the Good with The Bad

well the good news is I managed everything for next month.

my overhead that is.

I've accepted the fact that the new fence i had saved for is just not going to happen and that we will just be exposed till next spring.  Thats not great.  But its not the end of the world.  The planters and trellis work.....also a luxury that i said goodbye to awhile ago.  

now to itemize and try to figure out some major things.

house insurance - school clothes - school supplies - vacation? food? gas?

i have 500bux to stretch.

Mountain not been working his 5 days a week all summer becasue the work isn't there at his plant. Only 4.  its only 1 day a week but he is down every month a bunch of unexpected money too.  He was told to take the rest of his vacation time so that the company doens't have to lay-off anymore people.  So he'll be taking an extra week just before I take mine and he'll be taking Charlotte that whole time!  So that is awesome it will help with daycare costs!

We discussed the vacation to Barkerville we had planned.  It was to be our First family vaca together.  WE have all been looking forward to it.  He said lets do it anyway!  We'll bring what I need to be comfortable sleeping in a tent on the ground and we'll just charge it!

WHAT!???  did i just throw-up a little in my mouth.

He says he wants to look back on our life together and have good, happy memories of vacations and summers.  Charley is growing and isn't going to be around to do stuff like Barkerville forever.  We can't afford to do Disneyland.  I've never been.  We can't afford Mexico or the Caribbean or a trip to England to visit his Sister or justify a night in a fancy hotel just the two of us, but a family trip to Barkerville? its a little easier to justify, and not nearly as much 'debt' as us trying to justify something more glamorous........Debt is soemthing we will always have.  The money will work out and i won't be half- working forever.

Is justifiable debt ok?

so Now i toss it around.  Charge it?  Crap.  I keep thinking about what Jewel always says - you can't take it with you - or soemthing to that effect.

What if my car blows-up?  i suppose if all we do is just go straight to Barkerville, stay for the days we planned and then come home.  Maybe stop in at my brothers? probably not?  Cancel the road-trip part?  It won't be too, too bad will it?  

i'm never going to get that ring.  DAmnit!

i don't know what to do.   Opinions Blogger Dudes!

 Help!!!

i need to crunch vaca numbers again.............