and Here we are.......have Fun!

Ready!

I am ready!!

House looks good. they should be her any minute. Why do I feel like I forgot something???
Food prep lasdt night went okay until I sliced the top of my thumb nearly right Off!
Frig. Blood Everwhere! My apron. Kitchen Towels. Damn! Probably should've gone for stitches. However. I just wnated to get finished with the bleeding and get finished with the dinner. Appy's...and main course done last night. so only veg to worry about today!!
Charlotte and Mountain are inthe livingroom having a moment.
A bonding moment that is.
He is drawing with her.
That seems to be their thing.
Man I hope the Chicken is good!
it sure is nice to drink Chardonnay out of Crystal!
i never get to pull out my nicey nice's. Crystal and Silver.

OH THEY ARE HERE!!!!

Dinner Party

I have a dinner party for my parents 41st anniversary SAturday night.
So I am busy planning and figuring out how its all gonna work.
What am I gonna serve? How and when do I pick up all the stuff I need for it?
Time management! Friggin
I start on appy's tomorrow night.
Mountain is so sweet. He can't help me with the grass, house and Charlotte as he had originally intended as he suddenly has to work overtime. But he wants to help, so he offered to help pay for part of it. How darling is that?!???
Anyhow. It should be a good evening. I am looking forward to it.
Sister and Derwood will be here too.
Stuffed Chicken Breast is on the menu. 3 Cheese's are goin' in!
and since mom missed out on the Rumaki at Easter...I'll be making some of that too!
They were high-school sweethearts. My parents that is. Its wild to think they've been togehter so long. I came along 5 years later.

When you have no words a Hug will do

Whatever

A comment was made
I let it bother me for the last few days.
i am not going to anymore.

I am in a Fabulous relationship.
I have a good job and one that I love.
The Pinks have done a good job and I feel better than I have in years.
Charlotte is doing amazing in school.
WE will be able to purchase a house or something next year.
So in 2009 we can put some growth into our family.
This is what We are working towards.
Of course nothing is in stone and the skeletal plan could change. Depending on what life has to throw.

So there.

I've been seriously thinking over the last few months about handing over My Blogging Goddess Status and maybe hanging it up.
I struggle with things to Blog-On about anymore.
they come few and far between now.
And i am working more and doing more around the house. Charlotte has discovered home-made cookies are pretty good.
And I tell Mountain everything now.
WE talk a couple times a day. Soemtimes about stuff. Sometimes about nothing. Just touching base.
Its really nice to have that. He's my Best Friend and it is really very Neat!
So I find that not only do I not have the same stuff floating around in my head anymore that I need to get out. But that I just don't have as much to say.
Now see i already basically said that and I said it again!

Well the Rest of you Blog On!
I'm gonna Blog Read!

*Cheers*

I am holding My Own

I had my first official stint as Miller's Manager this weekend.

how awesome it was to feel Back!!

Friday night we hosted a party for the unveiling of the art for the art-walk. The host merchants were there as well as some counsellors, MLA, and deputy mayor. George couldn't make it as he has hurt his back last weekend. But his wife had been in during the week so that was cool. I got a big Hug from Mrs. Mayor.
So Friday...late afternoon..we closed the restraunt to the public for a couple hours while we did the thing. Mitch put on a fantastic buffet of appetizers.
I changed so I wasn't in uniform and I greeted the guests into my restuarant. It was so cool. Even cooler that Mitch just stood back and let me.
Being in the same place for so long I never really knew how much of my known-ness was from that or just being me. Well from i have learned over the last week......it was from just being me!
John Van Dongen sought me out to say hallo.
so did Ms. Ross as well as Mrs. Caldwell. I chatted and enjoyed. Feeling a little like Sally Field.
"they like me. they really do like me"
Tonight I closed the restaurant on my own for the first time.
Its so awesome that Boss Mitch finally feels comfortable to do that. He and his Lady have really needed the time off. And As long as i have a sitter I am more than wiling to do it!

I was so sexy this morning. All snotty from allergies. Drooling on my pillow cause I couldn't breath thru my nose. And he still sticks around! WAtery eyes and mascara as far as the eye could see. And he still thinks I am beautiful. What The...

Charley had the best time ever at gramma Bertrams. Bunnies and Quads and kids Oh my! I'm sure to pay for her exhuastivness tomorrow.

Well Blog on Dudes!

When 5 was my favorite number

Well, the title makes no sense.
5 is still my favorite number. But i do lean towards 7 now and then. amybe 5 cause of the mixture of curves and to-the-point edges. 7 is so finished...

FoF is wonderful. I appreciate how she speaks. her forwardness.
Chelle...same thing. She and I had a Rocky beginning a year ago. She has just always spoke her mind. Something i have always respected And yeah. She pissed me off! But i have always appreciated her forwardness and truthfulness as she has mine.

Lets Just Shit and Stomp in It people!

We are people right? Get over yourselves. Opinions are just that. Opinions. Look past and either accept or deny what you Truly see.

Did you know ther are a whole Pile of kids for adoption in B.C. right now?
I am pissed about that.
Reason being. There are so many Pro-Life people around. Yet when it comes to puttin the words to action they are nowhere to be found. CAn't you adopt the childs life you so-called, saved.
Well, these adoptive kids have issues.
So now they are in Foster care. Basically wards of the Government.

No Shit they have Issues!!! The mother Didn't want them. didn't want to be pregnant. So she lived her life. She did whatever. Was made to feel so guilty for her choice or her "mistake". That she couldn't make a better choice for herself or her unborn......now.....look where we are.

better?
No I think not.
Children that grow into teenagers with growth, developmental issues. FAS. Drug addiction. Because of pregnancy abuse.
No I am not talking about the dumb luck that happens when we take care of ourselves and genetics or nature kicks in.
I'm talkign about things that could have been avoided.

Way to RAise those crosses pro-lifers!

Abortion is a choice.
its a very serious, uneasy choice that I would not wish on anyone. However, it needs to be a personal choice between a woman and her body. We Know what we can handle.

No. At this point in my life it would not be my choice. But I would wish it to be there for my niece, daughter or friend.

Its a hard thing and I would play devils acvocate the whole way.
Its important that its the right choice for You.
not for your boyfriend, your parents or your church. for you!!
Its incredibly personal and difficult.

So why am I thinking?
Cause of the news broadcast.
all these kids with no homes or families.
Kids being adopted in from over~seas like crazy cause the kids here they don't want.
Why? Cause they are not what we refer to as Healthy?
Now I know this will hit home with one of you pretty strong....
when you are pregnant. You don't what is c0ming out of you. we/you are doing your best....and then...shit sometimes happens. Or it Doesn't. Depends on the Roulette wheel at the time.
We just all hope for the best. so what if its not quite what you expected? What Are you Gonna do?? Send it back??!!!?!@?
They are yours. Love,deal and parent. But yet ....adoption......its become so choice worthy.
If its not quite right....
its not like buying a car!
Don't like it. Friggin Pro-lifers that make it hard.
have You had a miscariage in the early stages??? WEll I have.
so don't give me no pictures or heart beating crap!
Do you eat eggs?
What about cow or pig?
Or hey. Lets talk about the last time you killed a spider or a mosquito and why................

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Frig!

I think its time to do a check on our........'favorite numbers'

Hmmmm

So Mom has been lurking over on my photo-blog. I wonder if she tried to get in here and got the big UNINVITED sense to it all......
I hope so. Maybe I can go back to a full on blog. Then again....at least Now I know exactly who's reading. The Evil anonymous or 'me' or good anonymous.....ect. can no longer wierd me out.

What a beautiful weekend.
i gardened of course. Mountain mowed my lawn. He is Such a Good man.
Charlotte was at a birthday party yesterday afternoon, so we got to indulge in some most fantastic afternoon sex! Aaah yes. How Fantastic it was!
I have decided just to weed and spread seed in my garden this year.
Its wierd to think I might just all of a sudden not be here. My lilac is budding like crazy. I can harldy wait.

I wrote a letter to a friend yesterday that made me think a lot about Mountain. I'm glad that it shows thru here in my blog how very happy and content I am. How wonderful he is and how lucky i am to have him in my life.
I started to reflect on the past 20 years. 20 years of tears and trying and wishing. years of dreams jsut tossed aside or afraid to be seen. Years of broken hearts and painful, truly Awful relationships.
i can honestly say I've been thru more shitty relationships and emotional pain than most I know.
Mountain and I met 18 years ago.
He was dating a girlfriend of mine. this is somehting we just only recently figured out.
Over the next many years....we have been at the same parties....drank in the same bars and clubs....been at a common friends house...... I Never gave him a second look. He smoked. He smokes Pot. He is a blue collar worker.....What could he possilby have to offer me?
Parallel paths for 18 years and finally colliding last June.

Well.....because of 20 years of crap I sure have it figured out. I now see his worth. His value. i wouldn't have even seen a couple years ago.
He is an amazing man. Truly beautiful.
WAding thru all the bad stuff has soo been worth coming out on the other side.
Those were and are important lessons I HAD learn. Had to experience. I had to go thru Hellin order to appreciate.
I'm sure there will be more that we will wade thru. Only now, we will be waist high together.

Muck you are right. He is a man's man and Yes this house has been a true blessing to Charlotte and I.

Mountain is sticking around.
He's met my family. He's still sticking around. he is Really not going anywhere.
WoW!

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Generic

Well guess what I gound out when I went to get my Pinks yesterday????

For the last 4 weeks I've been taking Generic Pills again
No wonder Shit has been Funky!
No wonder my mind has been racing.
Not cause I need a higher dosage.
I needed the right Pink. Frig!!!
How did that happen you ask?
WEll. I had been using 2 different pharmacies.
My last prescription at my reg. Place i had experimented with the Generic. Then I went to a new one when i got the Name-Brand. When I went back to my reg. they had it on file that I do Generic. Over the last month I had only been filling a couple weeks at a time cause I just didn't have the money to fill the month. So last night when the Pharmacist said 45 dollars......I questioned it. at 2 bux a pill it should be more like 65!!!
thats when the Evil Generic plot was uncovered!
So much makes sense allof a sudden.
It'll take a week to get back to norm.
Mountain is happy about that too. Cause he was wondering. I had been oddly bitchy. avoiding him cause I didn't want to subject him to what I thought was PMS. The anxiety and pains when I found out about the house.
My Funky thoughts.......Memory shit......all due to GENERIC PINKS!!!!

Little Fuckers!

2 many Thoughts....such little Balls

life is a Funky Thought.

So many things these days floating around in my head.
-Mr. Big is engaged
-are Mountain and I working towards the same goal
-What am I going to do about this house situation
-how can I afford to buy my own home
-when will i have time to take the bags of Stuff to the MCC
-i need to get my oil changed
-i can't stand the wieght I've gained
-the Pinks are so expensive I need more,but can't afford them.
-Nanny girl needs to give me a months notice
-I want to garden......
-a year ago....where my mind was at. Where I was at. People......
-ami ever going to get better

family Easter Photo

Memory

Where does it go?
Aren't things worth remembering?
I think they are.
By the end of the day my memory is shot.
Wake in the morning and try to rmember what I did before i went to sleep and its like a blackout. Try to rmember what I did 3 days ago.....Holy Cripes!
Its phases in and out. Then there are just blank spots.
Its the Pinks. Wake up feeling drunk. go to sleep without any memory. Tired-yet not able to sleep. There are things I tell Mountain 3 or 4 times! He's so good about it. Sometimes he pretends like its the first time he's heard it. Takes a Great man to patronize me in a believable way.
Good thing I developed all those coping skills before the Pinks came along.
Patterns. things I just do on Auto here. Otherwise I'd be sitting comatose wondering What The Hell all the time.
I know I still need them and I am not completly okay yet......but boyz oh boys I cannot wait to get off them and get out of this Fog!

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dId It Go Well???

Well i think it went well.

Mountain showed up here all ready. We were wearing the same colours.....
I l0oked at him....well thats it...you know we're a couple now.
I said I was wearing my green dress. And at the last minute found a stain on it. Had to find something else......seems he did the same with his blue shirt.
So we were both in redish, wine, pink tones. Well not him so much in the pink.
At just about the end of the night it was family picture time.
Now why they decided to do it at the end of the evening when all the make-up and hair just isn't right anymore I'll never know.
There we were. All 17 of us INCLUDING MOUNTAIN posing for the family photo.

So maybe it was because mom had read my blog. Or well, nope that had to be it.
everything felt different. I got to drink!
Mountain was driving.
He had a rough night last night.
So it was my turn. There were no sideways funky looks from my mom. She didn't push Sprite on me as a choice of drink.
What The Hell!
Mountain and i spent most of the evening togehter.
He enjoyed himself.
I lovedhaving him there.
I showed him thru the house. Explained the different rooms. Showed him my dads work. We stood on the back deck and i showed him as much of the yard as I could from where we were.
Moms supper was amazing!!

Wow. I sure have some deep thoughts coming on.
I sure am in Love.
Real down deep to my toes Love.
Nope it doesn't ache or hurt. It just feels so alive. I don't know how to explain it.
He went home tonight, and i don't feel any nagging fear or want of when will I see him agian. I just know I will and i am not worried. Does that make sense. I don't worry or wonder when we will talk again cause we just will and its all good. Its a feeling of complete contentment and satisfaction i guess.

Anyhow....I have more thoughts but must think them some more.

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funny

Its funny how now that my blog isn't 'public' anymore I kinda don't feel like doing it.
wierd?!??

Tonight is the night!
Appy's got made yesterday.
they don't seem like much, but mom said it would be.
Mountain had to test everything to make sure it all tasted alright.

Bobo got into town Friday. So we went to Sister's for the evening.
Mountain got to meet the siblings.
Sister streaked a pink bit into charley's hair.
The Cob is such a doll!
WEll
I better get it together.
Mountain needs to get home to shower and make himself pretty before this evening.

HOpe all your dinners go well.
I am only a little nervous. Hehe!

Is What its Like???

haven't seen him all week.

I;ve been bitchy and didn't want to subject him.

Its thursday. It's ear;ly work day and dinner day.
Mountain shows up with a gascan.
He is outside right this moment working thru the first cut of the year. In the backyard.
How much do i love him!!!!
I was gonna do it tomorrow.
Holy Heck!

He is so getting fantastic head tonight!

MoM

So sorry.

Guess mom can't stay away.
Found me thru Muck again.
So I just shut it down.
Those of you that are here have been invited.
The Secret Code didn't fool me Muck. I found it right away, guess so did my mom. Frig!

So dinner on sunday will be uncomfortable. My mom doens't accept fault in herself. So, me calling her judgemental probably really hurt her. I have said it to her before...just not so bluntly. I didn't want to hurt my mom. Just saying it how it is. I have used softer words in the past when talking with her.
so i suppose i need to confront her now.
DAmnit!
I really dont want to.
She doens't realize I can see when she's been in.
so if I don't confront her....i am no better than her...sneaking around....or Mr. Big.
And EWWWWWW!!! I certainly don't want to be anything like Mr. Big!

so I guess i'll wait till after dinner and she's had lots to drink and then.....
This sucks!
but for now.........Locked down
sucks for those readers of mine that are just hanging out. Never had a voice. Lurking in the shadows.


I was up in the middle of the night last night thinking about my Easter outfit.
Got a pretty little dress from Bert.
I don't have the right Black shoes to go with it. So I was awake picturing my black clunky boots....add a sweater...maybe a loose belt....I do't know. but let me tell you. I was a awake for at least an hour thinking about it.
Guess on my WAl-Mart shop this mroing I'll see if they have the Right black shoes to go....

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Simple Appetizer Ideas Anyone??

my contribution for Easter dinner on Sunday is appetizers.

so far I have Bruschetta-Rumaki-Spinach Dip....

Anybody got any other EASY INEXPENSIVE idea/recipes to share?

Not even sure if I'll do what I've got.
Just tossing it around.

HeLp!

Da Wabbitt is Coming, Hooray! Hooray!

WEll its here.
Easter.
on the weekend anyway.
Charley and I talked about Good Friday last night. Mostly cause its a holiday and she was trying to figure out where she was going. Then we talked about why its a holiday. HOw Jesus died. She told me how he was put in the cave and then came alive. I really think its neat how she knows these different things and we are not church goers.
Kudo's to me that I've managed to teach her.

She also knows that we get to colour Eggs on Saturday!
Mountain, I think, is joining us for the Egg ritual. They share a common interest of Art and creativity. I just do food colouring and vinegar. He's talking about wax ect. Whatever. I don't know anything about it. So if you do, great! Get it all together and you and the Queen can spend the afternoon creating. So we'll see.

Mountain doesn't have a lot of family type experiences under his belt.
This weekend he meets all of mine. Should be about 15 at my moms. I've gone 1 on 1 with his dad a few times now. so its his turn. In a big crowd he should be just fine.
He's met Sister already. And Derwood will be there. I'm sure they will have lots in common. And my Bo. He's already been warned about the judgemental eyes of my parents (my mother) So he's been prepped.
I feel we are pretty solid. Our relationship that is. At least thats how I feel and he has not given me any reason to feel differently. I hope he feels the same way.

Its the family joke, that as soon as a man I'm seeing comes to a family dinner, or meet my family, they break up with me. I Shit you Not! It truly happens! so I stopped bringing them. not that the chance has come up in the last few years....but still.

I think he is looking forward to it. And to the many, many family events after.
His dad has emailed the family(Mountains Sister) in England and told them all about me. His dad was here for Sunday dinner a couple weeks ago. I like him and we get along good.
so the Wabbitt wil come and hide his goodies!
Charley will be spoiled.
I think I will have to spoil Mountain too. he didn't get EAster hiding or that kind of thing while grwoing up.
time to sweat Blogger Dudes!
work off that Ass fat!

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Chardonnay!

Much Penguin was consumed this weekend!

Berta came over Friday evening for a sleepover.
My goodness.....is my knowledge of white wine becoming fantastic.
Those of you that know me, know i am not a white wine fan. Especially a Chardonnay!
Well, Berta has done a good job at finding ones that I like. My fav is still the Little Penguin. An Australian Chardonnay. We tried a couple others. I shared The Rodney with Muck last night. We both agreed that the Penguin was still the fav.
so much Girl time was had for me this weekend. Mountain was so good about it all.
Last night was very funny. Muck now has Bangs. Forgot all about that till I went and cleaned the bathroom this morning.
One thing i love about White wines is the lack of Headache the next mroning.
How yah Feeling Muck?!!???
Got some new clothes out of Berta's closet. How great is that!!!
I am thrilled. Mountain is too.
He likes the Jeans. You were rigth Bert.
So now I am cleaning out my closets....
Anyhow. Gotta go get the dough going for cinnamon buns.
I suppose I should look thru my camera too.
There was much action here. I'm sure some of it was recorded on the digital.....

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