When?

When did I stop being happy.

I've had times when I've noticed I am not happy, but now I realize ....... i am not happy most of the time. When did that happen?

I've been so busy being broken and then struggling to get funding to go to school. Then busy in school. then busy with a new job. then busy planning a wedding ............... and the whole time ........... i wasn't happy. My core being isn't happy.

What the Hell happened and when?