I say....gather them all up. Put them on an island or behind a really really high electric fence with access to the crack and meth they soo crave. They'll kill themselves off. The ones that want actual help can raise a white flag and be airlifted to Re-hab.
yah I'm cold
just remember ................. my Sister was a Cracker not too many years ago .......... and still struggles .............
Crack Island is the way to Go!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Carp!
how is it possible, after getting rid of Sooo much when we moved 8 months ago, that I still have piles of Carp???
Actually its not me. Its my room-mate, The Queen!
She keeps growing so I have all these stupid shoes that don;'t fit her anymore laying about. Toys, friggin Dress-up! Barbies, drawing crap, books, stuffies, clothes...........
i havn't had the chance since moving in to go thru my room and organize it! I'm so busy every weekend doing house chores and then her room and now outside and.............Aaaaaahhhh!
I need days off during the week, when no one is here, I don't have to pick anyone up or feed them or ANYthinG for anyhone else!!! i want to lock myself in my room and be left alone for a whole day.
Actually its not me. Its my room-mate, The Queen!
She keeps growing so I have all these stupid shoes that don;'t fit her anymore laying about. Toys, friggin Dress-up! Barbies, drawing crap, books, stuffies, clothes...........
i havn't had the chance since moving in to go thru my room and organize it! I'm so busy every weekend doing house chores and then her room and now outside and.............Aaaaaahhhh!
I need days off during the week, when no one is here, I don't have to pick anyone up or feed them or ANYthinG for anyhone else!!! i want to lock myself in my room and be left alone for a whole day.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Missing her Great Gramma
Charley has been having a rough time. More attitude at home. it has leaked into school. She's been acting out.
She misses her Great Gramma
i have been encouraging her to talk about it more here at home. Last night I went in to check on her like I do after she's gone to bed.
There she was, half asleep, with a pic out of her personal photo album.
Great Gramma was on her bedside table. Along side another pic of Great Grandad. she looked up when i came over to her and the tears started. So we cried together.
My poor little munchkin. Death is so hard. I've been trying to help her channel her grief, talk about it and cry when she needs to.
She misses her Great Gramma
i have been encouraging her to talk about it more here at home. Last night I went in to check on her like I do after she's gone to bed.
There she was, half asleep, with a pic out of her personal photo album.
Great Gramma was on her bedside table. Along side another pic of Great Grandad. she looked up when i came over to her and the tears started. So we cried together.
My poor little munchkin. Death is so hard. I've been trying to help her channel her grief, talk about it and cry when she needs to.
She had a special relationship with her Great Gramma and it was sooo very special! For that I am glad. It hurts for her as it does for me. but this is her first death. I hope i can guide her thru it in a healthy way this first time so she can be okay for the others that are sure to follow. Something i never got or learned till much later in life. Dealing With Loss. Don't Ever just not do Step 1
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Sunday, May 25, 2008
Horn Creek Park
Charley and I wnt on a walk yesterday and found the Bestest Pond Ever!
the walk was wonderful. Thru the bushes and trees, river.....
then we found the best Pond Ever nestled away.
There were a few ducks and a Turtle!
So today we took Mountain and Teaghan there. and today there were more ducks. The turtle and 3 Raccoons! How cool is that?!!
We stood and watched for a long time.
we came to find out there is actaully 3 turtles. WOA! Wild turtles in the city. I wonder if its the Teenage Mutant Ninja turtles?!! Holy Moly!
oh and Yes.
WE ARE GOING TO MADONNA!!!
YaY!!!
It took forever to get thru online. I was actaully starting to get concerned. i got on Right at 10AM on the dot! and the minute searcher minder thing started at 2min. then jumped to 6 then back to 3 then up to 8 and then up to 9. it took forever........but there was no way i was giving up. I sat and clicked and waited. and when my 4 came up...........i didn't ask questions and I don't care where it is...........We Are going!!!
Muck, Myself, Kodi and Sister.
YeeeHaw!
I am so excited. and Sooo lucky to have gotten tickets. CAuse apparently they sold out! But I had mine by 10:15 SAturday Morning!
the walk was wonderful. Thru the bushes and trees, river.....
then we found the best Pond Ever nestled away.
There were a few ducks and a Turtle!
So today we took Mountain and Teaghan there. and today there were more ducks. The turtle and 3 Raccoons! How cool is that?!!
We stood and watched for a long time.
we came to find out there is actaully 3 turtles. WOA! Wild turtles in the city. I wonder if its the Teenage Mutant Ninja turtles?!! Holy Moly!
oh and Yes.
WE ARE GOING TO MADONNA!!!
YaY!!!
It took forever to get thru online. I was actaully starting to get concerned. i got on Right at 10AM on the dot! and the minute searcher minder thing started at 2min. then jumped to 6 then back to 3 then up to 8 and then up to 9. it took forever........but there was no way i was giving up. I sat and clicked and waited. and when my 4 came up...........i didn't ask questions and I don't care where it is...........We Are going!!!
Muck, Myself, Kodi and Sister.
YeeeHaw!
I am so excited. and Sooo lucky to have gotten tickets. CAuse apparently they sold out! But I had mine by 10:15 SAturday Morning!
Friday, May 23, 2008
up at 5:30 AM
Yup. I was up at 5:30 this morning. Dozed a bit till my alarm went off at 5:45AM
I was up making coffee. Brushing teeth, washing my face. i sat down in front of my computer at 6:03 with my cup of coffee. Only a sip out of it when the Madonna alert went off!
I dialed
and dialed
and dialed
Both phones going. I got thru!!! They were answering the phones. I was waiting for my ringing to stop and hear Nat say good morning.
DAmn! It wasn't me! but I stayed on with the ringing anyhow, cuz I wanted to know. I was 10. 10!!!!
so it went off again not long ago. so again I tried............
never got thru this time at all. POOOO!
so i will try a couple more times I hope before I have to truck my butt off to work. Hopefully one last time between 5 & 6 tonight.
Maybe I should call in sick....................
I was up making coffee. Brushing teeth, washing my face. i sat down in front of my computer at 6:03 with my cup of coffee. Only a sip out of it when the Madonna alert went off!
I dialed
and dialed
and dialed
Both phones going. I got thru!!! They were answering the phones. I was waiting for my ringing to stop and hear Nat say good morning.
DAmn! It wasn't me! but I stayed on with the ringing anyhow, cuz I wanted to know. I was 10. 10!!!!
so it went off again not long ago. so again I tried............
never got thru this time at all. POOOO!
so i will try a couple more times I hope before I have to truck my butt off to work. Hopefully one last time between 5 & 6 tonight.
Maybe I should call in sick....................
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Feeding?
the Church is feeding "homeless" people in the park!
Are you kidding me?!!
Do you feed a stray dog and not expect it to come back?
How about the squirrels in your back yard, until they multiply and take over?
What about the sweet raccoons, then suddenly your cat is gutted on your doorstep?
I ask...are you an addict?
Are you homeless or monitarialy handicapped?
Do you know these "homeless" personally?
Well, I am all of the above.
Sure. If you truly believe these people to be homeless, than by all means help them. You are kind and generous, but invite them to your church to do it. Or at least in the church parking lot. But please, Please stop enabling them.
Hunger pangs in their stomachs go a long way to help them SEEK re-hab.
If your neighbour decided to open his home to these people and feed them how would you feel having them next door? How would you feel knowing each day they would be passed out in his yard? Sometimes yours because they got lost? WAtching your wife in the yard? Your kids riding their bikes? They would be passing your house every day. What would your guests think? Would they come over? This is what is happening downtown.
These are not truly homeless people.
They are crack heads/addicts that have been thrown out by loving parents that thought they were doing the best they could. Or they have left their homes, foster homes, wives/husbands because of their habit.
These are people that have made the choice to be this way. Its merely a symptom of what is really wrong with them. Maybe it was a one time thing that became a lifetime. Still only a symptom as to why they even started. Whatever their own personal reasons....they still have to WANT to make a choice to be clean. There are beds. There is re-hab.
Trouble being....it is being taken advantage of by the ones that are not serious about getting clean. They are using and abusing it. Ever wonder why there are no pay phones or public washrooms?
These are not people that work hard, have a job, and just don't make enough to make ends meet!
Is the the church the beginning and end of the problem? No, but they aren't helping it.
Re-hab will only work for a small few of them that WANT to be helped. But I am sorry to say, 3/4 of these people don't want to be helped! They don't know they have a problem!!!
So bring them into the loving arms of the church. Provide them with a cup of coffee and cheerios a muffin. Witness to them. You will slowly weed out the ones that really need you. Those are the ones you are truly helping. Educate yourselves in the ways of re-habilitation/resources so that you can help them further. You are doing God's work and absolutely should be! All that is being asked of you is to do it in a more constructive way.
But Please don't encourage them in the park.
They linger. They loiter. They stick around because they are comfortable. Then they spread out and break into your homes, your cars, our stores. They spend their days drinking on the streets, harrassing shoppers, panhandling, stealing, shoplifting. Only to come "home" again to the park. Cause if the church deems it okay.......it must be.
You can't honestly be that blind to not know the power of the church community in this town. The addicts sure aren't. They also know your hearts are too big for your own good sometimes.
Do I have an answer as to what to do about these scabby, slobbery, smelly humans that walk the downtown streets of Abbotsford like something out of Resident Evil?
No. Not a good one. Not one that is very nice anyhow. I do however know that enabling bad behaviour only makes it continue more and allow the individual to feel "okay" with their behaviour.
So we start where we can. Please don't encourage them.
In AA, you don't allow people in the group to show up drunk. You start back at day 1 sobriety. There is no such thing as a "little" drink. Its total accountability.
When your child behaves in an indecent manor, do you turn a blind eye.
How many of you will go back to the same shop because you once got a good deal there? Or shop at a certain vegetable stand because they have the best fruit in the valley? Maybe go back to a coffee shop because the girl that served you was so nice? People are habit forming creatures. Lets give these people a healthier habit.
Would you allow your children to play in that park and talk to those people? Would you allow them to teach your kids by their actions? I applaud your good will! However, you are not seeing the negative ripple effects of your actions.
I will repeat myself one more time.
These "homeless" don't need your help. 3/4 of them are using you and laughing at your gullibleness all the way to their next hit or their next deal. As a matter of fact, some of them aren't even homeless!!! They just look like they are. How in touch are you with what you are doing? Do you actaully KNOW any of these people?
As I began with - would you continue feeding the stray dog and honestly not expect it to hang around?
Help them by doing it in God's house. The ones that truly need it will come.
Better yet, donate your coffee and cheerios to the food bank. Volunteer your services and time to the Salvation Army. Abby house! Triangle! There are a number of services that could use some help.
Do we need cheaper housing?
Of course!! Absolutley. Than maybe as a church, purchase a large home to house some of these people. Maybe a few apartments. Pointing fingers at what is not being done is easy. My finger is out there right now. If you know what the community needs than maybe as a church family you can go about providing it since you feel the "city" is not.
Educate yourselves in the help that IS out there not what isn't.
Are you kidding me?!!
Do you feed a stray dog and not expect it to come back?
How about the squirrels in your back yard, until they multiply and take over?
What about the sweet raccoons, then suddenly your cat is gutted on your doorstep?
I ask...are you an addict?
Are you homeless or monitarialy handicapped?
Do you know these "homeless" personally?
Well, I am all of the above.
Sure. If you truly believe these people to be homeless, than by all means help them. You are kind and generous, but invite them to your church to do it. Or at least in the church parking lot. But please, Please stop enabling them.
Hunger pangs in their stomachs go a long way to help them SEEK re-hab.
If your neighbour decided to open his home to these people and feed them how would you feel having them next door? How would you feel knowing each day they would be passed out in his yard? Sometimes yours because they got lost? WAtching your wife in the yard? Your kids riding their bikes? They would be passing your house every day. What would your guests think? Would they come over? This is what is happening downtown.
These are not truly homeless people.
They are crack heads/addicts that have been thrown out by loving parents that thought they were doing the best they could. Or they have left their homes, foster homes, wives/husbands because of their habit.
These are people that have made the choice to be this way. Its merely a symptom of what is really wrong with them. Maybe it was a one time thing that became a lifetime. Still only a symptom as to why they even started. Whatever their own personal reasons....they still have to WANT to make a choice to be clean. There are beds. There is re-hab.
Trouble being....it is being taken advantage of by the ones that are not serious about getting clean. They are using and abusing it. Ever wonder why there are no pay phones or public washrooms?
These are not people that work hard, have a job, and just don't make enough to make ends meet!
Is the the church the beginning and end of the problem? No, but they aren't helping it.
Re-hab will only work for a small few of them that WANT to be helped. But I am sorry to say, 3/4 of these people don't want to be helped! They don't know they have a problem!!!
So bring them into the loving arms of the church. Provide them with a cup of coffee and cheerios a muffin. Witness to them. You will slowly weed out the ones that really need you. Those are the ones you are truly helping. Educate yourselves in the ways of re-habilitation/resources so that you can help them further. You are doing God's work and absolutely should be! All that is being asked of you is to do it in a more constructive way.
But Please don't encourage them in the park.
They linger. They loiter. They stick around because they are comfortable. Then they spread out and break into your homes, your cars, our stores. They spend their days drinking on the streets, harrassing shoppers, panhandling, stealing, shoplifting. Only to come "home" again to the park. Cause if the church deems it okay.......it must be.
You can't honestly be that blind to not know the power of the church community in this town. The addicts sure aren't. They also know your hearts are too big for your own good sometimes.
Do I have an answer as to what to do about these scabby, slobbery, smelly humans that walk the downtown streets of Abbotsford like something out of Resident Evil?
No. Not a good one. Not one that is very nice anyhow. I do however know that enabling bad behaviour only makes it continue more and allow the individual to feel "okay" with their behaviour.
So we start where we can. Please don't encourage them.
In AA, you don't allow people in the group to show up drunk. You start back at day 1 sobriety. There is no such thing as a "little" drink. Its total accountability.
When your child behaves in an indecent manor, do you turn a blind eye.
How many of you will go back to the same shop because you once got a good deal there? Or shop at a certain vegetable stand because they have the best fruit in the valley? Maybe go back to a coffee shop because the girl that served you was so nice? People are habit forming creatures. Lets give these people a healthier habit.
Would you allow your children to play in that park and talk to those people? Would you allow them to teach your kids by their actions? I applaud your good will! However, you are not seeing the negative ripple effects of your actions.
I will repeat myself one more time.
These "homeless" don't need your help. 3/4 of them are using you and laughing at your gullibleness all the way to their next hit or their next deal. As a matter of fact, some of them aren't even homeless!!! They just look like they are. How in touch are you with what you are doing? Do you actaully KNOW any of these people?
As I began with - would you continue feeding the stray dog and honestly not expect it to hang around?
Help them by doing it in God's house. The ones that truly need it will come.
Better yet, donate your coffee and cheerios to the food bank. Volunteer your services and time to the Salvation Army. Abby house! Triangle! There are a number of services that could use some help.
Do we need cheaper housing?
Of course!! Absolutley. Than maybe as a church, purchase a large home to house some of these people. Maybe a few apartments. Pointing fingers at what is not being done is easy. My finger is out there right now. If you know what the community needs than maybe as a church family you can go about providing it since you feel the "city" is not.
Educate yourselves in the help that IS out there not what isn't.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
DIE!! you Slimy legless Bastards!!
WEnt out after supper to peek at my garden. Slug Bait bought at Home Depot this afternoon in hand.....
those Little Bastards ate my sunflowers!
Only a few, well 5, but Frig. Ate them right out of the safety cover of the seed that was still over the leaves that were trying to Burst forth! Reduced a couple petunias that I just planted sunday to chewed up leafless messes.
WEll i sprinkled that slug bait EVERYWHERE! Assholes! Mess with me will ya'
it was stuff made by Safer's, apparently safe for pets and children.....so Okay. I sprinkled it all over. I guess we will see.
those Little Bastards ate my sunflowers!
Only a few, well 5, but Frig. Ate them right out of the safety cover of the seed that was still over the leaves that were trying to Burst forth! Reduced a couple petunias that I just planted sunday to chewed up leafless messes.
WEll i sprinkled that slug bait EVERYWHERE! Assholes! Mess with me will ya'
it was stuff made by Safer's, apparently safe for pets and children.....so Okay. I sprinkled it all over. I guess we will see.
I Played in Poo Dirt
This is what it looked like the day I took possesion........
Now - This......
Now - This......
WoW. I need another day off. I am tired. Besides the fact that I didn't get ANY of my house chores done. CaRP!
But its done.
The front is done. I had a vision and Mountain went about helping. I laid rock and built walls while he shoveled Poo dirt. Stomped it down, and then shoveled some more. We managed 3 levels. Grass seed is down. I can't believe I'm going to say this, but.....thank goodness for the rain! My right hand muscles are sore from all the rock picking up and placing. Building a 2 or 3 level rock wall is not easy. Who'd a thunk? We managed to use all the materials we already had. Poo Dirt was the only addition. Cool! Didn't cost me anything but that P.D. I got a CAlifornia Lilac planted in the front and a proper Lilac tree/bush in the back.
Those I did pick-up. But the rest.........
I have 2 rose bushes that have to go in. Mom has a Cala Lily, a Fuschia Bush, and Lavendar for me. The one thing I have to remember is spacing. I put a thyme plant in amongst the rocks and some other pretty little thing that I can't remeber the name of. I want to put thyme in between all the rocks on my rock path too.
Foxglove and Hollyhock are calling to me. Oh is that Lupin too!??
So the Lilac in the back is planted in hopes it will grow up in front of the Nieghbors Living room window to provide both of us some privacy. The window is on the side of the house and looks right into, or onto my little spot there. It won't get too tall so that is good. I'll just stay on top of it with the pruning so it actaully looks like a tree not a bush.
So now onto the back yard.
Our sitting space is done....pretty much. Now its onto the patio, pond, shed, Fence, and back stairs. Wowsers! our summer is laid out.
Sweet peas and Sunflowers are coming up nicely.
It'll be nice to show off my yard in a few weeks when some of the ladies come for some girl time, Hanky Panky Party. Forget the sex products! Let me show you my yard!
Mountain and I worked well together. It was so comfortable, so nice. I love building our yard together. I honestly can't believe how good it feels to have a partner. We only snapped at each other a little bit! Grumpy and hot. Charlotte buggin' Life Happens. I spent some time sitting with Charlotte. Our feet in the pond feeling the fish nibble at our toes talking about stuff.
It was a really great long weekend.
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Friday, May 16, 2008
DIRT
Rhodo i moved from the other place. Isn't it beautiful!
LoL!!!
Dirt, Dirt, Dirt, Dirt, Dirt, Dirt.........
Haven't secured the plan of what I am doing in that front bed yet. But whatever it is.......I'll be dirty. it even smells like poo! How awesome is that! Its good stuff. i got it.....2 yards for 30bux! Delivered and dumped. Its good to have friends. Now for the weekend workout.
Enjoy your long weekend.
You know what I'll be doing.
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Wednesday, May 14, 2008
I HAVE DIRT COMING TOMORROW!!
ITS GONNA BE ONE DIRTY WEEKEND!!
if you come by and you see me making dirt angels.............I'm sure you'll understand.........
if you come by and you see me making dirt angels.............I'm sure you'll understand.........
good News
Grandad is Paying for Piano lessons!!
YaY! I am sooo happy. Charley is going to be super bitter, but thats fine.
I'm glad that he realized the relationship Nan and I had was NOT about money. He saw that when he was here for dinner the other night. While I held his hand and just let him cry. The others yelling at me to stop. He just lost his wife a couple weeks ago of 65 years! Let him have his pain!! so i did. and I listened and I waited and I held his hand......
I am having a hanky Panky party on June 8th. I figure it will be a nice Sunday afternoon with the girls. I'll feed you. I have freezies! haha
Muck got her House!!!
YaY. Hooray! I soo happy for her. Happy Mortgage Muck!
I like Happy!
YaY! I am sooo happy. Charley is going to be super bitter, but thats fine.
I'm glad that he realized the relationship Nan and I had was NOT about money. He saw that when he was here for dinner the other night. While I held his hand and just let him cry. The others yelling at me to stop. He just lost his wife a couple weeks ago of 65 years! Let him have his pain!! so i did. and I listened and I waited and I held his hand......
I am having a hanky Panky party on June 8th. I figure it will be a nice Sunday afternoon with the girls. I'll feed you. I have freezies! haha
Muck got her House!!!
YaY. Hooray! I soo happy for her. Happy Mortgage Muck!
I like Happy!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
HOT SUN 4 MAY LONG WEEKEND!!!!
I can't remember the last nice may long weekend we've had.
i can harldy wait!
BBQ Here we come!
The only plans we have is to be here and hang and work in the yard. Oh Wait! I was invited to Bert's. So I'll do that and give Mountain some free time. But other than that.....we will be here.
I have Freezies.........and a pond....I know. Its tempting. I alos have Frog tukes! Thats when the party really begins
Monday, May 12, 2008
my brain is going to explode!
My mind is being flooded with so many thoughts
being smart and making the 'right' decisions
or taking a chance
What do I want? I mean, i know what I want. but do I want it now?
How is it possible?
What if its not?!!!
What if I decide on it later and then.................nothing - too late.....
or - Too Late!
I;m on the fence between sensible and what most would say ..... stupid.
but my fence is being taken away from me and soon, so very very soon .... the choice will be made for me .......
Aaaaaaahhhhhh!
being smart and making the 'right' decisions
or taking a chance
What do I want? I mean, i know what I want. but do I want it now?
How is it possible?
What if its not?!!!
What if I decide on it later and then.................nothing - too late.....
or - Too Late!
I;m on the fence between sensible and what most would say ..... stupid.
but my fence is being taken away from me and soon, so very very soon .... the choice will be made for me .......
Aaaaaaahhhhhh!
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Hi Its Me Kristi!
Hey! FAcebook is working for me again. Don't know what happened there. But it was most pissing me off for a couple hours. I went to bed.
My period finally stopped after its 22 day run. Menopause is a Bitch!
The hot flashes are gonna be great when they start I just know it. i keep wondering how many eggs i have left. Sounds funny doens't it? but I wonder...I mean its not like I can just look in the fridge and count....how do you know? My mom had to have all her stuff removed when she was in her early 40's cause of the non-stop bleeding thing. I'm just not ready for that. I can't afford a week off work! LoL!
I had a stupid Migraine all day Friday caseu i was so low in iron, or protein, or something....... Finally had a burger and felt loads better. note to self - listen to cravings!
So along with the passing of Nana went the passing of Charlotte's piano lessons. This totally sucks! Grandad is Very tight with his money. And is not even up for discussion about it. Besides the fact that he is till super grieving the loss of his wife. but I havn't re-registered Lottie for next year becaseu I can't pay for it. Every time she sits to play I cry. This festival is not going to be the same without Nana sitting there on the edge of her seat. I will be sobbing the whole time. As I am sure so will my mom and especially my dad.
Mountain is going to the island to see his mommy this weekend for Mother's day! That will be nice. She lives tooooo far away. She needs to at least be on the mainland. But he is going to visit and spend some much needed time with her.
I have being doing good with the "Stopping" its good to talk about it. Once its out there it makes a difference for me. i haven't totally stopped cuz I don't want to, but I have managed to keep things in check and in control. I would still like to curb it more. I'll get there.
I've managed to lose wieght. Not a lot, but its slowly coming off. Watching what I eat and drink is making a Huge difference. I am also outside a whole lot now too. Gardening is a big calorie burner. Speaking of Gardening....I need drit for my front bed damn-it! I looked into Cannor nurseries......55bux to deliver and that doens't include the dirt! holy carp! I am researching....i'll find something else. My neighbor has a brother and a connection. We'll see.
This mothers day is goijng to be hard.
The head mother of our family only just left us.
My daddy doens't have a mommy anymore. After nearly 64 years of having one......
Poor daddy. Sister and I are having a do here SAturday night. Grandad will be here too. It'll be nice. Although the inside of my house needs some work cause I have been concentrating on the outside the last few weekends........another busy weeeknd this will be. Maybe I can sleep in on Sunday.........HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
thats ok.
it will be nice just me and the Queen. Maybe the rain will run away and I can enjoy my yard. Thats my fav thing. If we can have tea outside.......Perfect!
Anyhow must run.
Apparently I need to purchase A new bathing suit for Charley today for a swimming B-day party she is going to tomorrow night. Frig! Why do they always grow!
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My period finally stopped after its 22 day run. Menopause is a Bitch!
The hot flashes are gonna be great when they start I just know it. i keep wondering how many eggs i have left. Sounds funny doens't it? but I wonder...I mean its not like I can just look in the fridge and count....how do you know? My mom had to have all her stuff removed when she was in her early 40's cause of the non-stop bleeding thing. I'm just not ready for that. I can't afford a week off work! LoL!
I had a stupid Migraine all day Friday caseu i was so low in iron, or protein, or something....... Finally had a burger and felt loads better. note to self - listen to cravings!
So along with the passing of Nana went the passing of Charlotte's piano lessons. This totally sucks! Grandad is Very tight with his money. And is not even up for discussion about it. Besides the fact that he is till super grieving the loss of his wife. but I havn't re-registered Lottie for next year becaseu I can't pay for it. Every time she sits to play I cry. This festival is not going to be the same without Nana sitting there on the edge of her seat. I will be sobbing the whole time. As I am sure so will my mom and especially my dad.
Mountain is going to the island to see his mommy this weekend for Mother's day! That will be nice. She lives tooooo far away. She needs to at least be on the mainland. But he is going to visit and spend some much needed time with her.
I have being doing good with the "Stopping" its good to talk about it. Once its out there it makes a difference for me. i haven't totally stopped cuz I don't want to, but I have managed to keep things in check and in control. I would still like to curb it more. I'll get there.
I've managed to lose wieght. Not a lot, but its slowly coming off. Watching what I eat and drink is making a Huge difference. I am also outside a whole lot now too. Gardening is a big calorie burner. Speaking of Gardening....I need drit for my front bed damn-it! I looked into Cannor nurseries......55bux to deliver and that doens't include the dirt! holy carp! I am researching....i'll find something else. My neighbor has a brother and a connection. We'll see.
This mothers day is goijng to be hard.
The head mother of our family only just left us.
My daddy doens't have a mommy anymore. After nearly 64 years of having one......
Poor daddy. Sister and I are having a do here SAturday night. Grandad will be here too. It'll be nice. Although the inside of my house needs some work cause I have been concentrating on the outside the last few weekends........another busy weeeknd this will be. Maybe I can sleep in on Sunday.........HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
thats ok.
it will be nice just me and the Queen. Maybe the rain will run away and I can enjoy my yard. Thats my fav thing. If we can have tea outside.......Perfect!
Anyhow must run.
Apparently I need to purchase A new bathing suit for Charley today for a swimming B-day party she is going to tomorrow night. Frig! Why do they always grow!
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Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
Good Time
He did hear me!
He did!
He did!
it was a good visit. I could see how hard Mountain worked at being more concious of what he was doing and what was going on. He had both girls while I went to the Work Thing. Friggin work thing. Right in the middle of my perfect Sunday afternoon. Anyhow.........
It was good.
Baby Steps
He did!
He did!
it was a good visit. I could see how hard Mountain worked at being more concious of what he was doing and what was going on. He had both girls while I went to the Work Thing. Friggin work thing. Right in the middle of my perfect Sunday afternoon. Anyhow.........
It was good.
Baby Steps
Saturday, May 03, 2008
from Puberty to MenoPause to .......
It was nice last SAturday when Muck came up.
Nana was dying and Muck came to be with the family.
Muck and I have been friends since we were 6. Thats 30 + years!!!
We sat outside in the dark with our wine staring at the pond.
It seems like yesterday we were sitting in my room in the closet with our wine contemplating boys. TAlking about when we are going to get our periods. Now here we are so many many years later talking about menopause and the unexpected changes that are happening to our bodies.
Life is truly a funky ride.
Nana was dying and Muck came to be with the family.
Muck and I have been friends since we were 6. Thats 30 + years!!!
We sat outside in the dark with our wine staring at the pond.
It seems like yesterday we were sitting in my room in the closet with our wine contemplating boys. TAlking about when we are going to get our periods. Now here we are so many many years later talking about menopause and the unexpected changes that are happening to our bodies.
Life is truly a funky ride.