Staff Party

Been invited to the staff party at the restaurant ..................

Snowflake Baby's

went for lunch with a girlfriend.

She was talking about Snowflake babies.

Opsy - I said wash the dish!

MOTHER

3 days to Go!

So I have a roast in the freezer waiting for its time to be a special dinner.

Mountain has been moving stuff in slowly. Which has turned out to be a good thing. I was irritated at first, but now its good. Everytime he brings a box........I gotta tear a closet apart to rearrange it to try to fit stuff in.

Last night he brought home his spices and more glasses and mugs..........where am i putting this stuff? my Garlic powder jumps out at me now cuz the cupboard is sooooo full. *sigh* So Much Stuff.

Today - he brings bedroom stuff. For anyone of you that have seen my bedroom ........ you know what a miracle it will be to fit the dressers in .......

ACK!

His dressers and closet clothes ..............

I am excited! What a big step this is for both of us. This is it. I'll never sleep alone again. WoW! I think i needed more of a celebration ............. I'm Never Going to Live Alone Again!

Holy Shit! This Is HUGE! I'm getting Married! - without the ceremony and the papers and stuff. But after 6 months we are recognized as that way anyhow - DAmn, I needed a stag! ......... this is soooo wierd..........my last few days living as a single lady ........... as a single parent ......... I'll Be Living In Sin! Hmmmmmm ............

Waiting

I am waiting for my Sister to go in to labor.

Full moon is upon us. Well it is on SAturday, but the surges should start. Kid is being a jerk. People are moody all over........

so I figure sometime between now and midnight she'll go in to labor. but Because she is a Huge Jerk and doesn't like to be told what to do, she'll go in to labor tomorrow.

So I am waiting till tomorrow midnight for labor to start. She'll do it just to show me up.

I'm sure she'll have them in her arms by Sunday!

I am also thinking, at least one of them is closer to 6lbs than she thinks. and I am still hoping for that little girl, but we'll see ........... rumor has it ........ they both have definite boy parts. ARG! I wanted a girl for her and my brother in-law. Oh Well.

i am excited for their arrival!!

I'd like to go to Disneyland or Arizona or the Bahama's or ........ away to a warm place ...........

and then when I get back Maybe Winter will have arrived!!

back thing

I have to share ....... my muscle spasm has FINALLY passed. Alvin is still alive and well, but the rock hard space from my shoulder blade to my butt has leveled off. YaY!!! So careful I will continue to be.

jsut the reg. pelvis ache. Thats cool.

I am even able to do my workouts every day again. Double YaY! got a couple little 2lb hand weights to help my upper body. I still take it really easy on the lower half. So I figure if all I can do is work out my upper body and shape it while my butt gets wider and wider ......... well so be it I guess. At least I am not in agony.

Works for me!

anyone know anything about being an MOA??

Feedback.............

it should not be this hard to try to get help to go back to school!

how ridiculous. I'm ready to just put the grand on my credit card, enrol before its too late and be done with it! I only have 5 wks before the class starts. I have a feeling I am going to get screwed out of it!

This is so dumb.

and Its not like I can just go get something. How frustrating! ARG!

I have a place to go see about tomorrow. I'll give that a shot and see ......... I need a Job!

Bought my first Magazine of dreams Today!!!

dreams

well there I was in Michaels - for no other reason than - i was out of the house and didn't want to go back just yet. I stumbled across the wedding section. Did you know they have a Wedding Section?!!!

when it dawned on me.......if my parents actually do follow thru with what they said ......... i need invitations! I have Never thought of that! What kind?! I might even have to pick colours! WTF!!! never thought of that either. and Flowers!

Thats when i realized........i have Never thought past, "the wedding will be at my parents of course"

Holy Shit!

I have a whole lot to daydream about and plan!

FUDGE!

TAlking

well if I can muster it, and stay awake and focused long enough, we are going to talk some more tonight.

We talked the other night about Tea and her coming this weekend and about why its bad that she stays at his house.........

so tonight - more talking, i hope about some of the other stuff that comes along in this package of Tea

sick

this is so strange to me

maybe not to you - and I have to remember, I am not there. I am not with these ladies and the sick kids. Maybe it is really taht bad.

But what is it with these moms taht race their kid into the doctor - the hospital - for every sickness and every fever? I just don't understand. Yes, soemtimes they have a fever for more than a day. Charley would get horribly sick. I never used a thermometer. Her skin would be so hot she would leave heat rashes on my cheek when I would check her temp. Every time she gets a fever, even now, she throws up. I couldn't imagine taking my sick baby girl and sitting in a hospital emerg. or a clinic to fine out she is just sick. Her throwing up and feeling terrible. Trying to comfort her the whole time.

Give her tylenol and a bath, the doctor says, call me in the morning. Whatever happened to that kind of old fashioned parenting?

a Boys Birthday

Charlotte has been invited to a birthday party

its a boys birthday. He is turning 12. This boy also has a crush on her and she on him. My first instinct is to say NO - so thats what I did.

What would you do?

What Do you HONESTLY think of this light Blogger Dudes?!

So Much For That!

shopping

I should never try on clothes, like them and have them look amazing on me without looking at the price tag when its still on the rack!

came home empty handed and depressed

BAH

out loud

lunch with a girlfriend

i heard my voice when i said things

she tossed it right back at me ...... the same things I say to myself in my head .....but when you hear them out loud ...... in a different voice

Alvin

Alvin has subsided - no, thats not it - I'm Getting Used to Living with a Pain in my Ass! and this tight muscle is merely a ticking time bomb! Learned that the hard way New Years Eve. My candy cane lights are all still out in my front yard. I'm scared to get out there and get them, cuz what if I bend over to pull them out of the ground and get stuck like that?!!! What do I do? WAit till Mountain comes over. Till Charley walks home from school cuz i wasn't there to pick her up? Frozen in my front yard with my butt sticking out? Paints a picture doesn't it?

"Whats the Neighbor up to? Oh i don't know, advertising!" Frig!

so my yard is still festive.

i was referred by the doc at the clinic for Active release therapy. Sounds heavenly. but of Course, I can't afford it and to get it I have to get notes and send them to my lawyer and then the lawyer sends them to ICBC and in the meantime I hang out with the stiff muscle ...........I'm still waiting to get a membership to the ARC! Frig!

Hopefully my EI comes thru and GST will be the xtra bonus money I was hoping for this month. If it is - I'll be able to buy the damn membership myself!

I am back to applying for jobs. YAY!!!! went to a workshop last week. I have appointments with government people each week it seems. Trying to get into a 9 day placement type thing. I went out on a limb and applied for a job I don't think I'll get a call for - but why not! you never know. It could happen.

so Retail is out, serving is out ................

doc note - "......unable to RTW @ previous employment ............ She is able to do alternative employment that does not involve lifting & carrying & moving & excessive walking .........."

hmmm - Off i go then to fill out another survey and enter some contests

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and there was a Penis?

how is it that I end up with a penis in my "in box"

how does that happen?

SIGH

well I did my first attempt to talk to Mountain last night about what happened at Christmas.

he ".....(doesn't) want to talk about it right now"

I asked him when we can. he just doesn't know. I love working through things .......

Perfect!

Santa sent a Letter to Charlotte in response to the letter she sent him!

Holy Carp!

its happening!!

He is putting in his change of address!!

confirmed the postal code with me just before dinner.

i might want to throw up!

or maybe thats just cuz of the pain in my hip...........

Either way ......................... ACK!

Its amazing What a Phone call can do

a phonecall from one of my gals from the restaurant has cured me of feeling bad for leading the bossman on........up to his old tricks.

its good my doc put his foot down and won't let me go back. Even though I miss it terribly. Maybe one day i will serve again. One day very far away from this one. If ever I heal enough to be able to, one day ......... but It won't be there. I clicked onto the foodpages and looked up the place. Seems there's been some unhappy people writing in and then some, what looks like, personal 'friends' of his writing in to defend the place. I was so SO tempted to write soemthing anonymous myself. but I didn't. It was hard though - cuz the bad stuff that was written there was all true!

tomorrow is my first appointment to try to work towards a new life and I don't even know if I'll make it up the staircase. I am in sooo much pain still. Freakin' Alvin brought his chipmunks and I have spent most of my day kinda half laying-sitting then getting up to do some stretching. This muscle is knotted? pinched? buggered? I don't know. but what I do know is that if i have to drag myself up that staircase tomorrow morning in the only pair of pants that now fits me(yoga pants) I am going!!! and I will sit there and get done what I have to do for the hours i have to do it in the pain I know i will be in so that I can move forward from this Stupid Accident!

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decided awhile ago that I was going to try to pull a George Cistanza and do everything the opposite of my instinct.

just thought I'd let you in on the plan

Banning Cell phones While Driving

so the ban is on.

the fine .............. $167

if you get caught driving while chatting on yer phone. Okay. Hands free is fine they say. As it keeps both hands on the wheel?

What about all the people that drive around with a coffee cup or a cigarette?

Its the conversation, some say?

then waht about when you are driving with passengers gabbing up a storm - isn't taht the same thing? Or your kids in the back seat - asking for soemthing YET AGAIN! or look at that mommy. or the endless story they HAVE to tell you that seems to only make sense to them and you try to tune in on.

So maybe we shouldn't drive with our kids?

that might be ok - nor passengers -

or how about the music? the radio that can be heard 3 vehicles over while the driver is obviously Really enjoying it. or the person you pass that is singing along? or choosing yet another station ............

Are cell phones really the problem?

A Mess I am

I am depressed -

I don't want to put mak-up on, shower, do my hair, wear deodorant, go out of the house ...............

my back has a muscle spasm that happened New years eve and it still hurts. I couldn't move new years......now it just HURTS like a SOB

my house is getting in order and Christmas put away and i feel like I didn't spend enough time with Charlotte cuz I was soooo busy getting ready for Christmas .................

i can look for a job now, but now there aren't any out there.

My dotor wrote me a note for EI and did not leave the door open AT ALL for me to even try to work part-time at the restaurant ................... i miss my job - I love my job -

and my bak gos out and I'm not better. I am scared something else is wrong besides the FFF'd up vertabrae. My body seems to be rejecting movement. I am getting fatter and fatter by the day.

I'm scared I am going to die and leave Charlotte without me. Will Mountain keep her? Is that the best thing? or do I keep to my will? I am hopeful that now Christmas is over I can get my finances a littel more under control.

Mountain is packing his stuff and getting it into the shed.

he started yesterday. I am freaking out! this is really happening. I haven't lived with a man since I was 19. I mean I've had room mates .......... we had our own spaces. but lived with. I mean in the same space sharing everything, since I was 19-21 this is goofy and its really beginning to freak me out. My independence?

and Frig I gotta finish painting this room! How am I going to do that with a spasming back?! its gotta be doen in the next 3 weeks!

time to buy another lottery ticket and hope for the best.

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