in the loo. love it.
ps. so wipld to bne with family
so typing on my sister inlaws laptop is proving to be a learing curve i won't be here enjough to get over...........
blog on Bitches!!!
later
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
My cry for Help was heard!!
my dad answered my cry for help.
i dropped The Queen off Sunday night. Dad took my into his office. Whats going on?
I tell him. "well i just can't believe that he just doens't understand what he is doing. Should I call him?"
YES!!!!
i left. The conversation was short, but affective.
My dad ......... dumbfounded. "he really doens't get it"
Yah, i know.
but it seems thats exactly what it took. someone else besides me saying this is WRONG!!! You don't hang out with your ex-girlfriend!
It opened the door and he listened. My dad asked him what his intentions were with me. He said he intended to marry me. Dad told him that if thinks that is going to happen he better cut this 'thing' off with Leah cuz i am on my way out!
Why didn't you tell me Mountain says to me..........ummm what? I then recount all the times in the last 2 weeks that i told him this wasn't okay. I don't feel cmfortable with this. I am unhappy. OH - he responds.
Well your dad shouldn't have called. Its non of his business.
Isn't it? You weren't hearing me untill he did. Would it be better I have my mom call or perhaps my brother - in - law or maybe my sister. How bout your own dad or your mom even??
We argued on the phone. than he came to my house. WE talked till midnight.
he is embaressed and humiliated. I did that to him. I was quick to point out how embaressed I have been made to feel over the last year because of his behaviour. the humiliation I have endured at different functions, including one SAturday night. I told him my brother - in - law had been looking forward to seeing him at the roller derby race and asked where he was. When I told him he laughed and commented on how Mountain has 2 girlfriends!
Mountain is embaressed that people "know" if its embaressing to you than why the Fuck were you doing it?!!!
so much conversation, so much I am not able to share at this time
Mountain is pissed that everyone knows. Pissed that I talked to people and told them what was going on. Pissed that he was proven WRONG. Just pissed, cuz he is a "private person" OH WELL!!! when I don't get validation and am not heard or listenedn too I look for it. Just so that I keep myself in check to know if I am off my rocker or not with my feelings. i was amazed at his ignorance to all of it. He really really didn't get it! Really didn't get how upset I was. REally didn't listen when I told him it was not okay. Really oblivious to what he was doing.
i was right. he needed to hear it from someone not me
So now we have tlaked. Now we are on the same team. Now we can work together.
Now he is worried Leah won't let him see teag. I told him that if thats the case there was and has been something else going on there since day one and thats a bridge we will cross Together when we get to it. He agreed that I am included or he doens't go. I am included or we do our own celebration of whatever with Teag here. Now he has agreed. putting it into action is going to be the hard part, for him.
he's pissed with my parents and doens't want to talk to them. he is embaressed. Like a bad kid he got caught, and feels dumb. He will get over it.
as Far as us goes.............he loves me and Really, really doens't want to lose me. He is realizing now that games are not my thing. I say it. You either get it or you don't. I'm not a drama Queen and won't pull up tears just so he will listen. I say what I mean and mean what I say. All you have to do is listen and you will hear it.
Blog On!
i dropped The Queen off Sunday night. Dad took my into his office. Whats going on?
I tell him. "well i just can't believe that he just doens't understand what he is doing. Should I call him?"
YES!!!!
i left. The conversation was short, but affective.
My dad ......... dumbfounded. "he really doens't get it"
Yah, i know.
but it seems thats exactly what it took. someone else besides me saying this is WRONG!!! You don't hang out with your ex-girlfriend!
It opened the door and he listened. My dad asked him what his intentions were with me. He said he intended to marry me. Dad told him that if thinks that is going to happen he better cut this 'thing' off with Leah cuz i am on my way out!
Why didn't you tell me Mountain says to me..........ummm what? I then recount all the times in the last 2 weeks that i told him this wasn't okay. I don't feel cmfortable with this. I am unhappy. OH - he responds.
Well your dad shouldn't have called. Its non of his business.
Isn't it? You weren't hearing me untill he did. Would it be better I have my mom call or perhaps my brother - in - law or maybe my sister. How bout your own dad or your mom even??
We argued on the phone. than he came to my house. WE talked till midnight.
he is embaressed and humiliated. I did that to him. I was quick to point out how embaressed I have been made to feel over the last year because of his behaviour. the humiliation I have endured at different functions, including one SAturday night. I told him my brother - in - law had been looking forward to seeing him at the roller derby race and asked where he was. When I told him he laughed and commented on how Mountain has 2 girlfriends!
Mountain is embaressed that people "know" if its embaressing to you than why the Fuck were you doing it?!!!
so much conversation, so much I am not able to share at this time
Mountain is pissed that everyone knows. Pissed that I talked to people and told them what was going on. Pissed that he was proven WRONG. Just pissed, cuz he is a "private person" OH WELL!!! when I don't get validation and am not heard or listenedn too I look for it. Just so that I keep myself in check to know if I am off my rocker or not with my feelings. i was amazed at his ignorance to all of it. He really really didn't get it! Really didn't get how upset I was. REally didn't listen when I told him it was not okay. Really oblivious to what he was doing.
i was right. he needed to hear it from someone not me
So now we have tlaked. Now we are on the same team. Now we can work together.
Now he is worried Leah won't let him see teag. I told him that if thats the case there was and has been something else going on there since day one and thats a bridge we will cross Together when we get to it. He agreed that I am included or he doens't go. I am included or we do our own celebration of whatever with Teag here. Now he has agreed. putting it into action is going to be the hard part, for him.
he's pissed with my parents and doens't want to talk to them. he is embaressed. Like a bad kid he got caught, and feels dumb. He will get over it.
as Far as us goes.............he loves me and Really, really doens't want to lose me. He is realizing now that games are not my thing. I say it. You either get it or you don't. I'm not a drama Queen and won't pull up tears just so he will listen. I say what I mean and mean what I say. All you have to do is listen and you will hear it.
Blog On!
Saturday, August 23, 2008
shopping
he is shopping
wanted to hug me goodbye and I just wasn't into it.......he can't figure out why.....
i am having a hard time with today
We are on our way to Richmond. Sister is racing on Wheels.
i am having a hard time with t0day
wanted to hug me goodbye and I just wasn't into it.......he can't figure out why.....
i am having a hard time with today
We are on our way to Richmond. Sister is racing on Wheels.
i am having a hard time with t0day
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Sooo frustrated about so many things
My car goes in the shop today. I really hope they can find the problem. I am hoping its just a tranny that needs some TLC and not a rebuild of anything.
Not only did my period come a week early, but now I am having cramps and the period is gone. WTF!!
This thing with Mountain has left me speechless and dumbfounded.
He moved all his stuff out Saturday only to move it back in Sunday. WE had words and tears. Its our only issue. The only one! I need help with it and I'm not getting any and its even more frustrating! His friends are all losers! well maybe not, but he is not giving them all the information. Therefore making me look like the bitch that wont let him take his daughter shopping. when that is not what is happening at all! Take the kid, just don't take the Ex .... or her baby!
this is like a make it or break it issue.
I've been on the other side of the grass. I have had many a relationship. I know what else is out there. I know the other kinds of issues there can be. I also know what it is like to be lied to cheated on and Not loved in a one-sided affair. This is not any of That at all! He loves beyond compare
I gotta go he is close to reading over my shoulder. I'll vent more later.........if I can
Monday, August 18, 2008
my Facebook account was disabled!!!
I am soo upset. Currently trying to get some answers.....
I think its cause i didn't have my real last name on there.
They could have given me the chance to fix that before just deleting me!!!
it sucks to have lost it all ................... for the second ....... no third time!!
FRIGGIN
I am soo upset. Currently trying to get some answers.....
I think its cause i didn't have my real last name on there.
They could have given me the chance to fix that before just deleting me!!!
it sucks to have lost it all ................... for the second ....... no third time!!
FRIGGIN
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Friday, August 15, 2008
"We need to talk"
i did it
Very calmly.
"i don't feel comfortable with you spending time with Leah"
"I am not comfortable with you going and doing bonding family type things with Leah and Teaghan"
"isn't the fact that it upsets me and makes me uncomfortable enough?"
"i am not mormon. 2 girlfriends doesn't sit right with me"
"than we need some time apart"
he left. About 2 hours later the texting started .......... by him
he loves me and doens't want to lose me over this. I love him too, but I am tired of dating Leah too. I am standing my ground and it sucks.
Very calmly.
"i don't feel comfortable with you spending time with Leah"
"I am not comfortable with you going and doing bonding family type things with Leah and Teaghan"
"isn't the fact that it upsets me and makes me uncomfortable enough?"
"i am not mormon. 2 girlfriends doesn't sit right with me"
"than we need some time apart"
he left. About 2 hours later the texting started .......... by him
he loves me and doens't want to lose me over this. I love him too, but I am tired of dating Leah too. I am standing my ground and it sucks.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
and Here we Go again
I'm taking Teag back to school clothes shopping.
okay, just yourself?
No Leah is probably coming.
*sigh* then just give her the money and let her go.
And so it is there again. The same Mother Fucking Fight as last year!!! Why doens't he have any decent friends that will just tell him what a dilhole he is being. All you are to that kid and her mother is a cash cow. I'm willing to bet she puts out no cash at all for school clothes. Is Christmas going to be a repeat too?
Fuck! I'm tired
The Camping Trip
Well it was a trip and a half.
Not only did it rain, but it downpoured! I have tarps, and they work fine if its just a light rain. But for what we went through, it was pretty obvious that one of the tarps had seen better days. Nothing like getting rained on underneath your shelter. But we did it! We put up one of the tarps SAturday morning over the table and that worked okay. The next one we put up in a thunder storm next to the fire. My tent has lost its weather-proofing it seems. It had at least 2 inches of water under the mattress.
We were drenched. It wasn't the fun filled beach camping weekend that I had hoped. We did decide though that since it seems to reain on us every time, we are just going to invest in rain gear and NEW tarps. if you can't beat 'em join 'em!
As far as Teaghan went.....my anxiety was well spent. She fake cried about once an hour. It was the most amazing thing I'd ever seen. the one time she really should have cried, cuz one of the sticks holding up the tarp fell on her head, she was silent. Also, amazing. Skulls and crossbones on Everything from her hoodie to her running shoes! the Pictures on her black T-shirts glittered up in gold or silver. I just have some strong feelings about little girls dressing like little girls. She cried when she had to brush her hair. She cried when she had to wear it in a pony, she cried when she had to brush her teeth, she cried when she had to put on her shoes, she cried when she had to change her pants......the list goes on.
I don't like her.I tried once to step in. that was the end of that. I am embaressed to be associated with her. I don't want people thinking she's mine. My child does not act like that, dress like that, or present herself like that. On top of it all......she is getting boobs! She will be 8 in November. Now granted its fat casue of course the way her mother feeds her is atrocious (she has all her molars capped) but boobs all the same. Now what about that bikini? Mountain says, well it'll be different. how? When she shows up next year with 34c boobs, how is it going to be different? The fact that she is so attention seeking is not going to help cuase she's gonna get the attention all right. She'll be 10 and looking like a 15 year old! Then what? She hasn't been taught anything. the attention she's going to get from boys she is going to SOAK up caseu thats all she wants is attention.
Charlotte did her best to console her throughout the weekend. i was actaully quite impressed with her skills. But I really don't need this kid bringing mine down with her when she goes. Charlotte feels a connection to her, and thats fine. But I can just see them in the park together. Boys coming around. Teag going off with them and Charlotte staying with her, even though she knows its not a good situation. I am not into it. i raised Charley up to not be THAT kid. To be strong and sure of herself. That child is toxic and now I need to figure out how to limit the time even further that she spends here.
i didn't wreck her and its more than evident I am not allowed to fix her so.......I don't want her around to break my daughter.
but anyhow, i have much cleaning and drying out of everything going on here at this house. There is camping gear spread all across the yard, Laundry piles throughout my house. I will be cleaing up for the next week, while still trying to enjoy whats left of summer!
Blog On Dudes!
Not only did it rain, but it downpoured! I have tarps, and they work fine if its just a light rain. But for what we went through, it was pretty obvious that one of the tarps had seen better days. Nothing like getting rained on underneath your shelter. But we did it! We put up one of the tarps SAturday morning over the table and that worked okay. The next one we put up in a thunder storm next to the fire. My tent has lost its weather-proofing it seems. It had at least 2 inches of water under the mattress.
We were drenched. It wasn't the fun filled beach camping weekend that I had hoped. We did decide though that since it seems to reain on us every time, we are just going to invest in rain gear and NEW tarps. if you can't beat 'em join 'em!As far as Teaghan went.....my anxiety was well spent. She fake cried about once an hour. It was the most amazing thing I'd ever seen. the one time she really should have cried, cuz one of the sticks holding up the tarp fell on her head, she was silent. Also, amazing. Skulls and crossbones on Everything from her hoodie to her running shoes! the Pictures on her black T-shirts glittered up in gold or silver. I just have some strong feelings about little girls dressing like little girls. She cried when she had to brush her hair. She cried when she had to wear it in a pony, she cried when she had to brush her teeth, she cried when she had to put on her shoes, she cried when she had to change her pants......the list goes on.
I don't like her.I tried once to step in. that was the end of that. I am embaressed to be associated with her. I don't want people thinking she's mine. My child does not act like that, dress like that, or present herself like that. On top of it all......she is getting boobs! She will be 8 in November. Now granted its fat casue of course the way her mother feeds her is atrocious (she has all her molars capped) but boobs all the same. Now what about that bikini? Mountain says, well it'll be different. how? When she shows up next year with 34c boobs, how is it going to be different? The fact that she is so attention seeking is not going to help cuase she's gonna get the attention all right. She'll be 10 and looking like a 15 year old! Then what? She hasn't been taught anything. the attention she's going to get from boys she is going to SOAK up caseu thats all she wants is attention.
Charlotte did her best to console her throughout the weekend. i was actaully quite impressed with her skills. But I really don't need this kid bringing mine down with her when she goes. Charlotte feels a connection to her, and thats fine. But I can just see them in the park together. Boys coming around. Teag going off with them and Charlotte staying with her, even though she knows its not a good situation. I am not into it. i raised Charley up to not be THAT kid. To be strong and sure of herself. That child is toxic and now I need to figure out how to limit the time even further that she spends here.
i didn't wreck her and its more than evident I am not allowed to fix her so.......I don't want her around to break my daughter.
but anyhow, i have much cleaning and drying out of everything going on here at this house. There is camping gear spread all across the yard, Laundry piles throughout my house. I will be cleaing up for the next week, while still trying to enjoy whats left of summer!
Blog On Dudes!
Sunday, August 10, 2008
holy wet Camping Ever batman!
we have decided that since it seems to be our thing that it rains on us......we are so investing in new tarps! Holy Carp! it rained so much it rained in the kids tent. Good thing they had air mattresses to float on.
we are drying out.
G'night. trying to stay dry and warm tuckers an old broad out
we have decided that since it seems to be our thing that it rains on us......we are so investing in new tarps! Holy Carp! it rained so much it rained in the kids tent. Good thing they had air mattresses to float on.
we are drying out.
G'night. trying to stay dry and warm tuckers an old broad out
Friday, August 08, 2008
Thinking Ahead???
When we got back from Loon Lake - you should really get your tent out of storage. We'll need it when we go in a month with Tea.
2 weeks ago after picking up C from Camp - we aren't going anywhere this weekend. Why not get your tent?
Friday - its the long weekend, why don't you pick up the tent before you get started on the stairs?
I text him Tues to stop by his storage on the way home and pick it up.
Wednesday - the stairs will be here next week too. Why not zip to your storage and get the tent? We'll come with you!
Yesterday he picks it up from work.
He went to Canadian Tire last night just before they closed and bought a brand new 6 man.
Forethought is not his thing
so I am done and packed. Sheets are cleaned. House is relativly clean for the sitter. Yard is battoned down. Made sandwiches, food is in the car. i think we are ready for final stuff's (cooler) when i get home from work and off we go!!
mountain on the other hand is clearly NOT organized. It was his job to pick up the munchies - he still hasn't. He has to drive out to White Rock after work and pick up Teag. Fine. But her mother isn't much for forethought either. Teag's sleeping bag is in Chilliwack at gramma's house. The very place they were when They found out about the camping trip! Anyhow, after that he has to come back here to get the wood (why he didn't pack it last night......) I'll find room in my car for it. he still has to do the munchie shop and I told him if he wants any "bevy's" he'll have to take care of that too as I am tapped for money and I have packed Tea for myself and Charlotte.
He won't get to the campsite till 9 I am sure and then he'll still have to set up the tent for the very first time in the dark. I will have the camp set-up and a fire going.
I guess what I have learned from this is to always be in charge of Everything. Just hand me money honey and i will take care of it.
2 weeks ago after picking up C from Camp - we aren't going anywhere this weekend. Why not get your tent?
Friday - its the long weekend, why don't you pick up the tent before you get started on the stairs?
I text him Tues to stop by his storage on the way home and pick it up.
Wednesday - the stairs will be here next week too. Why not zip to your storage and get the tent? We'll come with you!
Yesterday he picks it up from work.
He went to Canadian Tire last night just before they closed and bought a brand new 6 man.
Forethought is not his thing
so I am done and packed. Sheets are cleaned. House is relativly clean for the sitter. Yard is battoned down. Made sandwiches, food is in the car. i think we are ready for final stuff's (cooler) when i get home from work and off we go!!
mountain on the other hand is clearly NOT organized. It was his job to pick up the munchies - he still hasn't. He has to drive out to White Rock after work and pick up Teag. Fine. But her mother isn't much for forethought either. Teag's sleeping bag is in Chilliwack at gramma's house. The very place they were when They found out about the camping trip! Anyhow, after that he has to come back here to get the wood (why he didn't pack it last night......) I'll find room in my car for it. he still has to do the munchie shop and I told him if he wants any "bevy's" he'll have to take care of that too as I am tapped for money and I have packed Tea for myself and Charlotte.
He won't get to the campsite till 9 I am sure and then he'll still have to set up the tent for the very first time in the dark. I will have the camp set-up and a fire going.
I guess what I have learned from this is to always be in charge of Everything. Just hand me money honey and i will take care of it.
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
CAmping this Weekend
I've got some anxiety about camping this weekend.
Tea is coming.
She's already been kicking up a fuss. I really hope its not the weekend from hell with her turning on the tears for every little thing she can think of.
Charley is very excited and is packing books that she can read to Tea. I've got beads packed so they can make stuff, drawing pads, cards, peanuts for the squirrels, i think the game of Life should come along too.....we plan to hit Hicks lake (10min away from our site) on Saturday and swim in the lake. So I've got floaty devices for the girls!
I'm sorry. I'm not going to pretend any longer. i don't like that kid and merely tolerate her becasue I love Mountain. So I will do what I can to make this a "nice, fun-filled family weekend" for everybody. insert Walt Disney music here.
How bad of a person am I?
I've tried. I've done what i can. I don't like her. She is an insecure, manipulative, male attention seeking, lying, needy, whiny little girl. I am not going to pretend to myself any longer that I don't mind or that she is ok or this too shall pass or she is just a child. I wouldn't like her if she was an adult either. However, that being said.......i WILL do what i can for the sake of Mountain and Charlotte and Teaghan I suppose, and put my personal feelings aside. I just really hope that this weekend goes well and that I don't feel the need to abandon the campsite for some alone time in order to not lose my cool.
Blog On
Tea is coming.
She's already been kicking up a fuss. I really hope its not the weekend from hell with her turning on the tears for every little thing she can think of.
Charley is very excited and is packing books that she can read to Tea. I've got beads packed so they can make stuff, drawing pads, cards, peanuts for the squirrels, i think the game of Life should come along too.....we plan to hit Hicks lake (10min away from our site) on Saturday and swim in the lake. So I've got floaty devices for the girls!
I'm sorry. I'm not going to pretend any longer. i don't like that kid and merely tolerate her becasue I love Mountain. So I will do what I can to make this a "nice, fun-filled family weekend" for everybody. insert Walt Disney music here.
How bad of a person am I?
I've tried. I've done what i can. I don't like her. She is an insecure, manipulative, male attention seeking, lying, needy, whiny little girl. I am not going to pretend to myself any longer that I don't mind or that she is ok or this too shall pass or she is just a child. I wouldn't like her if she was an adult either. However, that being said.......i WILL do what i can for the sake of Mountain and Charlotte and Teaghan I suppose, and put my personal feelings aside. I just really hope that this weekend goes well and that I don't feel the need to abandon the campsite for some alone time in order to not lose my cool.
Blog On
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
Is it his Time?
Oh Mr. Ballis it being 17?
Is it the heat?
Are you sick?
I am so worried and sad about my boy. We've been together since 1995. He hasn't slept with me for the past 2 nights. Its No doubt he isn't feeling himself. I don't want him to suffer if this is his time, but I don't want to end his suffering if he isn't suffering and merely Bitchy from the heat!
Poor Mr. Ball. I just don't know what to do
Monday, August 04, 2008
Saturday, August 02, 2008
Letter from the Husband........
I had a friend a quite a few years ago now, when i worked at the Pantry. Her name was Karen. Karen and I had a lot in common and went thru a fair bit together. She was a few years older than me, about 5 or so. (funny I can't remember now)
I knew what the letter was as soon as I saw the return address was S. hoople and not K
I was the maid of honor at her wedding back in 95
I've mailed (snail mail) her every Christmas since she moved to Alberta.
I would hear from her random, every couple years ................
I sat at my kitchen table staring at the envelope. Knowing the news it contained.
".....it is with remorse that I must inform you that Karen lost her battle with Crest and passed away May the 20th........."
I knew what the letter was as soon as I saw the return address was S. hoople and not K
I was the maid of honor at her wedding back in 95
I've mailed (snail mail) her every Christmas since she moved to Alberta.
I would hear from her random, every couple years ................
I sat at my kitchen table staring at the envelope. Knowing the news it contained.
".....it is with remorse that I must inform you that Karen lost her battle with Crest and passed away May the 20th........."
Friday, August 01, 2008
some catch Up
so much - so little time - so I will try to be brief
- Gloria had a power source issue last Tuesday morning. A friend I know from work, he is a comp. tech, programmer, hacker, bla, bla, bla, fixed it for my for cost. YaY!
- i read! yes thats right I read the paper, magazines.....worked like crazy! Cuase of course Charley was at CAmp.
- mine and Mountains date id not go as I'd hoped it would. He turned into a 9 year old so the whole evening sucked. He sucked up suffiently afterwards and is still doing so.
- i made the most amazing dinner on the BBQ one of those nights. Halibut, scallops and aspargus! Yum! I amazed myself even.
- My living room stayed clean! with C gone my whole house stayed clean! I was not constantly cleaning or yelling at her to clean in my spare time! It was awesome!!
- I went thru my clothes. Said goodbye to some that I just really will never be able to wear again and if I do ..... styles have changed. That was hard and I am still going thru stuff. Must say good bye to more!
- Mountains stuff is leaking its way in this house. I have to make room for him. Even if its just one drawer in my chest of drawers. He needs one. So I keep going thru them.
- I was looking at a cruise brochure that came to my mail box. Thought it might be nice to dream a bit. Mountain got a hold of it and his dreams are so much closer to real than mine are. I told him I would spring for something like that for a Honeymoon, just for vacation I couldn't justify. "we'll get there" he says. Good!
- he tells me he loves me random all the time. I love it! I like that much better than the I love you Goodbye. Its so rehearsed, computer and habit. Just out of the blue is like he really means it! Perfect.
- we got wood for the building of the back landing and stairs! YaY hooray! So this weekend he will start.
- tonight Charley is staying at Gramma's house. We have some more free time. However, I want to be in C's room cleaning. East Coast Madeliene is in town and coming tomorrow. I would like the girls to be able to hang in the room without tripping up over crap!
- we go camping to Deer lake again next weekend. Tea is coming and now so is Mountains dad, Mr. Mountain. Not sure how I feel about being responsible for 4 people yet. As they are all children. Should be interesting.
- tea is already sick of being a sister. the babies name is Skyler. What the Hell kind of name is that! couple that with a last name like Summerhayes..........she'll be called Sky Summerhayes. Hmmmmmmm. Wouldn't be my choice, but whatever.
- oh yah. on the weekend my mom made a comment, "if i was a braver woman I'd divorce your father. It'll pass" Where do i put that?
Okay I gotta go! time to get tready and get The Queen to Gramma's.
Take care and Blog On!
- Gloria had a power source issue last Tuesday morning. A friend I know from work, he is a comp. tech, programmer, hacker, bla, bla, bla, fixed it for my for cost. YaY!
- i read! yes thats right I read the paper, magazines.....worked like crazy! Cuase of course Charley was at CAmp.
- mine and Mountains date id not go as I'd hoped it would. He turned into a 9 year old so the whole evening sucked. He sucked up suffiently afterwards and is still doing so.
- i made the most amazing dinner on the BBQ one of those nights. Halibut, scallops and aspargus! Yum! I amazed myself even.
- My living room stayed clean! with C gone my whole house stayed clean! I was not constantly cleaning or yelling at her to clean in my spare time! It was awesome!!
- I went thru my clothes. Said goodbye to some that I just really will never be able to wear again and if I do ..... styles have changed. That was hard and I am still going thru stuff. Must say good bye to more!
- Mountains stuff is leaking its way in this house. I have to make room for him. Even if its just one drawer in my chest of drawers. He needs one. So I keep going thru them.
- I was looking at a cruise brochure that came to my mail box. Thought it might be nice to dream a bit. Mountain got a hold of it and his dreams are so much closer to real than mine are. I told him I would spring for something like that for a Honeymoon, just for vacation I couldn't justify. "we'll get there" he says. Good!
- he tells me he loves me random all the time. I love it! I like that much better than the I love you Goodbye. Its so rehearsed, computer and habit. Just out of the blue is like he really means it! Perfect.
- we got wood for the building of the back landing and stairs! YaY hooray! So this weekend he will start.
- tonight Charley is staying at Gramma's house. We have some more free time. However, I want to be in C's room cleaning. East Coast Madeliene is in town and coming tomorrow. I would like the girls to be able to hang in the room without tripping up over crap!
- we go camping to Deer lake again next weekend. Tea is coming and now so is Mountains dad, Mr. Mountain. Not sure how I feel about being responsible for 4 people yet. As they are all children. Should be interesting.
- tea is already sick of being a sister. the babies name is Skyler. What the Hell kind of name is that! couple that with a last name like Summerhayes..........she'll be called Sky Summerhayes. Hmmmmmmm. Wouldn't be my choice, but whatever.
- oh yah. on the weekend my mom made a comment, "if i was a braver woman I'd divorce your father. It'll pass" Where do i put that?
Okay I gotta go! time to get tready and get The Queen to Gramma's.
Take care and Blog On!