Re: Anger

i am so frustrated and pissed off with this accident Shit!
another back spasm that happend last week, and although my physio therapist has been absolutely amazing, i am still suffering with sooooo much pain i am having troubles sleeping.
I want this to be over yet with the ongoing pain i ................................
i am so gonna get screwed by the very company I now represent & believe in!!!

Stove

the element of my oven popped and fizzled out last night. Damn it! i need a new stove! Supper had to finish cooking???? in the microwave. How much does this suck

my dishwasher leaks and now my stove bit the big green weenie. The fridge is next i just know it.

How much is pain and suffering worth for my case? I don;t know. but this is sucking. Took a deep breath this morning and coughed - back spasm of muscles ....... what the Hell! that means I'll probably have a headache today. Frig! Did stretching, got soemthing warm on it right now to hopefully cut it off at the pass.

No I don't have the slightest clue what my lawyer might be working towards for me. Wish i did. Would make it easier to stomach having to buy a new range today on the credit I no longer have

racing Mind

My brain won't keep quiet from yesterday. Didn't sleep great. The wind did not help. My mind going over and over all the questions - the very personal questions of yesterday. Should i have said that. Myabe i should have said this. he didn't even ask me about that. Should I have brought it up myself ............Draining.

I want this to be done now. No I am not fixed, but all of this lawyer, broken, fixing, physio accident stuff has been going on long enough. I want my life back. i don't want to be watching over my shoulder anymore. i don't want to keep worrying about what I am doing or saying or how I will be perceived.

I'm tired today

WEll here it goes. Off to my examination of discovery. Meeting the defense lawyer and allowing him to question me.

Whooopeeeee!

Trial and Murphy's Law

So a trial date has been set for me with this accident thing. June 7, 2011

I know, I know, these things Never go to trial. Or Rarely. I've been told.

but guess what? its me. This is Kristi going thru this. Nothing is ever simple or how it happens to someone else. I'll end up goign to trial. FRACK!

guess I'll know more Monday ................

Blog On

Examination of Discovery -- is that what it is?

met with my lawyer today in preparation for Monday -- when I meet with the defense lawyer.

I have cancelled all other appointments that day. i do not work.

Meet at 10AM

Anxiety to follow. I have till 2:30 for the pity/anxiety/stress party. Anyone wanna join?

Haven't heard

Well, the poop came down with Mntn and Leah.

he has, after alllllll these years, finally told her 'no'!

no he is not going to the kids party. We will do something here for her.

but alas, Leah won't pick up her phone now nor will she return his messages to say the day is ok.

i told him she won't. She is avoiding him and the conversation now in hopes it will all just go away. She is recoiling to figure out how she can and will strike at him next to get some kind of emotional response from him. Some kind of 'her way'.

Its going to get ugly before it gets better.

i have told him that if he wants it, he is the one that needs to push. That's all I will say now. It's up to him.

i will just keep working and getting ready for Christmas.

Blog On!

Its a Wedding Post

I've suddenly lost my oompff for wedding stuff. i don't know where it went or when i lost it, but I have lost it.

What do i mean by that?

well I know there is stuff I should be doing and preparing and thinking about but I can't quite get it in my head to do so. I have some crafty things I should be doing, but I am not doing that either. I either have part of what I need for a project or nothing for what I need for a project or not the right stuff ....... EERG! I am keeping my eyes peeled for jewellery for the girls and shoes and anything that might work as decor for the BIG day. But this is the time of year to find such things. Everything is sparkly at Christmas.

i was looking for Black gemmy type stuff . Not really knowing what I would do with black gems, but I am looking!

I have realized I should really decorate the head table a bit more than just having mini lights under the skirt .........so now i am looking for Special wine glasses. Its all about the glam and the bling for my wedding. I want to keep that momentum flowing. however - the jewels i am looking for are pale blue, black and I think gold? no maybe silver toned. hard to know. the colour of my dress makes it hard to knwo what will work best. Maybe I'll just have both! why the heck not!!

My cake maker bailed on me. She is overwhelmed by what I wanted. Then she herself got engaged!! how exciting! so she bailed on me saying that she is Really, really overwhelmed now. So that is fine. I have contacted my caterer to see what they can do. they price it at 4bux a person for the cake. Is this normal. Seems Effed to me. just give me a 3 tier cake and tell me what it costs. Anyhow - it seems that is what they do. I have another bridal show to attend on Thursday - i will check out cake vendors there. See what they do and charge. Maybe today i will surround myself with nothing but wedding music and thoughts and i can get back on the wave to concentrate on what I need to do next to get this wedding planned.

*sigh*

Get Your Head in the Game Kristi!!

Daytons

did soemthing happen that I am not aware of.

are Daytons cool?

I didn't like them then ----- ----- I Really, REALLY don't like them now. Make him stop talking about them when i'm not ready!!!

ACK

ahhhh Grace Kelly

Princess Grace

OH MY!

A nice Scar from the Accident

Driving in the rain - on wet roads - really makes me nervous and scared.

I wonder what the people must think when they see me yelling at my rear-view mirror with sheer panic on my face ................