Friday, May 26, 2006

moments

In a instant it could all be gone.
Next week......might not be there.
I'll do it later.......may never happen.
I for one plan to get my affairs in order over this next while cuase I have just learned over the last week how quickly. i mean truly quickly the chance might not be there.

I heard the words last night i've waited a lifetime to hear.
"I love you Kristi"
It was a wonderful feeling to be able to say them back.
I now know what all the Hubbub is all about!!!

I'm gonna hear them again.
We will get our time. We will!
DAmn you and your stubborness!
I was gonna just go anyway. Cause screw him! he needs me and he's just doing this all out of man~pride and crap!
However, I'd be waiting in the airport an awful long time without him agreeing to me coming. Cause I honestly jsut don't knw where the Hell to go once i get there.

We will have our time. I don't know when................but we will.

I Love you Too Harry

19 comments:

Leah said...

I'm so happy for you Kristi!!!

Michelle said...

Stupid stubborn pride. I'm sure if you just told him you were going and that's that, he would show. And I'm sure you could find his address out somehow and just show up.

Congrats and enjoy! You deserve it!

Kristi said...

he is in hospital.
he won't show.
my heart hurts so much
all i want is to be there.
its all i can think about.
i'm at work 12 hours today and all i can think about is.......

shari said...

we have got to figure out a way to get you there. he'll be so glad if it just happens.

Stephen said...

time to reveal the mystery man?

Kristi said...

oh i kniow how to get there.
I have a credit card.
theres planes.
I'm good. i would be there in a heartbeat if he'd let me

but he won't be on the other end or let his daughter or son know to get me.
then I am jsut sitting in an airport crying.
my hands are tied until his if his daughter calls.

shari said...

you could just call a cab and taxi to the hospital... (unless that is too far)

Kristi said...

don't know what hospital.

Perry H. said...

Ok, this might sound mean to some people. Not meaning to piss on the parade, but does anyone else but me think this guy is married? If he loves her, why all the mystery??

Perry H. said...

ouch, disregard that last comment. What an ass I can be sometimes! I DO hope all works out well for you!

Kristi said...

he doesn't want me to see him like this.
he's just trying to piss me off cuase he finds humour in it!
And hey. i aim to please, right!

I honestly don't give a flying fuck what he's lookin like. His heart is calling to me and I would leave with the clothes on my back and charley by my side to be there with him if he'd let me

sxuly yrs said...

Kristi~
I am sending good energy and prayers to our sweet friend~you love for him brings a tear to my eye! You two will be together if I have to bring him to you!

Please let me know if you hear anything!

Hugs~!
andi

Gary said...

I hope everything works out for you. You know I think you deserve the best.

steph said...

hold on to the gifts that he gave you. that will be the legacy he leaves you. that will be the strength you need. i think he knows to much and is keeping you safe. try and see his side and let him protect you...as for him all we can do is leave it to God and be grateful we knew him at all because even that has changed you in every good way that there is...i hope you can lean on me.

Kristi said...

if i suddenly need to leave.........
i need to know that you can take charlitte.
i don't care about getting her to school........
this is soemthing that I need to do and may need to do quite suddenly.
i just need to know that she is safe. As I won't be able to take her as I had first planned.
I am just waiting for the call.........

joanne said...

Like txdad, I certainly hope he isn't married or hiding something either. You know I love you - I don't mean anything bad ever. I just don't want you to be hurt again.

steph said...

I know...go...I will be here when you get back...to help you get back up. go.

Chris said...

I am glad you are happy and in love. I hope he is ok.

It does seem like just recently you were posting about how badly you were hurt in a relationship, and now it sounds like you are already very seriously attached to someone else. Sometimes when you are hurt badly in a relationship, you can rebound and latch themselves on to another person to fill the emotional gap. So anyway I worry about you. I want you to have long term joy in your life, and not have to be on an emotional roller coaster.

Kristi said...

Yes you are right.

My self and this man were both afraid of something like that. this love is soemthing that has been building and grwoing and fighting since January.
I finally just gave in to my emotions after doing my best to clean house of all the Mike crap.
he did wonders at bringing the Mike crap all to the surface and me throwing it away.
I am far from a rebound girl. That has actually always been my downfall.
Trust me.......
I am more amazed than anyone that my heart could go with another.
Those that have known me for a long time would probably say the same thing.
oF course under the circumstances things have sped up.
i'm sure we would have waited a longer time to share all our emotions if we had the time.
but we don't have the time.
Me so afraid to make ANotheR mistake with a man. Turns out that was months of wasted time.
There is no time left.
The last time I spoke with him he was in so much pain.......

now I just wait for the call