So sorry.
Guess mom can't stay away.
Found me thru Muck again.
So I just shut it down.
Those of you that are here have been invited.
The Secret Code didn't fool me Muck. I found it right away, guess so did my mom. Frig!
So dinner on sunday will be uncomfortable. My mom doens't accept fault in herself. So, me calling her judgemental probably really hurt her. I have said it to her before...just not so bluntly. I didn't want to hurt my mom. Just saying it how it is. I have used softer words in the past when talking with her.
so i suppose i need to confront her now.
DAmnit!
I really dont want to.
She doens't realize I can see when she's been in.
so if I don't confront her....i am no better than her...sneaking around....or Mr. Big.
And EWWWWWW!!! I certainly don't want to be anything like Mr. Big!
so I guess i'll wait till after dinner and she's had lots to drink and then.....
This sucks!
but for now.........Locked down
sucks for those readers of mine that are just hanging out. Never had a voice. Lurking in the shadows.
I was up in the middle of the night last night thinking about my Easter outfit.
Got a pretty little dress from Bert.
I don't have the right Black shoes to go with it. So I was awake picturing my black clunky boots....add a sweater...maybe a loose belt....I do't know. but let me tell you. I was a awake for at least an hour thinking about it.
Guess on my WAl-Mart shop this mroing I'll see if they have the Right black shoes to go....
Blog On
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Simple Appetizer Ideas Anyone??
my contribution for Easter dinner on Sunday is appetizers.
so far I have Bruschetta-Rumaki-Spinach Dip....
Anybody got any other EASY INEXPENSIVE idea/recipes to share?
Not even sure if I'll do what I've got.
Just tossing it around.
HeLp!
so far I have Bruschetta-Rumaki-Spinach Dip....
Anybody got any other EASY INEXPENSIVE idea/recipes to share?
Not even sure if I'll do what I've got.
Just tossing it around.
HeLp!
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Da Wabbitt is Coming, Hooray! Hooray!
WEll its here.
Easter.
on the weekend anyway.
Charley and I talked about Good Friday last night. Mostly cause its a holiday and she was trying to figure out where she was going. Then we talked about why its a holiday. HOw Jesus died. She told me how he was put in the cave and then came alive. I really think its neat how she knows these different things and we are not church goers.
Kudo's to me that I've managed to teach her.
She also knows that we get to colour Eggs on Saturday!
Mountain, I think, is joining us for the Egg ritual. They share a common interest of Art and creativity. I just do food colouring and vinegar. He's talking about wax ect. Whatever. I don't know anything about it. So if you do, great! Get it all together and you and the Queen can spend the afternoon creating. So we'll see.
Mountain doesn't have a lot of family type experiences under his belt.
This weekend he meets all of mine. Should be about 15 at my moms. I've gone 1 on 1 with his dad a few times now. so its his turn. In a big crowd he should be just fine.
He's met Sister already. And Derwood will be there. I'm sure they will have lots in common. And my Bo. He's already been warned about the judgemental eyes of my parents (my mother) So he's been prepped.
I feel we are pretty solid. Our relationship that is. At least thats how I feel and he has not given me any reason to feel differently. I hope he feels the same way.
Its the family joke, that as soon as a man I'm seeing comes to a family dinner, or meet my family, they break up with me. I Shit you Not! It truly happens! so I stopped bringing them. not that the chance has come up in the last few years....but still.
I think he is looking forward to it. And to the many, many family events after.
His dad has emailed the family(Mountains Sister) in England and told them all about me. His dad was here for Sunday dinner a couple weeks ago. I like him and we get along good.
so the Wabbitt wil come and hide his goodies!
Charley will be spoiled.
I think I will have to spoil Mountain too. he didn't get EAster hiding or that kind of thing while grwoing up.
time to sweat Blogger Dudes!
work off that Ass fat!
Blog On!
Easter.
on the weekend anyway.
Charley and I talked about Good Friday last night. Mostly cause its a holiday and she was trying to figure out where she was going. Then we talked about why its a holiday. HOw Jesus died. She told me how he was put in the cave and then came alive. I really think its neat how she knows these different things and we are not church goers.
Kudo's to me that I've managed to teach her.
She also knows that we get to colour Eggs on Saturday!
Mountain, I think, is joining us for the Egg ritual. They share a common interest of Art and creativity. I just do food colouring and vinegar. He's talking about wax ect. Whatever. I don't know anything about it. So if you do, great! Get it all together and you and the Queen can spend the afternoon creating. So we'll see.
Mountain doesn't have a lot of family type experiences under his belt.
This weekend he meets all of mine. Should be about 15 at my moms. I've gone 1 on 1 with his dad a few times now. so its his turn. In a big crowd he should be just fine.
He's met Sister already. And Derwood will be there. I'm sure they will have lots in common. And my Bo. He's already been warned about the judgemental eyes of my parents (my mother) So he's been prepped.
I feel we are pretty solid. Our relationship that is. At least thats how I feel and he has not given me any reason to feel differently. I hope he feels the same way.
Its the family joke, that as soon as a man I'm seeing comes to a family dinner, or meet my family, they break up with me. I Shit you Not! It truly happens! so I stopped bringing them. not that the chance has come up in the last few years....but still.
I think he is looking forward to it. And to the many, many family events after.
His dad has emailed the family(Mountains Sister) in England and told them all about me. His dad was here for Sunday dinner a couple weeks ago. I like him and we get along good.
so the Wabbitt wil come and hide his goodies!
Charley will be spoiled.
I think I will have to spoil Mountain too. he didn't get EAster hiding or that kind of thing while grwoing up.
time to sweat Blogger Dudes!
work off that Ass fat!
Blog On!
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Chardonnay!
Much Penguin was consumed this weekend!
Berta came over Friday evening for a sleepover.
My goodness.....is my knowledge of white wine becoming fantastic.
Those of you that know me, know i am not a white wine fan. Especially a Chardonnay!
Well, Berta has done a good job at finding ones that I like. My fav is still the Little Penguin. An Australian Chardonnay. We tried a couple others. I shared The Rodney with Muck last night. We both agreed that the Penguin was still the fav.
so much Girl time was had for me this weekend. Mountain was so good about it all.
Last night was very funny. Muck now has Bangs. Forgot all about that till I went and cleaned the bathroom this morning.
One thing i love about White wines is the lack of Headache the next mroning.
How yah Feeling Muck?!!???
Got some new clothes out of Berta's closet. How great is that!!!
I am thrilled. Mountain is too.
He likes the Jeans. You were rigth Bert.
So now I am cleaning out my closets....
Anyhow. Gotta go get the dough going for cinnamon buns.
I suppose I should look thru my camera too.
There was much action here. I'm sure some of it was recorded on the digital.....
blog On Dudes!
Berta came over Friday evening for a sleepover.
My goodness.....is my knowledge of white wine becoming fantastic.
Those of you that know me, know i am not a white wine fan. Especially a Chardonnay!
Well, Berta has done a good job at finding ones that I like. My fav is still the Little Penguin. An Australian Chardonnay. We tried a couple others. I shared The Rodney with Muck last night. We both agreed that the Penguin was still the fav.
so much Girl time was had for me this weekend. Mountain was so good about it all.
Last night was very funny. Muck now has Bangs. Forgot all about that till I went and cleaned the bathroom this morning.
One thing i love about White wines is the lack of Headache the next mroning.
How yah Feeling Muck?!!???
Got some new clothes out of Berta's closet. How great is that!!!
I am thrilled. Mountain is too.
He likes the Jeans. You were rigth Bert.
So now I am cleaning out my closets....
Anyhow. Gotta go get the dough going for cinnamon buns.
I suppose I should look thru my camera too.
There was much action here. I'm sure some of it was recorded on the digital.....
blog On Dudes!
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Owning is Not for me I guess
well I will not be a new anything to live in owner anytime soon.
Or anytime later for that fact. Unless Mountain was serious about doing it next year or the year after.
I was approved for enough to purchase a mobile home which is not the end of the world. Accept that the ones I can afford are trash and the ones that are okay are all age restricted.
So here i stay and hope for the best.
Its almost a good feeling knowing there's really nothing I can do.
Moving would end up costing me the same elsewhere in rent once this goes up. So I might elsewell stay in the place we call Home.
Nannygirl is looking for a place with her boyfriend.
Whatever.
So then I can rent that room out to a homestay student!
of course nothing is even happening yet,so there's no use dwelling on it.
But if there's no use dwelling on it, than why do I have this pain in my chest?
I'm on Pinks for frigs sake! I'm not supposed to have pains in my chest anymore.
On the bright side....the anxiety may be what I need to shed some of the 10lbs I've gained since december!
I think my favorite question the bank lady asked was to list my assets.
Huh? I have a car, a dishwasher, washer/dryer, matching furniture.....
Oh only the car counts....ummmm okay.
Its nice to have it confirmed what I already knew.....
Its how much I bring in a month that counts. And for how much I do...a big 70 was granted. funny. it was quite a bit more than I expected. A bigger down paymetn may help a bit, but really. Its the numbers at the end of the month that matter.
I hope its nice this weekend.
i realy need to cut my lawn and weed my garden.
Wanna come over saturday night for girl time?
I'll make stirfry
Or anytime later for that fact. Unless Mountain was serious about doing it next year or the year after.
I was approved for enough to purchase a mobile home which is not the end of the world. Accept that the ones I can afford are trash and the ones that are okay are all age restricted.
So here i stay and hope for the best.
Its almost a good feeling knowing there's really nothing I can do.
Moving would end up costing me the same elsewhere in rent once this goes up. So I might elsewell stay in the place we call Home.
Nannygirl is looking for a place with her boyfriend.
Whatever.
So then I can rent that room out to a homestay student!
of course nothing is even happening yet,so there's no use dwelling on it.
But if there's no use dwelling on it, than why do I have this pain in my chest?
I'm on Pinks for frigs sake! I'm not supposed to have pains in my chest anymore.
On the bright side....the anxiety may be what I need to shed some of the 10lbs I've gained since december!
I think my favorite question the bank lady asked was to list my assets.
Huh? I have a car, a dishwasher, washer/dryer, matching furniture.....
Oh only the car counts....ummmm okay.
Its nice to have it confirmed what I already knew.....
Its how much I bring in a month that counts. And for how much I do...a big 70 was granted. funny. it was quite a bit more than I expected. A bigger down paymetn may help a bit, but really. Its the numbers at the end of the month that matter.
I hope its nice this weekend.
i realy need to cut my lawn and weed my garden.
Wanna come over saturday night for girl time?
I'll make stirfry
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Crusty
I love waking up with nose and eye crusty's.
Itchy throat, no voice....
Friggin allergies.
It must really be spring!
Itchy throat, no voice....
Friggin allergies.
It must really be spring!
Monday, March 26, 2007
Sunday, March 25, 2007
I Shit & Stomped in It!
Well...here I am.
In true Kristi fashion I got my ducks in a row as soon as I could!
Our home is going to sell.
Its a duplex. So anyone that buys will be buying for an investment. Be that either to continue renting or tear it down and build new. its a huge lot with greenspace behind.
So my rent might go up. Thats not the end of the world.
Having to move .......would be.
So I am going to set up an appointment with my credit union and get pre-approved for a mortgage. See where I stand.
If God is smiling on me I can stay here another year and Mountain and I will buy together Next spring.
I've been on the phone with my brother getting information.
I cried all last night and this morning in Mountains arms.
Spent a few hours outside staring at my bulbs that are continually coming up.
My garden that I've poured my heart into for the last 5 years.
The dirt that i've worked with my hands.
The plants that I moved from our last house when it sold.
The plants that I got from Muck cause she couldn't take them with her.
Charlotte was out today in the Blackberries. Playing. Cutting. Exploring.
This is our Home.
But yes Ladies....everything happens for a reason.
We will be okay.
Mountain has done what he can on his White horse.
keep your fingers and toes crossed that we can stay another year. Otherwise I am looking at trying to buy a 'something' on my own right now. And lets face it.....thats going to be tough.
So no more effort into my garden.
Whatever is there is there. I just weed and maintain.
Charlotte's space.....
Its jsut so heartbreaking.
*sigh*
Life does go on.
any Helpful house/townhouse buying tips will be welcomed
In true Kristi fashion I got my ducks in a row as soon as I could!
Our home is going to sell.
Its a duplex. So anyone that buys will be buying for an investment. Be that either to continue renting or tear it down and build new. its a huge lot with greenspace behind.
So my rent might go up. Thats not the end of the world.
Having to move .......would be.
So I am going to set up an appointment with my credit union and get pre-approved for a mortgage. See where I stand.
If God is smiling on me I can stay here another year and Mountain and I will buy together Next spring.
I've been on the phone with my brother getting information.
I cried all last night and this morning in Mountains arms.
Spent a few hours outside staring at my bulbs that are continually coming up.
My garden that I've poured my heart into for the last 5 years.
The dirt that i've worked with my hands.
The plants that I moved from our last house when it sold.
The plants that I got from Muck cause she couldn't take them with her.
Charlotte was out today in the Blackberries. Playing. Cutting. Exploring.
This is our Home.
But yes Ladies....everything happens for a reason.
We will be okay.
Mountain has done what he can on his White horse.
keep your fingers and toes crossed that we can stay another year. Otherwise I am looking at trying to buy a 'something' on my own right now. And lets face it.....thats going to be tough.
So no more effort into my garden.
Whatever is there is there. I just weed and maintain.
Charlotte's space.....
Its jsut so heartbreaking.
*sigh*
Life does go on.
any Helpful house/townhouse buying tips will be welcomed
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Friday, March 23, 2007
ya
sorry
I'd prefer 'other' over laminate flooring
its nice to visit. Just not my first choice to live there
Make sense???
I'd prefer 'other' over laminate flooring
its nice to visit. Just not my first choice to live there
Make sense???
Woa Friday!
Its Friday and I haven't posted since Tuesday!
whats up with that?
Mornings have been short this week.
Been opting for sleeping a bit late and then Excercise over the computer. Go Figure!
Mountain and I had a wonderful DAte on Wednesday night. Dinner and just being out is so nice. Charley was at my parents for the night.
Work has been crazy busy!
i love it!
My parents back yard had a huge washout from all the rain. The environmental people have been there. They will have to fix it this summer when the river and creek get bak down again. In the meatime, mom & dad have had a real estate agent in.
They are considering moving.
I finally have a partner that matches my sex drive. How great is that!
Well its great for me anyhow.
His roomate has requested more baked goods. I sent everything I baked home with him last weekend
So thats nice. I like to feed people.
One day, if it should ever stop raining, I would like to get in my garden. There's weeds and grass everywhere! Spring is here! Its time to get it togehter. The winter did a lot of damage this year. I lost a rosebush even.
Okay.
gotta run.
Excercise to be done before I fly Charlotte off to Bert's for the day!
Frig! What am I gonna do in the summer?!!!
AAAAhhHHHH!
Blog On Dudes
whats up with that?
Mornings have been short this week.
Been opting for sleeping a bit late and then Excercise over the computer. Go Figure!
Mountain and I had a wonderful DAte on Wednesday night. Dinner and just being out is so nice. Charley was at my parents for the night.
Work has been crazy busy!
i love it!
My parents back yard had a huge washout from all the rain. The environmental people have been there. They will have to fix it this summer when the river and creek get bak down again. In the meatime, mom & dad have had a real estate agent in.
They are considering moving.
I finally have a partner that matches my sex drive. How great is that!
Well its great for me anyhow.
His roomate has requested more baked goods. I sent everything I baked home with him last weekend
So thats nice. I like to feed people.
One day, if it should ever stop raining, I would like to get in my garden. There's weeds and grass everywhere! Spring is here! Its time to get it togehter. The winter did a lot of damage this year. I lost a rosebush even.
Okay.
gotta run.
Excercise to be done before I fly Charlotte off to Bert's for the day!
Frig! What am I gonna do in the summer?!!!
AAAAhhHHHH!
Blog On Dudes
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
land people
When the landpeoples Daughter calls it just can't be a good thing.
I wasn't home. So now I have to sweat it out till Saturday, when apparently she is calling back.
Nope. She wouldn';t leave her number.
I hope my landpersn is still alive. And that they are not selling the house.
FFFFFFF!
I wasn't home. So now I have to sweat it out till Saturday, when apparently she is calling back.
Nope. She wouldn';t leave her number.
I hope my landpersn is still alive. And that they are not selling the house.
FFFFFFF!
Just Feel
Yup!
Just gotta feel.
all is well.
I just have thick scars from my long and unloved tumultuous past, did I spell that right?
He is not ready to say the words. Never said he didn't love me.....just not ready. So I just need to relax.
He is not one of the others....
He is Mountain Man.
I have to stop being scared of the hurt in my past.
This weekend. I went about my daily stuff and he went about his. Charlotte hung out and it was all very comfortable. My old T.V in the basement, that has been dubbed..Charlotte's T.V. Died Saturday Morning.
Remember Bert....how many times did we Water that poor thing when we lived togehter? I'm surprised it lasted as long as it did!
after one saturday of her in my living room. Skipping and Cartwheeling and just being Charlotte. I knew we couldn't live this way.
so on Sunday off we went to Future Shop. (i had a 50dollar gift card from Christmas for there)
Myself, Charley and mountain hand in hand walking thru the doors.
Charley and Mountain went and played video games, I went and looked at T.V's
I guess I got ignored cause I was looking in the cheap section.
Frig. It took forever to get help! and it only took me moments to find the one I was gonna buy!
Everything is flat screen now. holy Heck!
I Chose an inexpensive 20inch NOT a flat screen model. After the gift card it only cost me barely 50bux! How great is that!
then we picked up a shelf. Off we trudged with our full car and wandered thru car lots in the rain. Mountain sharing his interests with us. Charlotte enjoying looking in and Mountain explaining things to her.
When we got home I made lunch. Mountain and Charley built the shelf and got the Basement room re-arranged. after lunch I got busy with house stuff while Charlotte enjoyed her New T.V. and Mountain took my Christmas lights off the house!
WoW! Is this what it is like to have a man around?
they sure are handy!
Yesterday...we met him at work for his lunch break. Queen and I had been out in the monring running errands. We came home got lunch together and went to his warehouse. He took us on the grand tour......It was neat.
It was more neat that he invited us! Showing off his work. Showing us off to his work.
so I'm ready to tell him before he's ready to tell me.
Big Deal!
Like an Orgasm. It rarely happens at the same time.
I just know that when it does happen he will mean it.
Just gotta feel.
all is well.
I just have thick scars from my long and unloved tumultuous past, did I spell that right?
He is not ready to say the words. Never said he didn't love me.....just not ready. So I just need to relax.
He is not one of the others....
He is Mountain Man.
I have to stop being scared of the hurt in my past.
This weekend. I went about my daily stuff and he went about his. Charlotte hung out and it was all very comfortable. My old T.V in the basement, that has been dubbed..Charlotte's T.V. Died Saturday Morning.
Remember Bert....how many times did we Water that poor thing when we lived togehter? I'm surprised it lasted as long as it did!
after one saturday of her in my living room. Skipping and Cartwheeling and just being Charlotte. I knew we couldn't live this way.
so on Sunday off we went to Future Shop. (i had a 50dollar gift card from Christmas for there)
Myself, Charley and mountain hand in hand walking thru the doors.
Charley and Mountain went and played video games, I went and looked at T.V's
I guess I got ignored cause I was looking in the cheap section.
Frig. It took forever to get help! and it only took me moments to find the one I was gonna buy!
Everything is flat screen now. holy Heck!
I Chose an inexpensive 20inch NOT a flat screen model. After the gift card it only cost me barely 50bux! How great is that!
then we picked up a shelf. Off we trudged with our full car and wandered thru car lots in the rain. Mountain sharing his interests with us. Charlotte enjoying looking in and Mountain explaining things to her.
When we got home I made lunch. Mountain and Charley built the shelf and got the Basement room re-arranged. after lunch I got busy with house stuff while Charlotte enjoyed her New T.V. and Mountain took my Christmas lights off the house!
WoW! Is this what it is like to have a man around?
they sure are handy!
Yesterday...we met him at work for his lunch break. Queen and I had been out in the monring running errands. We came home got lunch together and went to his warehouse. He took us on the grand tour......It was neat.
It was more neat that he invited us! Showing off his work. Showing us off to his work.
so I'm ready to tell him before he's ready to tell me.
Big Deal!
Like an Orgasm. It rarely happens at the same time.
I just know that when it does happen he will mean it.
Monday, March 19, 2007
LoVe
When do you fall in love?
How do you know thats what it is?
I used the feelings and the word so freely last year. Before that I was careful who I loved and when.
I used the Word with............... Now I want to use it with Mountain.
HOw do you know when its okay to say it?
would it be an insult now? Would he be offended? Would he believe me! Have I used it too much?
I know there are lots of different loves. Many ways to love, but which is which and what one am I feeling now? he says he's not ready to love me yet. So what does it mean to him?!!! I couldn't talk about it. Memories and fears flooded my mind and all I wanted to do was push. push him out of my life!
One thing I know fersure.....when I love I love forever. I don't 'fall out of love' I don't believe that happens. I believe the love evolves and changes, but it is always there.
Do I say it to him? Once its out there......
If I don't say it can i still run...........run the other way. Out of this relationship.
I don't want to run. He is in my heart and I am happy.
Do i love him? i Don't know. i am so confused
How do you know thats what it is?
I used the feelings and the word so freely last year. Before that I was careful who I loved and when.
I used the Word with............... Now I want to use it with Mountain.
HOw do you know when its okay to say it?
would it be an insult now? Would he be offended? Would he believe me! Have I used it too much?
I know there are lots of different loves. Many ways to love, but which is which and what one am I feeling now? he says he's not ready to love me yet. So what does it mean to him?!!! I couldn't talk about it. Memories and fears flooded my mind and all I wanted to do was push. push him out of my life!
One thing I know fersure.....when I love I love forever. I don't 'fall out of love' I don't believe that happens. I believe the love evolves and changes, but it is always there.
Do I say it to him? Once its out there......
If I don't say it can i still run...........run the other way. Out of this relationship.
I don't want to run. He is in my heart and I am happy.
Do i love him? i Don't know. i am so confused
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Doc Said........
I had another appointment with my Doc the other day.
Guess what?
He says if I am still doing as well in June as I have been doing the last few months....i get to go off the Pinks!
How awesome is that?
I am very most happy.
Its neat to be able to feel like I'm better.
i know I still have a more healing to do. But I'm getting there. Counsellor says healing time is different for everyone. But my progress since Christmas has been phenomonal!
Its wierd to think where I was last year at this time.
Not only what yu all saw, but what i saw inside.
My thoughts....the inner fights with my thoughts....the hours spent just trying to get the simplest tasks done. The hours spent inside my head. Thinking, thinking thinking. Trying to feel better. Fighting to feel better. FAking it to the world.
I am just in awe of my head alone.
So, so grateful for the mental breakdown that finally sent me over the edge inthe right direction of help.
Did you know I live with anxiety every day of my life?
I will probably continue to do so when I get un-medicated as well.
I mean.....I have been suffering from anxiety attacks since I was a child.
They were actually worse then!
Horrid pains in my chest at 7 years old!
Feeling like I can't breath. It was awful.
Chemical inbalance they say.
Hopefully the list of vitamins and Herbs I have can be a more natural wayonce I'm thru the woods here.
And like the Doc's have said....so I go back on.....it's not the end of the world.
Just expensive.
Then of course there's the baby thoughts. Don't want to be drugged and trying to concieve.
But we will cross that bridge when we come to it.
For now I look forward to June when I can take the dosage down, enjoy the sun, and let nature do its thing.
Blog on Dudes!
Guess what?
He says if I am still doing as well in June as I have been doing the last few months....i get to go off the Pinks!
How awesome is that?
I am very most happy.
Its neat to be able to feel like I'm better.
i know I still have a more healing to do. But I'm getting there. Counsellor says healing time is different for everyone. But my progress since Christmas has been phenomonal!
Its wierd to think where I was last year at this time.
Not only what yu all saw, but what i saw inside.
My thoughts....the inner fights with my thoughts....the hours spent just trying to get the simplest tasks done. The hours spent inside my head. Thinking, thinking thinking. Trying to feel better. Fighting to feel better. FAking it to the world.
I am just in awe of my head alone.
So, so grateful for the mental breakdown that finally sent me over the edge inthe right direction of help.
Did you know I live with anxiety every day of my life?
I will probably continue to do so when I get un-medicated as well.
I mean.....I have been suffering from anxiety attacks since I was a child.
They were actually worse then!
Horrid pains in my chest at 7 years old!
Feeling like I can't breath. It was awful.
Chemical inbalance they say.
Hopefully the list of vitamins and Herbs I have can be a more natural wayonce I'm thru the woods here.
And like the Doc's have said....so I go back on.....it's not the end of the world.
Just expensive.
Then of course there's the baby thoughts. Don't want to be drugged and trying to concieve.
But we will cross that bridge when we come to it.
For now I look forward to June when I can take the dosage down, enjoy the sun, and let nature do its thing.
Blog on Dudes!
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Too Drunk to Drive
I am.
2
Mountain asleep in my bed,
a movie
Hunt movie about tornados
I awake.
Love the movie.
The penquin wine,
Bert got me on it!!!!
achardonnay.
Holy Heck.
He is breathing heavy.
I should go to bed too.
Sister.....not lettting go of her old job.
I am drunk.
alls welll. A good place.
Just can't type al; too well
2
Mountain asleep in my bed,
a movie
Hunt movie about tornados
I awake.
Love the movie.
The penquin wine,
Bert got me on it!!!!
achardonnay.
Holy Heck.
He is breathing heavy.
I should go to bed too.
Sister.....not lettting go of her old job.
I am drunk.
alls welll. A good place.
Just can't type al; too well
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Getting Married
It's a huge step in a persons life.
One, most of us don't think too in depth about.
Well, i for one, have always given it a great deal of thought. Mostly cause I guess I've had enough time to. I've watched so many, many people do it. Young and old. Watched and lived over the last 18 years, how people evolve and change. Frig. I've studied habits, manorisms and characteristics of people over the last 20 at least!
So how many people, in this day and age, think far enough ahead, to....this is the person I want, or Hope, will be wiping my ass after my first stroke?
Graphic?
I hope so. Cause that is the reality of it.
Till death do us part>
was taht in your vows? It sure as heck is gonna be in mine.
Also the vow...wipe my chin and my ass unless we have enough money in pension or disability to hire a nurse!
Really its a question to ask yourseslf before you marry. do I love this person enough too?????
For better or worse>
How bout that one?
Worse can be pretty bad. Midlife, mis-understood, easyily denied, how the Heck did that happen crisis. Evolution of relationships. IT HAPPENS!!!! Frig.
My parents are highschool sweethearts.
they also have seperate bedrooms and are the best of friends. My dad is an asshole and my mom buries her head in the sand. they get along okay and it all works. 41 yrs. You find the path that works for you cause this is the person that is gonna wipe your ass when you need your dignity, and TRULY loves you for real to do it.
This brings me on to weddings.
Now I am not as bitter as I used to be.
Nope. Not sure why. Must be the Pinks.
I think we are born with the dream.
Although, i don't see it in my own daughter. She doenst' play bride. I'm sure by her age I was. with Barbie's.........
hmmmm.
Maybe its a new age thing. Or maybe its cause its not been a thing for her mommy.
Charlotte is being brought up to just be herself. Not an add on. So her brain patterns are diferent.
hmmmm.
anyhow>
I hve an issue with Weddings.
Why are we having and spending so much money on them???
Are you getting married to have the party?
I know I'd be having a HUGE party if i got married. right in my parents front and backyard to be exact!..... BYOB i would only provide food. how's that?
I my parents front yard yard and mid floor of their home. Fair i think.
Most likely i'd be in a colour of dress you'd never forget. Of course reciting my vows earlier with a JP
Not htat I don't think they are wondrful, a lot of fun and beautiful. I have an issue with the whys and reasons.
My mother said something to me a long time ago.
the bigger and fancier the wedding the quicker and bigger the divorce.
Now my mother is not the one to speak wisdom in our family. Its usually my dad.
however.......
I'm sure its probably my personal feelings mixed in with what i learned in church.
you get married by a man of the church....whatthe Fffff were you doing living together! I guess thats good. A 10 thousand dollar wedding should cover it. I mean, you gotta have the dress and you definantly gotta have the pictures.
Oh...you have a baby on the way. oh Prdon. you getting married in in front of God..
oh I Am sorry. Yes of course this is enough money to plan the wedding. But maybe an off-white gown would be better. you can hide the gained baby fat better.
So we all have pre-marital sex.
I know 2 people at this moment that are not under that umbrella.
So the bride is wearing white. Isn't it nice that she is a virgin.
what do you mean the flower girl is her daughter?
so we all have a Dream.
Okay...i even have a dream. but when does the dream begin to insult.
I am speaking as an insult to what is referred to as the Bible
Maybe a lot of you don't know this.
but I started going to a devote mennonite church when I was 10.
I learned a lot.
No I don't agee with it all.
Not that I would ever be able to spit up verses or tell you exactly where or anything...just know I;ve read it is all.
During my teen and young adult years I explored.
Yes i have Read the Bible. Not the whole thing. but Much of it. I have formed my own opinions.
I have looked into sikhs, buddhism, mormans, Catholism, Jehovahs, Wicca
Now the thing is..we al believe.
We all belive in the higher power.
God.
Yet we still all live how we want.
Pregnancis out of wedlock....DAMNED
Divorce.....DAMNED
It went even as far as to say women showing skin....Damned!
But Yet we all belive there is something greater than our exhistance. why?
Our exhistance is pretty great!!
Look
I started out with the pretense that these Fucking weddings are pissng me off. I got so political and religious.
i hardly tipped the iceberg on what i realy feel about that shit!
However weddings....
they are a fun thing. when they are not tied into a religous blah, blah,blah and are just about the union to take place....i am there with String in a Can Baby!!!
As I would of cousre espect your to be.
its Not a Prty without String in a Can and Jello Shooter's!!! Right Muck!???!
blog On!
One, most of us don't think too in depth about.
Well, i for one, have always given it a great deal of thought. Mostly cause I guess I've had enough time to. I've watched so many, many people do it. Young and old. Watched and lived over the last 18 years, how people evolve and change. Frig. I've studied habits, manorisms and characteristics of people over the last 20 at least!
So how many people, in this day and age, think far enough ahead, to....this is the person I want, or Hope, will be wiping my ass after my first stroke?
Graphic?
I hope so. Cause that is the reality of it.
Till death do us part>
was taht in your vows? It sure as heck is gonna be in mine.
Also the vow...wipe my chin and my ass unless we have enough money in pension or disability to hire a nurse!
Really its a question to ask yourseslf before you marry. do I love this person enough too?????
For better or worse>
How bout that one?
Worse can be pretty bad. Midlife, mis-understood, easyily denied, how the Heck did that happen crisis. Evolution of relationships. IT HAPPENS!!!! Frig.
My parents are highschool sweethearts.
they also have seperate bedrooms and are the best of friends. My dad is an asshole and my mom buries her head in the sand. they get along okay and it all works. 41 yrs. You find the path that works for you cause this is the person that is gonna wipe your ass when you need your dignity, and TRULY loves you for real to do it.
This brings me on to weddings.
Now I am not as bitter as I used to be.
Nope. Not sure why. Must be the Pinks.
I think we are born with the dream.
Although, i don't see it in my own daughter. She doenst' play bride. I'm sure by her age I was. with Barbie's.........
hmmmm.
Maybe its a new age thing. Or maybe its cause its not been a thing for her mommy.
Charlotte is being brought up to just be herself. Not an add on. So her brain patterns are diferent.
hmmmm.
anyhow>
I hve an issue with Weddings.
Why are we having and spending so much money on them???
Are you getting married to have the party?
I know I'd be having a HUGE party if i got married. right in my parents front and backyard to be exact!..... BYOB i would only provide food. how's that?
I my parents front yard yard and mid floor of their home. Fair i think.
Most likely i'd be in a colour of dress you'd never forget. Of course reciting my vows earlier with a JP
Not htat I don't think they are wondrful, a lot of fun and beautiful. I have an issue with the whys and reasons.
My mother said something to me a long time ago.
the bigger and fancier the wedding the quicker and bigger the divorce.
Now my mother is not the one to speak wisdom in our family. Its usually my dad.
however.......
I'm sure its probably my personal feelings mixed in with what i learned in church.
you get married by a man of the church....whatthe Fffff were you doing living together! I guess thats good. A 10 thousand dollar wedding should cover it. I mean, you gotta have the dress and you definantly gotta have the pictures.
Oh...you have a baby on the way. oh Prdon. you getting married in in front of God..
oh I Am sorry. Yes of course this is enough money to plan the wedding. But maybe an off-white gown would be better. you can hide the gained baby fat better.
So we all have pre-marital sex.
I know 2 people at this moment that are not under that umbrella.
So the bride is wearing white. Isn't it nice that she is a virgin.
what do you mean the flower girl is her daughter?
so we all have a Dream.
Okay...i even have a dream. but when does the dream begin to insult.
I am speaking as an insult to what is referred to as the Bible
Maybe a lot of you don't know this.
but I started going to a devote mennonite church when I was 10.
I learned a lot.
No I don't agee with it all.
Not that I would ever be able to spit up verses or tell you exactly where or anything...just know I;ve read it is all.
During my teen and young adult years I explored.
Yes i have Read the Bible. Not the whole thing. but Much of it. I have formed my own opinions.
I have looked into sikhs, buddhism, mormans, Catholism, Jehovahs, Wicca
Now the thing is..we al believe.
We all belive in the higher power.
God.
Yet we still all live how we want.
Pregnancis out of wedlock....DAMNED
Divorce.....DAMNED
It went even as far as to say women showing skin....Damned!
But Yet we all belive there is something greater than our exhistance. why?
Our exhistance is pretty great!!
Look
I started out with the pretense that these Fucking weddings are pissng me off. I got so political and religious.
i hardly tipped the iceberg on what i realy feel about that shit!
However weddings....
they are a fun thing. when they are not tied into a religous blah, blah,blah and are just about the union to take place....i am there with String in a Can Baby!!!
As I would of cousre espect your to be.
its Not a Prty without String in a Can and Jello Shooter's!!! Right Muck!???!
blog On!
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Skating Lessons
I was approached last night at lessons, as to why Charlotte is not in Figure skating.
This is not the first time.
Very flattering.
This is not the first time.
Very flattering.
Monday, March 12, 2007
He Died
Seems one of Nanny Girls gerbils died today.
she has 3. 2 of them in the same cage.
She came home 40 minutes ago to find the live one eating the Dead one.
EW YUCK!!!
Standing at the bottom of my stairs crying, she's asking for my help.
This is way out of my Super Hero league!
Mountain had just left 15 minutes before. Maybe he wasn't home yet.....
Back he came to save us from the cannabalistic Killer gerbil!
Wrapped poor Devon in newspaper for tomorrows funeral and left.
For the Second time tonight.
I knew these diseased creatures will eat their young...but this is different.
What the Hell!
I can do a lot of things, but that was not one of them.
Mountain is so Wonderful!
Poor Nanny Girl.
Hero presents will have to be found & given!
she has 3. 2 of them in the same cage.
She came home 40 minutes ago to find the live one eating the Dead one.
EW YUCK!!!
Standing at the bottom of my stairs crying, she's asking for my help.
This is way out of my Super Hero league!
Mountain had just left 15 minutes before. Maybe he wasn't home yet.....
Back he came to save us from the cannabalistic Killer gerbil!
Wrapped poor Devon in newspaper for tomorrows funeral and left.
For the Second time tonight.
I knew these diseased creatures will eat their young...but this is different.
What the Hell!
I can do a lot of things, but that was not one of them.
Mountain is so Wonderful!
Poor Nanny Girl.
Hero presents will have to be found & given!
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Friday, March 09, 2007
Coming along
Its been so exciting this last week at work.
Since going for dinner With my Mountain on last Saturday night...I got the bug.
We were geting blinds this past Tuesday and I really wanted it to start coming together.
so Out I went on Sunday and picked up a whole pile of plants and Pots. Wal-Mart Never lets me down!!
Seems I passed the bug on to Boss Mitch!
It is just looking so good!
Blinds...plants....So he planted a Herb garden right in our front window!
How cool is that?!!! He can now use fresh herbs in his sauces and stuff! Then he came home with a Palm yesterday afternoon. WE named it Allan. Allan the tree.
Next we will have our *New* menu's.
WooWoo!
Black Leather with our Name etched across the front. ............we've been wating for months for them. They've been on back order forever.......
its just all coming along. As soon as thats done......we will advertise and paper the Whole damn town!
Prices are not Changing. Still only 7.99 for the rice bowl. And the 5.99 Lunch Menu Aint going Anywhere!!!
I think the most expensive item is the Coq au Vin at 22bux! And damn does that stuffed chicken ever look good!
Mmmmm.
Since going for dinner With my Mountain on last Saturday night...I got the bug.
We were geting blinds this past Tuesday and I really wanted it to start coming together.
so Out I went on Sunday and picked up a whole pile of plants and Pots. Wal-Mart Never lets me down!!
Seems I passed the bug on to Boss Mitch!
It is just looking so good!
Blinds...plants....So he planted a Herb garden right in our front window!
How cool is that?!!! He can now use fresh herbs in his sauces and stuff! Then he came home with a Palm yesterday afternoon. WE named it Allan. Allan the tree.
Next we will have our *New* menu's.
WooWoo!
Black Leather with our Name etched across the front. ............we've been wating for months for them. They've been on back order forever.......
its just all coming along. As soon as thats done......we will advertise and paper the Whole damn town!
Prices are not Changing. Still only 7.99 for the rice bowl. And the 5.99 Lunch Menu Aint going Anywhere!!!
I think the most expensive item is the Coq au Vin at 22bux! And damn does that stuffed chicken ever look good!
Mmmmm.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
No Babies Here!
Not a chance!
that would be such a big Oooops its not even funny.
No babies for us....if I can still have them...till there's a ring on my finger and a mortgage with the bank!
That's a few years away
as long as the relationship is still going the direction its going
its nice to be on the same page with someone.
that would be such a big Oooops its not even funny.
No babies for us....if I can still have them...till there's a ring on my finger and a mortgage with the bank!
That's a few years away
as long as the relationship is still going the direction its going
its nice to be on the same page with someone.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Breaded
So I like food that's breaded. Like schnitzel or maybe chicken.
MaaAN i could go for a McChicken right about now!
Mmmmm. Breading.
Like what about KFC? That is some good stuff!
Got coupons for it today too.
Boyz o'boyz I do love coupons. No I am not ashamed to say so! I love em' and I use em'
Had breaded Veal Neptune for my fancy dinner date Saturday night. Yum!
Still thinking about it.
Frig...am I ever craving a bacon-cheese burger.
What is going on here?
I'm goin' to bed
MaaAN i could go for a McChicken right about now!
Mmmmm. Breading.
Like what about KFC? That is some good stuff!
Got coupons for it today too.
Boyz o'boyz I do love coupons. No I am not ashamed to say so! I love em' and I use em'
Had breaded Veal Neptune for my fancy dinner date Saturday night. Yum!
Still thinking about it.
Frig...am I ever craving a bacon-cheese burger.
What is going on here?
I'm goin' to bed
Ummm Yah
drempt my bottom tooth fell out and the other one was real loose.
A plastic bat I had started flying all about the lake. That was fine cause I flew with it.
And the buns for the sandwiches were all moldy.
But mostly I was very worried about my teeth.
Must've been the blue Cheese I scarfed down before bed
A plastic bat I had started flying all about the lake. That was fine cause I flew with it.
And the buns for the sandwiches were all moldy.
But mostly I was very worried about my teeth.
Must've been the blue Cheese I scarfed down before bed
Monday, March 05, 2007
An Intro to my Girlfriend Bert's Blog!
My darling old roomate Berta has gotten onto the blog scene.
She is looking for contact with the outside world. just like the rest of us....LoL!!
Contact her DAmn It!!!
She's a mom. 2 boys. Give her a hand will yah!
Gotta love her job posting....
check it out!
blog On Girl!
She is looking for contact with the outside world. just like the rest of us....LoL!!
Contact her DAmn It!!!
She's a mom. 2 boys. Give her a hand will yah!
Gotta love her job posting....
check it out!
blog On Girl!
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Just goes to Show you......
.....you can meet someone once for a brief moment. Then 18 years later be sitting across from them. Having a most Wonderful evening.
The world just got a little smaller last night.
The world just got a little smaller last night.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Friggin Rogers
What is with Rogers?
I keep dreaming that I am back working for them.
why?
what The Hell.
Hey!! Did I tell y'all that my Baby sister, Sister just got a new job!!
Guess what it is?
Selling Phones!
LOL!!!!
Started last week she did. i'm sure she'll do Great!
Its for a different company than I worked for.
How funny is that.
From Barista to Phone sales!
Just cause I sucked doens't mean she will follow in my footsteps.......
I keep dreaming that I am back working for them.
why?
what The Hell.
Hey!! Did I tell y'all that my Baby sister, Sister just got a new job!!
Guess what it is?
Selling Phones!
LOL!!!!
Started last week she did. i'm sure she'll do Great!
Its for a different company than I worked for.
How funny is that.
From Barista to Phone sales!
Just cause I sucked doens't mean she will follow in my footsteps.......
Friday, March 02, 2007
Numbers
I was fixin to go have a girlie visit with Bert.
But with the weather as it is I don't really want to be on the other side of the bridge.
Just not in the mood to be a snow Superstar.
So I will tackle my taxes instead.
sorry Berta.
Tax time......
hope I get money back. I have house insurance to Pay!
But with the weather as it is I don't really want to be on the other side of the bridge.
Just not in the mood to be a snow Superstar.
So I will tackle my taxes instead.
sorry Berta.
Tax time......
hope I get money back. I have house insurance to Pay!
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Britt-Anna
I know Anna Nicole Smith died.
I also shared in the dismay and wonderment of it all.
Yes i agree, a beautiful woman in many different ways. A most interesting life. And yes her likeness' to Marylynn are astounding.
but PLEASE let it be for a moment!!!
This poor dead woman!
3 days of her death was one thing....the mystery...the how-di't happen thing....so now....leave the family and the wanna- be- family be till it can be said what is actually going on.
come on Paparazzi! give them all one day! Just one. Really is it too much to ask.
then let us, the public know, all the details at one time instead of the day-by day thing.
Cause I don't know about you. but I can't stand heresay.
I will admit. I am as caught up in the mystery as anybody.
However. Let her rest in peace Will yah!
Frig!
let me know ALL the details when ALL the details are in.
I mean really. that sweet wee child. My heart goes to her. so caught up......
And holy moly Brittany Spears!
Come on!
the chick had 2 babies. Left her husband. and is now out on the town.
Damn rights she's out on the town!!
post partum or not! She is going thru a lot.
so her publicist Throws her in Re-hab!
Fuck!
she doesn't need re-hab.
she needs a really good Girlfriend to blow off some steam with!
Leave her alone too.
She's also really young still and the world is at her feet.
Leave her alone to Party, fuck whomever, and finish what she started before she married K-Fed!
She'll find herself.
she has a million peopel to look out for her kids.
Just let her be!
Let her fuck up and around for a bit. she'll find her way.
we all go thru it.
Hers is just public is all: and money is no object.
Imagine if you could.............
blog on
I also shared in the dismay and wonderment of it all.
Yes i agree, a beautiful woman in many different ways. A most interesting life. And yes her likeness' to Marylynn are astounding.
but PLEASE let it be for a moment!!!
This poor dead woman!
3 days of her death was one thing....the mystery...the how-di't happen thing....so now....leave the family and the wanna- be- family be till it can be said what is actually going on.
come on Paparazzi! give them all one day! Just one. Really is it too much to ask.
then let us, the public know, all the details at one time instead of the day-by day thing.
Cause I don't know about you. but I can't stand heresay.
I will admit. I am as caught up in the mystery as anybody.
However. Let her rest in peace Will yah!
Frig!
let me know ALL the details when ALL the details are in.
I mean really. that sweet wee child. My heart goes to her. so caught up......
And holy moly Brittany Spears!
Come on!
the chick had 2 babies. Left her husband. and is now out on the town.
Damn rights she's out on the town!!
post partum or not! She is going thru a lot.
so her publicist Throws her in Re-hab!
Fuck!
she doesn't need re-hab.
she needs a really good Girlfriend to blow off some steam with!
Leave her alone too.
She's also really young still and the world is at her feet.
Leave her alone to Party, fuck whomever, and finish what she started before she married K-Fed!
She'll find herself.
she has a million peopel to look out for her kids.
Just let her be!
Let her fuck up and around for a bit. she'll find her way.
we all go thru it.
Hers is just public is all: and money is no object.
Imagine if you could.............
blog on
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Drama
This is so wierd to not have had any drama lately.
I am just content and happy.
How Bizaare!
how the Hell did that Happen!
Blog On Dudes!
I am just content and happy.
How Bizaare!
how the Hell did that Happen!
Blog On Dudes!
Monday, February 26, 2007
Mr. Ball
My kitty has a sore ear.
so sore in fact that when I woke this mroning he was not in his usual cuddle spot. I had to find him in my room! Now he is hiding under Charley's bed.
gave him the mite stuff.
he just hurts.
I'm gonna have to get him to the vet after work.
Poor guy!
He's 16, an ear issue is the last thing he needs
so sore in fact that when I woke this mroning he was not in his usual cuddle spot. I had to find him in my room! Now he is hiding under Charley's bed.
gave him the mite stuff.
he just hurts.
I'm gonna have to get him to the vet after work.
Poor guy!
He's 16, an ear issue is the last thing he needs
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Roast Beast!
Mmmmmm.
Sunday night Roast Beef Dinner!
Yum!
Roast potato's. Nummy vegetables. Good company and the Oscars!
Guess if I could get it together out my sickness and make a dessert, life would be perfect!
Sunday night Roast Beef Dinner!
Yum!
Roast potato's. Nummy vegetables. Good company and the Oscars!
Guess if I could get it together out my sickness and make a dessert, life would be perfect!
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Friday, February 23, 2007
Fleurs
I came home yesterday and went out into my garden.
I was looking at all my daffodils, crocuses, irises, and tulips poking their heads thru the dirt.
Oh it will be such a pretty spring!
Wake this morning.......Whats this?
SNOW!
Shit. I hope the wee things will be okay
I was looking at all my daffodils, crocuses, irises, and tulips poking their heads thru the dirt.
Oh it will be such a pretty spring!
Wake this morning.......Whats this?
SNOW!
Shit. I hope the wee things will be okay
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Reservations
.........you gotta love it when 17 Red Hat ladies THINK a resevation has been made for 12....noon...and it hasn't....
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Opinions????
I am requesting random opinions on this subject............
my Brother and Sister-in-law won a trip to Vegas thru my brothers,(my old) company. He went last year too. there';s a very good chance that he will win again next year as well cause all the contests for the company are fixed.
Anyhow....they are NOT taking their 4 month old son with them.
She is still breast feeding. NO there has never been a nursing problem.
They are gone for 5 days.
The Cob is staying at my mom's.
since my parents have theatre tickets on Friday night....The Queen and i will be there to babysit. But the rest of the time Cob is with my mom. A woman The cob has only spent time with at Christmas and a month ago for an evening.
Whats your take on it?
Just gathering HONEST opinions and information.....
I guess if you know me....you already Know how I feel about it. Just wondered if maybe i was over-reacting or being too Baby anal.....
my Brother and Sister-in-law won a trip to Vegas thru my brothers,(my old) company. He went last year too. there';s a very good chance that he will win again next year as well cause all the contests for the company are fixed.
Anyhow....they are NOT taking their 4 month old son with them.
She is still breast feeding. NO there has never been a nursing problem.
They are gone for 5 days.
The Cob is staying at my mom's.
since my parents have theatre tickets on Friday night....The Queen and i will be there to babysit. But the rest of the time Cob is with my mom. A woman The cob has only spent time with at Christmas and a month ago for an evening.
Whats your take on it?
Just gathering HONEST opinions and information.....
I guess if you know me....you already Know how I feel about it. Just wondered if maybe i was over-reacting or being too Baby anal.....
Did i Pass?
Last night was the night I met HIS very good friends.
SHE asked me all the critical questions.
You know the ones.....
The ones to figure me out and see if I am good enough for her friend.
Her husband watched me carefully and shook my hand.
Their kids played with Charley and Charley can't wait to go back!
SHE asked me all the critical questions.
You know the ones.....
The ones to figure me out and see if I am good enough for her friend.
Her husband watched me carefully and shook my hand.
Their kids played with Charley and Charley can't wait to go back!
Friday, February 16, 2007
a Nice Night
Charley and I bottled wine.
Came home ordered pizza.
Mountain came over and started making an apple pie.
charley and I continued on eating pizza and watching a movie. I read the paper a bit. Mountain continued with his pie.
Kid now in bed.
He is putting the finishing touches on his pastry before it hits the oven........
How much do I love how comfortable this all is!!!!!
Came home ordered pizza.
Mountain came over and started making an apple pie.
charley and I continued on eating pizza and watching a movie. I read the paper a bit. Mountain continued with his pie.
Kid now in bed.
He is putting the finishing touches on his pastry before it hits the oven........
How much do I love how comfortable this all is!!!!!
Thursday, February 15, 2007
MeNOPaUSe
FFFFFFF!!!! I hate it!
Make up your mind will you already!
be glad if you are not there yet.
be glad its not early for you.
Be glad if you don't have a Clue What I am talking about!
Just be glad
Make up your mind will you already!
be glad if you are not there yet.
be glad its not early for you.
Be glad if you don't have a Clue What I am talking about!
Just be glad
the Middle of February
So I gave in.
I am using the *New blogger.
I had to. I couldn't post anymore unless I did!
Bastards.
Valentines night was a Great success at my restaurant.
WoW! Let me tell you. What a thrill it was to be serving and everything came out on time. The food was spectacular! We were a steady busy so it was easy to give incredible service. Couples that were out for their special evening left so happy.
We had flowers all over. Red satin. Candles. Hersheys Kisses. Chocolate covered strawberries.....oh how wonderful it was.
i was home jsut after 9. My body so exhausted from the long day. But it was sooo worth it.
Our main dish was a 3 course meal for 100bux.
it had a mescaline salad and prawns to start. 5oz bacon wrapped tenderloin. Fresh lobster 1/2. Then for dessert...chocolate trio that consisted of creme brulle, chocolate cookies and a chocolate flourless torte. this include a bottle of Sawmill creek Wine as well. The guests loved it! We are running thru till Friday.
Now when I say fresh Lobster........Yah I mean fresh. Killed in the kitchen moments before its on your plate!
I had to go out front. I can't handle that. It upset me.
I did get a heart shaped donut from my secret admirer.
the coffee guy.
He brought one for me last year too if you'll remember.
WEll its Thursday.
Charley has piano and I get off work early. I like that cause I can make dinner!
Mountain will be over this evening for supper. I will give him his box of chocolates and a big belated Valentines kiss! Maybe I'll hit Wal-Mart this morning and see if I can find a sappy card to go with it. Nahh. No need to go overboard!
but I might hit Wal-Mart anyway and see about getting some discount Chocolate!
Gotta love Chocolate sales.
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I am using the *New blogger.
I had to. I couldn't post anymore unless I did!
Bastards.
Valentines night was a Great success at my restaurant.
WoW! Let me tell you. What a thrill it was to be serving and everything came out on time. The food was spectacular! We were a steady busy so it was easy to give incredible service. Couples that were out for their special evening left so happy.
We had flowers all over. Red satin. Candles. Hersheys Kisses. Chocolate covered strawberries.....oh how wonderful it was.
i was home jsut after 9. My body so exhausted from the long day. But it was sooo worth it.
Our main dish was a 3 course meal for 100bux.
it had a mescaline salad and prawns to start. 5oz bacon wrapped tenderloin. Fresh lobster 1/2. Then for dessert...chocolate trio that consisted of creme brulle, chocolate cookies and a chocolate flourless torte. this include a bottle of Sawmill creek Wine as well. The guests loved it! We are running thru till Friday.
Now when I say fresh Lobster........Yah I mean fresh. Killed in the kitchen moments before its on your plate!
I had to go out front. I can't handle that. It upset me.
I did get a heart shaped donut from my secret admirer.
the coffee guy.
He brought one for me last year too if you'll remember.
WEll its Thursday.
Charley has piano and I get off work early. I like that cause I can make dinner!
Mountain will be over this evening for supper. I will give him his box of chocolates and a big belated Valentines kiss! Maybe I'll hit Wal-Mart this morning and see if I can find a sappy card to go with it. Nahh. No need to go overboard!
but I might hit Wal-Mart anyway and see about getting some discount Chocolate!
Gotta love Chocolate sales.
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Monday, February 12, 2007
High
well i won't be firing her.
I vented.
Realistically...she is great for Charlotte. And Charley is excelling in school even more cause she is home in her own space 3 days a week. She loves Nanny Girl. Me getting rid of Nanny cause I'm unhappy is only gonna hurt Charlotte.
so.........
I will lower my expectations.
she is just afterschool care Tuesdays and Wednesdays.
i will just stop expecting more from her.
Why set myself up for failure?
I will just try to find someone else I can trust, to look after charlotte, when i would like to have a life outside of the home.
Everythingh happens for a reason.
blog On!
I vented.
Realistically...she is great for Charlotte. And Charley is excelling in school even more cause she is home in her own space 3 days a week. She loves Nanny Girl. Me getting rid of Nanny cause I'm unhappy is only gonna hurt Charlotte.
so.........
I will lower my expectations.
she is just afterschool care Tuesdays and Wednesdays.
i will just stop expecting more from her.
Why set myself up for failure?
I will just try to find someone else I can trust, to look after charlotte, when i would like to have a life outside of the home.
Everythingh happens for a reason.
blog On!
Nanny girl
I am giving some serious thought to Nanny Girl and OUR 'arrangement'
Now, yes she works today. Till about 2. so I thought....YaY! she can come home relieve my mom unless she works her other job tonight that is.
Nope. she doens't work tonight.
Again...I think YaY!
Nope...she can't help me out. she has plans with friends right after work.
Hmph....
Now this comes after texts last night of how long she has to work for me Valentines day and does she extra off her rent for working it and can her boyfriend come over tomorrow while she is babysitting cause they have things to do on this side of town and........
how bout NO NO NO
firstly....Wed is a normal work day. Its not extra. I don't care if Its Valentines day! big whoopee deal. She's not helping me out that night....onceagain my mom is coming out for that evening.
And No the Boyfriend doens't get to come over while you are working.
You are not doing me any favours or helping me out.
She is doing straight afterschool care for me. I can get that from Charlotte's other daycare. Mrs. W.
so you know what?
I am seriously thinking about firing Nanny Girl cause she is not holding up her end of the deal
She can pay me her straight rent and be done with it.
i could get a out of country student in for 600bux a month!
Or even just not have anything except an extra room for all the help I'm getting!
Now, yes she works today. Till about 2. so I thought....YaY! she can come home relieve my mom unless she works her other job tonight that is.
Nope. she doens't work tonight.
Again...I think YaY!
Nope...she can't help me out. she has plans with friends right after work.
Hmph....
Now this comes after texts last night of how long she has to work for me Valentines day and does she extra off her rent for working it and can her boyfriend come over tomorrow while she is babysitting cause they have things to do on this side of town and........
how bout NO NO NO
firstly....Wed is a normal work day. Its not extra. I don't care if Its Valentines day! big whoopee deal. She's not helping me out that night....onceagain my mom is coming out for that evening.
And No the Boyfriend doens't get to come over while you are working.
You are not doing me any favours or helping me out.
She is doing straight afterschool care for me. I can get that from Charlotte's other daycare. Mrs. W.
so you know what?
I am seriously thinking about firing Nanny Girl cause she is not holding up her end of the deal
She can pay me her straight rent and be done with it.
i could get a out of country student in for 600bux a month!
Or even just not have anything except an extra room for all the help I'm getting!
Saturday, February 10, 2007
My HERO!
Felt such rage when I got to work cause someone had moved a cheat sheet that I keep under the computer. What The Fuck!!! Don't touch things!!! Frig I was mad!
Than a regular customer came in for coffee and I started to get irritated by his constant interuption of my trying to get the restuarant open. (granted he is irritating any day of the week. But I was over-reacting)
As the morning turned into afternoon I realized something.......
I'D FORGOTTEN MY PINK!
Frig and double Frig!
Well this is no good. I knew that by the end of the day I was gonna be in rough shape. Just that dizzy, off-balance kinda drunk kinda feeling. I can't stand that. The only way to feel any bit of normal at that point is to pour myself a glass of wine! well I am on this stupid diet! I can't have wine!!!!
So to the text I go. I sent out a beaken of text to Mountain and Nanny Girl hoping that one of them could help me.
Mountain texts back.....'how'
Nanny texts back....'she's busy with friends'
As lunch went on I could slowly feel myself slipping.
By the time Mountain gets here its only a couple hours from when I'm off anyhow. I text him and say dont' worry about it. I'll just deal.
Focusing was becoming harder to do. I go into auto-pilot.....Cutlery. I'll shine cutlery. Crap! I forgot to service that Check!
"your Cheese bread will only be a moment. She had to make up a New batch of Miller Bread" lie lie lie
Then in he walks.
Overalls...smelly dirty work coat...boots....
Mountain! My Hero!!!
Than a regular customer came in for coffee and I started to get irritated by his constant interuption of my trying to get the restuarant open. (granted he is irritating any day of the week. But I was over-reacting)
As the morning turned into afternoon I realized something.......
I'D FORGOTTEN MY PINK!
Frig and double Frig!
Well this is no good. I knew that by the end of the day I was gonna be in rough shape. Just that dizzy, off-balance kinda drunk kinda feeling. I can't stand that. The only way to feel any bit of normal at that point is to pour myself a glass of wine! well I am on this stupid diet! I can't have wine!!!!
So to the text I go. I sent out a beaken of text to Mountain and Nanny Girl hoping that one of them could help me.
Mountain texts back.....'how'
Nanny texts back....'she's busy with friends'
As lunch went on I could slowly feel myself slipping.
By the time Mountain gets here its only a couple hours from when I'm off anyhow. I text him and say dont' worry about it. I'll just deal.
Focusing was becoming harder to do. I go into auto-pilot.....Cutlery. I'll shine cutlery. Crap! I forgot to service that Check!
"your Cheese bread will only be a moment. She had to make up a New batch of Miller Bread" lie lie lie
Then in he walks.
Overalls...smelly dirty work coat...boots....
Mountain! My Hero!!!
Friday, February 09, 2007
Just so You know
my mother linked to me from Mucks blog.
I don't like that.
so get my mail address cause if i suddenly have to change domains again..............
it'll be sudden it will be quick
I will jsut vanish but be around all at the same time.
I don't like that.
so get my mail address cause if i suddenly have to change domains again..............
it'll be sudden it will be quick
I will jsut vanish but be around all at the same time.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
"Go Tell It on The Mountain"
YaH!
Good dinner!
Good talk!
Good make-up Sex!
Funny at dinner........
now this might be a weee bit disgusting for some. So close your eyes while you read this next part.
Charley farted at the dinner table.....this is of course frowned upon....and NO farting in the kitchen happens to be one of the house rules...however, Mountain and Charlotte have somehow bonded over this bodily function.
So she squeezes it out while we are eating.
I swear to God it sounded like a squeeze toy!
How she managed to make that squeeky little sound come out of her bum Neither Mountain or myself could believe it.
This High pitched noise. I thought something was up with the cat!
She went immediately red and giggled and giggled.
As for Mountain....I am not so much chasing rainbows...maybe just a leprachan. He is unsure where we are headed. But he is not going anywhere anytime soon and when I asked him if I should consider myself available or not.
his answer was he'd prefer I wasn't and he of course won't be either.
so for now...that is good...that is okay......
I am HappY!
I just would hate to waste another year or even months of my life with another man that that doesn't want me.
Cause as Steph has taught me.....i am worth WAAAY more than that!
But it seems he values me.
What The Hell!
it might be my turn to Run
Good dinner!
Good talk!
Good make-up Sex!
Funny at dinner........
now this might be a weee bit disgusting for some. So close your eyes while you read this next part.
Charley farted at the dinner table.....this is of course frowned upon....and NO farting in the kitchen happens to be one of the house rules...however, Mountain and Charlotte have somehow bonded over this bodily function.
So she squeezes it out while we are eating.
I swear to God it sounded like a squeeze toy!
How she managed to make that squeeky little sound come out of her bum Neither Mountain or myself could believe it.
This High pitched noise. I thought something was up with the cat!
She went immediately red and giggled and giggled.
As for Mountain....I am not so much chasing rainbows...maybe just a leprachan. He is unsure where we are headed. But he is not going anywhere anytime soon and when I asked him if I should consider myself available or not.
his answer was he'd prefer I wasn't and he of course won't be either.
so for now...that is good...that is okay......
I am HappY!
I just would hate to waste another year or even months of my life with another man that that doesn't want me.
Cause as Steph has taught me.....i am worth WAAAY more than that!
But it seems he values me.
What The Hell!
it might be my turn to Run
EAT!
I have been so friggin determined to lose this wieght I've put on.
so I've turned to eating only veggies and salad.
I know!Me! I usually hate vegetables.
for the last week.
Get this....I had tuna and cottage cheese for dinner last night. For dessert a rice cake with peanut butter. YUM!
Work out in the AM. Dammit! Its coming off!
Tonight I am making dinner for Mountain so I will eat some real food. Thank Goodness! But only a little. Friggin 9lbs and a pants size. It has declared war. Well ....
The Fight is On!
so I've turned to eating only veggies and salad.
I know!Me! I usually hate vegetables.
for the last week.
Get this....I had tuna and cottage cheese for dinner last night. For dessert a rice cake with peanut butter. YUM!
Work out in the AM. Dammit! Its coming off!
Tonight I am making dinner for Mountain so I will eat some real food. Thank Goodness! But only a little. Friggin 9lbs and a pants size. It has declared war. Well ....
The Fight is On!
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Eyeballs
I am up to my eyeballs in Menu's
AAAAHHHHHH!!!!
typing cut and paste re-align get it all on the same page spelling descriptive words different fonts are those letters the right size...bla...bla...bla
Ack! It doesn't fit on the card properly! And what the Hell is my printer doing!?!?????
I still have the Valentines menus to do!
Charlottes Best friend that moved away last August called her tonight. You should have seen my little girls face light up. WoW! It was pretty special. so now that we have her address I'll have to sit with her and help her write a letter.
Valentines in a week. Carp! I gotta get a little more something for my favorite girl! And Of course a little something for myself. Lillies would be nice.
Maybe I'll have a secret admirerer.
ooh how fun
Still working on my space thing.........
still processing the new information I got from him.
Tomorrow
there's always tomorrow
AAAAHHHHHH!!!!
typing cut and paste re-align get it all on the same page spelling descriptive words different fonts are those letters the right size...bla...bla...bla
Ack! It doesn't fit on the card properly! And what the Hell is my printer doing!?!?????
I still have the Valentines menus to do!
Charlottes Best friend that moved away last August called her tonight. You should have seen my little girls face light up. WoW! It was pretty special. so now that we have her address I'll have to sit with her and help her write a letter.
Valentines in a week. Carp! I gotta get a little more something for my favorite girl! And Of course a little something for myself. Lillies would be nice.
Maybe I'll have a secret admirerer.
ooh how fun
Still working on my space thing.........
still processing the new information I got from him.
Tomorrow
there's always tomorrow
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Space
I need some space from Mountain right now to figure out what is going on.
eventhough he says he is not going anywhere anytime soon......
some good points were raised over the last day that I need to think and re-think about.
Things are not postive enough for me.
and they really have to be for Charlotte
I've never been good at relationships.
I'm backing off
That makes me sad
eventhough he says he is not going anywhere anytime soon......
some good points were raised over the last day that I need to think and re-think about.
Things are not postive enough for me.
and they really have to be for Charlotte
I've never been good at relationships.
I'm backing off
That makes me sad
Monday, February 05, 2007
Up, Up, up
I have been on a steady weight gain since the end of November.
I am back to watching what I eat and excercising. Yet........
Talkign with my Sister yesterday....I think its the Pinks.
Luckily I am a tits and Ass gainer. So right now I am just looking more shapely. However....anymore and I have to start buying new clothes!
I already don't fit a couple pairs of pants.
Summer is coming. I think I am going to go off them next week.
Being happy with no anxiety is Great!
Getting bigger is not part of the plan and I don't like that at all!
I am back to watching what I eat and excercising. Yet........
Talkign with my Sister yesterday....I think its the Pinks.
Luckily I am a tits and Ass gainer. So right now I am just looking more shapely. However....anymore and I have to start buying new clothes!
I already don't fit a couple pairs of pants.
Summer is coming. I think I am going to go off them next week.
Being happy with no anxiety is Great!
Getting bigger is not part of the plan and I don't like that at all!
Saturday, February 03, 2007
Baby Steps, Big Steps or Stupidity?
Well. Mountain has stayed the night.
for the second time.
Nervous in the morning for Charlotte coming in for her morning cuddle.
Both of us dressed. I in my jammies he in his jeans.
Charlotte has never seen Mommy in bed with anyone before......EVER!!!
Charley and I continued our normal Saturday morning chat session in my bed as Mountain listened. Charlotte and I talked about the fun she had at my xmates house the night before. how much she enjoyed the puppy. We talked about school and things in her day that happen. Its our catch-up. Mountain eventually inputing his own bits to the conversation after ours was slowing down. he so respectful of our mother daughter time.
all of us giggling as Mommy does her morning......thing......
Time to get up!
I make coffee and do my mroning stuff. Charlotte does her morning thing by turning on Raven. Mountain gets up and brushes his teeth.
Breakfast. Eggs and toast. for us all.
Delicous coffee and paper reading as we all now sit in our prespective spots and take in the morning moments...........
And he's gone for the day!
gone to get his Girl and spend the day and night with her.
We start our chores. Laundry, washing, Dusting...then on to baking in awhile.
So what is going on here?
i'm not sure i know either. Is my gaurd that far down? I mean I have always lived by a lot of rules and decided last year to throw the book out the window. But........
Charley and I talked after he left about how she felt having Mountain here.
So far so good.
Am i doing the right thing? amd I doing the Wrong thing?
Mountain and I talked about some stuff last night that i don't talk about with just anybody.
i think he and I need to have the 'what are you doing ' with me talk again. Cause this is gone to the 'place' and I am letting it and that may be a very bad thing if he is not in the same place as me!
Only I can't put the brakes on anymore.
this has taken on a life of its own. Everything feels very natural and real. Which is all well and good.
but Charlotte.......
I worry.
But she is 8 now. Its not the same as when she was younger. And he has been coming around since september. so its not like they just met. He's been coming for dinner since November. Charlotte and I talk.
I guess I don't know. I mean. I'm not going to stop, cuase like i said....its taken on a life of its own.
i mean if I stop. I Stop everything. Not jsut parts of it.
I don't know. Its jsut all so wierd.
i guess I just needed to get it out. Vent. Thats it I'm venting. Not a bad vent. Its a very Good vent. But venting all the same. Tossing it around
for the second time.
Nervous in the morning for Charlotte coming in for her morning cuddle.
Both of us dressed. I in my jammies he in his jeans.
Charlotte has never seen Mommy in bed with anyone before......EVER!!!
Charley and I continued our normal Saturday morning chat session in my bed as Mountain listened. Charlotte and I talked about the fun she had at my xmates house the night before. how much she enjoyed the puppy. We talked about school and things in her day that happen. Its our catch-up. Mountain eventually inputing his own bits to the conversation after ours was slowing down. he so respectful of our mother daughter time.
all of us giggling as Mommy does her morning......thing......
Time to get up!
I make coffee and do my mroning stuff. Charlotte does her morning thing by turning on Raven. Mountain gets up and brushes his teeth.
Breakfast. Eggs and toast. for us all.
Delicous coffee and paper reading as we all now sit in our prespective spots and take in the morning moments...........
And he's gone for the day!
gone to get his Girl and spend the day and night with her.
We start our chores. Laundry, washing, Dusting...then on to baking in awhile.
So what is going on here?
i'm not sure i know either. Is my gaurd that far down? I mean I have always lived by a lot of rules and decided last year to throw the book out the window. But........
Charley and I talked after he left about how she felt having Mountain here.
So far so good.
Am i doing the right thing? amd I doing the Wrong thing?
Mountain and I talked about some stuff last night that i don't talk about with just anybody.
i think he and I need to have the 'what are you doing ' with me talk again. Cause this is gone to the 'place' and I am letting it and that may be a very bad thing if he is not in the same place as me!
Only I can't put the brakes on anymore.
this has taken on a life of its own. Everything feels very natural and real. Which is all well and good.
but Charlotte.......
I worry.
But she is 8 now. Its not the same as when she was younger. And he has been coming around since september. so its not like they just met. He's been coming for dinner since November. Charlotte and I talk.
I guess I don't know. I mean. I'm not going to stop, cuase like i said....its taken on a life of its own.
i mean if I stop. I Stop everything. Not jsut parts of it.
I don't know. Its jsut all so wierd.
i guess I just needed to get it out. Vent. Thats it I'm venting. Not a bad vent. Its a very Good vent. But venting all the same. Tossing it around
Girl Time
Spent time this evenign with a most dear old friend.
Its funny how life goes along.
how we go about our lives.
yet its nice when we can come back together and its like a day hasn't passed. i do love her so and I am so grateful that we have been able to find our ways back to one another.
We enjoyed wine and cheese. Children playing. CAsual conversation. and then home again for another time.
Till next time.........
so it sems night out for Steph's B-day Feb 24th! I am In!!!
After that....first saturday of March??
Lets make it so
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Its funny how life goes along.
how we go about our lives.
yet its nice when we can come back together and its like a day hasn't passed. i do love her so and I am so grateful that we have been able to find our ways back to one another.
We enjoyed wine and cheese. Children playing. CAsual conversation. and then home again for another time.
Till next time.........
so it sems night out for Steph's B-day Feb 24th! I am In!!!
After that....first saturday of March??
Lets make it so
Blog On Dudes!
Friday, February 02, 2007
Duncan Little
His memorial is today.
Finally, after weeks of waiting.
But on a Friday......at 1pm.....I am not able to go.
I am so very disheartened.
There just isn't the staff to cover me.
I'm so sorry Dunc. I miss you so very much. I was looking forward to the smile on your face when you came to my new place. I know you would be so very happy for me. I miss our talks and the hugs I would get when we would meet unexpectedly. I really, really wish from the bottom of my heart that I could be there.......
Go In Peace Sweetie
Finally, after weeks of waiting.
But on a Friday......at 1pm.....I am not able to go.
I am so very disheartened.
There just isn't the staff to cover me.
I'm so sorry Dunc. I miss you so very much. I was looking forward to the smile on your face when you came to my new place. I know you would be so very happy for me. I miss our talks and the hugs I would get when we would meet unexpectedly. I really, really wish from the bottom of my heart that I could be there.......
Go In Peace Sweetie
Thursday, February 01, 2007
It's Coming!
Its Coming!
2 weeks away!
I think, for the first time, in a long time. I might be looking forward to it!
Valentine's Day!
Got some soft heart socks for the Queen. I'll pick her up a little candy too!
Nanny Girl can get some Chocolate's.
And Mountain.........WEll Chocolate of course! He does have a terrible sweet tooth.
I told him I don't celebrate Valentine's day. And I don't really. I mean I guess I always have for Charlotte. Hmmmm. I suppose I just don't know!
I really expect nothing from him. We are still not 'together.' And I am still up in the air with what I am doing about it all. You know trying to fool myself and say I'm keeping my heart out of it. (haha) However, I just can't help myself but to get him something! Isn't that awful?
I am working Valentine's day and night anyhow. So really, any celebration he and I might have wouldn't happen till the weekend. And that's only if he's not with his other girl. She always comes first. Truthfully, I find myself jealous of that. Although I totally understand and him loving her is part of the reason I find myself so attracted to him. However, Jealous all the same.
So Valentine's......
I do frighten myself though.
Cause I am looking forward to it.
Any time I look forward to soemthing I tend to end up disapointed and hurt.
Frig!
This is probably the time when he tells me he just can't continue seeing me anymore!
HuH. (ponder ponder ponder)
Well now. there was something I hadn't thought of yet. I better work on taking my Valentine's looking forwardness down a few notches.
I really do HATE surprises.
2 weeks away!
I think, for the first time, in a long time. I might be looking forward to it!
Valentine's Day!
Got some soft heart socks for the Queen. I'll pick her up a little candy too!
Nanny Girl can get some Chocolate's.
And Mountain.........WEll Chocolate of course! He does have a terrible sweet tooth.
I told him I don't celebrate Valentine's day. And I don't really. I mean I guess I always have for Charlotte. Hmmmm. I suppose I just don't know!
I really expect nothing from him. We are still not 'together.' And I am still up in the air with what I am doing about it all. You know trying to fool myself and say I'm keeping my heart out of it. (haha) However, I just can't help myself but to get him something! Isn't that awful?
I am working Valentine's day and night anyhow. So really, any celebration he and I might have wouldn't happen till the weekend. And that's only if he's not with his other girl. She always comes first. Truthfully, I find myself jealous of that. Although I totally understand and him loving her is part of the reason I find myself so attracted to him. However, Jealous all the same.
So Valentine's......
I do frighten myself though.
Cause I am looking forward to it.
Any time I look forward to soemthing I tend to end up disapointed and hurt.
Frig!
This is probably the time when he tells me he just can't continue seeing me anymore!
HuH. (ponder ponder ponder)
Well now. there was something I hadn't thought of yet. I better work on taking my Valentine's looking forwardness down a few notches.
I really do HATE surprises.