Happy Birthday Grandad!

96 ToDay!

We went to his place and had a shinDig this afternoon.  It was wierd and cool all at the same time.  He was  very happy to see us all.  Its wierd to think, that might be the last time we are all with him at the same time.  He is 96 afterall.  He's lived longer than his daddy.  His Pa passed at 95......

i Love my Grandad!

She Got Silver!!!!

 Pics on my picture blog!

Brain Cells Unite!

I hate feeling drunk when I'm not and can't remember when I should.

Used to happen so much in those 5 years I was sober and I hated it then too.  The clumsiness.  The slurred words.  The "hang-over" feeling.   Arg!

she refers to Mountain as "dad" in her speech

Guess who made it into the Top 6 to speak to the Judges on Thursday?!!!!!

The Queen!

Science Project

I can't believe it.

We are done!

finished just before supper last night.  Holy smokes!

research. Speech.  Backboard.  Experiment. Duotangs.  Log Book.  Her Words!  Everyone helped.....

Of course it was like pulling teeth to get her to get 'er done! We Better Have All the Information!  I will lose my mind if we don't!

So today she hands it in.  

She has a presentation (speech) to do.  I wish I could be there to hear her.  She worked hard on her speech!  REally hard and practiced it on all of us.She has her outfit all layed out on her bed.  "My hair will have to be braided Mom"  such a professional......   Thursday is the Fair in the gym.  I'll take more pics then.  I think this is a good piece of work she can be proud of!  Now I can have my livingRoom back.  

Hmph?

Our foundations are different

mine is cement

his is blacktop

I don't know.  Its different programming, like windows versus apple.

how do you explain socially correct,  Acceptable and not, when in their circle its ok??  Than aren't you the one with the problem when you are standing alone.  Like the cheese.  Then don't you look like the raving idiot?  Social circles.  High class. Low class. Wannabee's.  Old money.  New money.  Good money. Bad.  White Collar.  Blue Collar.  Blue can still have White beliefs.  White can have Blue.  Whats the foundation.  Better yet - whats in the foundation?  Is it cracked?  Is it made pure?  Are there rocks in it?  has It been imported?  How old is it?  

Mine is quite old.  Made of bits from my mother and from my grandmother.  I guess its a hand-me-down and its still holding up Strong as I pass the same foundation on to my daughter.

you can't change someones foundations.

how do you find the door to lead in to maybe paint the walls a little?   I like the product that sits on the foundation.  I don't want that to change.  Nor would I be so unfair as to ask it too.  However...................is it possible to renovate?   

INFURIATED!!!!!

I am Livid about this...........

this is what I wrote to the teacher last night


I've been sick for most of the week. Charlotte came home talking
about a speech for her Science project. I hope she can get help at
school with it as I am too wiped out these evenings to give her a hand

thnk-you................K.

This is the response I got this morning

I'll try my best, but just in case there is step by step instructions in the science fair package. The pages are not in order but it on a page with the number 20 at the top. It's near the back of the package, it's pretty easy to follow. Hope you feel better.

Aaron Dugas

WHAT THE FUCK!!!

Mountain has not smoked in 2 days!

he went with a buddy to a hypnotist Monday night.  He is really trying.  This will be day 3.  This is when it starts to get real hard.  From about day 3 - 5

He has chosen to stay home tonight to get his laundry done.

I kinda don't think thats the best place for him.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed that he can make it.  Keep yours crossed too!

?? V.D ??

Why did y'all have such a wanker of a Valentine's??

I'd like To be 35 again

I think I am going deaf.  My hearing is going.  Has been off and on for a bit.  Since October.  It was really bad yesterday.  Today it seems a bit better.  Its very frustrating.  I am exhausted and just want to stay in bed.  This last year in my 30's is not really very nice so far.  I am determined to be super hot and in great shape for the turning of the decade.  Its not going so well.  I am so tired.  Anyhow..........

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Where the moon is

SCORPIO Moon

Passionate, Intense, Magnetic, Sexual, Powerful

Goddess - LILITH Goddess Altar



The Watery Scorpio Moon brings passion, desire and perhaps some possessiveness. We may be more intuitive about the motives of others, and are likely to fight harder than usual if necessary.

by this evening the moon will have moved into sagittarius.

 

SAGITTARIUS Moon

Honest, Straight-forward, Energetic, Optimistic, Wise

Goddess - KALI Kali Altar



The Fiery Sagittarius Moon impels us to speak honestly and get straight to the heart of the matter. Trust is strong, small talk is out... big dreams and lofty plans take shape in our minds. Take a little trip... read a book.

So I guess if the emotions were more to the negative this moon might hinder with its straight forwardness.  Guess it would depend on how well you take the truth.  Remember sometimes the truth stings.  So take some time for yourself.  Even if its just an hour, to reflect.

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Mountain & The Queen

*Oster*

I am most excited to have time, to maybe find time, to use my new food processor today!!!

Mountain dun good!

Moon Sign

Ooooh!

the moon is in Scorpio this weekend ladies.  

It'll be a sexy valentines!  How fun

Valentines Weekend

Friday the 13th tomorrow.  Yikes!

Valentine's Day SAturday!

I am work, work, working.

So we will celebrate in the morning.  with hugs and kisses and chocolates I think.  Nothing extravagant.   Sunday is back to Grade 5 for me.  Ugh!I am really not down withthis project.  Why do I have to do so much?  and who do I complain to to make such ridiculous things Stop!

I mean the science project is fine.  Its the open-endedness that has too.  Thats why the teacher can't keep up with his students.  Give them 5 things to choose from.  If Johnny the go-getter wants to go get on soemthing not on the list let him.  But if you had a handful of kids all doing the same thing their own way......at least then the teacher would maybe be able to have a clue. but instead.......I have done all the research with Charlotte.  I have done all the work.  I have done all the editing.  I am and will be doing the backboard.  I have to do a chart or a graph or somthing to put on this stupid fucking backboard.  While the teacher merely gives them time once a week in the computer lab.  He has not so much as even gone over anything she has done thus far to make sure she is heading in the right direction.  (which she isn't BTW)  we Fff'd up on some of the stuff cuz she didn't bring her Duotang home last weekend to show me exactly 'what we need now' so I made her do a bunch of stuff that it turns out isn't even required. However, I am not going to back track cuz last weekend was Hell.  I will work in and work it out some how.  But this is sooooo  fucked up. and I have to let her have her own words and its just not good.

So I will let it be and let her be and see what she gets.  She has been sorking so  Frippin' hard on this thing.  I hope it shows and that she gets a decent mark regardless of some missing information.

It just makes me feeel like a failure too cuz I've been helping her so much.

Oh Well.  maybe one day teachers will teach again.  and I will dream of being able to afford private schooling.

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Grrrr

I'm mad that I am grade 5

why is it up to me to do this with her?!!!

why is there a duotang sent home specifically for the parents?  ITS A SCHOOL PROJECT!!!!  Fuck!  Anyhow I am pissed and annoyed about that, but we are getting thru it.  With Much tears and yelling.  It sucks

I am irritated by Mntn.  

Stuff I'd like to get into, but becaseu i am respecting his wishes not to post i won't.

We'll see.  If I start to boil over........I'll post anyhow!

I'm pissed at my body.

I dont like my house and can't afford to make it so I do like it.

I can't find wood brackets for Shelves!!!  Ugh!

I am just not very happy these days!

Man  Livin' I am irritable!

i don't like being anywhere near myself today.  I am just a bitch!

sick

it is Sunday

i am tired.  I['vebeen sick since last week.  Sent home twice early because I am just gross.  and yet here it is My weekend.  A time when I should jsut be able to relax, rest and get better.........none Of the above has happend.

Mntn annoying the Piss our of me yesterday.

he;s made up for it today.  He vacuumed my car.  AWESOME!!!!  but now he is out for coffee with his dad.  Not a big deal.  I have to remind myself that it is his weekend too.  But Heck!  I have cooked dinner all weekend.  Even on the days I was sent home sick (thurs & frid) I took care of my family first.  I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO ASK FOR HELP!  he knows I am sick.   He knows I am not well.  I

I have cooked and cleaned and been working on The Queens science project all weekend!

Well, cleaned.......i pinesoled my bathroom - a dirty bathroom seriously ills me.  I vacuumed the house.  Cleared my kitchen counters of crap (another thing that ills me.  I CAN'T STAND clutter on my kitchen counters.  It gives me serious anxiety)  Laundry?  Yah kinda.  Some of its clean - dry - so much in piles in the hall that is supposed to be a laundry room.......

Queenie had a b-day party yesterday.  I went to Michaels during that time and picked up a shelf and a letter thingy that I am going to stain for the front door space.  Try to get a little more order.  I also picked up silver spray paint for Mr. Balls food tin. My pictures that I re-framed are still all over my floor.  Although I did move them from the living-room to the hall.  I have done a bad job at spraying the tin.  (yes Steph I took pics.  Just for you.  I will post them)  but damn it.  I would like to stain those things I bought.  I would like to have a nap.  I would like someone else to make dinner and clean it up!  C and I are on a break from science cause it is just too many hours now.  When is it due?  the 23rd.  So we have a bit yet. However - I work ALL next weekend.  so I NEED to get the bulk of it done this weekend so that for the weekend of the 20th all we have to do is the backboard.  Trying to get her to type stuff at school and print it off so we can look it over here at home is Nuts!  So I don't really know what she has completed.  There fore I am making her do and research other stuff here at home to 'fluff' it up.  this is a Friggin' joke and to top it all off I feel like crap!

for Mothers day this year I want everyone to Go away!

The Rules - Charleys Being Courted!

Remember these????


House Rules For Charlotte


1) Charlotte may NEVER call on a boy.
2) If a boy would like to see her he can call on her. This means either on the phone or by Knocking on the front door.
3) Charlotte is Not allowed in a boys house or his backyard where I or Lyle can not see her.
4) Charlotte is not to play "alone" or with a boy where she can't be seen publicly. There may be some acceptions to this rule - left to the discrepancy of Lyle or I.
5) Charlotte may "hang-out" in front of said boys house, but is not permitted to "hang-out" in front of other peoples homes unless she is with someone that lives in the home.
6) Charlotte is not allowed to "hang-out"
7) Boys are allowed to come to Charlottes house and play in her yard when an adult is home.
8) If, on the rare occasion, a boy is allowed in the house Charlotte can entertain in the living-room. The boy MUST check with his parent. If it is okay'd by a parent she may have him in her room only if the Door is OPEN. THIS CAN BE VETOED AT ANY TIME!
9) Boys are Not to linger outside or in front of the house waiting or spying or taunting. (see #2)
10) Charlotte is most definitely not allowed to be out after dark.
11) The Consequence For Not Respecting Any Of These Rules Can Result in - grounding - loss of privledges - Mom or Lyle taking action (mom will and can embaress and make anyones life a living Hell if she wants too) - FINALLY - Loss of Trust (Most Bad) to ever play with boy in question again. (Forbidden)!!!!
12) When the Street Lights come on that means it is officially Dark. That also means get your Butt home as you are now breaking rule #10!  

well........guess who finally got up the Nerve to Phone my girl last night?

Despite the fact that he thinks the Rules are "stupid"

I jsut e-mailed the teacher with a set so we are all on the same page.

Rules and Boundaries are never a bad thing.

this boy even went out of his way to Look up Charleys Phone Number in the Phone Book!!!

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Grade 5 Camp

Charlotte just came home today with the notice about the Grade 5 camping trip the school goes on each year in June.

Fabulous experience!  So fun and exciting!  I remember mine.  It was to SAlt Spring Island.  A lifetime ago, but the best trip Ever.  A giant slumber party with my school friends.  and I rmember it being a week.......anyhow

$183

my heart sunk.

I'm already socking my tips away so i can send her to Camp Squeah.

there is the 'finance for families' help.  I do that with summer camp, but not for this.  I won't do it.  Its embaressing.  They know my face.  Its more anon. for summer camp.  Go to the principal?  She knows me, i don't need her to know how broke we really are.  I'm even part of the PAC now.  So embarassing.  I can let my Pride go for church camp, but I won't let my daughters go in front of her peers for School Camp!

  

But what we will do - is Fundraise our Asses Off!!!!  

Panago Gift Certificates anyone???

its time?

I've been feeling ancy for the last couple months

Watching what I am spending.  Watching what Mntn is spending.  I am ready to say "YES" to the question on bended Knee.  Its time.

We've been dating for just over 2 years.  Its time.

I was very upfront about it not very long ago.  I hope he has figured that part of it out and is finding a way to save some money for that shiny piece of Hard see thru stone to put on my finger.

The wedding, no biggie.  i don't need anything but him and a JP.  but the Shiny is important.  it shows me how important I am to him.  and It shows others I am taken, Not available, Stop Asking me Out!  

If its purchased at a pawn shop, that  says to me he is cheap and I am not worth that much.  Lets not forget the bad vibes attached to someone elses heartbreak or been stolen.

anyhow, the reason I brought this up is becuase last night as I was getting ready  for bed and E-mail came in from a girl I've known for years.  She is engaged.  Engaged to a man she got with last year!  Great, Fine, I am truly excited for her.

THIS IS MARRIAGE NUMBER 4!

I know for Mntn a lot of the reason he has not put a ring on my finger is becuase he truly doens't have the money.  That would be why I've suddenly become a hawk.  i don't mean to and I am trying not to be cause its only going to stress me out and be angry.  But DAmn it!  Its time for me!  I;ve let him know its not about the money or how big the see thru stone is, its about how noticeable it is.  As long as it lasts forever, its from him, not been worn by someone else, (unless someone that had a good strong marriage)   Its special.  I'm happy. He could diamond cut a piece of stainless steel for my finger and I would be happy!

I'm irritated today.

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Jiggly

I am so frustrated with my body and the 2 inches of jiggle that is laying ever so nicely over my muscle.

I managed to get down by 5lbs and was so excited!  I was feeling not so 'stretched' in my skin.  than a week of feeling shitty about  the waiting I overindulged in a few different things I jsut shouldn't have.  Now I am back to feeling 'stretched' and uncomfortable in my skin again.

I've been sitting up each night.

Its the cardio.  I gotta stay on task in the mornings and get it done!

damn.  I was doing so well.

Its this stretched out feeling of my skin that makes me the most uncomfortable.  it really pulls and I feel like I can't bend I hate it!

one of the sucking parts is that I can still see my abs, its just under this layer that I can flick with my fingers and it wiggles around.  Ick!  Charley was watching me and says, doesn't that feel wierd mom?  look how it moves.

Yah thanks kid.

its jsut gotta go.  

More sweating needs to happen in this house.

hOw did i let this happen to me?

Aaaaahhh!

New Bed

for all of the Mom duties - I really need a bigger bed.  

A King size.

"mom.  I had a bad dream, can I sleep with you?"

in she climbs along with both her bears and then sleeps halfway into the middle of the bed katywhompus with her feet sticking out.  I almost had to leave!  

I chose instead to give her a kick and tell her to move over.

I miss when I had a king size bed

FAcebook Inbox

this is what I recieved this AM in my FAcebook inbox.

she went out of her way to create a new account with Facebook just to send it to me.  This is after she has left a comment on my foto-blog a couple days ago

Krista Brown
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Kristi,

I've had a little time to cool down after reading your comment left on my blog. I have to admit, I found it rather offensive and upsetting. Not only did you attack every aspect of my life, but also based most of your opinions of me on snippets of information, second-hand information, and assumptions... which resulted in a lot of stuff that you said being pretty far from the truth.

Firstly, I'd like to point out that you have never met me, have never spoken to me, and don't know me. As you say, you 'know things about me'... well, I know things about you too, like, for one, your grammar sucks, you can't spell, and when reading comments you write sometimes my eyes go cross-eyed from trying to comprehend what language you are speaking... I could surmise from this that you are a dimwit, an uneducated moron or a village idiot... but I prefer not to make snap judgments on people based on anything other than cold hard facts. There is so much more to a person... and although my dealings with you thus far have left a pretty bitter taste in my mouth, I am certain that there must be qualities about you that are admirable. Whether I see them or not from what you are showing me, I am refraining from calling you names or passing judgment on your lifestyle.

For the record, I am not bleeding anyone dry... I get what's legally allotted to me as child support... nothing more and nothing less. I do not neglect my children, if you'd ever bothered to talk to anyone who actually KNOWS me as a parent, lives with me, or has been around long enough to know me or my kids well enough to judge such things, you'd know that's the most laughable thing on the planet. My children are NOT neglected... far from it. And we may be living under a low income umbrella, however we work hard, and believe all work to be noble. We are not sitting on our asses on welfare. I work a full time job, and Shawn spends all his time looking for work and taking care of the kids after school.

The fact that we're living with my parents is only a sign of what amazingly loving and caring individuals they are, that they are willing to open their home and help put a roof over our heads when we have had a run of bad luck. I don't think it is a sign of us being 'leeches' as you put it, and nor does anyone else. Being laid off from his job 3 weeks before Christmas wasn't something Shawn asked to happen to him... This isn't a situation anyone 'dreams' of being in. It's sad that there aren't more selfless human beings out there like my parents who would open their hearts and homes to those in need.

As for the rest of the things you said... I really don't merrit any of it worthy of comment. Your opinions don't mean anything to me, and I'm not interested in commenting on such absurd remarks.

Krista

 For someone who claims to not give a shit what I say to go to so much trouble to tell me so.  i guess i hit more nerves than i thought.

Man a livin' I'm a Bitch.  

Being a bitch is one thing, but causing days and hours to be lost out of someone's life because of me........thats just down right mean and i'm not sure I like that.  this girl has dedicated a SAturday night to stewing over my words!

Who have I become?

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