put my signal on to turn left. I turned it on and braked long before the turn. I am watching the white pick-up way behind me getting closer and closer and going really fast. He Finally see's me.
Slams on his brakes. I listen to the screeching tires. I see his back-end fish tailing out behind him. I see the vehicle behind him braking like crazy too. The screeching in harmony now.
Again I see a white grill and steel bumper coming at me thru the rear-view mirror.
FUCKER Your Going To Hit Me!!!!
not again!
i take my foot off the brake and pull 10/20 feet forward as he narrowly misses my car.
my body is tighter than it was. I am reduced to tears after I make the corner and have to pull over. I am scared. So scared. I phone Mntn and leave a message. I take my car in and the guy there can see that I am visibly shaken up. Tears on my face.
I don't want to drive anymore.
Is there some wierd cosmic energy out there that I need to be in a horrible car wreck? That it won't stop till it gets me? If there is and I can't avoid it - just let it happen when Charlotte is Not with me........
I know that sounds bizaare for me to say, but 2 other times last week i was nearly broadsided. Not as close as this morning though.
Had I not taken my foot off the brake - he would have hit me. I'd be part of an accident scene. I really messy one.
Each time its closer. I hope there isn't a next one.
I have the courtesy car now. hopefully people can see it and I don't have to drive scared anymore.
see my doctor today. my back is tight. My spine. My tailbone? how wierd is that. My hips. I guess its my pelvis. I was up for a few hours in the night cuz the ache woke me. Such an ache and I can't get comfy. I fall asleep sitting up for a bit. The stress of losing hours from work and how am I going to manage.......bills, mortgage, food. Money that I have socked away for a few things - will be gone in no time.
and i go back to being scared, but for different reasons
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