My Free Night

Well tomorrow Charlotte goes to Grammas for a sleepover.
I thought i would have a girls night, but it looks as though our busy lives are all colliding again.
Just as well.
I dawned on me I have a ton of stuff I can get done.
Like Christmas shop!
Holy Carp!
Not much time left.
Mucks Evil counter flashed 25 Days left till Christmas! When I was just there visiting.
So I suppose I should get my shit togheter and do that. I'll go for a late dinner and drinks after to my restaurant. Sit all on my lonesome. Maybe I'll get a magazine. Sit in the corner and read while sipping a martini.

But really kids.....
there isn't a whole lot of time left.
Friggin snow!
I havne't gotten my lights on the house yet.
i feel all out of wack!
Mountain is going to give me a hand with them.
Yes we are speaking among other things. Its good and it works.

I need to find an outfit when out shopping tomorrow night for my date with that guy!
No I haven't told him yes yet.
It depends on what time we have to be in town and how we are getting out there and that kind of stuff. I am at work most nights till 6. So we will see.
in any event. I get to shop for a new outfit!
Who doens't LOVE that!

Crazy

Am I?
I can't help but wonder.
My mind has been racing again.
Do I need to tweek the pinks.

Why can';t I just be like other people?
Is it cause I live alone and don't have anyone to bounce my stuff off of. So it just sits in my head and ....I don't know....does whatever it does.
Or is it becaseu I am truly nuts.
Why does my mind work the way it does. And why do I feel so out of control?
not like i did months ago. Thank goodness.
But out of control non-the-less. For these days anyway. I have felt so good the last few months.
I guess the other shoe is dropping
do I get a do over?

Got asked out for a Christmas date today.
Dec. 12th. Turns out its a tuesday. In the city. I ouwld love to go, but I don't know if I can of course get a sitter. Than theres work the next day.....

Right now I just feel like crawling into a hole and nt coming out for awhile. Screw Men!
But I really like them all at the same time.
Friggin.
This life is too long

To Answer an Email....

Yes i have been 'off' for the last bit here.
To make a long story short. The Reason is......

Mountain Man is taking another woman to his Christmas Party!

I found myself both insulted and with a few hurt feelings. This then made me start thinking about a few things that have to do with him.
Still in the thinking and processing stage.
Not sure what I have come up with yet.
But obviously if something like that throws me off like it has.....it deserves a lot more thinking!
I found out early last week.

Thanks for your concern

No School Due to SNOW!!!!

When did it happen that snow stopped the world?
When I was little we had real winters all the time. Winters just like this for weeks on end. School was never shut down. People still went to work. And frig....that was the 70's! It was all rear-wheel!
Well I still have to go to work.
Charley goes to daycare. Which I pay thru the nose for for a full day like this. FFFFF! but my life doesn't stop cause of a few feet of snow!

Blog on Dudes!

Drive slow and careful if you have to go out!

Tagged by the Lioness

Frig! What the hell is what the Hell.
Poor Doodle. She is getting it to!
Now you didn't say I couldn't bitch about this tag.
so let me start by saying
FuuuuuuucK!!
I just don't like getting tagged!
But this is pretty easy so here we go....
What is your occupation? Server
- 2. What color is your underwear? Underwear? i don't have company over
3. What are you listening to right now? the hum of my computer and people outside stomping in the snow
4. What was the last thing you ate? Chocolate of course
5. Do you wish on stars? YUP!!
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? So, so Red!
7. How is the weather right now?Snowy and fabulous
. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Mountain Man
9. Do you like the person who sent this to you? well this is a tag. And yes I like her, but she is a bitch for the tag
10. How old are you today? 37
11. Favorite drink? Rootbeer I guess. Red wine is my weakness but thats jsut cause I'm cheap. If i feel rich....liquours
12. Favorite sport to watch? Anyhting under the sheets
13. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes
14. Do you wear contacts or glasses? contacts
15. Favorite food? Mexican
17. What was the last movie you watched? Some friggin whacked out horror late, late last night. Peopel were getting sawed in half and everything! What the Hell! Clearly I was drunk
18. Favorite day of the year? Charlottes Birthday
19. What do you do to vent anger? Yell. Stomp my feet. Be hurtful
20.What was your favorite toy as a child? I don't remember. thats actually kinda sad
21. Fall or Spring? Spring
l22. Hugs or kisses? Can't I have both? Wait. Where are the kisses being placed? and am I giving or recieving?
23. Cherry or Blueberry? once again....I want it all!
24. Do you want your friends to answer this? sure validation is nice
25. Living arrangements? DAughter, nanny cat fishes gerbils
28. The last time you cried?last night.
29. What is on the floor of your closet? Which one
30.Who is the friend you have had the longest? MUCK BABY!!!! over 30 years! Hokey dina
31. What did you do last night? WEnt to work. Met with Stef. had cute stock-brocker buy my drinks for me. Went home. Had Mountain come over. He made me cry and then left and I sat up till 4 in the morning drinking wine watching some horror flick.
32. Favorite smell? Fresh Bread
33. What inspires you? Charlotte
34. What are you afraid of? the devil
35. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? if its got cheese its got my vote
36.Favorite car? Jaguar
37. Favorite dog breed? I've never given that much thought. Rottwielers are cool. Or maybe a terrier. My fav cat is a Siamese! Why couldn't that have been a question
38. Number of keys on your key ring?I don't flippin Know!
39. How many years at your current job? hahahahaha! JUst started there 6 wks ago
40. Favorite day of the week? Friday
41. How many provinces have you lived in? 1
42. How many cities have you lived in? 4
43. Ever driven a Motorcycle or Heavy Machinery? No

Okay there you go!
learn something new?

10 Wierd...Or not so Wierd Things About me

WEll i got tagged by Stef.

Hmmm. 10 things.
10 wierd things. hmmm.
This is hard. 10 things you don't already know.....
Well I'm sure some of you know some that others won't.
Here goes

1) I shave my toes. Yes they are hairy and i hate it.
2) If I leave the hair on my legs to grow to its full length it is nearly 2 inches long. And being blonde no longer helps at that point. But it takes awhile to get there. so I only shave my legs once a week cause its smacks of effort.
since i am on a hair kick....
3) Yes i am a natural blonde. Yes my pubic hair is blonde too and very soft for that blonde reason
4) My sex drive is higher than the average woman. Very few men can keep up with me. As I am a demanding lover and want sex more than most.
5) I love to give head.
6) I have lots of Wicca books and used to be very into it.
7) I am petrified of being diagnosed as certifiable by my doctor. This would be why I have avoided him for so long with the depression thing. And I don't tell him or anyone, everything.
8) I have a reacurring dream at least once or twice a week about my apartment in Vancouver. The dreams are so real its hard for me to distiguish them from reality sometimes.
9) I usually only fart in the morning when i first wake up
10) When I was in my mid-twenties i dated a beautiful woman for awhile that I worked with. She moved away years ago to Alberta. Had a kid or something and got quite heavy. She had gorgeous chestnut hair and brown eyes.

LA lala

no no
hey you@@!@!
hey them!@
Fuck!
oh wait.
Thats not me.
I will pursue.
Yes Stef. You are right. What ever would possess me to not allow that man to buy me a drink.
Clearly the snow had gotten to me.
mountain man made me cry
not because of what he did, but he sudenly turned into a man./
We obvioulsy have stuff.
I chose to talk about it cause i am justlike that.
well
he didn't
I have so much more to say about that but its late and the
Nutcracker is tomorrow.....or rather today!!!!

the ballet with both my girlz.
I am excited!
by the way....

There is snow everywhere outside. and if I had my camera I'd so show you,
Carp!!]
you should have picked it up on your way our stef...

My pussy is being very overly friendly.
Such affection and the need for attention.
My hand has been achy today too.
I bet its going to snow
Just like they said it would.

Eyes

Age around my eyes.
Wrinkles?
nope not so much.
Its the gravity thing.
I need an ever so slight lift.
I won't get fake boobs, but I sure as Heck would get my eyes done!!

Drunk Texting........

just as bad as the dreaded drunk dial.
If not worse.

Have you switched to Beta?
How is it?
I don't want to switch till I get feed back

pics

Heck!
Damn!
DArn!

i need my camera and its at my parents.
Been there for a few weeks.
since the family B-day!

Friggin'
i need it back

Concert

Ooooh!
Madonna's Confessions tour was just on the tube.
Se is so Hot!
I do love her body.
Fucking amazing.
I do wish she would play Vancouver.
I'd fersure have to be in a floor seat. She sure puts on a great show.
I'm all worked up now. What a woman!@

Hot??

it happened.
I am not nearly as Hot as i thunk I was

How The Hell did that happen?

Mountain man....not into me as much as I thought he was.
What is that!!!
Frig!

Can't give me that he says.
I got myself all attached.

well Damn!
unattaching! Unattaching now and Fast!
before I can't

So dinner next friday...dec. 1st...Ladies?
Just me and the Stef so far.
Lets at least eat and be Merry!

My Restaurant !

So i find out my partner, that I have been working with for weeks now is leaving as of Dec. 1st!!!
What The Hell!
I just got her all trained up and she trained me up all the way so we work togehter just perfect! and now she's Leaving me.
Well. This is no good. No good at all!
She has to go back East. Dead people. Well not dead yet. But could be soon.
Friggin!
so I need a new Lunch partner!
Piss on a Rock!

Who's interested??

I'm taking applications.

So next Friday Charlotte will be at her annual theatre date with my mom.
This means...............
drum roll
I have a night Free!!!!
So I was thinking.........
these are my options>>>
Work late or a split.
Go to Mustangs with my girl Stef and looks like the Doodle and mrs. W.
Or....
stay in town here. Cause I would like to have a Martini.....or two.
Go to my restaurant for dinner and play here close to home. I can cab it. Y'all can stay at my place cause kid won't be here so her bed will be free.
so will my couch.
WEll and floor.
Mrs. W has a doo the next evening that I can't wait for.
Anyhow...
what do y'all think.
I can get the first 4 25% off their meals!!
Than we ass dance after!

Those Jerks

I really don't like to be ignored./

Thoughts

I've just come to the conclusion that I've been decieved in love.
In life.
Makes me miss someone more than I should and makes me wish my feelings for another were more than they are.

My non-trusting nature that gets run over by my always trusting heart.

Does it hurt?
No. Not the deception. That just embaresses me. The missing hurts. The wanting is frustrating. My thoughts..........
WoW! Its been so long since I've had any.
After reading the Lioness' first post this morning i got to thinking about the ones...."I knew him when"
I miss them both, but not the same.
I miss him too, but its clouded now.
i miss him and her too.
Her!! whom I've been bumping into lately!
its very strange.
I miss my long talks with.......
i miss my apartment in the West End!

Damn those dreams last night~!
Reacurring dream of that place.
dreams of past. Dreams that make me....remind me....I am missing parts of my heart that I gave away. Parts taht I gave away recently.
Things that don't feel done.
grateful to people i have. Grateful for my companion. guilty for my companion.
And whatever happened to Wren?
feeling rejected.

Where did this come from?

the Rules

She Agreed!
She Agreed!

She's not happy with the 10pm in time. I said that could be up for discussion.
And Thursday night cause she doesn't work Friday. So she wants to be able to stay out all night.
i told her we would discuss that again at a later date.
But for now she has to follow all them.

She Agreed!
YaY!!!!

Jenny............I've lost you.
Sent you a mail........
it came back.
Jen, where did you go?

Holy Crap! My parents are Still without Power!

House Rules

these are a few general house rules that I have and am going to reinforce.
What do you think?

-during the week...in by 10pm. No more staying out at friends. This does not apply to Friday or Saturday evenings.
-social phone calls past 9/9:30 are not welcomed.
-no overnight guests
-no smoking in the house or yard
-no drugs
-guests can arrive before 9/10pm to take you out on the weekend. During the week before 8/9pm
-guests over during the week should be gone by 9:30/10pm.
-loud discussions outside where the neighbors can hear is not going to happen.
-loud discussions inside the house where Charlotte can hear is discouraged.
-guests arrive and leave thru the front door
-guests that I have not met are unwelcome in the house when I am not home.
-Respect my word and I will respect yours.

When a child is in your life. Whether you like it or not. You are a role model. You must watch what you say and do.

i think she is super pissed and is probably looking for a new place to live right this moment. But I will still try

Needs

I've been feeling it.
That need to go out and play!
Felt it 2 wks ago.
than a littel stronger last week.......
now

its been awhile.
I actually feel like dancing!
I know! Will wonders never cease!

I'm sure I could find playmates, but its the sitter that I truly need.

Holy Huge Storm!!

Power is out Everywhere!
Had to pick up the Queen from school.
At 5PM people started pouring in from the street cause their power was out. Ours wasn't. At the restaurant that is. Not here at my house.

One of the peoples that came in for dinner was Mr. Big's best friend and a friend I'd never met before.
We chatted. He's still pretty cute!
Its nice to see old acquantances. Even if they are old reminders of the past.

One of my co-workers from the old place was in today too. Its his 40th on Friday. It would be nice if I could celebrate it with him! Boss Mitch came out of the kitchen and chatted him up with all his plans.

My parents were in today too! What a great day of everyone coming in for a visit! Everyone being impressed! Its jsut great!

On the downside.........I am thinking about evicting my nanny girl.
She has an on again off again romance with her boyfriend.
Normal.
This would n't be so bad if she weren't mixing other boys in with it all. They are currently outside the front door arguing. This is after he's already left twice and been arguing in her room. When I first got home she said she wasn't expecting him. Yet he was at the door. she said she was going out and didn;'t want to see him. yet he's been here all night.
i know its all typical stuff.
She reaches out to me for help and then.........
Maybe I am just not ready for this.
Being in my room after 9 and hearing BANG! BANG! BANG! on my front door just doesn't work for me.
I just see the path.
i care for her vrey much. And if she doens't swing back to being the "not a bad kid" that i first met in the next couple weeks...............
i'm gonna have to make some decisions.
Cause now her lifestyle choices are affecting mine.

Why The FFFFF does my Tailbone keep hurting?

What the Hell!

A Dawning

So it dawned on me just a couple minutes ago.,.....
its been a week and I haven't heard from my old boss.
Hmmmmm.
Not even last friday about jobs for the weekend.
HuH! Whatta ya know bout that!

The thing I actuually was thinking about was the Christmas tree lighting this weekend.

Holy Carp!

I've been so busy with the opening of the restaurant I just didn't think in depth about Christmas Shopping.
there is just barely any time left for those of us that work 9-5.
Well I guess there's the evenings.
But I would have to take The Queen. Carp! I might as well not go for all that I would get done!

Mountain man has inspired me to get off my ass and start excercising again. NOw that I have rountine in my life once again I can maybe get on that. I'm thin. But I am in no way in good shape. No he is still jsut my companion. Something else I'm having a hard time with.
he is really very sweet and nice. He ignores me just the right amount. Yet...........
i odn't know.
I've been thinking about Larry a lot lately.
i miss him.
Remembered his advice just the other day about what I should do with my foot issue.
Funny how the mind works.
Carp!
i forgot my pink with dinner!
Better go!

Happy Hump day Tomorrow!!

Christmas Tree

So my parents gave me money towards an artificial tree.
so off we went to Canadian Tire to choose one.
they are on sale this weekend.
The Chipawa tree was the one.
so thats it then.
I am now the proud owner of my first artificial tree.

Whatta Yah Know!

i'll pick it up in a couple dayz!

Getting Prepared????

Well.
Seems the Good Lord is preparing me for things to come.
My Nanny girl and I.
she is being a teenager.
And I love her. and have taken her on as somewhat my responsibilty. Something she welcomed with open arms till she found out there were boundaries and rules attached to that.
We had our first screaming fight.
something that ended with the 2 of us in tears and snotting all over one another. Telling each other how much we love the other.

Its a fine line you know.
I mean she is not mine. But she is my responsiblity..........to a point.
She does MANY things I would NEVER allow Charley to do.
Many things I let go and ignore.
My own rule is....if it doesn't affect me or Charlotte its not my place.
However....there are some things that I don't.
Like her friends calling late at night. Past 9/9:30 it better be an emergency. I've had calls as late as 1AM for her!
She turns up here at all hours of the night sometimes.
smoking out her bedroom window.
then there was the time I could smell pot.
It wasn;'t burning pot. It was the smell of freshly bagged pot. That has never happened again.
She goes for walks away from the house when she feels the need for a cigarette.
but today.........
disrespect, nasty comments and all around bitchiness. I lost it!
and so did she.
Threats that she will leave.
Words that I am not her mother just her roomate.
Words of do you really want to be just a roommate? Cause a whole lot will change!
Like for starters........a Heck of a lot more rent, Get your own fucking phone, no more dinners, buy your own friggin laundry soap and toilet paper!!!
Being the non-mother to a 16 year old sucks sometimes.
But this is all preparing me for the Charlotte that is to come.

Nanny Girl doesn';t want to go anywhere. She loves it here. She is jsut having a bad day and decided to take it out on me. I of course don't take that shit!
She loves being part of a family unit. She loves that someone worries and cares about her.
I hope its all worth it in the end

Appreciated

The Queen and I went for our Birthday dinner date last night.
We'd had her party in the afternoon. We celebrated at Castle Fun Park! I was suitably impressed by the cost and the cleanup and the entertainment.
After the last kid was picked up we settled up. Than we took everything to the car. We went back in to have a fabulous mother daughter time on the Bumper Cars! What a hoot! I loved it. I could spend the whole day on those things!
OUr dinner last night was intersting.
I had the 8oz tenderloin..........
oh how yummy! I could cut it with a butter knife.
Charley had had the curry chicken bowl already and liked it so that what we ordered for her. A few bites in.........nope. Doesn't like it any more.
However.........Boss Mitch was already all over it.
A side of fries arrived at our table.
Than his own mac & cheesey cheese!
Dessert time came and I of course wanted the Creme Brulle.
There was any. Waaahhhhh! he was making it as I ordered it.
So I ordered the Italian Custard. Zabaglione. Yumm! A little more wine in it than I was expecting, but it was yummy. Fresh fruit! Yes!
But Boss Mitch had already prepped a chocolate truffle for me.
So heck. I ate that too!
Than just as we were finishing up, out he wandered with fresh Creme Brulle. It was still hot. Which by the way.....much better cold.
Yes. Thats right I ate that as well!
Now don't get me wrong. I didn't finish any of these desserts all the way. Kinda half is what I filled my face with. It was just all so good!
Than Boss Danielle came out with a bottle of Bleach.
Why a bottle of Bleach you say?
well I've been taking home the rags and washing them. We don't have onsight laundry and M & D are working 24/7. The last thing they need at 11PM at night is laundry to do.
So she bought me a HUGE bottle of bleach so that I stop using mine!
How sweet is that!
I tell you its the little things!
They truly appreciate me and it sure shows!

so today The queen and I are off to shop for the restuarant. Christmas decorations. Simple is what we are going for. We don't need much. But we need soemthing.
First stop.......HomeSense!

Blog On Dudes!

OPEN!!!

WE will be open tomorrow!!!

i won't be on the floor, but lunch will go on!!!

i have restaurant stuff to do that doesn't include serving tables.

Thanks everyone!

Closed?

My new boss Mitch, is tossing around being closed on Monday because all the rest of the business' downtown will be closed. Its the holiday.
Our lunch crowd is business people.
I suggested closing for lunch (sucks to be me) and open for dinner like he did today.
i miss a shift and that bites. But............
if its quiet..........

Opinions??
Thoughts?

We discussed the random closing and how bad that is for business.......
Although this is not totally "random" as it is a stat.....
so it does make sense

What do you think?

FAB!

so my fab pink pills are 2bux each!
Holy Carp!!
No wonder the doc kept me on the trial packs.

I got a new umbrella.
i hear your brain as you wonder why I am so excited.
WEll firstly I spent 15bux on it!
Why when there are cheaper ones?
Well all the 'cheaper ones' I've purchased are now broken. And they don't wait and get used lots to break. They choose to break pretty close to being new.
Bastards!
Second....its Red and full size. That excites me!
Third.....
now third is the best one.....

It lights up

Yah thats right. Lights up!
the post does. As a matter of fact it can strobe and change colours, or just be on and blue!
Wal-Mart. Thats where i got it. And I am thrilled!

i tell you its the little things. heehee.

Watched Buffy last night.
How cool is that! Thanks Muck! of course, you now realize you are committed for the next few years at setting me up with the rest of them? LoL!!!

Blog on!

Tuesday & Beyond

WEll my birthday came and went.
I was alone on the floor that day. Wouldn;t you knwo it, we were busy as Hell! Mitch came out of the kitchen to lend a hand.
A 500 dollar shift it was!
Hokey Dina!
I was runnin.
I was just getting to the tending of the mass mess of a tornado that had blown thru my restuarant when all of a sudden there was a familiar voice........."Mommy!"
Oh nice. The girl brought her in after school.
Nope. It was only 2PM. Kid was with Gramma.
What's wrong?
Sick.
Kid was sick. Fever and all around yucky.
Carp!!
The school called my cell and my house. Why the Fuck didn't they call my work? Yah. I am still wondering. They have the Number!!!
She'd been lying down in the office since 10:30!
so off she went home to wait for Kaila and gramma sat with her. I tryed getting the next girl in early so I could go be with my girl.
Poor little thing.
Muck came shortly after taht.
Buffied me out Baby! Can;'t wait to get started on that one.
So Here I sat birthday night.
Mountain came over after kid was in bed and we snuggled up together on the couch and watched T.V. Me barely able to keep my eyes open. He was gone by 10:30 and I crawled into my oh so comfy bed. Pulling the blankets up as far around my chin as they would go.
While Mountain was here I made a call to my old boss. As I was supposed to be catering the next night and had yet to hear from him.
It was 9:30 at night.
NOw; not only didn't he remember that he'd booked me weeks ago for this gig. He totally ignored the fact that it was my birthday!
He's known me for how long?
Then he has the nerve to say he needs 6 shirts and vests for the Next day!!
What!
Its 9:30! The night before! He wants them there in the AM!
FUCK ME!!!
He had been for dinner Monday night with one of the guys. I was so excited to have him go. I was waiting anxiously to hear what he thought. We've been working so hard at getting everything working. There's still tons to do, but being open is the biggest thing.
I asked himwhat he had. He tells me. Says it was okay.
then he says the biggest mistake he ever made in his restaurant career was when he had his menu photo copied.
HOLY FUCK!!!
you know. Yah. I would have to say that was a pretty fucked up thing for an established restaurant to do. ESTABLISHED!!!! Been there for years! We just opened and nothing is finaol yet!!!
Besides the part where they are at the printers being worked on as we speak!!!!
How much more can you insult me?
Oh he found a way.
The place has no atmosphere.
What?
Well yah know. We don't have art work and there are no window coverings. HOwever......Mitch has been 24/7 on site since we opened. With the recent kitchen events from the past weeks he really can't leave. The art work will come.
Its his vision. Not mine. And I would be seriously over stepping my boundaries if I went out and did it.
We have tealites on the tables and dim the lights for the evening. Its actaully quite cozy.
Especially with the big comfy leather chairs by the bar!
Of course there are still things to do but.......it will come in time.
As far as the windows...........kiss my ass! Its awesome to watch the world go by. Guests come in Specifically to sit in those windows!!
Its see and be seen.
Thats not going to change anytime soon. Frig we've only been open 3 and a 1/2 weeks!!
but whatever. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. I guess I was just disapointed by his. I reacted with my back up cause this is kinda my baby too.

so thats it then.
Money or no money....I won't be catering anytime soon.

Happy Birthday to Me!!!

gave Charley her gifts!
the tamagotchy was a hit!
a girl was born and she named it Darcy.

I do love our Birthday.
She came in and lay in bed with me and I just stared at her.
Told her about the hours in the morning 8 years ago when we did the exact same thing.
My whole life changed that day.
How precious.
I remember it like it was yesterday.

BIRTHDAY EVE

On the eve of my 37th Birthday.

My muscle in my shoulder blade hurts like a bitch.
I have a neoprene ankle support dealley on.
Had to wear my Sketchers today cause my Fuckin Foot issue was acting up.

Carp!
is this a window into things to come :o

But damn!
My Ass looks good in yoga pants!

I might not be able to walk or carry stuff,but hey!
the Yoga pants thing....
It's something..........


Oh Hey!!
My Nanny girl has said she will sit for me tomorrow night after mine and The Queens special dinner.
If anyone would like to meet me for a drink or dessert at my restaurant later in the evening.........

Presents

Yesterday was the family party.
Charley always looks forward to it. She does love her family.
Auntie Shari and kids were there. They are all getting so big and old too!
Little V. stole the show of course. She is so darling.

I never give Charley her gifts from me until the actual day of her birthday. So they have been in my trunk for weeks.
First I bought her a new housecoat and slippers. Bratz slippers even! I hate bratz, but i figured in slippers.......What The Hell.
Then I got her a couple littlest Pet shop deals. She has been asking for them for months.
Thats right. I couldn't find the heelies. And I aint about to spend 100bux on shoes for a kid that will only wear for 7 months!
So she opens her gifts.
she gets a pair of super cute slippers from Great Gramma and Littlest Pet Shop from.........oh Carp! I can't remember. I think it was gramma.
so now off I race to Wal-Mart this morning after I drop her school.
I have about a half hour to shop before i have to be at work.
Do I suck or what?
Auntie Shari was a hit with her Math gift! Thats all I heard in the car on the way home. Then after we got home I could hear Charlotte's excitement, just over the sound of Hillary Duff, as she got 4000 brain cells!!!
Carp!
What am I gonna do?

Birthday Blue's

Yup.
They've started.
The birthday blues.
I don't feel so sad I guess. I mean I guess I'm not really blue. (the pinks really make a difference) But I'm just kinda thinking.

WoW! I'm gonna be 37!
Thirty-seven. Even when i write it in words its still a big number. 37.
Hmmmm. Even in webdings it looks big.
Where did I think I would be at 37?

Okay, I don't know. My brain doens't work like that anymore

But I know where I am.
I am finally happy and not in the dark hole anymore. Thats pretty cool. Even when its been dark and rainy like its been I'm still doing okay. That is neat.
I have a beautiful, talented, loving daughter. She is my best friend and team-mate. We have such an incredible bond. Eventhough she makes me nuts most of the time.
I am starting a new promising career that I really enjoy!
I'm still in alright shape. I have nice hair and not so many wrinkles. I still get IDed at the liquor store. I have lots of good loyal friends that I adore! My home is comfortable. I like my stuff. My family ties with my siblings are incredibly strong. Something I've passed on to my little girl. I am a strong independent self assured woman.
I got sad last night while I was sitting with the mountain man. Maybe sad isn't the right word. I'm not sure what is.
i had hoped to spend this birthday with a loving man.
Not that mountain man isn't kind and a good friend. I think you know what I mean.
I was reflective on the thoughts I'd had of spending my birthday in Indiana with Larry.
Than the thoughts of spending it with Tall Dude.

What I am going to do on Tuesday is work.
than I will come home. Get changed and take my Queen for our special annual birthday dinner date.
Just the 2 of us.
Her choice to go to my new restuarant!
It will be wonderful!
Then I will come home and Hopefully listen to many birthday wishes on answering machine.
Maybe get lots of texts of birthday Hallos.
A big Oooglenoth!
That would be cool!
As long as I'm not forgotten that makes me happy.


Happy Sunday to YOu

So the Tall Dude is gone.
I'm sad about that and wonder a lot of things. Questions. Ponderings. Our last time together was wonderful.
Mountain man was over last night. We watched a movie and giggled at each other.
He is a nice companion. I can just cuddle up to him and its just comforting. Although the movie went late and i am soooo very tired today.
We have our family birthday this Sunday to celebrate The Queen's birthday. I can't believe she is going to be 8 on Tuesday!
CArp! I'm gonna be 37!!!
What The Hell!
We are going for our birthday dinner at my New restaurant. I am sooo looking forward to a Tenderloin.
haha....I said tender-loin! hahaha! Makes my mind think dirty thoughts! hmmmm.
Well I better go work on my menu some more.

click here...for the"Holy Mother" Back in the day! Love it!

Tired.
Oh Sooo tired.
Mostly body tired.
I am really looking forward to Saturday morning and no Alarm going off.
I can't wait for tonight when i get to wash my hair.
Its the little things we look forward to. LoL!!
He needs me again SAturday.
So hooped for staff.
his eyes getting glassy while he spoke.
Fuck!
I don't wanna.
But I need the money.
So, so torn.

last night ans stuff

Mine was uneventful. How was yours?

Auntie Missy came and took the girls out.
She dressed as a racecar driver. which of course she is. so really she was going as herself. Nanny girl was Tigger. Then there was my fairy witch girl.
i have pictures.I'll have to post them tomorrow.
i work both places today.
What the Hell was I thinking? Yah i know.
Money. Bills. Thats what I was thinking.
Gotta get caught up. I am behind from the last 16 months.
All that gas I put on my poor, poor credit card.
You know a tank of gas now last me 2 weeks!
How cool is that?!!!!
I was filling up every few days before.
Holy Carp!
So last year this time I had just started planning my trip on a plane.
What a plane trip it was!!!
WoW!