Detox

Well - I promptly jumped off my wagon that I had enjoyed a seat for the last 3 and a half months.  Had a week of binging.  I am good.  I do believe it is out of my system.  The wagon jumping that is.  Crying comes and goes. 
I am off all supplements.  Hot flashes are being crazy!  
so back to green tea, salad, Rice cakes, popcorn for my evenings snack.  I hope to walk to work tomorrow.  No pushing my body just simple easy walk to work.  No power walking.  Clean eating and no more hormones going in.  I'll get myself back to ground zero and then see what my body needs.  This is going to take awhile I think.

I don't know how to Dress for My Body Shape and Age

Soooo - it turns out this is it.
This is my body.
my eye is here - any ideas on how to get my 38 year old body shape back - HA!

I have tried many a thing and I am limited by not only a stupid injury but $$$
my yoga book is MIA at the moment.  I am hoping that not being on hormones anymore will be a big help.
Quit the wine only to find it didn't make a difference.
My diet has been sooooo crazy limited.  Cucumbers instead of potatos.  that's right - I actaully cut potatos out!  Well no, I should be honest, I had a piece now and then.  But never a whole one, and only once a week when my body was just calling for it!!!  Never been a pasta fan and meh to rice.  I was snacking on rice cakes and peanut butter.  In the evening a bowl of popcorn with two teaspoons of margarine.  Always green tea.  Breakfast either cereal or porridge.  Lunch usually salad with meat, cheese and italian dressing.  Then I cut out the rice cake snacks and if I felt a grmble I popped a new peice of gum in my mouth and drank more water!
am I active?  no - not so much.  but you'd think on that diet, some of the belly fat would melt off?  right??  I think menopause is kicking my ass.
Watch out - it will happen to you.
Told husband I want to walk to work on non rainy days.  That means he will have to be smart and build supper.  Without help from me!  that is a challenge on its own.
Fact is - I am not happy with who I am.  It needs to change.  So, I will figure it out.

WEnt shopping today with the Queen.  my body shape is different.  I dont know how to dress.  I don't know what to look at anymore.  I need help even there.

suggestions?

Waiting

Ugh!  
Again i am put in the position to wait till my husband can catch up.  Frig!  he makes me insane.

however, what have I learned over the years?  When I wait for him, it screws me.  So I will get my own ducks in a row and go forward without him.  He will have to play catch up later.
My mortgage broker is advertising rates as low as 2.89% for 5 year fixed.  I really don't want to miss out on that.  Just gotta make sure that if she pre-approves us it will be like the bank.  that the pre-approval will sit and wait for us for a few months at that rate.  Really don't want to miss out on that.  Anything under 3% is worth  scraping for!!!

Message in a Bottle

I am ordering some wine to build tomorrow.  

That is it.  Seems to me they owe me a batch as well, so I will order two!
it will be ready in 6 weeks to bottle and i will be batched up for the season.  Ready to entertain!  Christmas Liquor still sitting in my cabinet.  I know.  Its crazy but its true.
The house is just sitting.  No one has come to look thru it or called in ages.  
that is ok, we will continue on.  I have killed the moss, so it looks like hell out there, but that is ok.  Time to cut the grass and get the gardens turned!  Spring is upon us.  Time for a crisp glass of white and warm weather for my face!  
who's joining me?

Blog On!

so want to kick back with a glass of Pinot Grigio.  

First real cravings I've had since New Years.  the 3 mnth mark is the cincher.

for me .................. it's the 15 lbs promise.  It's been "10 to go!" for awhile.
What is with that anyhow?  Did I not drink as much as I thought I did?  
I really believed that once I switched off the booze and got rid of potatos out of my life, the inches would seriously melt away.  I'm not gonna lie, this is very disappointing.  Obviously that is the reason breaking my promise to myself, or re-thinking it, is consuming my mind these days.
i think that once I am outside digging around and working in my yard some more will peel off.  Salads for lunch, cucumbers instead of starch with dinner .......... its gotta pay off right?
I have tried 10 min of marching on the spot in the AM just to find that my body is still angry from the accident.  So I have been searching for my yoga book.  Charlotte gave me the most amazing Yoga book a few years ago.  I obviously can't do weight baring excercises, so Yoga?  Maybe if I stretch the fat out it will look better?

Where the Hell is that Book?!!!