Seriously!
We need public bathrooms downtown.
Today I put the Big Kybosch on To Go coffee.
they come in to use the bathroom off the street. I say no, you have to be a customer. They than offer to buy a coffee to go. BAM! I have to say yes cause Boss Mitch is watching thru one of the many camera's. than they go in. Shit up a storm and leave!
Yesterday. I said no to a guy. Than he came back 15 minutes later with money for a coffee!
I spent the middle of my afternoon, wrist deep in super major Bleach water scrubbing the toilet, the floor, the sink, the door handle....cause this guy obvioulsy had diarrhea. It wreaked so badly that Sylvain had to go in and burn paper to get rid of the smell!
So if you are a public pooer, sorry. But stay the Fuck out of my restaurant!
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
Saturdays Dinner
Hmmmm.
WEll, it went good.
I had set out some ground rules and covered my butt by inviting another mutual friend.... Robbi.
She was there as a buffer. As a referee if we needed one.
I had set out the rule that Mountain was not allowed to defend me or her should anything start. Just to be fair. He needed and needs her and I to find our own way. Our own relationship.
She was very charming. She was late. But that was okay. I slowed dinner down and we ate a bit later. It was amazing! I madeup this brocoli zuccini casserole that was so delish i wanted to hord the whole thing to myself! Lyle was concerned cause I didn't have a recipe, but he was pretty proud to show off my culinary skills a few hours later to his friends.
We talked about her baby.
the girl is 3 month or so pregnant. Boyz o boyz does she make that the center of attention. Whatever. Mountain sat next to me on the couch with his hand on my knee.
When it was time to go Leah and I had a moment togheter.
one in which she told me she was not after my boyfriend. Just offered up the information!
My response was I know. This is about Respect for my relationship with Lyle and my position in his life. I told her that I wanted to be given the chance to see her the way Lyle sees her and I think I got a glimpse of that tonight. I also told her I wasn't comfortable with the 3 of them spending time togeher.
she nodded and than tossed in, yah, but we're still going to hang out!.......its for Teaghan right?
Robbi walked up at that moment.
i didn't like that comment. I didn't like it one little bit!
I left it alone and stewed on it for the next couple hours while Lyle drove her and Robbi home. Robbi went for the ride all the way out to WhiteRock so that Lyle and Leah weren't alone. What a good girl! she told me she's going to start charging 25bux an hour for her services.
So when Lyle got back I told him about our conversation.
I told him I didn't like the smugness of her comment. And that I just don't like the possiblitly of the 3 of them doing things togheter. That it just wan't going to happen.
That was it. He got up, mad as Hell. We started arguing. And he left!
WTF!
I can't stand it when he does that! We Never get to finish an arguement! That totally pisses me off! AGHHHH!
So all day yesterday life sucked.
I spent many hours on the phone with Robbi. she has been on both sides of the fence, so she had much wisdom to offer. It was nice to be validated. she also opened my eyes to some stuff too. Than she chatted with Mountain.
So is he going to do things like clothes shopping just the 3 of them? Yes probably he is, once a year. Is it wierd? Yes it is. Is it sending an unhealthy message to the kid? Yup. But am I threatened about Mountain and Leah? Nope. not at all. Are my feelings going to be respected.....as long as i am respecting his, they will be. its not my business how these 2 people want to raise this little girl. As long as when she is my home she abides my rules.......
Blended families are not easy. There is no Black & White. There is a lot of grey. Grey is not easy for me. I am an all or nothing person.
So last night i heard from my man, how much he loves me. He loves me and wants to make this life with me. That he knows he is hurting me and doens't want to, but this is just how it is. As life goes on, things about ThaT relationship will change on its own. My fears that this woman is going to pull it all out from under him were heard. He is scared of that too. We will cross that bridge when we come to it.
In the big picture......
this is a man that wants to Love me and spend the rest of his life with me. He accepts me and all the nuttiness that comes along with me. He is falling in love with The Queen too. If my/our only issue is that the relationship between he and his ex is "wierd" we are going to try to figure out a way around it.
Fact is...we come from very different backgrounds. Its like a clash of worlds. and in a clash of worlds there is a lot of grey.
I trust him more than I ever thought possible. Her is not my problem. Tea is my problem when she is in my house. When he needs to vent to me, as his partner I will listen and push my personal feelings and judgements to myself. Keep my opinions to myself too till I can either put them here or call a girlfriend.
this is an area of his life and past I may Never understand. so we have to agree to disagree.
so from time to time you here in this space of mine will read my opinions of that situation. Thank-you for validating me.
blog on
WEll, it went good.
I had set out some ground rules and covered my butt by inviting another mutual friend.... Robbi.
She was there as a buffer. As a referee if we needed one.
I had set out the rule that Mountain was not allowed to defend me or her should anything start. Just to be fair. He needed and needs her and I to find our own way. Our own relationship.
She was very charming. She was late. But that was okay. I slowed dinner down and we ate a bit later. It was amazing! I madeup this brocoli zuccini casserole that was so delish i wanted to hord the whole thing to myself! Lyle was concerned cause I didn't have a recipe, but he was pretty proud to show off my culinary skills a few hours later to his friends.
We talked about her baby.
the girl is 3 month or so pregnant. Boyz o boyz does she make that the center of attention. Whatever. Mountain sat next to me on the couch with his hand on my knee.
When it was time to go Leah and I had a moment togheter.
one in which she told me she was not after my boyfriend. Just offered up the information!
My response was I know. This is about Respect for my relationship with Lyle and my position in his life. I told her that I wanted to be given the chance to see her the way Lyle sees her and I think I got a glimpse of that tonight. I also told her I wasn't comfortable with the 3 of them spending time togeher.
she nodded and than tossed in, yah, but we're still going to hang out!.......its for Teaghan right?
Robbi walked up at that moment.
i didn't like that comment. I didn't like it one little bit!
I left it alone and stewed on it for the next couple hours while Lyle drove her and Robbi home. Robbi went for the ride all the way out to WhiteRock so that Lyle and Leah weren't alone. What a good girl! she told me she's going to start charging 25bux an hour for her services.
So when Lyle got back I told him about our conversation.
I told him I didn't like the smugness of her comment. And that I just don't like the possiblitly of the 3 of them doing things togheter. That it just wan't going to happen.
That was it. He got up, mad as Hell. We started arguing. And he left!
WTF!
I can't stand it when he does that! We Never get to finish an arguement! That totally pisses me off! AGHHHH!
So all day yesterday life sucked.
I spent many hours on the phone with Robbi. she has been on both sides of the fence, so she had much wisdom to offer. It was nice to be validated. she also opened my eyes to some stuff too. Than she chatted with Mountain.
So is he going to do things like clothes shopping just the 3 of them? Yes probably he is, once a year. Is it wierd? Yes it is. Is it sending an unhealthy message to the kid? Yup. But am I threatened about Mountain and Leah? Nope. not at all. Are my feelings going to be respected.....as long as i am respecting his, they will be. its not my business how these 2 people want to raise this little girl. As long as when she is my home she abides my rules.......
Blended families are not easy. There is no Black & White. There is a lot of grey. Grey is not easy for me. I am an all or nothing person.
So last night i heard from my man, how much he loves me. He loves me and wants to make this life with me. That he knows he is hurting me and doens't want to, but this is just how it is. As life goes on, things about ThaT relationship will change on its own. My fears that this woman is going to pull it all out from under him were heard. He is scared of that too. We will cross that bridge when we come to it.
In the big picture......
this is a man that wants to Love me and spend the rest of his life with me. He accepts me and all the nuttiness that comes along with me. He is falling in love with The Queen too. If my/our only issue is that the relationship between he and his ex is "wierd" we are going to try to figure out a way around it.
Fact is...we come from very different backgrounds. Its like a clash of worlds. and in a clash of worlds there is a lot of grey.
I trust him more than I ever thought possible. Her is not my problem. Tea is my problem when she is in my house. When he needs to vent to me, as his partner I will listen and push my personal feelings and judgements to myself. Keep my opinions to myself too till I can either put them here or call a girlfriend.
this is an area of his life and past I may Never understand. so we have to agree to disagree.
so from time to time you here in this space of mine will read my opinions of that situation. Thank-you for validating me.
blog on
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Tackling an Issue
So I figure that since one of my issues is the relationship Mountain has with The Cow as one of my problems..........I am going to face it head on!
I've invited her and her daughter for dinner SAturday
than I will tackle my other issues ........ but first things first.
yes it is possible I have CoMPlETLy lost my MinD!!!
I think I'll cook a roast. That'll be nice.
blog on
I've invited her and her daughter for dinner SAturday
than I will tackle my other issues ........ but first things first.
yes it is possible I have CoMPlETLy lost my MinD!!!
I think I'll cook a roast. That'll be nice.
blog on
Monday, January 21, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Am I off my Rocker?
Mountain is on his way, right this moment to pick up Teaghan.
I was actaully looking forward to a visit with her.
He talked with the Cow and found out Tea has been throwing up all day. She hasn't for an hour or so now. so she must be better. Whatever!!
Anyhow.....
She isn;'t sure if the kid had food poisoning or the flu. She';s been throwing up.....but yet you let her leave for the night.
I told Mountain I didn't want her here. If she has the flu, we really can't afford to get it. If its food poisoning, I'm not into cleaning that up either.
So he left in a huff.
Frig!
I just can't believe she is letting her go. She is sick for Frig's sake.
Mountain is hurting cause of the being hit by a car thing. I suggested next weekend might be better for everyone. Even tomorrow for a visit. After a night of no puke just to be sure.
Would you let your sick kid go?
I was actaully looking forward to a visit with her.
He talked with the Cow and found out Tea has been throwing up all day. She hasn't for an hour or so now. so she must be better. Whatever!!
Anyhow.....
She isn;'t sure if the kid had food poisoning or the flu. She';s been throwing up.....but yet you let her leave for the night.
I told Mountain I didn't want her here. If she has the flu, we really can't afford to get it. If its food poisoning, I'm not into cleaning that up either.
So he left in a huff.
Frig!
I just can't believe she is letting her go. She is sick for Frig's sake.
Mountain is hurting cause of the being hit by a car thing. I suggested next weekend might be better for everyone. Even tomorrow for a visit. After a night of no puke just to be sure.
Would you let your sick kid go?
Thursday, January 17, 2008
DNR
I've been working a bit extra in the evenings over the last week.
boss Danielle's gramma had a heart attack and went into coma last week. So she has been at Royal Columbian waiting for her to wake up. I don't mind. I mean, I am tired, but it helps make up for the hours i lost in the beginning of the month. Lyle seems more than happy to help! Last SAturday he was with Charlotte virtually ALL day without me.
Last night I got the call that she will need me in tomorrow night, can i do it? They are going to try to wake up gramma. I hope its a positive outcome for gramma whatever might happen.
This woman has died a few times in the last week. With a DNR on her chart, her husband told them to go against that and rescitate. She is being kept alive by many, many machines.
Gramma and grampa are in their mid-70's. they have been togehter since they were 10 years old! Can you imagine?
I can either think thats icky, wierd, or wow. They are devote Christians.
Grampa went against her DNR wishes cause he couldn't bare the thought of not having fought for her. If there was or is a chance that she could live.........
i have been praying for the family.
Gramma is such a funny lady. I will miss her terribly if it doens't work out how they hope it will. But I mostly worry for the ones left behind.
After 65 years with the same lady. Its gonna be a hard road for grampa.........
what would you do?
what do you want? DNR?
boss Danielle's gramma had a heart attack and went into coma last week. So she has been at Royal Columbian waiting for her to wake up. I don't mind. I mean, I am tired, but it helps make up for the hours i lost in the beginning of the month. Lyle seems more than happy to help! Last SAturday he was with Charlotte virtually ALL day without me.
Last night I got the call that she will need me in tomorrow night, can i do it? They are going to try to wake up gramma. I hope its a positive outcome for gramma whatever might happen.
This woman has died a few times in the last week. With a DNR on her chart, her husband told them to go against that and rescitate. She is being kept alive by many, many machines.
Gramma and grampa are in their mid-70's. they have been togehter since they were 10 years old! Can you imagine?
I can either think thats icky, wierd, or wow. They are devote Christians.
Grampa went against her DNR wishes cause he couldn't bare the thought of not having fought for her. If there was or is a chance that she could live.........
i have been praying for the family.
Gramma is such a funny lady. I will miss her terribly if it doens't work out how they hope it will. But I mostly worry for the ones left behind.
After 65 years with the same lady. Its gonna be a hard road for grampa.........
what would you do?
what do you want? DNR?
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
FFF-ing 2 Faced Bitch!
I sent Kori a mail yesterday morning to apoligize for not coming on SAturday. As I know Mountain hasn't done any such thing yet. this was the correspondance.......
Kristi M. Lastnamesdon'tmatter
9:34am Jan 15th
so sorry we didn't make it on Saturday.
I've been picking up extra shifts at work. 8AM comes pretty early when you've worked and 11 hour split the day before.
I'm sure you much had fun!
Kori B
9:38am Jan 15th
sall good I just really wanted Lyle there.. for Jonahs birthday kinda means alot to me .. he was there the whole time when I was preggers .. and I love him for it!!!
~kori~..
not that I didn't want you there or charlie.. Lyle just is a real special friend and It would have ment alot to me if he were able to come.. but i guess he wasn't allowed..., ??? Kori B
9:40am Jan 15th
LOL i was just kiddin sweetie.. lol
and that was it.
I have not responded cause I just don't know what to say. i don't believe her to be kidding. Anyhting that I write is not going to have a nice undertone. Or I might just be Real direct. I havn't had the chance to bring it up with Mountain yet. Still not sure if I will or what to say to him either.
What do you make of it?
am I reading between to many of the, you are so dis-respecting my relationship Bitch, lines??
truth is, i told Mountain he could take Charlotte and go if he wanted.....he chose not to.
I am still trying to figure out why the sudden change of heart for him and now I have the fact that my first instinct was true. I wasn't invited. So that only makes my mind Whir and I am coming to believe the rest of my instincts are hitting the mark too!
He and I really need some alone time in this house to get this stuff all on the table and not worry about "who" is listening.
Kristi M. Lastnamesdon'tmatter
9:34am Jan 15th
so sorry we didn't make it on Saturday.
I've been picking up extra shifts at work. 8AM comes pretty early when you've worked and 11 hour split the day before.
I'm sure you much had fun!
Kori B
9:38am Jan 15th
sall good I just really wanted Lyle there.. for Jonahs birthday kinda means alot to me .. he was there the whole time when I was preggers .. and I love him for it!!!
~kori~..
not that I didn't want you there or charlie.. Lyle just is a real special friend and It would have ment alot to me if he were able to come.. but i guess he wasn't allowed..., ??? Kori B
9:40am Jan 15th
LOL i was just kiddin sweetie.. lol
and that was it.
I have not responded cause I just don't know what to say. i don't believe her to be kidding. Anyhting that I write is not going to have a nice undertone. Or I might just be Real direct. I havn't had the chance to bring it up with Mountain yet. Still not sure if I will or what to say to him either.
What do you make of it?
am I reading between to many of the, you are so dis-respecting my relationship Bitch, lines??
truth is, i told Mountain he could take Charlotte and go if he wanted.....he chose not to.
I am still trying to figure out why the sudden change of heart for him and now I have the fact that my first instinct was true. I wasn't invited. So that only makes my mind Whir and I am coming to believe the rest of my instincts are hitting the mark too!
He and I really need some alone time in this house to get this stuff all on the table and not worry about "who" is listening.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
Someone tell Me Why I am Mad Pleeez!
I'm going to try to keep this a clear as I can.
Just facts. It may jump around a bit. I am also hoping that by writing it all down I can understand my own feelings better.
Korri has a son that turned 10 on New Years day. She always has his party a couple weeks after. Last year, Mountain and I were invited with The Queen as the kids are the same age. I met Korri and her husband for the first time.
Now this is the woman that helped stir the pot back in October, between Leah and I. Which of course it turned out in the end Leah was the one with all the lies on her side. However, why stir the pot to begin with?
yes I invited her to my party a few weeks back. One she said she was coming to. Not only once but twice! I had noticed, on her facebook wall, of a planned outing to someone elses house for chow mein. For the same day as my party. I emailed her a few days before to find out if she was fersure c0ming. I had a funky feeling she wasn't, after all the fighting Mountain and I had done just prior to Christmas. I have told Mountain that the Cow and Korri are better friends than he knows. But he defends them both. So I mailed her and asked if she was coming. No response. Mountain phoned her. No response. She didn't show. If she had other plans, I don't actaully care. Just be honest and don't blow smoke up my ass!
She never did return my e-mail. but she did call Mountain days later to say she had been with flu all thru Christmas and her computer crashed. Yet her facebook remained active. Hmmmm.
So now she has called to invite Mountain to her boys hockey party for tomorrow. I don't really want to go. Its at 10:30 in the morning. In WhiteRock. At some rec centre. however........Korri has also invited the Cow and Tea. Yes Tea is 3 yrs younger than the birthday boy. Some stuff has popped up with work and I may have to be there. As I was asking Mountain if he would be available to watch Charlotte should i have to go in, he brought up the party. I had never said I wanted to or didn't want to go.
so I said, for us to go. That means getting up by about 8AM, on a SAturday morning, to be able to get ready and leave by 9:30, to get there on time. His Response....I'm going.
I keep my up-beatness about this and say....okay. It'll be fun for Charlotte! she loves to skate! and I dive into how great an ice skater Charlotte is cause i don't want to really talk about anyhting else cause I am not sure why this is all pissing me off so much. Besides the fact that I really don't want to let on to Mountain that I really, really don't want to get up that early on my Saturday and go.
So he is going to phone Korri today to let her know. He then reminds me once more that Leah is going to be there. and how I should not worry cause he doens't think she is going to 'come out swinging' at me or anyhting. My response...i would hope not. I don't have a problem with Leah, therfore, she shouldn't have a problem with me.
I than request that after the party he hangs with C for the afternoon so that I can get some much needed grocery shopping done. He agrees.
Now flipping to the otherside.....
why is it that she hasn't contacted me? Afterall, I am the one with the child and she has told me how much she likes me and how good I am for Mountain. Why is Leah invited with her young daughter, when according to Mountain, they barely talk and are not good friends at all. They are only friends cause of him. Would n't the normal course of action for her to invite Tea thru mountain if she wanted tea there? and Once again...what is the motive, after what happened the last time Leah and I were at a gathering together be to repeat it? and what is it with all the adults at all these kids parties? Its not even at their house for Pete's sake!
not that I would leave Charley in her care anyhow as its at an ice rink and not in a controlled 'safe' environment. Even Tea's b-day party was the same deal. One that I was NOT invited to
I have not continued my friendship with Steph's husband. And if I invite Jake over its thru Steph. even if its Joe's weekend. Same with Muck and her ex-husband. And we had years of friend history! Politeness is one thing. this is a beast I am not familiar with.
My theory being.....they are much closer and better friends than they let on to Mountain.
i think their motives are different, but they want the same outcome.
I think Korri suffers from stay at home mom syndrome and just craves the adrenilin rush of 'what might happen!' Like a chemist, she just wants to see what happens when she throws it all in the pot.
So far what I have predicted has come true.
Leah is pregnant with the guys kid she swore up and down she wan't involved with that I said she was and she called me the liar. Now this is the second pregnancy with this guys baby in 6 months. this one she is keeping. His other 2 kids have been taken away from him by social services.
Now if I don't go tomorrow i feel i am sending the wrong message. But going just puts Charlotte in the middle and leaves Mountain wide open to Leah. the one thing I can't stand! On top of all that....I don't think I was actually invited! Mountain choked over his words when I asked him and he responded yes.
so what is my problem?
in the interest of time and getting ready for work. I am sure I have missed something. but for now.....
anybody have a theory as to why I am so bent!
Just facts. It may jump around a bit. I am also hoping that by writing it all down I can understand my own feelings better.
Korri has a son that turned 10 on New Years day. She always has his party a couple weeks after. Last year, Mountain and I were invited with The Queen as the kids are the same age. I met Korri and her husband for the first time.
Now this is the woman that helped stir the pot back in October, between Leah and I. Which of course it turned out in the end Leah was the one with all the lies on her side. However, why stir the pot to begin with?
yes I invited her to my party a few weeks back. One she said she was coming to. Not only once but twice! I had noticed, on her facebook wall, of a planned outing to someone elses house for chow mein. For the same day as my party. I emailed her a few days before to find out if she was fersure c0ming. I had a funky feeling she wasn't, after all the fighting Mountain and I had done just prior to Christmas. I have told Mountain that the Cow and Korri are better friends than he knows. But he defends them both. So I mailed her and asked if she was coming. No response. Mountain phoned her. No response. She didn't show. If she had other plans, I don't actaully care. Just be honest and don't blow smoke up my ass!
She never did return my e-mail. but she did call Mountain days later to say she had been with flu all thru Christmas and her computer crashed. Yet her facebook remained active. Hmmmm.
So now she has called to invite Mountain to her boys hockey party for tomorrow. I don't really want to go. Its at 10:30 in the morning. In WhiteRock. At some rec centre. however........Korri has also invited the Cow and Tea. Yes Tea is 3 yrs younger than the birthday boy. Some stuff has popped up with work and I may have to be there. As I was asking Mountain if he would be available to watch Charlotte should i have to go in, he brought up the party. I had never said I wanted to or didn't want to go.
so I said, for us to go. That means getting up by about 8AM, on a SAturday morning, to be able to get ready and leave by 9:30, to get there on time. His Response....I'm going.
I keep my up-beatness about this and say....okay. It'll be fun for Charlotte! she loves to skate! and I dive into how great an ice skater Charlotte is cause i don't want to really talk about anyhting else cause I am not sure why this is all pissing me off so much. Besides the fact that I really don't want to let on to Mountain that I really, really don't want to get up that early on my Saturday and go.
So he is going to phone Korri today to let her know. He then reminds me once more that Leah is going to be there. and how I should not worry cause he doens't think she is going to 'come out swinging' at me or anyhting. My response...i would hope not. I don't have a problem with Leah, therfore, she shouldn't have a problem with me.
I than request that after the party he hangs with C for the afternoon so that I can get some much needed grocery shopping done. He agrees.
Now flipping to the otherside.....
why is it that she hasn't contacted me? Afterall, I am the one with the child and she has told me how much she likes me and how good I am for Mountain. Why is Leah invited with her young daughter, when according to Mountain, they barely talk and are not good friends at all. They are only friends cause of him. Would n't the normal course of action for her to invite Tea thru mountain if she wanted tea there? and Once again...what is the motive, after what happened the last time Leah and I were at a gathering together be to repeat it? and what is it with all the adults at all these kids parties? Its not even at their house for Pete's sake!
not that I would leave Charley in her care anyhow as its at an ice rink and not in a controlled 'safe' environment. Even Tea's b-day party was the same deal. One that I was NOT invited to
I have not continued my friendship with Steph's husband. And if I invite Jake over its thru Steph. even if its Joe's weekend. Same with Muck and her ex-husband. And we had years of friend history! Politeness is one thing. this is a beast I am not familiar with.
My theory being.....they are much closer and better friends than they let on to Mountain.
i think their motives are different, but they want the same outcome.
I think Korri suffers from stay at home mom syndrome and just craves the adrenilin rush of 'what might happen!' Like a chemist, she just wants to see what happens when she throws it all in the pot.
So far what I have predicted has come true.
Leah is pregnant with the guys kid she swore up and down she wan't involved with that I said she was and she called me the liar. Now this is the second pregnancy with this guys baby in 6 months. this one she is keeping. His other 2 kids have been taken away from him by social services.
Now if I don't go tomorrow i feel i am sending the wrong message. But going just puts Charlotte in the middle and leaves Mountain wide open to Leah. the one thing I can't stand! On top of all that....I don't think I was actually invited! Mountain choked over his words when I asked him and he responded yes.
so what is my problem?
in the interest of time and getting ready for work. I am sure I have missed something. but for now.....
anybody have a theory as to why I am so bent!
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
this weather is sure makin' me tired.
I heard rumour of a girls night coming up in 3 weeks
i bin' so sleepy lately, wonder if I'd be able to stay up past 10!
snow
no snow
snow
no snow
rain.....
what The hell!
a dump opf snow that stays for more than a day would suit me just fine. I just can't stand the weather indecision!
Maybe thats why i am tired. This back and forth behaviour of them there clouds is wearing me out!
I heard rumour of a girls night coming up in 3 weeks
i bin' so sleepy lately, wonder if I'd be able to stay up past 10!
snow
no snow
snow
no snow
rain.....
what The hell!
a dump opf snow that stays for more than a day would suit me just fine. I just can't stand the weather indecision!
Maybe thats why i am tired. This back and forth behaviour of them there clouds is wearing me out!
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Ball Park it For me
I am pondering - dreaming really, of a new bedroom.
14 x 14 maybe..............
an addition....
a fireplace would be nice. Not a gas one. One of those fancy electric heaters disguised by a fireplace front. Far off in the REM state, a bathroom. Ensuite. (but thats really dreaming) Definatly a heat source. Windows, closets, walls.......
how much do you think i could get me one of them for?
I am currently in a 10'8 x 9'10, I am telling you........IT'S TOOO fFFFKING SMALL!!!! Ugh!
Anyhow.....I pulled 14 x 14 out of the air. It sounds nice***
if I can manage it cheap......how much do you think it'll cost?
Yes. Mouldings and all.
14 x 14 maybe..............
an addition....
a fireplace would be nice. Not a gas one. One of those fancy electric heaters disguised by a fireplace front. Far off in the REM state, a bathroom. Ensuite. (but thats really dreaming) Definatly a heat source. Windows, closets, walls.......
how much do you think i could get me one of them for?
I am currently in a 10'8 x 9'10, I am telling you........IT'S TOOO fFFFKING SMALL!!!! Ugh!
Anyhow.....I pulled 14 x 14 out of the air. It sounds nice***
if I can manage it cheap......how much do you think it'll cost?
Yes. Mouldings and all.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
a New 2008
I've been reading my friends blog's at the changes and what 2007 was for them. It was a hard year for some. For others just another year.
My 2007 was a year of change and healing.
I bring 2008 in heading on yet another journey opening my mind and learning about the changes that took place in 2007.
- the pinks-
started me off and carried me through most of the year on a fluffy cloud. Coming off them was quite the trip. I don't think they were finally really out of my blood stream till the fall. Sometimes still not. The drug sits in your fat cells. Dormant - so to speak. So as i lose more wieght.....they will pop up and take me for yet another spin! Life on the edge. What a Thrill
-wieght gain-
2007 saw me heavier than I have ever been.
At the top of my wieght gain in the summer i was up by 15lbs and still gaining! May not be much for any of you....but for me. Yikes! After sitting around the same size and wieght since highschool this was a HUGE shock. I have now managed to drop a solid 5lbs and hope to work on a healthier lifestyle to get down a bit more.
I am also trying my damndest at self-talk to like this new body that I have. Cause there is a good chance I might not lose. Age and stuff.
The Pinks changed a lot of my metabolism. I'm 2 yrs from 40. Not as active a job. I am very comfortable with my relationship.
-MountainMan-
We saw 2007 in together with a bang!
We watched it go together with a kiss.
Our relationship has grown and grown. We have and are still learning so much about each other. he is one of the most wonderful people to have ever come into my life. I am soo happy with him. Minus the 1 and only issue we seem to have at this point. But through that issue we have both learned how each other works and deals with stuff. We have returned keys and then given them back. WE have and are still accepting on the fact that WE aren;t going anywhere. He is my partner. A true partner. No matter what happens, we will be by each others side. ItS a big conclusion to come to and just accept. So the yuck that we experience because of 'the issue' we will experience togehter. We will yell, discuss, scream and fight about it, but in the end we will be there together doing what we need to do. The 'issue' is big enough to tear us apart. and I don't know what will come of it. but hopefully we can reach our middle ground soon.
for every step back we or he takes 2 steps forward.
-Mortgage-
I bought my very first home in 2007!!
The beginning of what was planned out to be an exciting summer for Charlotte and i. I'd just bought a pool. We had planned a wonderful holiday. Money finally saved and put aside for it. The house that we had been renting for 5 years sold.
We were given an eviction notice Monday July 16th. After a day of feeling shitty....i got my chin up off the ground and dealt with it!
On Thursday August 16th 2007 i had taken possesion of my new home.
OUr week of holidays were spent moving. We were all the way in by August 27th
We moved a half acre of yard stuff and 2000 square feet of inside house stuff to our little 900 square foot pad. After a few garage sales and tears we are here!
Our first Mortgage. I bring in 2008 with paint chips laying in the bathroom, getting ready for my first little project to give this a wee bit of Kristi. Charlotte's Blue Chandelier laying in the living room paint chips all around it as well. I'm painting her ceiling Blue! Its mine. I will do what I want with it!!! HA!
-Charlotte-
i missed a lot last year. I tried. and I was there, but the Pinks kept me lost a lot.
I pushed my parenting aside in a sense, and that is so awful. She is 9 now. Hard to believe. she is a very wonderful little girl. but her schooling is suffering. I am doing my best to step in and step it up to help her. Mountain is doing his part as well. With use of something to motivate her (Guitar Hero) and the sitting with and extra homework type stuff at home.......i hope we can find a way to make school and learning, interesting for her.
Piano is excelling! Her new teacher this year is Male, Carlos. He is fantastic! She just sits here and plays. She has found a true love for music and has also discovered she is good at it! She sings beautifully and has such a natural talent with her fingers and rythm. I Love It!
-my hair-
I did something I've Never done before. I turned myself into a brunette! ~photos on fotoblog~
its a washout. so its going to look really bad by next week. But I thought.....why the hell not? My hairdresser said it would be fine to do and I could still donate! But only if I use the Non-Permanent stuff. so I did it. Very drastic. But why not.
-friends-
i have re-connected and deepened some major friendships this past year. Relationships are a lot of work. Sometimes Friends fight. it happens. Other times we annoy the Carp out of one another. Thats life. Yell at each other and work it thru. Friendships are sooo important. Honesty. Acceptance. Love. When a hand reaches out the reaching back.....even if all you can do is say I love you. Sometimes we can't help each other sometimes we can. Maybe its the one person that can truly 'see' you. As one friend might be able to talk you thru a certain problem another can't. We all enhance each other with our strenghts and weaknesses. People that you see or talk to only once a year but its like you've never parted. My ladies.
Every Single one of You!!! you are important to me. EAch of you carries with you a piece of me and I of you.
I am embracing 2008 with some neat changes.
i can harldy wait till spring when I can get out into my yard and make it look like me!
my Mountain and I are just growing and living. Our committment to one another so clear.
My little girl will age into double digits! her changes, hormones, maturity will grow by leaps and bounds in 2008. I want to be incredibly present for all of it!
All Change is good. there is always a silver lining. It may hurt or be devestating, but all can be learned from. Maybe simply just not doing that again!
Well its a good thing I am wrapping this up.
Kid is needing her Mommy! What perfect timing.
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My 2007 was a year of change and healing.
I bring 2008 in heading on yet another journey opening my mind and learning about the changes that took place in 2007.
- the pinks-
started me off and carried me through most of the year on a fluffy cloud. Coming off them was quite the trip. I don't think they were finally really out of my blood stream till the fall. Sometimes still not. The drug sits in your fat cells. Dormant - so to speak. So as i lose more wieght.....they will pop up and take me for yet another spin! Life on the edge. What a Thrill
-wieght gain-
2007 saw me heavier than I have ever been.
At the top of my wieght gain in the summer i was up by 15lbs and still gaining! May not be much for any of you....but for me. Yikes! After sitting around the same size and wieght since highschool this was a HUGE shock. I have now managed to drop a solid 5lbs and hope to work on a healthier lifestyle to get down a bit more.
I am also trying my damndest at self-talk to like this new body that I have. Cause there is a good chance I might not lose. Age and stuff.
The Pinks changed a lot of my metabolism. I'm 2 yrs from 40. Not as active a job. I am very comfortable with my relationship.
-MountainMan-
We saw 2007 in together with a bang!
We watched it go together with a kiss.
Our relationship has grown and grown. We have and are still learning so much about each other. he is one of the most wonderful people to have ever come into my life. I am soo happy with him. Minus the 1 and only issue we seem to have at this point. But through that issue we have both learned how each other works and deals with stuff. We have returned keys and then given them back. WE have and are still accepting on the fact that WE aren;t going anywhere. He is my partner. A true partner. No matter what happens, we will be by each others side. ItS a big conclusion to come to and just accept. So the yuck that we experience because of 'the issue' we will experience togehter. We will yell, discuss, scream and fight about it, but in the end we will be there together doing what we need to do. The 'issue' is big enough to tear us apart. and I don't know what will come of it. but hopefully we can reach our middle ground soon.
for every step back we or he takes 2 steps forward.
-Mortgage-
I bought my very first home in 2007!!
The beginning of what was planned out to be an exciting summer for Charlotte and i. I'd just bought a pool. We had planned a wonderful holiday. Money finally saved and put aside for it. The house that we had been renting for 5 years sold.
We were given an eviction notice Monday July 16th. After a day of feeling shitty....i got my chin up off the ground and dealt with it!
On Thursday August 16th 2007 i had taken possesion of my new home.
OUr week of holidays were spent moving. We were all the way in by August 27th
We moved a half acre of yard stuff and 2000 square feet of inside house stuff to our little 900 square foot pad. After a few garage sales and tears we are here!
Our first Mortgage. I bring in 2008 with paint chips laying in the bathroom, getting ready for my first little project to give this a wee bit of Kristi. Charlotte's Blue Chandelier laying in the living room paint chips all around it as well. I'm painting her ceiling Blue! Its mine. I will do what I want with it!!! HA!
-Charlotte-
i missed a lot last year. I tried. and I was there, but the Pinks kept me lost a lot.
I pushed my parenting aside in a sense, and that is so awful. She is 9 now. Hard to believe. she is a very wonderful little girl. but her schooling is suffering. I am doing my best to step in and step it up to help her. Mountain is doing his part as well. With use of something to motivate her (Guitar Hero) and the sitting with and extra homework type stuff at home.......i hope we can find a way to make school and learning, interesting for her.
Piano is excelling! Her new teacher this year is Male, Carlos. He is fantastic! She just sits here and plays. She has found a true love for music and has also discovered she is good at it! She sings beautifully and has such a natural talent with her fingers and rythm. I Love It!
-my hair-
I did something I've Never done before. I turned myself into a brunette! ~photos on fotoblog~
its a washout. so its going to look really bad by next week. But I thought.....why the hell not? My hairdresser said it would be fine to do and I could still donate! But only if I use the Non-Permanent stuff. so I did it. Very drastic. But why not.
-friends-
i have re-connected and deepened some major friendships this past year. Relationships are a lot of work. Sometimes Friends fight. it happens. Other times we annoy the Carp out of one another. Thats life. Yell at each other and work it thru. Friendships are sooo important. Honesty. Acceptance. Love. When a hand reaches out the reaching back.....even if all you can do is say I love you. Sometimes we can't help each other sometimes we can. Maybe its the one person that can truly 'see' you. As one friend might be able to talk you thru a certain problem another can't. We all enhance each other with our strenghts and weaknesses. People that you see or talk to only once a year but its like you've never parted. My ladies.
Every Single one of You!!! you are important to me. EAch of you carries with you a piece of me and I of you.
I am embracing 2008 with some neat changes.
i can harldy wait till spring when I can get out into my yard and make it look like me!
my Mountain and I are just growing and living. Our committment to one another so clear.
My little girl will age into double digits! her changes, hormones, maturity will grow by leaps and bounds in 2008. I want to be incredibly present for all of it!
All Change is good. there is always a silver lining. It may hurt or be devestating, but all can be learned from. Maybe simply just not doing that again!
Well its a good thing I am wrapping this up.
Kid is needing her Mommy! What perfect timing.
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