You gotta love it, when your boyfriend brings you presents for Date night.......................

Buckleys and a Costco card

DATE NIGHT TOMORROW

Date night tomorrow!!

we've been waiting since the beginning of October for it, and now its finally here.

So we have no money. We can't aford to go anywhere.

i guess all that leaves is sitting in the Livingroom naked

REcipes??

so I have announced that I am baking this weekend for Christmas.
Well i dawned on me last night I only ever make 3 things. Cause its always just been Charlotte and i and she has to like and eat what I make.
So now..............
I don't know what to make!!

Help!

If you have a fav recipe or one that is a winner everytime. Please share!

what I am doing this weekend, is shortbread and Eskimo cookies along with the Gingerbread house.

What Special treat Screams Christmas to you?!

Got the Lights on the House!!!!

YaY!! Hooray!!!

those mens are so good on ladders

so hard to keep it in.....

VENT
VENT
VENT

VENT!!!

Thoughts that Are Floating in my Head

- I have entirely to many Decorations
- how the Heck am i gonna put the garland up without putting holes in my walls
- I grew out all my body hair and I kinda like some of it
- i need a whole new wardrobe cause nothing fits anymore
- I sure hope Mountain and I win with the tickets we bought together. At least a little amount would be nice
- I hope someone, that holds his respect, has a chat with Mountain soon about the time he spends with the ex. He's got to hae at least One sensible friend
- What about Bob?
- i wish it was always uber busy at work
- i want a better wine list
- I can't find the Christmas cards i bought and I gotta get those done instead of blogging
- tipping out 4% is really starting to pick my butt! We tip out on staff meals and liquor and take-out orders.
the other day a staff member, from the kitchen, came in for breakfast with a friend. The bill came to just over $30. She didn't tip me. so I had to pay-out $1.20 for her to eat her meal! You bet your Ass i brought it up with her!!
WE don't have a bartender or a dishwasher or a busser or a hostess. So really, 4% is waaay to high
- I can't wait for the ballet tomorrow~
- Charlotte is tall
- Mountain is good in the sack
- why do Cheetos have to be so good
- I gotta get this decorating done

don't know what this means but......

when i hear _____ say i am only getting a tste of what you go thru.....
i am happy to finaLLy be on the same page with someone.

aND THINK its been Years for me.
Full time years? .....6/7/8/...9
yes 7 wierd but true. averagee/....... I worked a lot from home. It helped, but it still sucked large ranch animals.
her time. Her time. Sucked.. Lottie's. she suffered. so much better now that she i out of main streaM
pro-d days.......
eventually i booked off holidays....
daycare wasn't worth it
but...its been so fulfilling to have someone say....yah...i get it!
Now i understand!
the bitching. the crying. the fighting.
it sucked the life out of MY KID and now one person understands

thank you

OoogleNoth!!

Pass it on! It'll make someone smile!

So today, my side slit in my skirt tore almost right up to my WooHoo!
Thats a lot of leg Baby!
My turtleneck is coming loose from the sweater so I had neck skin out!
Boss Mitch called me a Grabby...something...but I thought he called me Gravity Goo!
is that even funny? What does it mean? I was stumped. No come back or quick remark. Gravity Goo! What The Hell!

Full Moon this weekend Kids. Could it be the one where all my clothes are shredding themselves. What is the Universe trying to tell me with that?
Or perhaps my ass is just that wide.

Whatever!! Just Oooglenoth and it all mkkes sense after that.

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2nd Chance

Currently there is a situation that i find fascinating happening.
a Do-over.
WE all get scenarios of do-overs in our lives and we try to use our past experiences to make the 'right' choices the next time. but how is it possible to know when its all new people involved. You Can't take the script from a hit play with amazing stars and apply it to a new one with new characters and Expect it to be the same marvelous sell-out it was with the Big Stars......can you?
The new characters trying to follow YOUR script, but actually having one of their own stuffed under the bed.
WEll she has a script that has the main characters, The Stars, in it that are the same.
New ones have popped in to take on the secondary roles. But it seems there are a lot of the same plot lines from the old script being used.
Does she follow the same script or re-write it?
The ending has to be different anyhow as the main end Character is unavailable at this time and there are a few new ones that have already signed a contract.
So no matter what, the end has to be different.
But the pre-ceding events that lead up to the end. Is it a re-write?
I dunno.
What I do know, is that the writers in Hollywood are still on strike.

Christmas Time

First, let me start by saying, I have acquired a ladder and I am most excited to be able to put my Christmas lights up along the peaks of my house like other HOME-OWNERS!!!!

i will have all kinds of time of during the Days of Christs B-day.
This will be most exciting, but very very bad for the pocket-book!
WE are closed Dec. 24, 25, &26. As well as Dec. 31st and Jan. 1st. Yikes! But nnow he is thinking of closing the 27 & 28th too! Just cause last year business sucked ass. That is a lot of time off.
which is great cause I can hang with the Queen and Mountain has all that time off too!

So i aM debating what to do with that time.
I was thinking an Open-House on SAturday the 29th might be fun!
Kind of a pre-New Years post-Christmas Party!
What thinking you?
Its after Christmas and most of the Hub has sub-sided.
Maybe it will snow and I will actaully get to play with Charley in it!
i think i might be excited.

CHRISTMAS IS COMING EVERYONE!!!!!

So there seems to be some action next door.
Cars all over........trucks......moving trucks......security guy-gaurd......and a locksmith!
i just heard banging.
Are they going? Are they? Are they??

Pinks!

Those Pinks sure kept me stoned.
Holy CArp I was fried all last year thru Christmas!
But thru these last couple weekends, as they have worn out of my system and the same ole is coming back........I wish I had a version of them hat didn't stone me up like they did
Last weekend it was my anxiety levels.
This weekend, depression.
Work is good, but my memory is shot.
Its like I am drunk every day and night. As soon as I am a littel tired, my memory is Gone!
Although, i must say, that is per-norm. Even while I was sober for those 4 and a half years, my memory sucked ass if I was tired. I would even slur in the eveings!
WEnt shopping all weekend for a Christmas outfit for Mountains compnay party coming up.
That was depressing.
Finally I went all by myself yesterday and came home with a Sparkly top to wear with the pants i bought a few weeks ago. Le Chateau let me down. I have store Credits for there. So I was concentrating my shop in the one store.
But I forgot I have a 25 dollar gift card for the whole mall. So into Mantique I went! Ended up only spending 20bux! So i will feel dressed up. Now I can use my store credit for jewellry at Le Chateau!
Mountain stayed home and made cookies. Charley happily played in her room.
I came home very happy.
An hour alone did me a world of good.
I was no longer sitting on the livingroom floor crying.
I was happily finishing up the roast and folding laundry.
So I might not have the Pinks. But I have Mountain, who could see i needed to go away for a bit.

Not all Street People are the Same

Its early this year, but thousands turned out for the Tree lighting in old downtown.
I bumped into piles of people I know and Charlotte got the pleasure of being shown off.
I hate when my mind goes blank with the names. My old age you know. People I've talked to for years and all of a sudden i don't even have it on the tip of my tongue!
I did get the pleasure of introducing her to my favorite bums!
and they really are my favorite.
Henry and Brian.
They are live in a couple of the homes in town.
Henry has some ticks and depression
Brian is bi-polar. He takes a couple lithium and adivan a day among a bunch of other meds. Holy Shit!
anyhow. they are sweet and so very harmless. Look scary more than anything.
You've probably seen them about town.
walking behind one another. Brian has lots of bleached out hair crawling out from underneath a hat. Wears glasses and usually can be seen with his earphones full of music over his ears. Henry is older and shuffles his feet along. He is so pleased cause he just got a haircut and his beard trimmed.
They dress dirty and soemtiems they smell, but they are genuine.
They don't steal and I couldn't imagine they ever would.
They were so happy to meet Charlotte and I was more than happy to introduce her!

Holy Heck it cleared!

the cheque dated badly cleared!

I am so Happy its not even funny.

So i don't know if my Uncle did soemthing or if they............
Fudge if I know. But I certainly take back anything bad i said about my Uncle. Even if he didn't do anything to fix the situation, I still take it back.
Its bad form to bad-talk the Elders.

Sooo I get my WooHoo extra cheque at the end of the month afterall! YaY!!!
Thats good cause I was wondering how in the Heck i was gonna pull off Christmas.

Legalize it!

Yup. I've decided.
maybe i have lost my mind.

but I have thought about it and i think we should jsut legalize drugs.
legalize it. Gets rid of the dealers.
Sell it cheap. they;ll weed themselves out with overdoses and whatever else. should cut the transiates at least by half!
They won't steal so much cause the carp witll be cheap enough to buy.
Keep the slums for them all to live in. Keep them in an area that is monitored by the cops.....they won't be all over in the streets.
There would be no need.
They'd have their drug of choice. A place to sleep. just gotta worry about food. But I'm sure they all visit the food bank anyhow. Maybe the Food Bank could just deliver!
Kinda like that Kurt Russel movie Escape From New york!
put all the druggies and hookers and dead beats all in the same place. Fence it........

okay so I haven't worked out the kinks, but I'm sure you get my drift!

STUPID DUMB DAY!

THIS DAY JUST SUCKED!

Grrrr.

Firstly this Eye thing is really pissing me off!
What the F is wrong with it. I keep getting funky deposits on my left contact. I've gone thru 4 disposables in the last couple months since I moved. I am on my last one! My glasses are in serious need of a tune-up. I still wear them.....but they are not lookin so hot. Missing a nose thingy and one of the arms got itself all chewed up somehow. So they lack todays style. Whatever. they are so close to bhaving tape in the middle to hold them together.......
So I finally have 'extra' money to afford to get my eyes checked......costs 75bux plus tax you know!
Than I guess the good ole Visa is gonna get a work out paying for new glasses and contacts.
HOWEVER - the soonest i can get in is Dec 8th! its not their fault. i am just not available at 3 in the afternoon. That job thing. 10-5 and tues not avail till after 4 or saturdays. Well my limitations are mine. so I dont get to deal with the Fffing eye thing for 3 weeks.

than first thing at work, before we re even in the building, the native i had arrested on Friday is out and about. Decided to wait on the outside with us!!
FFF off! and go away.
He's drunk. he's beligerant. He causes trouble. and he's really creepy, scary looking. Besides the fact taht he Wreaks!
Some housing somewhere got shut down and downtown is over-run with a new load of drunks, crackers and street-people. Its cold. so they all want to come in.
Than Big Diabetic guy that I had to call on a few weeks ago is sitting on one of the benches outside the restaurant. Yes we have petitioned the city to have them removed. He was there when I got there in the morning. He came in, harmless enough. got a coffee 2-go. fine. Give it to him quick so he gets out.
Than he stands outside and Pee's on the building!
What The Fuck!
about an hour later he comes in for another coffee only this time he brings his skid woman friend with him. He doens't have enough money. I am with a customer that is paying. he starts going form table to table asking for money!!!!
I drop what I am doing and tell him to leave.
Get Out!!!! you can't taqlk to my customers!!!
he leaves and starts pan-handling on the street.
I call the cops.
Frig! they don't come soon enough and he is back in my restaurant with money cause people actaully gave it to him!!!! I told him the kitchen was closed!
Go!
this is not a soup kitchen. The Salvation army is down the street.
These people are and have affected my business.
They don't walk into Restaurant 62 to use the bathroom or sit in the urine soaked clothing stinking up the place. They don't even wander into Paliotti's down the street and do that. Yet at my place..............

I'm sorry if I come across incompasionate, but i am just tired of it.

Now I get home and check my bank account.
My grandad had written me a cheque for Charlotte's piano lessons. I deposited and then paid out for the lessons. Well gues what didn't go thru?
he put the wrong Year on it! 2004! So now I am short that money! Friggin.

This day.
Its not like its bad stuff. Its just stuff. And I have not been all that great for the last few weeks. So this is just not doing me any favours.

On the up side.......i think my period has finally stopped.

I'm getting a Door for my bedroom!!!

i ordered it.

it should arrive in 3 Weeks!

YaY!!!!

What The......

how is it possible to have a weekend of sleeping in ans still manage to be sooooo tired i Sleep in Today too!!!

the Pill

Talked to my mom about my body situation.

I forgot about going back on the Pill!
i can totally do that!
and then at least the period part will stop and get back on track.
I am soooo excited about that possiblity.

As for the other.....
its all worked out. i can't get into it though.
As there are eyes that don't like what I write. and If I feel like I have to hide from those eyes what i am writing than i really shouldn't be doing it.
Right?!!
So out of respect for the feelings of the eyes........I will delete and not talk anymore about that part of my life here in this public space.
Just know all is well after much fixing and working out and conclusion coming.

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Ladies

I know most of you are younger, so you haven't gone thru this stuff yet.
But for those of you that are older and going thru perimenopause. Or finished.
Any tips on how to get thru the 3 week long periods?
I have managed everything else, but that.
Any vitamins or teas or foods that are good?

It was a Thrill just to be nominated!

we didn't win.........

Besides Happy Birthday to Charlotte and Me!!

met with Charlotte's teacher's yesterday to discusss what we can do to help her.....

things were going great till the discussion turned to ADD.
Now whatever.....so she was pushing me to take Charley to the doctor and get her on Ritalin....whatev......I don't even care about that. I've taken Charlotte. And the doctor said NO.
but as a teacher she is trying to find out what can work for Charlotte. so its okay. She is exploring avenues. Ones I'd been down before, but still. Whatever.
Charley is creative. Dramatic. And actress. Mature for her age yet still only her age. Fits in with the boys, but desparatly trys to fit in with the girls. Charlotte is always thinking and does a great job of keeping most adults on their toes. Charlotte needs lots of discipline, but go ahead and try to find one that works!
Charley can be an extreme Asshole.
Charlotte is a kid that desparatly needs a Stay-at-home mom.
But when she made the comment that Charlotte is both a part of me and my Husband..........thats when i knew.
It was at that precise moment I knew both these women were not only completly vacant, but so weak and stupid. No wonder Charlotte does nothing in the class. She Can!!
If you have a kid you are having troubles with don't you look at their File?
Frig! I was required at the beginning of the year to fill out a 'get to know you better' sheet. Which I did. Andit CLEARLY states she does not have a dad!
No one else lives in the house with us.
Suddenly the light came on and I realized it really is only up to me.
I really do have to home-school her after she's been in class all day.
So.....

Happy Birthday to me! I get to go Back to grade 4!

This Life of Mine is Changin'

What is going on?

i am content and happy.
So disgustingly in Love that soemtimes i make my own stomach turn. It can get to be a bit much. I sat on the floor at his feet last night at my sisters. Arm over his leg, most relaxed. But that was probably becuase he was running his fingers thru my hair!
Eeew! How did this happen! We touch. WE sit togher in total comfort. Sometimes we even kiss in public.
What The Hell!
Tonight i sat here on my own with the Queen.
the power went out briefly. That sucked cause, guess what?
I was watching the News!!
Frig. Amazing I was watching T.V. at all. But the News! This never happens. Than I watched some insider edition.....jsut for Entertainment!
What is going on here?
Its cuase of my impending 38. Holy Fff!
Menopause, the News, happiness......I jsut never saw this coming at 38
And you know what.................I like it

Ohhh Yeah!

Charleys party was a smash hit!
she had the best time.
I had hug after hug after hug.
Steph and I made the plan to surprise her with J. And did it sure work. she was thrilled.
They had the best string in a can war Ever!
J started out with no amo at first. but boys o boys did he make up for it in the end. my kitchen had silly string from one end of it to another. It was awesome!!
After they left we had icecream cake....that i made...and it was Marvelous.
we sprayed each others hair with Purple and Pink hairspray, did our nails the most outlandish colours and than settled in for another movie.
Charlotte was begging for me to turn off the T.V. by 11:30.
thank goodness; cause I was ready for bed by 10 so I was some tired.

1 of the gifts I got for The Queen was a Highschool Musical 2 piano book that she has been drooling over since September. I picked it up last month. And she has thought it was gone. Getting soemthing like that is a bit of a gamble cause you don't know if it will encourage them or if she just liked thepictures in it.
Well that kid of mine opened it up.....with her friends there.....and started to plunk it out!!! Holy Carp!
I tell you....she has been working on it ever since!
it was a good buy. I am pleased.
I will download some pics as soon as i can get down my hall again.
Mountain is working on my dryer so I am trapped at this end of the house and of course my camera is at the other end.
So here I sit in my room.
Curler in my hair. Jammies on. Been up for hours, but of course the stupid time got set back so we are all out of whack now.
he should be done soon. Dumb dryer hasn't been doing its job properly. so he has set about to fix it up for me!
Such a wonderful man that he is.

Tonight my sister is doing a Dinner for Charley and I to celebrate our Wednesday Birthdays!
How great is that!!?
The 3 of us are set to party for 4.
I am excited. i love to celebrate. All I need is for the acknowledgment. A call or a letter.....just to know I have not been forgotten....simple. I don't need big parties or gifts. Just remember me on my day and I am happy.
Of course. Mountain better not only remember me but sappy card me too! But really even that is enough. I've got everything. And Lord knows we don't need to bring anymore stuff into this house. So If i get a gift card to Home Depot, Rona or Linens & things I am more than Happy.

Oh.....there was a grunt.
could he be done!
I can stop typing and be let out of my room?

Better go check.....

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Wham Bam!

Yikes!
So many emotional things happening here the last couple days.
This thing with Mountain and the Ex has finally gotten itself worked out.
Mountain and I will not be ripped apart.
Nothing is going on.
He knows she is the issue. He knows and see's now how she is using her child to get with him. We both agreed that in time all will heal. Eventually she will get over her feelings about me, just as I did last night about her, and allow the girl to come here again. untill then Mountain will do what he needs to and so will i.
Now Charley's Birthday is tonight. Well her party is anyhow.
She invited those girls. Only 1 could come.
So I gave her another invite monday cuz she thought of someone else in another class. And so she had 2 coming! Perfect.
then the new invite called her last night and cancelled.
it was like a knife.
"Nobody wants to come to my party"
Oh I'm gonna start to cry again just remembering and thinking.
so now I am terrified that this other little girl that said she was coming is just not going to show!
i made icecream cake. We decorated the living-room. I'm gonna rent Highschool musical....all the ones I can get. Mountain is picking up balloons. so we over-compensate. cause this sucks. And she will have the best Birthday party ever for 2!!!
On top of that. I got my period a week ago and its not right not normal and won't stop. my boobs still hurt and my uterus has been achy and i have been extra tired and, and, and...........basically i am just old and my body is reminding me. Friggin Menopause.
my birthday and Charlotte's is next wednesday. And I will be 38! thats kinda ok. I have a house now and a daughter and a wonderful boyfriend and a good job. so I feel pretty accomplished.
Better run!
its late and I still have lots to do to prepare for the party!

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