So I woke at 2:45AM with much lower back pain - the pull from last week flaring up again - i went to the living room to do some floor stretching and then make my bed on the couch. As I was laying there, so many thoughts flooded my head.
First were the thoughts about my body and What the Hell! Like seriously. I am so old! When did this happen that I am too weak to pick up a box without hurting myself? My numb shoulder arm thing - when will that figure its way out? The steady weight gain has returned, that I am sure has much to do with the wine I have consumed. I have not been to the gym in weeks. Ugh, I feel so gross. Not being able to go in the evenings these days as that is my only time to get Christmas chores done. Besides the darkness that makes everything so much harder to do. I was lying there missing the gym. Yup, missing it. Tyring to figure out my time so that I can get there. Wondering if my new injury of the back will allow me some treadmill time. I do need the tanning - it seems to help with my depression. Its nice that I still have a gym itch. I haven't lost it! YaY!!!
then my thoughts turned to my girlfriend.
She is going thru a divorce. She has 4 kids. She is lonely. But she is an insecure, naive, desperate lonely.
She joined Match .com about 6mnths ago. First, she got involved with a east indian man. She had him in her bed by the 3rd date. He was unavailable a lot. I advised her that he is brown. Probably married and when he isn't texting her, he is with another woman. A few weeks went by and she found out I was right. A few months later, she hooked up with another East Indian male, fucked him in his car on the 2nd date. He came and took her out a half dozen times or so. Never taking her to dinner or movie or anything. He would come later in the evening - after 8 - always in a different car and they would fuck in it. He is married I told her. Weeks later i got a text from her saying she felt to used. All he did was use her.
Yah - no shit!
now this lady is 46. Innocent and blonde and doesn't understand that in the new millennium, using a condom is the only form of birth control that is cool.
No sooner did she feel used that she started chatting with a couple other new en from match.com. I first heard of them Nov. 22 - one of them being a Special Agent with Homeland Security. Now this I believe to be true, as she has skyped with him and I've googled him and it all lines up. However, they started communicating not more than 3 weeks ago and she is flying down to Vegas to be with him on Monday! Now not only is she flying down there to meet him - she calls it a date - he is paying for the whole trip! He has arranged everything. Flight, hotel, itinerary ............. and she can't figure out why everyone is making such a big deal about it. She is believing this is going to be a boyfriend.
He is also a blonde collector - I am sick to my stomach about the heartbreak she is going to experience.
Maybe that is why my lower back still aches
First were the thoughts about my body and What the Hell! Like seriously. I am so old! When did this happen that I am too weak to pick up a box without hurting myself? My numb shoulder arm thing - when will that figure its way out? The steady weight gain has returned, that I am sure has much to do with the wine I have consumed. I have not been to the gym in weeks. Ugh, I feel so gross. Not being able to go in the evenings these days as that is my only time to get Christmas chores done. Besides the darkness that makes everything so much harder to do. I was lying there missing the gym. Yup, missing it. Tyring to figure out my time so that I can get there. Wondering if my new injury of the back will allow me some treadmill time. I do need the tanning - it seems to help with my depression. Its nice that I still have a gym itch. I haven't lost it! YaY!!!
then my thoughts turned to my girlfriend.
She is going thru a divorce. She has 4 kids. She is lonely. But she is an insecure, naive, desperate lonely.
She joined Match .com about 6mnths ago. First, she got involved with a east indian man. She had him in her bed by the 3rd date. He was unavailable a lot. I advised her that he is brown. Probably married and when he isn't texting her, he is with another woman. A few weeks went by and she found out I was right. A few months later, she hooked up with another East Indian male, fucked him in his car on the 2nd date. He came and took her out a half dozen times or so. Never taking her to dinner or movie or anything. He would come later in the evening - after 8 - always in a different car and they would fuck in it. He is married I told her. Weeks later i got a text from her saying she felt to used. All he did was use her.
Yah - no shit!
now this lady is 46. Innocent and blonde and doesn't understand that in the new millennium, using a condom is the only form of birth control that is cool.
No sooner did she feel used that she started chatting with a couple other new en from match.com. I first heard of them Nov. 22 - one of them being a Special Agent with Homeland Security. Now this I believe to be true, as she has skyped with him and I've googled him and it all lines up. However, they started communicating not more than 3 weeks ago and she is flying down to Vegas to be with him on Monday! Now not only is she flying down there to meet him - she calls it a date - he is paying for the whole trip! He has arranged everything. Flight, hotel, itinerary ............. and she can't figure out why everyone is making such a big deal about it. She is believing this is going to be a boyfriend.
He is also a blonde collector - I am sick to my stomach about the heartbreak she is going to experience.
Maybe that is why my lower back still aches
