How Long do We Have

Its hard when someone loses their best friend.

We are not sure how to do this with Whisky. We have been playing with her and cuddling ........ but she has changed. she is lonely. She's never been on her own. She came to us straight from her sisters. Auggy chose her. they've not been a part since. Except for their operations. I have never experienced 2 kitty's as close and bonded as she and Auggy. They were always together. Playing. Sitting. Relaxing. Sleeping. He groomed her constantly.

We will NEVER be able to replace August. He was so very unique. and I am not one to get another so quickly.......however.......i have found myself thinking about it. How mush time is there before Whisky becomes bitter and non-accepting? She is 1o nearly 11mnths old. Her kitten time is coming to a close. We want her to accept another. We don't think she'll accept a cat. She has never been like that. Auggy accepted everyone. She ........ not so much. So it would have to be a kitten.

We want the siamese. Mntn and i love the personalities the Siamese breeds carry. We were so blessed that Auggy was a cross. Thought tabby at first, but then it seemed maybe Ragdoll? he was so easy going. A male Siamese, so different for both of us. as we both had girls in the past. he darkened up sooo much in the last year. At his 1 year birthday still getting darker. He had a yellow strip down his back and leopard spot on one hip. Tabby strips on his legs. His pose and dignity - we'd say - his siamese had begun to show as he matured in to adult cathood. Anyhow. Point being. A Siamese is what we want. Doesn't have to be purebred, but gotta have enough of the siamese to have the markings. Then is it better for Whisky to have a male or female. What will she take to? Will she take to a kitten at all? The most important question ....... how long can we wait? We are really not ready. he hasn't even been gone a week. but e are so worried about Whisky. Besides not having the money. Even for a Sale cat like Auggy was ....... we just ...........

This is just so hard. So painful. We will NEVER EVER replace him. but we don't want to wait so long that Whisky and kitty don't have a good relationship ............ Then there's the pain we have, i have to even look at other babies. i am looking for MY baby. I am not ready.

but is it selfish for me, for us, to not think of Whisky. Is she ready and needs for us to be closer to now than we are?

This whole thing has just been one big traumitic horrible tragedy taht has happened to our family.

AUGGY!!! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO OVER THE FENCE?!! I Miss Him so Much! My Baby! We obviously can't have a human baby ........ he was it. he was our baby .................