oh how horrible

my sex drive is in the Shitter.

What The Hell!!!

a Year

Its so wierd with all the chaos and difficult times going on in the lives around me.
Mine has a bit of excitement but not so much.
Its wierd to think last year this time I was holding my heart in my hands.
Feeling so much hurt all at once when Larry died......

NOw here I am a year later.
Job, family, mountain, Pinks.

I still thank God for Bringing Larry into my life cause had he not......
really my breakdown would not have finished the course it had started so many years before and I wouldn't be where I am now.

Funny enough....i am truly grateful

Thanks for the e-mail Chelle

Hallo?

So he gives me a title yet I have NO responsibilty.
Can't use the skills I have that work.
Yesterday I caught shit for checking out the Lunch SAles. Apparently its none of my business and i could only possibly be doing it for personal gain.
WTF!!!!
Seriously. Can you get a little more paranoid? How many cameras are in the joint now? better be careful, there could be mics too! FFFFF! Then as soon as the girlfriend gets there his mood just goes down hill. Its the same every day. Frig. Never work directly with your Spouse. The sooner she is out of there the better!
Fine.
I handed him all the opinions you guys had for what makes you go to a restuarant.
I handed him the colouring sheets i had that I was going to photo-copy. I handed him the new kids menu I was going to get laminated. Grabbed my CD's Last week when we had the other blow-out.
I said to him.....seriously. This place Never would have gotten up and running if I hadn't done as much as I have!
We would have gotten to it. Was his answer.
Okay.....Wow!
I guess I should go take back all the drink menu's. They can put it together and do all the research for the recipes and what-not.
Guess I'll get all the burgers off the menu too and the sandwiches that people love, the Quesdilla.
WEll and I better take back my kids menu too!
How bout I just wander in with Mountain and take the decor that I've contributed.
the Shelving in the back
Oh but wait! That would leave him with blinds and 2 palm trees.
Fucker.....would have gotten to it. Please!
He is so unfocused on the restaurant right now its not even funny.
The girlfriend does not help. She just encourages him cause she doens't have a clue.
He's working on getting the coffee shop up, the patio, soups, gift cards, home-made bread.......
yet we still need a Hostess stand, a wall between the lounge and the rest of the restaurant, a half wall at the back to separate guests from the bar. Proper stands for the palms instead of milk-crates. More interesting things on the walls. He has perfectly good chalkboard in the back.....well I own't even get into that. Decore I can contirbute to, but I can't build.
It all takes money he says. Well yah. I know! Then how is it you can afford to thin youself out on these other projects.
Focus on one thing at a time!!!
Finish one project and see it succeed before you start another.
I've said enough and aS usual I am the only voice. So now He doens't listen. So I am done doing. WEnt down this road already.
I will stick around and as Mountain says just serve. Don't help anymore. No more ideas. No more extra's. I will do it his way, cause as he has pointed out, its not my name on the side of the building.
have I thought of leaving?
Oh yes. But seriously where will I get straight days 30hrs a week and at that wage???
Its really not a bad place to work. We are just not agreeing. Well and he has loopy ideas about things. I'm supposed to be in charge of the floor, but...........
I don't hire
Don't schedule
can't serve my way
big brother is always watching
I have a manager card that apparently I can't use
I guess I am just disappointed. Like as Mountain says....he made me promises that he is just not keeping. Gave me expectations.
So I treat it just as a job I guess and wait for the Paranoid Fuck to get it together and relax. And then live up to his end of the deal. Cause really.......I LOve My Job!!! no that is not sarcasm. I truly Love it!!

Meanwhile.....
if you do go in. Write him a letter about your experience there. No Really. I know the food won't be bad. But if girlfriend serves you the service could be slow and he needs to hear it cause its causing issues all around. And we really need a few more decor type things just to pull it together and finish it.
So whatever. Maybe you love it! Write him that too. Compliments are never a bad thing. Everyone needs an ego boost once in awhile.

So there I vented.
I feel much better!

Blog On Dudes!!

coming of Age??

Yikes!

Charlotte had acne!

She is only 8 for Pete Sake. I taught her how to wash her face with good old soap and water. That will now be part of her bedtime routine.

*tear* my wee girl is growing up. I hate this!

move

just got back from the Loops.
my nephew is so wonderful. He came and slept with me this morning so that his mom and dad could both sleep in. So i was up with him at 7. We cuddled. Than the queen came and we all cuddled.
HE HAS RED HAIR!!!!
I am so jealous.
Saw my Auntie that I havnt seen since I was 12. Divorce. But I still consider her my Aunt. It was a neat reunion. And then she met Charlotte. I beamed.
So I was looking around where my brother lives.
Its a pretty nice area.
He's up on a hill. Million dollar Gorgeous view. HIs driveway is the driveway from Hell but.......
Maybe I could afford up there. And there's all kinds of family and a little fixer upper.....Don't want anything already done. I want to build my own thing in my own space.
I'm sure I could find a job.....Mountain......
Hmmm.
I am thinking about it.

MLS here I come!

Virgo Thing

So what the Hell!!

Now I fight with Mitch!

Service.
he wants me to punch in how many people have walked in the door when they come in.
He also wants me to serve one table at a time.
Now at dinner,this is something that can be done. At lunch. Not so much.
Basically it goes like this....
table comes in i seat them. I get their beverage order. I go punch it in. At the same time punch in how many at the table. Then get the drinks. Take it to the table. then get their food order. Punch it in......Then I can get to my next table.....
now this is not too much to ask when you have more than one girl on and the tables are not all coming at once.
I have a habit of serving all the tables at the same time. That way the customer feels as though they are getting served promptly. CAuse of course at lunch thats what happens....,. All At once.
So he wants me to take away the time that I would be seating the next table to Punch in someones drinks and how many at a table. Instead of just getting their drinks and grabbing some menus for the next table on the way to seating them.
Multi-tasking.
I punch everything in at the same time. Drinks, food everything. And if i have been hit by 3 tables at once I put them all in at once.
Orders to the kitchen one after the other is a No-No by his standards.
Even if its by a different server waiting for their turn at the computer.
I believe in service to the table first.
Not to the kitchen.
Is that so wrong?
Restaurant chaos should never be on the floor.
Yet he feels very differently and his girlfriend that works the floor listens. So he feels its all good. This does not make it any better. She doesn't know. She's a legal secretary for Pete's sake! I've even had complaints of slow service about her.....yet, If I say anything.....woa....she's an owner and the boss's girlfriend! so clearly I'm just WRONG and mis-informed.
So I yelled at Mountain over the phone and then he came over and I yelled soem more while he was changing the oil in my car. (i'm going to see BoBo) this Friday. Now I have vented here.
I am not the most perfect server in the world.
Lord knows I've made and make mistakes.
i will comply cause it is his restaurant not mine.

How do you like to be served? I mean....correct me if I am off base. I'll pout for a bit. but maybe I need to be put in my place.

The floor is yours Blogger Dudes!
Customers and Servers alike I'm sure have some interesting Views on this

Clear The Air

Boy did we ever!!

days of not communicating expectations will do that.

Went to a wedding SAturday. Had staff dinner last night. Then Bam!
WE had a good old fashioned, rip snortin fight.

Making up today was great though. Funny enough....it brought us closer together. Go figure. WE had such deep talks all afternoon.
Realizing and reinforcing our feelings for one another.
Awesome talks about the future.
During the wedding, the grooms mother came over and spoke to us.
We were sitting holding hands very casually. She asked us if we were married. I said no. Then she proceeded with well you are obviously getting married. When will that be. I jsut sat and smiled. He said not in the near future.
So part of our deep talks were about weddings and marriage. Ours.
So I guess we needed that fight.

Not In LIke with Myself

I am just not feeling sexy these days.
my skin is tight. things don't fit like they used to.
I am not comfortable in my own skin.
i dont' feel like having sex.
Holy Carp!
Was that me?

I Don't Feel Like Having Sex!

Wow.

Mountian looked at me the same way when I told him.
Not that I wouldn't have, cuase saying No just isn;t my thing, but still. It was and is still realy wierd.

I hate that I can feel my tummy shake.
I don't like the saddle bags i can see when my legs are up over his shoulders.
I dislike feeling the extra skin under my chin when I look down, and ummmmm, do stuff.

i can't wait till tomorrow. my first work out befoer work!! I think I have everything togheter. As long as I wake up early enough I'll be fine.
Frig! Tomorrow is a long day!

Work out...work...bottle Merlot....Winners for wedding present.....Flip. I need polish for my toenails!

Well now he's gone and I kinda would like a lick.
Hmmmm.
DAmn!

blog on
dudes

ummmm yah

sorry bout the ramble.

had a drink and stayed up tooo late after Mountain left.
busy thinking and pondering and just kinda spewed it via blog.

Excercise?

Holy Carp!!!

i just joined Curves!

I'm sick of this wieght I've gained. It don't seem to be going anywhere anytime soon. Friggin Pinks suck for that!

So I'm doing something about it.
Man, i hope I can get there. Work in the little time I've got before or after work.
Its a half hour circuit. A years committment. But frig!
I can't stand the gut I'm getting or the Ass I've grown.
Can I afford the monthly????
Not really sure. But I'm jsut gonna have to make it work.

Wish me Luck!

so I had This Dream...

Drempt that Charlotte myself and someone else had to go to prison last night.
WE were in the same one. Just different rooms. Much like a school as a matter-of-fact!
Minimum security is what they said.
What had we done?
I can't remember now.
but the best part about it was when we had to go to the beauty parlor.
I got excited cause they were gonna thread my eyebrows and give me a pedicure!!!
I've never had my brows done before.
Whatta suppose it all means..........

Just Standing There

All I can do is jsut stand there and watch.
I am an ear.
I am a friend.
This is soo hard. It was not more than a Year ago I was going thru my own hurrendous emotional pain. I remember it vry, very well. I am a pro as a mtter of fact.
I look where I am now.
Mountain. We are together. We are on the same page and heading down the same road.
Together.
I am secure in my relationship and so is he.
I still get scared everytime a new closeness is revealed. When he gets annoyed by me or I get annoyed by him, its there in the back of my mind. That fear of rejection. Then I soon realize he is not rejecting me. We are okay.
WE have both been there before. WE are together becasaue we want to be. Not out of default.

So I watch as a family unravels. They go their separate ways. Knowing there is nothing I can do. they have to ride this one out on their own. All I can do is keep her safe. Be an ear when she needs it. HOld her when she needs to cry and listen when she needs to yell. Give her advice when she's ready to hear it.

There is a silver lining for everything. I do truly hope to help her find it. I still believe its workable. there's just some past that needs to be worked out.
I will take my place along the wall and stand there till its time.

AwwHHHH!

My eyes welled up with tears as I realized what was happening.

She handed me a bouquet of flowers for mother's day!!!

Nanny girl!

what a sweetheart. Cause I am and have been there so much for her!
she made my mascara smudge! The little Asshole!

Fraser River

Well.
Sunny all week.
Hot the past couple days. More sun to come. The impending doom of a flood is looming. The prairie will be under water. The grid will be shut off to protect it from itself. Which means so many ungood things for so many people.
For myself....well....no power...no work.
We are high enough the water won't affect us that way.
but it will affect our water and power supply.
I hope its just a little flood.

Bert!!! We'll be cut off! Hope its not one of those times you have Charlotte!
Carp!!!
I gotta make sure my BBQ has enough propane......

Blog On Dudes!

Oh and hey.
Still looking for more input on my popular Restaurant Question.

***OBJECTIVE OPINIONS WANTED***

Okay Blogger Dudes!
I need you and your thoughts.

We are starting to put the finishing touches into the restaurant.
We want it packed ALL the time.

What makes you want to...or continue going back to a favorite spot?
Paragraphs are Welcome.

What can we do....ambience, food, service, music, menu, specials.....4 Lunch & Dinner.
When you walk in-what makes or helps you to feel good about a place? What do you expect? Include physical touches if needed
.
Be DESCRIPTIVE.

for those of you that have been to our little spot.....Please Let Me Know What we can do to be the best!!!
and if you haven't been.......Get There!
I want it to be the coziest, full all the time spot in the heart of town. Help me get it there Blogger Dudes!

EVERYONES 2 cents is worth soemthing on this one.

This reminds me..........our hours have changed for Sunday's
we are now open from 9AM till 3PM.
so come for breakfast!!

OUr hours will change for the summer all week to be open that early soon too!
so Please help make it worth it.

Thanks!

I Forgot They Talked to You!!

I went to pick up The Queen Saturday morning from her sleepover.

she came to the door holding MoJo. He was nestled into the crook of her arm. Talking to her as she stroked him. I reached in and gave him a pat. His fur was so clean. So silky. He responded with his little squeeks and chatters.
I forgot that they do that!!

I had one. It was my first pet as a matter of fact. When I was 4! She was Awesome!
Meet the new addition to our family.....


I said she looked like a Cow.

Charlotte said no mom. She looks like a Skunk! So her name is Flower. Named after the skunk in Bambi. But somehow she is now called Le Fleur.


They seem to have fast formed a lasting friendship. Cuddling and talkign to one another. Fleur recognizing and calling for Charlotte when she's near.


It's really most cool to see!

I didn't expect it.
It Certainly wasn't planned.

He's Going Away

Mountain is going to his Mummy's tomorrow for a few days.
Charley is going to a sleepover.
I am going to play at a Girlie Toy party!
Damn!
I forgot to get the toy allowance! Frig! And he even promised me one! WEll bugger. I better text him to drop it by the restuarant on his way out of town.
Its so Fun having a partner that matches my sex-drive.
Eventhough these days its only been once a week...........
So I plan some special walks about town with my girl for SAturday. Its supposed to be Gorgeous!
WE'll do Shops and Lunch at the Teahouse.
I hope its a busy lunch tomorrow. Lunch has been too quiet this week for all the things I want to spend money on this weekend!

Blog On Dudes!

is it PMS?

My boss is making me nuts right now.

We are getting busier. We have No staff. I say get a Hostess. He says no. He wants more servers. Great! But no good ones are applying. so get a Hostess!
He wants people sat down right away yet when its busy the tables are dirty. It puts you more steps behind when you stop before you are ready to clean a table. than once they are sitting they expect service right away.
Well Frig!!!
it doens't always happen like that!
He doesn't seem or appear to understand how the front of the house works at all. And we are butting heads. I have stepped back. Cause in the end he is 'My Boss'
He let a girl go last week over the phone!
I was so pissed. I mean he very good reason to let her go. Stealing is just not tolerated. However....over the phone?
Anyhow....i am just venting.
i still love my job and it loves me. I'm just irritated at the moment.I guess cause I'm ready to take it on. I know I can do a better job at staffing and scheduling than he can. If there's anything I do know its service and how the front of the house works. While still keeping labour costs down.
I just wish he would trust me faster in that area.
I'm being impatient. Must chillax! It'll come in time.
I am just worried that business will suffer in the meantime cause guests aren't getting tended to.
*sigh*
maybe I'll write a faux letter........