest of his life with me. He accepts me and all the nuttiness that comes along with me. He is falling in love with The Queen too. If my/our only issue is that the relationship between he and his ex is "wierd" we are going to try to figure out a way around it.
Fact is...we come from very different backgrounds. Its like a clash of worlds. and in a clash of worlds there is a lot of grey.
I trust him more than I ever thought possible. Her is not my problem. Tea is my problem when she is in my house. When he needs to vent to me, as his partner I will listen and push my personal feelings and judgements to myself. Keep my opinions to myself too till I can either put them here or call a girlfriend.
this is an area of his life and past I may Never understand. so we have to agree to disagree.
so from time to time you here in this space of mine will read my opinions of that situation. Thank-you for validating me.
blog on
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Tackling an Issue
So I figure that since one of my issues is the relationship Mountain has with The Cow as one of my problems..........I am going to face it head on!
I've invited her and her daughter for dinner SAturday
than I will tackle my other issues ........ but first things first.
yes it is possible I have CoMPlETLy lost my MinD!!!
I think I'll cook a roast. That'll be nice.
blog on
I've invited her and her daughter for dinner SAturday
than I will tackle my other issues ........ but first things first.
yes it is possible I have CoMPlETLy lost my MinD!!!
I think I'll cook a roast. That'll be nice.
blog on
Monday, January 21, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Am I off my Rocker?
Mountain is on his way, right this moment to pick up Teaghan.
I was actaully looking forward to a visit with her.
He talked with the Cow and found out Tea has been throwing up all day. She hasn't for an hour or so now. so she must be better. Whatever!!
Anyhow.....
She isn;'t sure if the kid had food poisoning or the flu. She';s been throwing up.....but yet you let her leave for the night.
I told Mountain I didn't want her here. If she has the flu, we really can't afford to get it. If its food poisoning, I'm not into cleaning that up either.
So he left in a huff.
Frig!
I just can't believe she is letting her go. She is sick for Frig's sake.
Mountain is hurting cause of the being hit by a car thing. I suggested next weekend might be better for everyone. Even tomorrow for a visit. After a night of no puke just to be sure.
Would you let your sick kid go?
I was actaully looking forward to a visit with her.
He talked with the Cow and found out Tea has been throwing up all day. She hasn't for an hour or so now. so she must be better. Whatever!!
Anyhow.....
She isn;'t sure if the kid had food poisoning or the flu. She';s been throwing up.....but yet you let her leave for the night.
I told Mountain I didn't want her here. If she has the flu, we really can't afford to get it. If its food poisoning, I'm not into cleaning that up either.
So he left in a huff.
Frig!
I just can't believe she is letting her go. She is sick for Frig's sake.
Mountain is hurting cause of the being hit by a car thing. I suggested next weekend might be better for everyone. Even tomorrow for a visit. After a night of no puke just to be sure.
Would you let your sick kid go?
Thursday, January 17, 2008
DNR
I've been working a bit extra in the evenings over the last week.
boss Danielle's gramma had a heart attack and went into coma last week. So she has been at Royal Columbian waiting for her to wake up. I don't mind. I mean, I am tired, but it helps make up for the hours i lost in the beginning of the month. Lyle seems more than happy to help! Last SAturday he was with Charlotte virtually ALL day without me.
Last night I got the call that she will need me in tomorrow night, can i do it? They are going to try to wake up gramma. I hope its a positive outcome for gramma whatever might happen.
This woman has died a few times in the last week. With a DNR on her chart, her husband told them to go against that and rescitate. She is being kept alive by many, many machines.
Gramma and grampa are in their mid-70's. they have been togehter since they were 10 years old! Can you imagine?
I can either think thats icky, wierd, or wow. They are devote Christians.
Grampa went against her DNR wishes cause he couldn't bare the thought of not having fought for her. If there was or is a chance that she could live.........
i have been praying for the family.
Gramma is such a funny lady. I will miss her terribly if it doens't work out how they hope it will. But I mostly worry for the ones left behind.
After 65 years with the same lady. Its gonna be a hard road for grampa.........
what would you do?
what do you want? DNR?
boss Danielle's gramma had a heart attack and went into coma last week. So she has been at Royal Columbian waiting for her to wake up. I don't mind. I mean, I am tired, but it helps make up for the hours i lost in the beginning of the month. Lyle seems more than happy to help! Last SAturday he was with Charlotte virtually ALL day without me.
Last night I got the call that she will need me in tomorrow night, can i do it? They are going to try to wake up gramma. I hope its a positive outcome for gramma whatever might happen.
This woman has died a few times in the last week. With a DNR on her chart, her husband told them to go against that and rescitate. She is being kept alive by many, many machines.
Gramma and grampa are in their mid-70's. they have been togehter since they were 10 years old! Can you imagine?
I can either think thats icky, wierd, or wow. They are devote Christians.
Grampa went against her DNR wishes cause he couldn't bare the thought of not having fought for her. If there was or is a chance that she could live.........
i have been praying for the family.
Gramma is such a funny lady. I will miss her terribly if it doens't work out how they hope it will. But I mostly worry for the ones left behind.
After 65 years with the same lady. Its gonna be a hard road for grampa.........
what would you do?
what do you want? DNR?
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
FFF-ing 2 Faced Bitch!
I sent Kori a mail yesterday morning to apoligize for not coming on SAturday. As I know Mountain hasn't done any such thing yet. this was the correspondance.......
Kristi M. Lastnamesdon'tmatter
9:34am Jan 15th
so sorry we didn't make it on Saturday.
I've been picking up extra shifts at work. 8AM comes pretty early when you've worked and 11 hour split the day before.
I'm sure you much had fun!
Kori B
9:38am Jan 15th
sall good I just really wanted Lyle there.. for Jonahs birthday kinda means alot to me .. he was there the whole time when I was preggers .. and I love him for it!!!
~kori~..
not that I didn't want you there or charlie.. Lyle just is a real special friend and It would have ment alot to me if he were able to come.. but i guess he wasn't allowed..., ??? Kori B
9:40am Jan 15th
LOL i was just kiddin sweetie.. lol
and that was it.
I have not responded cause I just don't know what to say. i don't believe her to be kidding. Anyhting that I write is not going to have a nice undertone. Or I might just be Real direct. I havn't had the chance to bring it up with Mountain yet. Still not sure if I will or what to say to him either.
What do you make of it?
am I reading between to many of the, you are so dis-respecting my relationship Bitch, lines??
truth is, i told Mountain he could take Charlotte and go if he wanted.....he chose not to.
I am still trying to figure out why the sudden change of heart for him and now I have the fact that my first instinct was true. I wasn't invited. So that only makes my mind Whir and I am coming to believe the rest of my instincts are hitting the mark too!
He and I really need some alone time in this house to get this stuff all on the table and not worry about "who" is listening.
Kristi M. Lastnamesdon'tmatter
9:34am Jan 15th
so sorry we didn't make it on Saturday.
I've been picking up extra shifts at work. 8AM comes pretty early when you've worked and 11 hour split the day before.
I'm sure you much had fun!
Kori B
9:38am Jan 15th
sall good I just really wanted Lyle there.. for Jonahs birthday kinda means alot to me .. he was there the whole time when I was preggers .. and I love him for it!!!
~kori~..
not that I didn't want you there or charlie.. Lyle just is a real special friend and It would have ment alot to me if he were able to come.. but i guess he wasn't allowed..., ??? Kori B
9:40am Jan 15th
LOL i was just kiddin sweetie.. lol
and that was it.
I have not responded cause I just don't know what to say. i don't believe her to be kidding. Anyhting that I write is not going to have a nice undertone. Or I might just be Real direct. I havn't had the chance to bring it up with Mountain yet. Still not sure if I will or what to say to him either.
What do you make of it?
am I reading between to many of the, you are so dis-respecting my relationship Bitch, lines??
truth is, i told Mountain he could take Charlotte and go if he wanted.....he chose not to.
I am still trying to figure out why the sudden change of heart for him and now I have the fact that my first instinct was true. I wasn't invited. So that only makes my mind Whir and I am coming to believe the rest of my instincts are hitting the mark too!
He and I really need some alone time in this house to get this stuff all on the table and not worry about "who" is listening.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
Someone tell Me Why I am Mad Pleeez!
I'm going to try to keep this a clear as I can.
Just facts. It may jump around a bit. I am also hoping that by writing it all down I can understand my own feelings better.
Korri has a son that turned 10 on New Years day. She always has his party a couple weeks after. Last year, Mountain and I were invited with The Queen as the kids are the same age. I met Korri and her husband for the first time.
Now this is the woman that helped stir the pot back in October, between Leah and I. Which of course it turned out in the end Leah was the one with all the lies on her side. However, why stir the pot to begin with?
yes I invited her to my party a few weeks back. One she said she was coming to. Not only once but twice! I had noticed, on her facebook wall, of a planned outing to someone elses house for chow mein. For the same day as my party. I emailed her a few days before to find out if she was fersure c0ming. I had a funky feeling she wasn't, after all the fighting Mountain and I had done just prior to Christmas. I have told Mountain that the Cow and Korri are better friends than he knows. But he defends them both. So I mailed her and asked if she was coming. No response. Mountain phoned her. No response. She didn't show. If she had other plans, I don't actaully care. Just be honest and don't blow smoke up my ass!
She never did return my e-mail. but she did call Mountain days later to say she had been with flu all thru Christmas and her computer crashed. Yet her facebook remained active. Hmmmm.
So now she has called to invite Mountain to her boys hockey party for tomorrow. I don't really want to go. Its at 10:30 in the morning. In WhiteRock. At some rec centre. however........Korri has also invited the Cow and Tea. Yes Tea is 3 yrs younger than the birthday boy. Some stuff has popped up with work and I may have to be there. As I was asking Mountain if he would be available to watch Charlotte should i have to go in, he brought up the party. I had never said I wanted to or didn't want to go.
so I said, for us to go. That means getting up by about 8AM, on a SAturday morning, to be able to get ready and leave by 9:30, to get there on time. His Response....I'm going.
I keep my up-beatness about this and say....okay. It'll be fun for Charlotte! she loves to skate! and I dive into how great an ice skater Charlotte is cause i don't want to really talk about anyhting else cause I am not sure why this is all pissing me off so much. Besides the fact that I really don't want to let on to Mountain that I really, really don't want to get up that early on my Saturday and go.
So he is going to phone Korri today to let her know. He then reminds me once more that Leah is going to be there. and how I should not worry cause he doens't think she is going to 'come out swinging' at me or anyhting. My response...i would hope not. I don't have a problem with Leah, therfore, she shouldn't have a problem with me.
I than request that after the party he hangs with C for the afternoon so that I can get some much needed grocery shopping done. He agrees.
Now flipping to the otherside.....
why is it that she hasn't contacted me? Afterall, I am the one with the child and she has told me how much she likes me and how good I am for Mountain. Why is Leah invited with her young daughter, when according to Mountain, they barely talk and are not good friends at all. They are only friends cause of him. Would n't the normal course of action for her to invite Tea thru mountain if she wanted tea there? and Once again...what is the motive, after what happened the last time Leah and I were at a gathering together be to repeat it? and what is it with all the adults at all these kids parties? Its not even at their house for Pete's sake!
not that I would leave Charley in her care anyhow as its at an ice rink and not in a controlled 'safe' environment. Even Tea's b-day party was the same deal. One that I was NOT invited to
I have not continued my friendship with Steph's husband. And if I invite Jake over its thru Steph. even if its Joe's weekend. Same with Muck and her ex-husband. And we had years of friend history! Politeness is one thing. this is a beast I am not familiar with.
My theory being.....they are much closer and better friends than they let on to Mountain.
i think their motives are different, but they want the same outcome.
I think Korri suffers from stay at home mom syndrome and just craves the adrenilin rush of 'what might happen!' Like a chemist, she just wants to see what happens when she throws it all in the pot.
So far what I have predicted has come true.
Leah is pregnant with the guys kid she swore up and down she wan't involved with that I said she was and she called me the liar. Now this is the second pregnancy with this guys baby in 6 months. this one she is keeping. His other 2 kids have been taken away from him by social services.
Now if I don't go tomorrow i feel i am sending the wrong message. But going just puts Charlotte in the middle and leaves Mountain wide open to Leah. the one thing I can't stand! On top of all that....I don't think I was actually invited! Mountain choked over his words when I asked him and he responded yes.
so what is my problem?
in the interest of time and getting ready for work. I am sure I have missed something. but for now.....
anybody have a theory as to why I am so bent!
Just facts. It may jump around a bit. I am also hoping that by writing it all down I can understand my own feelings better.
Korri has a son that turned 10 on New Years day. She always has his party a couple weeks after. Last year, Mountain and I were invited with The Queen as the kids are the same age. I met Korri and her husband for the first time.
Now this is the woman that helped stir the pot back in October, between Leah and I. Which of course it turned out in the end Leah was the one with all the lies on her side. However, why stir the pot to begin with?
yes I invited her to my party a few weeks back. One she said she was coming to. Not only once but twice! I had noticed, on her facebook wall, of a planned outing to someone elses house for chow mein. For the same day as my party. I emailed her a few days before to find out if she was fersure c0ming. I had a funky feeling she wasn't, after all the fighting Mountain and I had done just prior to Christmas. I have told Mountain that the Cow and Korri are better friends than he knows. But he defends them both. So I mailed her and asked if she was coming. No response. Mountain phoned her. No response. She didn't show. If she had other plans, I don't actaully care. Just be honest and don't blow smoke up my ass!
She never did return my e-mail. but she did call Mountain days later to say she had been with flu all thru Christmas and her computer crashed. Yet her facebook remained active. Hmmmm.
So now she has called to invite Mountain to her boys hockey party for tomorrow. I don't really want to go. Its at 10:30 in the morning. In WhiteRock. At some rec centre. however........Korri has also invited the Cow and Tea. Yes Tea is 3 yrs younger than the birthday boy. Some stuff has popped up with work and I may have to be there. As I was asking Mountain if he would be available to watch Charlotte should i have to go in, he brought up the party. I had never said I wanted to or didn't want to go.
so I said, for us to go. That means getting up by about 8AM, on a SAturday morning, to be able to get ready and leave by 9:30, to get there on time. His Response....I'm going.
I keep my up-beatness about this and say....okay. It'll be fun for Charlotte! she loves to skate! and I dive into how great an ice skater Charlotte is cause i don't want to really talk about anyhting else cause I am not sure why this is all pissing me off so much. Besides the fact that I really don't want to let on to Mountain that I really, really don't want to get up that early on my Saturday and go.
So he is going to phone Korri today to let her know. He then reminds me once more that Leah is going to be there. and how I should not worry cause he doens't think she is going to 'come out swinging' at me or anyhting. My response...i would hope not. I don't have a problem with Leah, therfore, she shouldn't have a problem with me.
I than request that after the party he hangs with C for the afternoon so that I can get some much needed grocery shopping done. He agrees.
Now flipping to the otherside.....
why is it that she hasn't contacted me? Afterall, I am the one with the child and she has told me how much she likes me and how good I am for Mountain. Why is Leah invited with her young daughter, when according to Mountain, they barely talk and are not good friends at all. They are only friends cause of him. Would n't the normal course of action for her to invite Tea thru mountain if she wanted tea there? and Once again...what is the motive, after what happened the last time Leah and I were at a gathering together be to repeat it? and what is it with all the adults at all these kids parties? Its not even at their house for Pete's sake!
not that I would leave Charley in her care anyhow as its at an ice rink and not in a controlled 'safe' environment. Even Tea's b-day party was the same deal. One that I was NOT invited to
I have not continued my friendship with Steph's husband. And if I invite Jake over its thru Steph. even if its Joe's weekend. Same with Muck and her ex-husband. And we had years of friend history! Politeness is one thing. this is a beast I am not familiar with.
My theory being.....they are much closer and better friends than they let on to Mountain.
i think their motives are different, but they want the same outcome.
I think Korri suffers from stay at home mom syndrome and just craves the adrenilin rush of 'what might happen!' Like a chemist, she just wants to see what happens when she throws it all in the pot.
So far what I have predicted has come true.
Leah is pregnant with the guys kid she swore up and down she wan't involved with that I said she was and she called me the liar. Now this is the second pregnancy with this guys baby in 6 months. this one she is keeping. His other 2 kids have been taken away from him by social services.
Now if I don't go tomorrow i feel i am sending the wrong message. But going just puts Charlotte in the middle and leaves Mountain wide open to Leah. the one thing I can't stand! On top of all that....I don't think I was actually invited! Mountain choked over his words when I asked him and he responded yes.
so what is my problem?
in the interest of time and getting ready for work. I am sure I have missed something. but for now.....
anybody have a theory as to why I am so bent!
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
this weather is sure makin' me tired.
I heard rumour of a girls night coming up in 3 weeks
i bin' so sleepy lately, wonder if I'd be able to stay up past 10!
snow
no snow
snow
no snow
rain.....
what The hell!
a dump opf snow that stays for more than a day would suit me just fine. I just can't stand the weather indecision!
Maybe thats why i am tired. This back and forth behaviour of them there clouds is wearing me out!
I heard rumour of a girls night coming up in 3 weeks
i bin' so sleepy lately, wonder if I'd be able to stay up past 10!
snow
no snow
snow
no snow
rain.....
what The hell!
a dump opf snow that stays for more than a day would suit me just fine. I just can't stand the weather indecision!
Maybe thats why i am tired. This back and forth behaviour of them there clouds is wearing me out!
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Ball Park it For me
I am pondering - dreaming really, of a new bedroom.
14 x 14 maybe..............
an addition....
a fireplace would be nice. Not a gas one. One of those fancy electric heaters disguised by a fireplace front. Far off in the REM state, a bathroom. Ensuite. (but thats really dreaming) Definatly a heat source. Windows, closets, walls.......
how much do you think i could get me one of them for?
I am currently in a 10'8 x 9'10, I am telling you........IT'S TOOO fFFFKING SMALL!!!! Ugh!
Anyhow.....I pulled 14 x 14 out of the air. It sounds nice***
if I can manage it cheap......how much do you think it'll cost?
Yes. Mouldings and all.
14 x 14 maybe..............
an addition....
a fireplace would be nice. Not a gas one. One of those fancy electric heaters disguised by a fireplace front. Far off in the REM state, a bathroom. Ensuite. (but thats really dreaming) Definatly a heat source. Windows, closets, walls.......
how much do you think i could get me one of them for?
I am currently in a 10'8 x 9'10, I am telling you........IT'S TOOO fFFFKING SMALL!!!! Ugh!
Anyhow.....I pulled 14 x 14 out of the air. It sounds nice***
if I can manage it cheap......how much do you think it'll cost?
Yes. Mouldings and all.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
a New 2008
I've been reading my friends blog's at the changes and what 2007 was for them. It was a hard year for some. For others just another year.
My 2007 was a year of change and healing.
I bring 2008 in heading on yet another journey opening my mind and learning about the changes that took place in 2007.
- the pinks-
started me off and carried me through most of the year on a fluffy cloud. Coming off them was quite the trip. I don't think they were finally really out of my blood stream till the fall. Sometimes still not. The drug sits in your fat cells. Dormant - so to speak. So as i lose more wieght.....they will pop up and take me for yet another spin! Life on the edge. What a Thrill
-wieght gain-
2007 saw me heavier than I have ever been.
At the top of my wieght gain in the summer i was up by 15lbs and still gaining! May not be much for any of you....but for me. Yikes! After sitting around the same size and wieght since highschool this was a HUGE shock. I have now managed to drop a solid 5lbs and hope to work on a healthier lifestyle to get down a bit more.
I am also trying my damndest at self-talk to like this new body that I have. Cause there is a good chance I might not lose. Age and stuff.
The Pinks changed a lot of my metabolism. I'm 2 yrs from 40. Not as active a job. I am very comfortable with my relationship.
-MountainMan-
We saw 2007 in together with a bang!
We watched it go together with a kiss.
Our relationship has grown and grown. We have and are still learning so much about each other. he is one of the most wonderful people to have ever come into my life. I am soo happy with him. Minus the 1 and only issue we seem to have at this point. But through that issue we have both learned how each other works and deals with stuff. We have returned keys and then given them back. WE have and are still accepting on the fact that WE aren;t going anywhere. He is my partner. A true partner. No matter what happens, we will be by each others side. ItS a big conclusion to come to and just accept. So the yuck that we experience because of 'the issue' we will experience togehter. We will yell, discuss, scream and fight about it, but in the end we will be there together doing what we need to do. The 'issue' is big enough to tear us apart. and I don't know what will come of it. but hopefully we can reach our middle ground soon.
for every step back we or he takes 2 steps forward.
-Mortgage-
I bought my very first home in 2007!!
The beginning of what was planned out to be an exciting summer for Charlotte and i. I'd just bought a pool. We had planned a wonderful holiday. Money finally saved and put aside for it. The house that we had been renting for 5 years sold.
We were given an eviction notice Monday July 16th. After a day of feeling shitty....i got my chin up off the ground and dealt with it!
On Thursday August 16th 2007 i had taken possesion of my new home.
OUr week of holidays were spent moving. We were all the way in by August 27th
We moved a half acre of yard stuff and 2000 square feet of inside house stuff to our little 900 square foot pad. After a few garage sales and tears we are here!
Our first Mortgage. I bring in 2008 with paint chips laying in the bathroom, getting ready for my first little project to give this a wee bit of Kristi. Charlotte's Blue Chandelier laying in the living room paint chips all around it as well. I'm painting her ceiling Blue! Its mine. I will do what I want with it!!! HA!
-Charlotte-
i missed a lot last year. I tried. and I was there, but the Pinks kept me lost a lot.
I pushed my parenting aside in a sense, and that is so awful. She is 9 now. Hard to believe. she is a very wonderful little girl. but her schooling is suffering. I am doing my best to step in and step it up to help her. Mountain is doing his part as well. With use of something to motivate her (Guitar Hero) and the sitting with and extra homework type stuff at home.......i hope we can find a way to make school and learning, interesting for her.
Piano is excelling! Her new teacher this year is Male, Carlos. He is fantastic! She just sits here and plays. She has found a true love for music and has also discovered she is good at it! She sings beautifully and has such a natural talent with her fingers and rythm. I Love It!
-my hair-
I did something I've Never done before. I turned myself into a brunette! ~photos on fotoblog~
its a washout. so its going to look really bad by next week. But I thought.....why the hell not? My hairdresser said it would be fine to do and I could still donate! But only if I use the Non-Permanent stuff. so I did it. Very drastic. But why not.
-friends-
i have re-connected and deepened some major friendships this past year. Relationships are a lot of work. Sometimes Friends fight. it happens. Other times we annoy the Carp out of one another. Thats life. Yell at each other and work it thru. Friendships are sooo important. Honesty. Acceptance. Love. When a hand reaches out the reaching back.....even if all you can do is say I love you. Sometimes we can't help each other sometimes we can. Maybe its the one person that can truly 'see' you. As one friend might be able to talk you thru a certain problem another can't. We all enhance each other with our strenghts and weaknesses. People that you see or talk to only once a year but its like you've never parted. My ladies.
Every Single one of You!!! you are important to me. EAch of you carries with you a piece of me and I of you.
I am embracing 2008 with some neat changes.
i can harldy wait till spring when I can get out into my yard and make it look like me!
my Mountain and I are just growing and living. Our committment to one another so clear.
My little girl will age into double digits! her changes, hormones, maturity will grow by leaps and bounds in 2008. I want to be incredibly present for all of it!
All Change is good. there is always a silver lining. It may hurt or be devestating, but all can be learned from. Maybe simply just not doing that again!
Well its a good thing I am wrapping this up.
Kid is needing her Mommy! What perfect timing.
Blog On Dudes
My 2007 was a year of change and healing.
I bring 2008 in heading on yet another journey opening my mind and learning about the changes that took place in 2007.
- the pinks-
started me off and carried me through most of the year on a fluffy cloud. Coming off them was quite the trip. I don't think they were finally really out of my blood stream till the fall. Sometimes still not. The drug sits in your fat cells. Dormant - so to speak. So as i lose more wieght.....they will pop up and take me for yet another spin! Life on the edge. What a Thrill
-wieght gain-
2007 saw me heavier than I have ever been.
At the top of my wieght gain in the summer i was up by 15lbs and still gaining! May not be much for any of you....but for me. Yikes! After sitting around the same size and wieght since highschool this was a HUGE shock. I have now managed to drop a solid 5lbs and hope to work on a healthier lifestyle to get down a bit more.
I am also trying my damndest at self-talk to like this new body that I have. Cause there is a good chance I might not lose. Age and stuff.
The Pinks changed a lot of my metabolism. I'm 2 yrs from 40. Not as active a job. I am very comfortable with my relationship.
-MountainMan-
We saw 2007 in together with a bang!
We watched it go together with a kiss.
Our relationship has grown and grown. We have and are still learning so much about each other. he is one of the most wonderful people to have ever come into my life. I am soo happy with him. Minus the 1 and only issue we seem to have at this point. But through that issue we have both learned how each other works and deals with stuff. We have returned keys and then given them back. WE have and are still accepting on the fact that WE aren;t going anywhere. He is my partner. A true partner. No matter what happens, we will be by each others side. ItS a big conclusion to come to and just accept. So the yuck that we experience because of 'the issue' we will experience togehter. We will yell, discuss, scream and fight about it, but in the end we will be there together doing what we need to do. The 'issue' is big enough to tear us apart. and I don't know what will come of it. but hopefully we can reach our middle ground soon.
for every step back we or he takes 2 steps forward.
-Mortgage-
I bought my very first home in 2007!!
The beginning of what was planned out to be an exciting summer for Charlotte and i. I'd just bought a pool. We had planned a wonderful holiday. Money finally saved and put aside for it. The house that we had been renting for 5 years sold.
We were given an eviction notice Monday July 16th. After a day of feeling shitty....i got my chin up off the ground and dealt with it!
On Thursday August 16th 2007 i had taken possesion of my new home.
OUr week of holidays were spent moving. We were all the way in by August 27th
We moved a half acre of yard stuff and 2000 square feet of inside house stuff to our little 900 square foot pad. After a few garage sales and tears we are here!
Our first Mortgage. I bring in 2008 with paint chips laying in the bathroom, getting ready for my first little project to give this a wee bit of Kristi. Charlotte's Blue Chandelier laying in the living room paint chips all around it as well. I'm painting her ceiling Blue! Its mine. I will do what I want with it!!! HA!
-Charlotte-
i missed a lot last year. I tried. and I was there, but the Pinks kept me lost a lot.
I pushed my parenting aside in a sense, and that is so awful. She is 9 now. Hard to believe. she is a very wonderful little girl. but her schooling is suffering. I am doing my best to step in and step it up to help her. Mountain is doing his part as well. With use of something to motivate her (Guitar Hero) and the sitting with and extra homework type stuff at home.......i hope we can find a way to make school and learning, interesting for her.
Piano is excelling! Her new teacher this year is Male, Carlos. He is fantastic! She just sits here and plays. She has found a true love for music and has also discovered she is good at it! She sings beautifully and has such a natural talent with her fingers and rythm. I Love It!
-my hair-
I did something I've Never done before. I turned myself into a brunette! ~photos on fotoblog~
its a washout. so its going to look really bad by next week. But I thought.....why the hell not? My hairdresser said it would be fine to do and I could still donate! But only if I use the Non-Permanent stuff. so I did it. Very drastic. But why not.
-friends-
i have re-connected and deepened some major friendships this past year. Relationships are a lot of work. Sometimes Friends fight. it happens. Other times we annoy the Carp out of one another. Thats life. Yell at each other and work it thru. Friendships are sooo important. Honesty. Acceptance. Love. When a hand reaches out the reaching back.....even if all you can do is say I love you. Sometimes we can't help each other sometimes we can. Maybe its the one person that can truly 'see' you. As one friend might be able to talk you thru a certain problem another can't. We all enhance each other with our strenghts and weaknesses. People that you see or talk to only once a year but its like you've never parted. My ladies.
Every Single one of You!!! you are important to me. EAch of you carries with you a piece of me and I of you.
I am embracing 2008 with some neat changes.
i can harldy wait till spring when I can get out into my yard and make it look like me!
my Mountain and I are just growing and living. Our committment to one another so clear.
My little girl will age into double digits! her changes, hormones, maturity will grow by leaps and bounds in 2008. I want to be incredibly present for all of it!
All Change is good. there is always a silver lining. It may hurt or be devestating, but all can be learned from. Maybe simply just not doing that again!
Well its a good thing I am wrapping this up.
Kid is needing her Mommy! What perfect timing.
Blog On Dudes
Monday, December 31, 2007
Saturday, December 29, 2007
ReaFDy!??
ummm - duh I'm gettin' ready for tomorrow.
house is happenin'
Should I dig out my feeble umbrella for outside? Smokers yaknow. I don't totally want them all at my front door!
Food?
I have some. I am making a little. But I am not going overboard.
I know I have some appy's coming from some of my Peeps!
Charley's Room.......its gonna be full of kids I just know it! She deosn't. I keep trying to tell her...but she doesn't comprehend. And how could she? she is only 9!
I am annoyed that I got the call for a get - together for Ray (Madison's) and its for tomorrow night! Same time my party is! Carp!
What animal is Shitting in my yard?
Its gross!
So this is like a holiday for me! Wooo. I think the Queen and I need to go to Home Depot. Gotta pick out paint for the bathroom. It'll be brown. Some shade of it anyhow. And maybe some ceiling stuff for the Queens room.........to match the light i bought her a few months ago. A blue ceiling. Its MY house. I'll do what I want!
I think I will have ahouse full tomorrow night.
Who am I kidding. this place is little. 4 guests and its full!
I better go muck with my balls some more.
Blog on
house is happenin'
Should I dig out my feeble umbrella for outside? Smokers yaknow. I don't totally want them all at my front door!
Food?
I have some. I am making a little. But I am not going overboard.
I know I have some appy's coming from some of my Peeps!
Charley's Room.......its gonna be full of kids I just know it! She deosn't. I keep trying to tell her...but she doesn't comprehend. And how could she? she is only 9!
I am annoyed that I got the call for a get - together for Ray (Madison's) and its for tomorrow night! Same time my party is! Carp!
What animal is Shitting in my yard?
Its gross!
So this is like a holiday for me! Wooo. I think the Queen and I need to go to Home Depot. Gotta pick out paint for the bathroom. It'll be brown. Some shade of it anyhow. And maybe some ceiling stuff for the Queens room.........to match the light i bought her a few months ago. A blue ceiling. Its MY house. I'll do what I want!
I think I will have ahouse full tomorrow night.
Who am I kidding. this place is little. 4 guests and its full!
I better go muck with my balls some more.
Blog on
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Back 2 the Grind
well its back to work for me today. Just for a couple days. Than I am off from friday to friday.
Christmas was spectacular!
Yesterday was wonderful!
All the weight I just lost has found its way back to me.
Now I was trying to figure out what I need to get to be ready for my party on Sunday..............
we will be out numbered by children I think. At least at first we will be. I am expecting about a dozen. Not a dozen kids! A dozen adults.....some random kids in tow....this wee house will be full!
Christmas was spectacular!
Yesterday was wonderful!
All the weight I just lost has found its way back to me.
Now I was trying to figure out what I need to get to be ready for my party on Sunday..............
we will be out numbered by children I think. At least at first we will be. I am expecting about a dozen. Not a dozen kids! A dozen adults.....some random kids in tow....this wee house will be full!
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Friday, December 21, 2007
I don't Think you know
Mr. B has sold his business.
he only has a couple more weeks left as a resident.
its being majorly renovated as we speak.
he only has a couple more weeks left as a resident.
its being majorly renovated as we speak.
Friday, December 14, 2007
Party On Dudes!
My sparkly top is packed
My over the top sparkly earrings and necklace are too!
glasses, deodorant, Channel.....
washed my hair and did my nails last night.
I'll shave my legs there
its Mountains company Christmas party tonight!
i haven't eaten for 2 days just in preparation for the AMAZiNG buffet the Copper room in Harrison puts on. His company gets us a room at the hotel too!
This is like Super Date Night Extravaganza! We have both been looking forward to this All Year!
WooWooH!
Party On!
My over the top sparkly earrings and necklace are too!
glasses, deodorant, Channel.....
washed my hair and did my nails last night.
I'll shave my legs there
its Mountains company Christmas party tonight!
i haven't eaten for 2 days just in preparation for the AMAZiNG buffet the Copper room in Harrison puts on. His company gets us a room at the hotel too!
This is like Super Date Night Extravaganza! We have both been looking forward to this All Year!
WooWooH!
Party On!
Monday, December 10, 2007
i have a cool door
I Finally have a bedroom Door!!
Mountian worked so so very hard to get it hung and the knob in over the last couple days. he is so wonderful. it looks so wierd when you look down the hall now. being in my room is wierd too! the best part is how sound proof it seems to be. Holy Heck! I love it! I will have privacy. Mountain and I will have privacy! This is so cool.
Tomorrow I get my new glasses!!!
YaY!!
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Mountian worked so so very hard to get it hung and the knob in over the last couple days. he is so wonderful. it looks so wierd when you look down the hall now. being in my room is wierd too! the best part is how sound proof it seems to be. Holy Heck! I love it! I will have privacy. Mountain and I will have privacy! This is so cool.
Tomorrow I get my new glasses!!!
YaY!!
blog on dudes
Thursday, December 06, 2007
I Think I Ate my Potato too Fast!!
Who closes a restaurant for the first week of January?
My boss does.
*Please Santa. Gift cards and Cash*
I get my eyes checked on Saturday!
Finally. I can find out why my left eye produces Pearls. Man. If only I could stand the pain. I'd be a millionare!!! I will be geting a new prescription to get new glasses and new contacts. YaY for me! It will just be a Christmas credit card Miracle!!!
Mountain finally picked up my door that came last week. He got it home here and it was 4 inches too wide. Fffff! No, we didn't measure wrong. No, we didn't order the wrong one. No, neither did Home Depot. The door vendors sent the wrong size!!! So back it went last night. And here we are still with no door on the bedroom.
I picked out a great knob though. I am excited. It will have a key and everything!
Hey. did you know it costs 75bux just to get an eye exam?
The staff at my restaurant is excited for Dec. 30th. I hope the rest of you can come too. LADIES!
I work a split tomorrow. Gotta close. and for a few hours Saturday night. We have a Christmas party booked that i must tend too.
holy Carp. My schedule for Saturday is nuts...... 10:30am to the mall and pick up hemmed pants.....11am SAnta - 11:30 eye doctor - 3:10 piano recital - 5:30 work!
Sunday will be a nice relaxing day of putting the tree up
My house phone stopped working cause of all the rain from tuesday. It was down for 2 days. i called. I had a Guy coming scheduled for Sunday. Than all of a sudden, it started working all on its own self this morning!! YaY!!! I called after work and cancelled the Guy. All I could think was good thing I have a cell phone. Cause this could have been a very bad thing.
Mountain is hanging with Charlotte for Friday and Saturday night for me. Isn't he jsut the Bestest boyfriend I ever did have?!!
Okay. this potato is moving along now and I am so tired. I really shouldn't have covered it with so much sourcream and garlic. What was I thinking!
My mouth is all mungy. Time to brush my teeth and hit the pillow with my blonde head.
blog On dudes.
Hey! Let me know if you can come that Sunday!
My boss does.
*Please Santa. Gift cards and Cash*
I get my eyes checked on Saturday!
Finally. I can find out why my left eye produces Pearls. Man. If only I could stand the pain. I'd be a millionare!!! I will be geting a new prescription to get new glasses and new contacts. YaY for me! It will just be a Christmas credit card Miracle!!!
Mountain finally picked up my door that came last week. He got it home here and it was 4 inches too wide. Fffff! No, we didn't measure wrong. No, we didn't order the wrong one. No, neither did Home Depot. The door vendors sent the wrong size!!! So back it went last night. And here we are still with no door on the bedroom.
I picked out a great knob though. I am excited. It will have a key and everything!
Hey. did you know it costs 75bux just to get an eye exam?
The staff at my restaurant is excited for Dec. 30th. I hope the rest of you can come too. LADIES!
I work a split tomorrow. Gotta close. and for a few hours Saturday night. We have a Christmas party booked that i must tend too.
holy Carp. My schedule for Saturday is nuts...... 10:30am to the mall and pick up hemmed pants.....11am SAnta - 11:30 eye doctor - 3:10 piano recital - 5:30 work!
Sunday will be a nice relaxing day of putting the tree up
My house phone stopped working cause of all the rain from tuesday. It was down for 2 days. i called. I had a Guy coming scheduled for Sunday. Than all of a sudden, it started working all on its own self this morning!! YaY!!! I called after work and cancelled the Guy. All I could think was good thing I have a cell phone. Cause this could have been a very bad thing.
Mountain is hanging with Charlotte for Friday and Saturday night for me. Isn't he jsut the Bestest boyfriend I ever did have?!!
Okay. this potato is moving along now and I am so tired. I really shouldn't have covered it with so much sourcream and garlic. What was I thinking!
My mouth is all mungy. Time to brush my teeth and hit the pillow with my blonde head.
blog On dudes.
Hey! Let me know if you can come that Sunday!
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
YES I AM!!!
Absolutly!!!!
Of Course!!!!
and Why The Hell Not?!!
I will Have a Party Open House on Sunday December 30th!
Lets Do it!
4Pm onward seems like a good time.
Bring your drink of choice and a bag of chips.
If you need to spend the night......no worries. My house is small, but doesn't that just make it more interesting?!
Kidz? Oh yes bring the kids. they are welcome. After-all. Mine will be here.
Of Course!!!!
and Why The Hell Not?!!
I will Have a Party Open House on Sunday December 30th!
Lets Do it!
4Pm onward seems like a good time.
Bring your drink of choice and a bag of chips.
If you need to spend the night......no worries. My house is small, but doesn't that just make it more interesting?!
Kidz? Oh yes bring the kids. they are welcome. After-all. Mine will be here.
Monday, December 03, 2007
i hate missing work.
At least this time she actaully has a fever and is really sick. I got a few hours in.
Frig. The end of the month is really starting to freak me out!
I hope he decides to open for at least lunch on a few of them. Missing a week of work is gonna be a serious January problem.
Just cash and Gift cards for Christmas please Santa.
At least this time she actaully has a fever and is really sick. I got a few hours in.
Frig. The end of the month is really starting to freak me out!
I hope he decides to open for at least lunch on a few of them. Missing a week of work is gonna be a serious January problem.
Just cash and Gift cards for Christmas please Santa.