Did I Really Not Mention It??

What do you mean you didn't know Charlotte was a bridesmaid?

What do you mean I never told you?

I'm going over so many conversations in my head ........ One of my first arguments about her being left out of the camp trip was that she is a bridesmaid ......... I didn't mention that fact again mind you as it seemed the argument changed ............ so then so did I

Why then am i or have i been making sure you somewhat match?

What did you think her role was?

I even remember back in the beginning saying .............

i guess if the negativity and arguments stopped spewing out of your mouth for any length of time you might hear what I am actually saying.

Did I truly not ever tell you that Charlotte was a bridesmaid? Really? I am still thinking about it .............

Things to Remember

just becuase my wedding is a huge event in my life doesn't mean it is like that for the other people

Holy Carp! exactly 4 months to Go!

17 weeks.

What else to do, what else?!!

i think we are down to Mountains duties. ACK! He's picked his tuxes. He knows his colors. He went and did that without his crew. it was just getting to be too much to get the 3 of them togethr - BLPHT - try 5!

So he went and did his thing. Told them where to go and its up to them now to get er' done. Good Job Man!

so i guess I should print off the list and stick it to the fridge - marriage license, event insurance, liquor license ......... rings are got, shoes are got, cake knife, an abundance of things with our names on them .......... YUP!

I need new sexy sleepwear for our honeymoon - saw some very pretty things at Victoria's Secret when I was there. but I was there with Charlotte, so the trying on of such items was hindered.

Linens are reserved - I am rethinking the decorating plan ........... trying to get a program and duties together for everyone. Trying to sync evryone on how they are getting places and how the flowers are getting here and there ...........

its these little details that are gonna make me nuts

Just Been Brought to my Attention

it is officially TWO of my wedding invites that are not getting to their destinations

how many more are having that problem?

This is Terrible!

could explain why I havn'et heard from people I expected to hear from .....................

What do I do?

on the wrong end of Bitch yesterday

just get to the wedding Kristi...............

Working for this man - he works like R did at Madisons. Example? I have been on payroll since september 27, 2010. How long is that? 6 mnths. I JUST got my benefits. The little card, last week. Great! Fine! I should have had them 3 mnths ago - but don't look a gift horse in the mouth? I've never had them before so waiting 3mnths isn't the end of the world? Took the Queen to the dentist yesterday. Handed in my card.......i don't have dental. WHAT!!! Its through a different company. Ummmm - i never filled out any papers for a differnt company........try nailing him down to have a conversation about it. To get it done. To even know how it works ........ Madisons eventually was the straw on this camels back so many years ago.

No wonder this office is run by the bitter women it is. It NEEDS a manager.

that manager is NOT me. I almost have enough training to go elsewhere easily. Pokers going get sharpened to be ready to go in the fire.

The women are nasty, nasty bitches. This one I am not going to tackle. I am just going to retreat. Its not worth it

Getting Gutters on The House Today!!!!!

Woooooooo

I Love it when i all comes together

my shoes are in my possession! So exciting. Its all coming together.

only 18 saturdays to go and I will be a Mrs to my Mountain man. what a wonderful feeling.

Off we go to Turkey's to pick up some odds and sods for the reception. ACKACKACK!

Now that I have the shoes .......... I gotta get my dress finished. Better call them today and see about getting a fitting in this week. ACKACKACK!

RSVP

Guess I just don't know. I was soo excited to set up our joint shaw account for people to RSVP to. I figured the RSVP's would flood into the account when people got their invites. That i would be able to easily keep track that way of people coming and people not coming ............ .

Guess I should have sent out those little stamped RSVP cards?

MY SHOES ARE IN!!

Spring

Spring break is half over. Whatta ya know. Next week I have some days off to hang with the Queen. To lanlgey we go - turkeys is on the list of places to stop. Thrift stores for more tealight holders. The rental place where we are getting the linens from. After sleeping in of course! The break will take us to the US of A for a visit with Muck! Is harry Potter playing anywhere? We have a family day planned at the spa. yup - a family day. I'll be getting my brows & lashes tinted. Brows shaped and Mntn will too! The queen will be getting a mini facial. So nice preparing for the upcoming wedding. if my tint looks good I will do it again right before the big day! The weather has brought a purple hue of crocus to my garden. My tulips and daffodils are growing, they will be popping up color in the next few weeks. So nice. I can harldy wait to get outside and dig! Maybe this year I can even use a shovel. So much yard work to do ............. so maybe on one of these days off I will paint some ceilings.........thats a great plan i do believe.

Ahhhhhh Spring

settled

Well i settled nearly 3 weeks ago?

Lawyer said it would take a bit before the cheque was ready for me - 2 weeks - hmmmmmmm ........ so where is it?

GlubGlubGlub

found a very curious website through work. Shows actual cases that got settled, as long as it was from a judge, and the settlements that got Got fro going to court!

courts.gov.bc.ca - -

BRIDEZILLA

BrideZilla, me?

I was accused of it by my Sister. I don't or didn't think I am. But maybe I am and just don't recognize it.

Am I?

she says I haven't shut-up about my wedding since I got engaged and that's what makes me a BrideZilla. Of course I am talking about it. I am totally excited! 41 and getting married for the first time. WOOOooooooo.

I thought a BZ was when you had to have everything your way and were a complete Jerk about it. I thought i was being easy going. Seriously, if it were my way or the highway Sister, i wouldn't care about your post pregnancy bumps and MAKE you wear satin as I'd like. As a matter of fact, instead of being reasonable, I'd have you in the blue like Charley ....... but instead i want you to be comfortable and feel pretty at my wedding. so compromise it is to Black Chiffon.

The invites aren't perfect, and I am not freaking out about it. I am not getting the shoes I dreamed of. The Best Lady sint going to be wearing what i'd like, but whatever. I am not spending ridiculous money, on over the top centerpieces or decor or transportation or ........... i am coupon cutting and thrift store shopping for wedding supplies. I've even given in to not dancing with my groom. So i guess if thats makes me a BZ then guilty I am.

WAiting

I am so excited

invitations are out there and arriving at their destinations. Slowly, but they are getting there. I am waiting anxiously for RSVP's to go to our new email address. Some have come via FB . I am just so thrilled and so is Mntn.

Wishing Well Wishing Well!

Got the dresses ordered for Sister and Lottie - they will arrive the first week of June. My shoes .......4 weeks! Wooooo then I can go get the final fittings for my dress.

Its all coming together. Now to pay for it all - ACK!

Recluse

His other groomsman finally got back to him last night. Mntn has Only been calling him for Weeks!

Amidst rumours floating that this guy was not going to do it, mntn has been very sad about the so called 'friends' he has. His childhood friends. his eyes have been getting wider and wider to so many things in his life as we have gone on this engagement journey. I have childhood friends too. Muck is one of them. however, Muck is also the only one i have kept as close as I have. We have grown old together and been through A LOT together. These things have also made us closer with a bond that will Never break. Sisters - whether we like it or not.

Lives change and grow. Although i am not as close as i was to my other girlfriends of the past, doesn't mean we are not still friends. I have grown with new close friends along the path of life. Adding my bestie's Steph and Kodi to the mix.

mntn has a loyalty about him that I admire. He has committed to a life time of friendship with these people, but they are not healthy friendships any longer. They came from a different place in his life and as he grew up. he still remains faithful..........sometimes others don't. Or the grow in a different direction. There is Nothing wrong with that.

So the fella he asked to be a groomsman - i really do like him. But much like Mntn, being the center of attention is really scary. He spends most of his time in one of the nastiest bars in town drinking his life away. The rest of his time he spends at home not talking to anyone. He is a roofer. He is sooooo bent that mntn asked his Best friend to stand up for him - so she happens to be a woman - recluse guy is bent.

So finally last night he called. Guess he got the invite.

the best lady had FB'd him a letter and then Mntn left a very curt message yesterday.

Why does it have to get to that point? I hope he doesn't disappoint. I was just about going for the throat. I have put my stinger away for now, but if he wankers out anymore, the stinger is very easy access. Mntn knows this and doesnt' blame me one bit. he is also very glad that I have gone against all my natural instincts to have already rip him a new asshole. I am giving it time. Its not really my place, but if recluse keeps hurting the man I love .............he won't just be getting a new asshole

DRESSES ORDERED

SHOES ORDERED

WOOOOOOO!!!!!!

dancing

Well, so much for my dream of gliding across the dance floor with my new husband.

I have quit dance class. Forget it! Not going back with him. i am tired of the negative that flows from his mouth. The - see i (screwd) up again. - the eye rolls and the sighs .......... I am tired of feeling shitty. I am tired of standing in my kitchen on my nights off waiting for him to get up off the couch, after he's agreed to practice, and come dance with me.

So we are not dancing at the wedding, we are not dancing in the copper room. We are not doing it! I now refuse! Does he know this?

No.

I left class the other day, he many steps behind me, not speaking. As a matter of fact, i didn't speak to him for hours. i was in tears when we got tot the car.

i get it. He can't hear or understand the beat of the music or how it works. I get it. So I try counting for him, he tells me to shut -up. I do, and then he's off beat again.......complaining and just standing there instead of trying to get back to the basic step. I've told him - if we screw up, just go back to the basic step. We'll find each other and continue on...........

So forget it!

Wedding is so close now

4 1/2 months

ACK!

Aaaahhhhhhhh Meds