Keys tomorrow!
Keys tomorrow!
keys Tomorrow!!!!
I am only just a Weee bit wcited.
So Larry-rick is alive. He's clearly a very sick sick person that put me thru some pretty major emotional bad stuff. He has a Split personality maybe???
he was pretending to be several different real people. How creepy is that! I am just glad we are moving cause that is jsut waaay freaky.
But you know what?
I am just too happy. I dealt with the learning of his alivedness last summer when it first was brought to my attention that it was a possibility. I lost my mind each time something else was wacky with the whole Jenny situation. Stuff just didn't ad up. Anyhow.....I don't have the time to worry about some vile Creature that lied and took advantage of my gulliblness and good nature. His time will come and Karma will catch up with him all on its very own self. Especially since it appears the 'who he is' aspect of it all could really blow up in his face. Life will catch up with him yet.
i am so Happy and Excited about my house tomorrow!
My darling Mountain....who is real...will bring some boxes over with him when he comes and The Queen and He and I will all sit and enjoy a take out meal of some kind whilst I put away my kitchen stuff.
Mountain called me from home hardware, where he was checking out what they have for the makings of the stairs I need from my back porch. What a Sweetheart!
He is preparing himself as he has said he will do it for me.
He has a little work to do in the crawl space as well. So off he is educating himself on such things.
He is darling.
So I will keep you updated on my moving situation.
Doodle the sandbox is here.
There are clothes too Steph?
i think the ikea shelves Mountain is taking for Tea.
sounds like I found a buyer for my dishwasher. but I still have my maytag dryer.
If yhou are in the neighborhood and want to check out what I am getting rid of.....i am purring it all on the left-hand side of my carport. I'll be calling the Canadian Diabetes to come get it next week I think.
there are dishes and 2 sewing machines! One of them in its own self contained table!
Somewhere in there I will be computerless too.
well, till monday Aug 27th!
Hopefully we will be done cleaing here and the Queen and i can be MIA for a few days at that point.
We sure deserve it, so I really hope it happens. gotta sweat now though and get this place taken care of so the other can happen.
Sleep well Blogger Dudes!
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Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Used by the Ex
Its the part where I know he is being used by the ex.
Mountain is a vry sweet man. His heart is soo big and he is genuinly kind. He doesn't have an angle he just does stuff.
Its the part where i really see this woman using him and using her kid to get stuff. Thats what I don't like.
I mean. I've already said I would invite her and her mother over for dinner once we are settled in the new house. Part of me figure's once she meets me she will just back off on her own. The other part figures If you can't beat em' join em'
The big picture being......
do I want to break up over this?
Do I want to not have Mountain around?
Do I want to be alone again?
He is someone to grow old and sit on the porch with. He is someone that accepts me for who I am. These have been super hard qualities to find in the past. This is someone I love and accept. He is a hard worker and a decent man.
He is with me. Thru our yelling, he has made that very clear.
He just has never done this before. Relationship with kid. So he doens't know. Maybe as he talks to his buddies at work or around about how I got bent they might help him to realize......
I jsut don't like him being used for money, rides....that has jsut got to stop! As soon as the Fat ex finds a new boyfriend Mountain will be out of the picture and then all this will be for what? adn his heart will break. I jsut hate it!
Mountain is a vry sweet man. His heart is soo big and he is genuinly kind. He doesn't have an angle he just does stuff.
Its the part where i really see this woman using him and using her kid to get stuff. Thats what I don't like.
I mean. I've already said I would invite her and her mother over for dinner once we are settled in the new house. Part of me figure's once she meets me she will just back off on her own. The other part figures If you can't beat em' join em'
The big picture being......
do I want to break up over this?
Do I want to not have Mountain around?
Do I want to be alone again?
He is someone to grow old and sit on the porch with. He is someone that accepts me for who I am. These have been super hard qualities to find in the past. This is someone I love and accept. He is a hard worker and a decent man.
He is with me. Thru our yelling, he has made that very clear.
He just has never done this before. Relationship with kid. So he doens't know. Maybe as he talks to his buddies at work or around about how I got bent they might help him to realize......
I jsut don't like him being used for money, rides....that has jsut got to stop! As soon as the Fat ex finds a new boyfriend Mountain will be out of the picture and then all this will be for what? adn his heart will break. I jsut hate it!
Monday, August 13, 2007
Just booked my 2 Small men with BIG hearts for SAturday Aug. 25th 2pm!!!!
I am aiming to get most of my boxes there before moving day and unpacked. At least my kitchen if nothing else.
Frig! What corner of the living room am I going to set up my fish tank? yikes. Its not like I can just move it later..............
So anyone wanting to get a peak at my new place.....you re More than welcome! Jut meet me at the old place. Grab a box. Sweep a floor, Or dig a bit of dirt and follow me over!
Thats all I'll be doing this weekend coming up and all next week.
Seriously! I totally mean it. Come lend a hand!
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I am aiming to get most of my boxes there before moving day and unpacked. At least my kitchen if nothing else.
Frig! What corner of the living room am I going to set up my fish tank? yikes. Its not like I can just move it later..............
So anyone wanting to get a peak at my new place.....you re More than welcome! Jut meet me at the old place. Grab a box. Sweep a floor, Or dig a bit of dirt and follow me over!
Thats all I'll be doing this weekend coming up and all next week.
Seriously! I totally mean it. Come lend a hand!
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Sunday, August 12, 2007
3 more DAyz and I get the Keys!!!
so Excited!
can you tell?
I get the keys by noon on Thrusday. How great is that?
I think its time to just start hucking stuff in boxes. i mean seriously. I've gone thru so much of it. gotta take another load to MCC tomorrow and there is still stuff to take there!
From thursday on it will be a load to the new house a load to MCC.
Shanna if you want that SAndbox....come get 'er baby! I'd rather it went to someone I know.
I had a nice dinner last night out with the girls. Cursed pasta! I should have jsut stuck to the Calamari. I was waaay to full. Thanks Mandy for stepping in for my last night and showing the Queen a good time.
As I have read, the rest of the evening didn't go as well for some.........
Okay. I better go pack another box.
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can you tell?
I get the keys by noon on Thrusday. How great is that?
I think its time to just start hucking stuff in boxes. i mean seriously. I've gone thru so much of it. gotta take another load to MCC tomorrow and there is still stuff to take there!
From thursday on it will be a load to the new house a load to MCC.
Shanna if you want that SAndbox....come get 'er baby! I'd rather it went to someone I know.
I had a nice dinner last night out with the girls. Cursed pasta! I should have jsut stuck to the Calamari. I was waaay to full. Thanks Mandy for stepping in for my last night and showing the Queen a good time.
As I have read, the rest of the evening didn't go as well for some.........
Okay. I better go pack another box.
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Thursday, August 09, 2007
yOUR gONNA wHAT!
"I'm gonna be taking tea shopping the last week of August for new school clothes.
Leah figures we're going to The Gap. Like thats going to happen."
Wait a minute.
not only are you spending a 'couple hundred bucks' on this girl. But you are playing house with the mommy while you do it!
Why is it up to you to buy all her FFFFing clothes and why the Fuck are you going with that bitch!
A few things is one thing. Going on a special shopping time with just her, the kid....or with me and C and Tea.....but with Leah!
Not a fucking Chance!
i held my tongue.
i will sit on this a bit.
it may become less salty and bitter by the morning
Its the morning. I'm still annoyed. But thinking it thru better. We have not had a major boundary talk about this yet cause I figured it would just sort itself out. (sometimes these things do. When so much of nothing is said and subjects are changed hints are given and recieved) but this doens't seem to be.
I know lots of split up parents and they certainly don't go shopping with the ex. Nor is it on their shoulders to purchase ALL the back to school stuff.
Its usually
.. ....okay what else do they need I'll take them this weekend and get the rest........or..........where are you going to shop? Here's a couple gift cards for those places......
He's not going to like it.
He's going to be pissed.
but I am pissed too and I feel, rightfully so!
Blog On!
Oh which reminds me.
We have a fallen Blogger and I am not sure why! Berta! Come back to us!
Leah figures we're going to The Gap. Like thats going to happen."
Wait a minute.
not only are you spending a 'couple hundred bucks' on this girl. But you are playing house with the mommy while you do it!
Why is it up to you to buy all her FFFFing clothes and why the Fuck are you going with that bitch!
A few things is one thing. Going on a special shopping time with just her, the kid....or with me and C and Tea.....but with Leah!
Not a fucking Chance!
i held my tongue.
i will sit on this a bit.
it may become less salty and bitter by the morning
Its the morning. I'm still annoyed. But thinking it thru better. We have not had a major boundary talk about this yet cause I figured it would just sort itself out. (sometimes these things do. When so much of nothing is said and subjects are changed hints are given and recieved) but this doens't seem to be.
I know lots of split up parents and they certainly don't go shopping with the ex. Nor is it on their shoulders to purchase ALL the back to school stuff.
Its usually
.. ....okay what else do they need I'll take them this weekend and get the rest........or..........where are you going to shop? Here's a couple gift cards for those places......
He's not going to like it.
He's going to be pissed.
but I am pissed too and I feel, rightfully so!
Blog On!
Oh which reminds me.
We have a fallen Blogger and I am not sure why! Berta! Come back to us!
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Getting There
So things are moving along.
WE go sign the papers tomorrow! How exciting!
I am busy trying to figure out if I should send Charlotte to Prince George or not for a week. A week is a long time and she has NEVER been away from me for that long before. And Its not like I can Just go get her if she has a bad time. I mean Prince George is a 9 hour drive from here.
I would meet the other parents in 100 Mile and they would take her the rest of the way.
I don't know. Great opportunity for Charley but.....I think of safety issues and stuff. A week.....hmmmmm.
I would get a lot doen though in that week of moving stuff.
Speaking of.....
I think I am going to hire someone to move me.
Trying to confirm people to helpme move is like Jewel trying to confirm people for this weekend.
Its gonna cost a bundle to move my piano anyway....so might as well fork out the extra bucks. than it'll be done in a couple hours and Mountain and I will still be speaking in our quiet voices to each other.
So I had the pleasure of enjoying some spinach dip this evening. What The Fuck am I allergic to in there? I can't eat anything anymore!
Friggin Pinks mucked up my whole system.
Speaking of that......
I am doing really well these days. Anxiety seems to be in check. Mothers' helper in check as well. How great is that!
Went and bought some Back to School clothes for The Queen after work. Frig she is in a size 8 now! And a Large at please mum. what the frig happened to 7 and medium?
Too Big she is getting.
She is going thru a lot with this move. She is and has been sleeping with me for the last few weeks. She climbs in early in the middle of the night.
Part of me wants to toss her out. The other part realizes she jsut needs mummy right now and the stability I provide. Her whole little life is upside down. this was not the summer-of-fun we had planned out in June. So in my bed i will let her be. Cause in a few years she will not even entertain the thought. So i will cherish this for now and be her hero.
So next Thursday is Possesion DAy! I get the keys and start moving my kitchen in first. I can harldy wait.
gotta dig up some more shrubs and get them over there too! Hehe!
so exciting.
I'll have to have an open house near the end of September....a little house warming maybe. hmmmm. we'll see.
Anyhow nite. I'm bagged
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WE go sign the papers tomorrow! How exciting!
I am busy trying to figure out if I should send Charlotte to Prince George or not for a week. A week is a long time and she has NEVER been away from me for that long before. And Its not like I can Just go get her if she has a bad time. I mean Prince George is a 9 hour drive from here.
I would meet the other parents in 100 Mile and they would take her the rest of the way.
I don't know. Great opportunity for Charley but.....I think of safety issues and stuff. A week.....hmmmmm.
I would get a lot doen though in that week of moving stuff.
Speaking of.....
I think I am going to hire someone to move me.
Trying to confirm people to helpme move is like Jewel trying to confirm people for this weekend.
Its gonna cost a bundle to move my piano anyway....so might as well fork out the extra bucks. than it'll be done in a couple hours and Mountain and I will still be speaking in our quiet voices to each other.
So I had the pleasure of enjoying some spinach dip this evening. What The Fuck am I allergic to in there? I can't eat anything anymore!
Friggin Pinks mucked up my whole system.
Speaking of that......
I am doing really well these days. Anxiety seems to be in check. Mothers' helper in check as well. How great is that!
Went and bought some Back to School clothes for The Queen after work. Frig she is in a size 8 now! And a Large at please mum. what the frig happened to 7 and medium?
Too Big she is getting.
She is going thru a lot with this move. She is and has been sleeping with me for the last few weeks. She climbs in early in the middle of the night.
Part of me wants to toss her out. The other part realizes she jsut needs mummy right now and the stability I provide. Her whole little life is upside down. this was not the summer-of-fun we had planned out in June. So in my bed i will let her be. Cause in a few years she will not even entertain the thought. So i will cherish this for now and be her hero.
So next Thursday is Possesion DAy! I get the keys and start moving my kitchen in first. I can harldy wait.
gotta dig up some more shrubs and get them over there too! Hehe!
so exciting.
I'll have to have an open house near the end of September....a little house warming maybe. hmmmm. we'll see.
Anyhow nite. I'm bagged
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Saturday, August 04, 2007
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Are you Renting or Owning....
at the new address???
Each voice on the phone asked (accept for Telus; bastards)??
I am Owning
Wow! Who new that would be such a wonderful thing to say?
I will be owning.
i am the owner.
Is the owner of the home here? Yes! Yes I am!!!
Changed my services over this afternoon.
I can't believe it. Its almost done.
Thanks Dad!
turns out IT was Worth it???? Hmmmmm Maybe
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Each voice on the phone asked (accept for Telus; bastards)??
I am Owning
Wow! Who new that would be such a wonderful thing to say?
I will be owning.
i am the owner.
Is the owner of the home here? Yes! Yes I am!!!
Changed my services over this afternoon.
I can't believe it. Its almost done.
Thanks Dad!
turns out IT was Worth it???? Hmmmmm Maybe
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Tuesday, July 31, 2007
There's More???
So tomorrow begins the rest of the beginning to the end.
Paperwork....signatures....Lawyers....More money going out. I am not apying any more of my bills right now cause I am jsut so afraid to touch my bank account.
I have to start phoning and getting address changes out there and ........Holy Carp!
i still have to pack and get rid of carp and I want to have a Garage sale on Saturday!
Holy Frig!
So I take Possession on Aug 16th....from that moment forward I will be moving in there and moving out of here. Setting up there and Cleaning up here.
I am planning to get a truck for Sunday Aug 26th to get the furniture over. Oh and Frig! the piano!
I better make a list.
So much to do
So much to do
Somewrhe in there I have a full time job and being a Mom and stuff. Mountain will just have to wait for when his girlfriend is returned from the body snatchers and try to fit in where he can.
Oh Shit! His mom is coming mid-way into September!
Yup I better make a list.
I'll start with what I need to get to the lawyers tomorrow...................
go from there.
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Paperwork....signatures....Lawyers....More money going out. I am not apying any more of my bills right now cause I am jsut so afraid to touch my bank account.
I have to start phoning and getting address changes out there and ........Holy Carp!
i still have to pack and get rid of carp and I want to have a Garage sale on Saturday!
Holy Frig!
So I take Possession on Aug 16th....from that moment forward I will be moving in there and moving out of here. Setting up there and Cleaning up here.
I am planning to get a truck for Sunday Aug 26th to get the furniture over. Oh and Frig! the piano!
I better make a list.
So much to do
So much to do
Somewrhe in there I have a full time job and being a Mom and stuff. Mountain will just have to wait for when his girlfriend is returned from the body snatchers and try to fit in where he can.
Oh Shit! His mom is coming mid-way into September!
Yup I better make a list.
I'll start with what I need to get to the lawyers tomorrow...................
go from there.
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Monday, July 30, 2007
I didn't Fall Over!
Dad left it up to me.
Late last night with another call.
This morning again a call. I don't know what to do.
I had been up all night. Thinking. Different scenarios. Looking at money. Looking at Charlotte. Thinking thinking thinking.
I am so exhausted from the emotional drain all day. than being so scared about what I was doing.
Oh so Scared. you wre right B. Anxiety and under the microscope. And the miocroscope isn't done searching my yet! Holy Carp!
The Bank and......Just another long story all togheter.
But I did it!
Removed the subjects.
I am on my way to being a home owner!
Fuck I need to pass out.
When do I feel good and excited about this???
Late last night with another call.
This morning again a call. I don't know what to do.
I had been up all night. Thinking. Different scenarios. Looking at money. Looking at Charlotte. Thinking thinking thinking.
I am so exhausted from the emotional drain all day. than being so scared about what I was doing.
Oh so Scared. you wre right B. Anxiety and under the microscope. And the miocroscope isn't done searching my yet! Holy Carp!
The Bank and......Just another long story all togheter.
But I did it!
Removed the subjects.
I am on my way to being a home owner!
Fuck I need to pass out.
When do I feel good and excited about this???
Sunday, July 29, 2007
What to Do
So tomorrow is deposit day.
As long as the Cheques have been cleared i am good to Go!
Than subjects are removed. Yippee.
Had the inspection....did i tell y'all?
So its a trailer.....yes I know....Laugh histerically. Anyhow. It is 26 years old. HOWEVER....the owner previous to the one I am buying from Got really sick. He thought it was becasuae of the trailer. So........
He gutted it.
Not only is my whole place gyprocked but all my corners are rounded and I have mouldings everywhere! My appliances are only a few years old.
After the inspector went thru and told me how Totally clean and dry and only a couple things I have to do, everything works amazingly like a brand new 2000!.......I went up to the Padpeople to fill out their application.
found out from them the details. 5 years ago-New Roof-4 years ago-new insides. From top to bottom. Even new floors carpeting and that laminate flooring everyone seems to like but me!
There is a little working pond outside. I am jsut missing a set of stairs of the back door. Mountain will have to get busy on that as soon as Imove in.
so that is all cool.
Now to Mountain......he is picking up his ex-girlfriends mother from the airport today. Than taking her to the ex-girlfriends house to hang out. Than I am sure bringing her all the was home to Chilliwack.
Now I understand that these women are family to his step-daughter and I get that he wants to see her. However......It is not up to him or shouldn't be in him to want to hang out with these people other than when Tea is involved. So I don't feel comfortable about it all and I have been thinking about these things for quite sometime. In my mind I have given him an ultimatum or broken up with him a few times. I guess I just feel that he must still hold a torch for his ex otherwise why would he do the extra's.
This is one of our issues and I happen to think its a big one.
I mean part of me says dump him and dump him fast!
the other part says why can't we all just be one of those extended families and love one another and I need to get the pole out of my ass. Life is not like it was 30 years ago and all families are different. I totally trust him.
so what is my problem then?
am i jealous of time spent somewhere else?
I know fersure I am pissed that he is out doing yet Another Favour for these stupid trashy Bitches. Don't they have other 'friends' with vehicles?!!
I need help getting a garage sale together!!
I've never had one before and don't know what I am doing and I am having kind of a hard time about it all.
I've only got a couple more weekends!
Its gotta be next weekend. But i guess cause I am not as needy as they are.......
F!!! He's My Boyfriend! Not There's!
No matter how much self-talk I do it still bugs me.
As long as the Cheques have been cleared i am good to Go!
Than subjects are removed. Yippee.
Had the inspection....did i tell y'all?
So its a trailer.....yes I know....Laugh histerically. Anyhow. It is 26 years old. HOWEVER....the owner previous to the one I am buying from Got really sick. He thought it was becasuae of the trailer. So........
He gutted it.
Not only is my whole place gyprocked but all my corners are rounded and I have mouldings everywhere! My appliances are only a few years old.
After the inspector went thru and told me how Totally clean and dry and only a couple things I have to do, everything works amazingly like a brand new 2000!.......I went up to the Padpeople to fill out their application.
found out from them the details. 5 years ago-New Roof-4 years ago-new insides. From top to bottom. Even new floors carpeting and that laminate flooring everyone seems to like but me!
There is a little working pond outside. I am jsut missing a set of stairs of the back door. Mountain will have to get busy on that as soon as Imove in.
so that is all cool.
Now to Mountain......he is picking up his ex-girlfriends mother from the airport today. Than taking her to the ex-girlfriends house to hang out. Than I am sure bringing her all the was home to Chilliwack.
Now I understand that these women are family to his step-daughter and I get that he wants to see her. However......It is not up to him or shouldn't be in him to want to hang out with these people other than when Tea is involved. So I don't feel comfortable about it all and I have been thinking about these things for quite sometime. In my mind I have given him an ultimatum or broken up with him a few times. I guess I just feel that he must still hold a torch for his ex otherwise why would he do the extra's.
This is one of our issues and I happen to think its a big one.
I mean part of me says dump him and dump him fast!
the other part says why can't we all just be one of those extended families and love one another and I need to get the pole out of my ass. Life is not like it was 30 years ago and all families are different. I totally trust him.
so what is my problem then?
am i jealous of time spent somewhere else?
I know fersure I am pissed that he is out doing yet Another Favour for these stupid trashy Bitches. Don't they have other 'friends' with vehicles?!!
I need help getting a garage sale together!!
I've never had one before and don't know what I am doing and I am having kind of a hard time about it all.
I've only got a couple more weekends!
Its gotta be next weekend. But i guess cause I am not as needy as they are.......
F!!! He's My Boyfriend! Not There's!
No matter how much self-talk I do it still bugs me.
Saturday, July 28, 2007
House Update
So I am breathing very slowly and Cautiously.
This buying a mobile thing is a Lot different than buying a house.
Firstly....you don't get a first home buyers grant.
Second...interest rates are higher
Third...there are only 2 lenders in town that will even consider lending for a moblie.
Fourth....they don't just take into consideration the money they are lending for the home...but also the pad rental....which of course in there eyes......I was not approved.
Fifth....the most ammorization they will give is 14years. Taht of course brings my mortgage up by just over 100bux from what I and my broker originally thought.
So I had to not only go to my parents.
I had to go to my parents for a co-sign.
When I first asked......They Said No. so by Tuesday everything had fallen thru and I didn't have a place to live. They have since changed their minds, but that has not come without a price.
Sixth.....I didn't know that the bank puts a 5 day hold on big cheques!!!! fuck the subjects get removed monday. I need a cashiers check for 3grand on monday. the first hold comes off on Monday!!! I work.....fuck. I have some serious time management, organization stuff going on right now.
What else don't I know that I should??
You have no idea the Hell I had to endure while I sat there and heard the lecture.
The lecture about how many mistakes I've made in my life and how I can't afford anymore. How much of a loser I am and .......it just went on. And now tyhat they will have their name on my house.......I am in hell.
I know everytime I spend a little money or get soemthing new;the eyes will be out. The judging will be there.
dad has already gone off about when Mountain moves in!
Frig! give me a break. That isn't in the cards for another year!
But his name is on the mortgage so its all his business. he doens't want Mountain taking half or anything as Fucked up as that.
The good in all this is that my Mortgage has been approved.
we are working towards getting all the subjects removed for Monday.
My VISA has ended up being paid off. So I can now afford my thousand dollar mortgage. Charley and I will have a home!
This last 2 weeks has been really hard.
The ups the downs.
i don't feel nearly as good as I think I should from buying my first home.
My broker was learning too.
so as we went along.....we were all in Hell....with my Dad at the front of Hell boat. Breathing down both our necks and just making it soooo much worse.
So there you go.
I am not doing the big WaHooo til monday when all the subjects are removed. Thats when I can breath and know It'll all be okay.
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This buying a mobile thing is a Lot different than buying a house.
Firstly....you don't get a first home buyers grant.
Second...interest rates are higher
Third...there are only 2 lenders in town that will even consider lending for a moblie.
Fourth....they don't just take into consideration the money they are lending for the home...but also the pad rental....which of course in there eyes......I was not approved.
Fifth....the most ammorization they will give is 14years. Taht of course brings my mortgage up by just over 100bux from what I and my broker originally thought.
So I had to not only go to my parents.
I had to go to my parents for a co-sign.
When I first asked......They Said No. so by Tuesday everything had fallen thru and I didn't have a place to live. They have since changed their minds, but that has not come without a price.
Sixth.....I didn't know that the bank puts a 5 day hold on big cheques!!!! fuck the subjects get removed monday. I need a cashiers check for 3grand on monday. the first hold comes off on Monday!!! I work.....fuck. I have some serious time management, organization stuff going on right now.
What else don't I know that I should??
You have no idea the Hell I had to endure while I sat there and heard the lecture.
The lecture about how many mistakes I've made in my life and how I can't afford anymore. How much of a loser I am and .......it just went on. And now tyhat they will have their name on my house.......I am in hell.
I know everytime I spend a little money or get soemthing new;the eyes will be out. The judging will be there.
dad has already gone off about when Mountain moves in!
Frig! give me a break. That isn't in the cards for another year!
But his name is on the mortgage so its all his business. he doens't want Mountain taking half or anything as Fucked up as that.
The good in all this is that my Mortgage has been approved.
we are working towards getting all the subjects removed for Monday.
My VISA has ended up being paid off. So I can now afford my thousand dollar mortgage. Charley and I will have a home!
This last 2 weeks has been really hard.
The ups the downs.
i don't feel nearly as good as I think I should from buying my first home.
My broker was learning too.
so as we went along.....we were all in Hell....with my Dad at the front of Hell boat. Breathing down both our necks and just making it soooo much worse.
So there you go.
I am not doing the big WaHooo til monday when all the subjects are removed. Thats when I can breath and know It'll all be okay.
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Wednesday, July 25, 2007
My Daughter has extra Holes
Sister took the Queen to get here ears pierced today.
Yes she asked me first.
So now my girl has pierced ears!
Man they grow up quick
Yes she asked me first.
So now my girl has pierced ears!
Man they grow up quick
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
1st Hurdle Without Pinks
My financing is having a hard time.
Mobile homes finance differently.
The bank is taking into consideration the Pad rental.
It isn't good.
Everything may fall thru.
I've gone tomy parents for yet More Help.
I've just endured 4 hours of Pride removal.
i am nearly 40 yrs old and I don't make enough money to even buy a trailer.
my parents......
After hours of hours and hours upon......
All Ineed is a possible cosign and......
i feel like duty.
i am Crushed.
i am scrambling to get back on top.
i feel like a complete Loser.
I am on the brink of depression.
My credit card debt is too much. Thats gonna sink me.
Eventhough I've paid soooo much of it off over the last few months......I'm left asking the questions.......
why do I work so hard?
Why do I try so much?
Why did I ever bother claiming my tips if it was all going to end the same anyway?
I stayed at that "great" job for a year and it actually put me into debt!
if you can believe it.
I made less money.
I am under.
This place is mine Damn-it!
My fight is in there, but so down trodden.
I might as well be back on welfare for how this fucking system works!
Right now the glass is definantly half-empty where i am sitting.
Maybe some chocolate will help.................
SERENITY NOW!
SERENITY NOW!
Mobile homes finance differently.
The bank is taking into consideration the Pad rental.
It isn't good.
Everything may fall thru.
I've gone tomy parents for yet More Help.
I've just endured 4 hours of Pride removal.
i am nearly 40 yrs old and I don't make enough money to even buy a trailer.
my parents......
After hours of hours and hours upon......
All Ineed is a possible cosign and......
i feel like duty.
i am Crushed.
i am scrambling to get back on top.
i feel like a complete Loser.
I am on the brink of depression.
My credit card debt is too much. Thats gonna sink me.
Eventhough I've paid soooo much of it off over the last few months......I'm left asking the questions.......
why do I work so hard?
Why do I try so much?
Why did I ever bother claiming my tips if it was all going to end the same anyway?
I stayed at that "great" job for a year and it actually put me into debt!
if you can believe it.
I made less money.
I am under.
This place is mine Damn-it!
My fight is in there, but so down trodden.
I might as well be back on welfare for how this fucking system works!
Right now the glass is definantly half-empty where i am sitting.
Maybe some chocolate will help.................
SERENITY NOW!
SERENITY NOW!
Monday, July 23, 2007
Dumb Landpeople
WEll. I will have to wait till the Land-in-laws get back in a week to take up my grievance with my landperson.
I called last night to tell her I'd bought a place and will be moving. I asked for the Land-in-laws number cause there were some things i wanted to discuss with her. she has a few more brains than the other.
LP asked if there was anything she could help with. I started to talk about my garden and the removal of a few things. she flipped!
Started to go off about when Sharon left and how she took plants and how awful it was that she did that. I said.....but they are Hers!!!
It went from there.....
she doens't beleive that you can take them.
She expects me to leave it all behind!
Fuck that!
If she thinks I am leaving behind my lillies????? I have a dozen at least!
The azalea that Muck gave me from the other place? My Rhodos? some of those annuals are really expensive and I have to search to find them. I mean of course. I don't have room for everyting at the new place yet.....but holy Shit Bitch!
and on top of that I don't think she realizes that she owes me a months rent for all this carp! Plus my damage deposit!
And what is up with all this friggin rain!
Has anyone had a similar experience?
Frig!
okay back to Lawyers, brokers & inspectors Oh My!
Oh hey! Anyone know of a good inspector.
i thought I'd use who my Sister just used....Pillars to Post. But my old buddy Wren said they've been sued a bunch of times. Wren is a building inspector.
Why don't I use him you ask?
Cause he is also my old boyfriend. We have an extreme Past. Found him on Facebook. He would be my first choice but.......
So now I ask......who have you used?
I called last night to tell her I'd bought a place and will be moving. I asked for the Land-in-laws number cause there were some things i wanted to discuss with her. she has a few more brains than the other.
LP asked if there was anything she could help with. I started to talk about my garden and the removal of a few things. she flipped!
Started to go off about when Sharon left and how she took plants and how awful it was that she did that. I said.....but they are Hers!!!
It went from there.....
she doens't beleive that you can take them.
She expects me to leave it all behind!
Fuck that!
If she thinks I am leaving behind my lillies????? I have a dozen at least!
The azalea that Muck gave me from the other place? My Rhodos? some of those annuals are really expensive and I have to search to find them. I mean of course. I don't have room for everyting at the new place yet.....but holy Shit Bitch!
and on top of that I don't think she realizes that she owes me a months rent for all this carp! Plus my damage deposit!
And what is up with all this friggin rain!
Has anyone had a similar experience?
Frig!
okay back to Lawyers, brokers & inspectors Oh My!
Oh hey! Anyone know of a good inspector.
i thought I'd use who my Sister just used....Pillars to Post. But my old buddy Wren said they've been sued a bunch of times. Wren is a building inspector.
Why don't I use him you ask?
Cause he is also my old boyfriend. We have an extreme Past. Found him on Facebook. He would be my first choice but.......
So now I ask......who have you used?
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Guess What I am Doing At 7 O'Clock Tonight?
Veiwing that Mobile that the other Deal fell thru on!!!!!
WaaaHoooo!
I never expected, a time would come in my life, when I would be excited about possibly buying and living in a trailer park.
But Damn it; I SoooooAm!
If I can do it. Its happening.
Wish me Luck Blogger Dudes!
WaaaHoooo!
I never expected, a time would come in my life, when I would be excited about possibly buying and living in a trailer park.
But Damn it; I SoooooAm!
If I can do it. Its happening.
Wish me Luck Blogger Dudes!
the Waiting Game
So I sit.
Waiting to hear that the Mobile is indeed sold.
Waiting to hear from my mortgage broker that ..........I really hope I can get 200. That is setting the bar awfully high. But thats what I hope.
Apartments that Charlote and I can get into run about 160 at the least. Most of them are Age Restricted. And the others are in neighborHOODS. so the higher end is the way to go. At 190 I could have the choice of a townhouse in the Village. Which isn't the end of the world. More square footage and an upstairs downstairs is more likable. an Apartment with 900 sqre feet.....i think Charley and I would Kill each other. But we will do what we have to I guess.
I am also Waiting anxiously to get my girl back from camp.
what a Wet week this has been for her. I feel sooo bad. I hpe she is having the time of her life! I hope she had enough clothes. How wet is she?
She was going on an overnighter this year too!. Yuck in the rain it sucks Ass. I should have sent more pants.....
I fianlly got my Ass back to the gym this morning.
Haven't gone all week cause of all this moving crap.
My mronings and evenings have been full of phone-calls, emails, and looking at places.
So today....since I am playing the waiitng game anyhow.....I went to the gym.
I hated it the whole time I was there and couldn't wait for it to be over. But now sitting here I feel glad I went.
It sucks being Homeless.
so i have a whole Pile of Christmas lights that I'm gonna sell. they are all in great working order. I've just never used them. I will post picks of the sandbox and the slide(yes Bert) blogger dudes get first dibs.
Oh Carp! Look at the time!
gotta Run.
blog On dudes!
Waiting to hear that the Mobile is indeed sold.
Waiting to hear from my mortgage broker that ..........I really hope I can get 200. That is setting the bar awfully high. But thats what I hope.
Apartments that Charlote and I can get into run about 160 at the least. Most of them are Age Restricted. And the others are in neighborHOODS. so the higher end is the way to go. At 190 I could have the choice of a townhouse in the Village. Which isn't the end of the world. More square footage and an upstairs downstairs is more likable. an Apartment with 900 sqre feet.....i think Charley and I would Kill each other. But we will do what we have to I guess.
I am also Waiting anxiously to get my girl back from camp.
what a Wet week this has been for her. I feel sooo bad. I hpe she is having the time of her life! I hope she had enough clothes. How wet is she?
She was going on an overnighter this year too!. Yuck in the rain it sucks Ass. I should have sent more pants.....
I fianlly got my Ass back to the gym this morning.
Haven't gone all week cause of all this moving crap.
My mronings and evenings have been full of phone-calls, emails, and looking at places.
So today....since I am playing the waiitng game anyhow.....I went to the gym.
I hated it the whole time I was there and couldn't wait for it to be over. But now sitting here I feel glad I went.
It sucks being Homeless.
so i have a whole Pile of Christmas lights that I'm gonna sell. they are all in great working order. I've just never used them. I will post picks of the sandbox and the slide(yes Bert) blogger dudes get first dibs.
Oh Carp! Look at the time!
gotta Run.
blog On dudes!
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Getting Organized
Well. My ducks are not co-operating as well as I'[d like them to so I suppose I will start from the back of the line up instead.
I had started organizing tossing and getting rid of 'stuff' months ago when I first found out the house went on the market. So thankful for that. Of course i still have piles of Carp to deal with.
so I am planning a garage sale! I think. So far I have a couple lamps and Kaila's bed. A sandbox kids fisherprice slide....i'm sure to come up with more.
so this week of Charlotte at camp instead of me working out and enjoying my evenings with Mountain......I am pricing and moving stuff around.
I am Packing.
Yes thats right! Packing. No sense in waiting. Have you got any idea the amount of Shite I have in this house? 85% of it is used too.
So now where am I moving?
Not so sure.
I of course have all my eggs in a basket with a pull away bottom right now.
I'm thinking ground floor somewhere.
Be it apartment or basement suite.
I have a 17 yr old cat. A guinea pig. Fish, Kid and Piano to accomodate.
WEst Abby doesn't appeal to me.
so its gotta be East.
What can I afford?
Well. If it includes all utilities.....I could Max out at 850. If no utilities.....well I guess.......lets just hope for the best and keep our fingers crossed.
Every will work out.
Everything happens for a reason.
There is always a silver lining.
Where a door closes another one opens..........bla bla bla
I have 6 wks. I'd like to be all finished and done before Charlotte starts school for the fall. Any help and all boxes welcome.
Special Thanks to Liz-bit. You have no idea what everything meant to me and I really sincerly hope you can help.
blog On dudes!
I had started organizing tossing and getting rid of 'stuff' months ago when I first found out the house went on the market. So thankful for that. Of course i still have piles of Carp to deal with.
so I am planning a garage sale! I think. So far I have a couple lamps and Kaila's bed. A sandbox kids fisherprice slide....i'm sure to come up with more.
so this week of Charlotte at camp instead of me working out and enjoying my evenings with Mountain......I am pricing and moving stuff around.
I am Packing.
Yes thats right! Packing. No sense in waiting. Have you got any idea the amount of Shite I have in this house? 85% of it is used too.
So now where am I moving?
Not so sure.
I of course have all my eggs in a basket with a pull away bottom right now.
I'm thinking ground floor somewhere.
Be it apartment or basement suite.
I have a 17 yr old cat. A guinea pig. Fish, Kid and Piano to accomodate.
WEst Abby doesn't appeal to me.
so its gotta be East.
What can I afford?
Well. If it includes all utilities.....I could Max out at 850. If no utilities.....well I guess.......lets just hope for the best and keep our fingers crossed.
Every will work out.
Everything happens for a reason.
There is always a silver lining.
Where a door closes another one opens..........bla bla bla
I have 6 wks. I'd like to be all finished and done before Charlotte starts school for the fall. Any help and all boxes welcome.
Special Thanks to Liz-bit. You have no idea what everything meant to me and I really sincerly hope you can help.
blog On dudes!
Monday, July 16, 2007
Saturday, July 14, 2007
my House
So this house was inspected last Saturday.
Waht came of it or why i don't know.
What I do know is that it has since vanished from MLS.
So I can't help but wonder What The Hell!
so now I look into what I can afford.
There is a nice mobil for sale a few blocks from here. This I can afford.
its on MLS on Horn in the family section.
I've asked my parents what they think.
I mean I could wait for Mountain. We have plans and all. but realistically there are no forsures. In the end of all ends I have to do what I can do. Not what I can do with help. There are no dreams here. Only reality. And be my reality a bit bleak as far as ownership goes. thats what it is. and I will make it mine and have all the Pride in the world in it.
I showed Bert last night. Please check it out and let me know what you think.
I'm gonna phone my parents and see if they did indeed check it out.
Blog On Dudes!
Waht came of it or why i don't know.
What I do know is that it has since vanished from MLS.
So I can't help but wonder What The Hell!
so now I look into what I can afford.
There is a nice mobil for sale a few blocks from here. This I can afford.
its on MLS on Horn in the family section.
I've asked my parents what they think.
I mean I could wait for Mountain. We have plans and all. but realistically there are no forsures. In the end of all ends I have to do what I can do. Not what I can do with help. There are no dreams here. Only reality. And be my reality a bit bleak as far as ownership goes. thats what it is. and I will make it mine and have all the Pride in the world in it.
I showed Bert last night. Please check it out and let me know what you think.
I'm gonna phone my parents and see if they did indeed check it out.
Blog On Dudes!
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
The Pinks
So a little over a month ago I began the steps to go off the pinks.
They needed adjusting AGAiN!
Friggin anxiety pains dopiensss. I wasn't into it anymore.
I was drinking more to compensate to feel what I could consider 'Normal'.
I was dizzy, forgetting stuff, tired. Holy F tired!! I nearly fell asleep on the highway home from my Bobo's!!! that doesn't EVER happen to me.
Dopey. Oh so dopey.
i was done.
saw my doctor yet again. He said adjustment. Bigger dosage or different drug.
Yah. I said OFFF!
I am done.
They were great When i needed them. SAved my life. TAught me how its supposed to be. How I am supposed to feel. Kept me from driving into traffic. They served there purpose. I am Alive and Loving it!
So the process to go off was interesting.
Had to go to half a dose to start. That was supposed to be for a month. Now maybe you don't remember this....but when I started i was on half a dose and could barely tie my shoes. So I did the half dose for 4 days and said tahts it! Cold turkey bitches!!!!
If I am gonna feel like shit and not function than I might as well just FF'n do it and get it over with.
so I did.
well. Let me tell you.
It was a week I will never forget.
I threw up. but I spent a lot of time over the toilet or next to a bucket.
work? Oh of course I did. Nothing stops me. You should know that. Kept it togetehr for the customre and then barely held it together in the back. My Staff is amazing! they were so great during this time. I don't have secrets, so everyone knew what I was going thru.
It was the paper bag sounds that were really wild.
Voices.....oh yah. I heard em'
everytime I turned my head it sounded like a paperbag was crunching in my ear
How wild is that. Of course i'd always heard it the whoel time I was taking the Pinks but it was never as loud as when I was detoxing.
The best part was the dizzy.
sometimes the ground moved all on its very own self while I was just standing there trying desparatly to hold it down!
Then there were the emotional outbursts.
i went thru a few days where I had this outpouring of love. I just really felt Love. I tried to keep most of it to myself and Mountain as i didn't want to freak anybody out. Than the crying and the tears. Holy moly out of know where shit!
Anger.
Frig. The pills were great cause they stopped me from analizing every little thing.
However...there were some choices i'd made in my stoned state that I hadn't thought thru. than other things that came out of it that I still just overlooked cause by the time it came time to think I couldn't remember what the issue was.
Hence the Removal of Kaila.
So now here I sit.
no more wacky spells of dizziness when i look over my shoulder. the ground does Not have a mind of its own Damnit!!!
My house is a mess and disorganized but i will deal with it.
That was something esle. I just got so laid back.
Frig! I had laundry as far as the eye could see for the last 8 mnths. its was all clean. but Hell it certainly wasn't put away or even folded. Holy frig! recyclable stuff.....everywhere. I jsut couln't time manage to get to it. i spent so much time staring into space with NO thoughts......it was unbelievable.
but Yet i am grateful.
Especially when it comes to a night like tonight when I can just enjoy with Charlotte and have anice time. I've learned and my body has learned how its supposed to work. Hope the lesson sticks. Hope the chemical inbalance I suffer has fixed itself at least a little.....
Well and of course now kicks in the PMS for this month and everywhere I look I can see clutter and dirt. my voice raises but I am able to keep it down for the most part.
Old coping skills? Maybe.
Now my body is going thru adjustments of its own.
i am allergic to avocado's
Cherries??
I have been suffering all week long with the Yuck and gross sexiness of the dripping or crusted up nose and eyes.
but that is all part of my body once again finding itself.
i have been excercising and pounding back water like crazy!!
i fianlly lost 2 pounds!!!
thats of course after I gained 3 from starting to work out to begin with.....FFFF!
Muscles never forget and they are always excited to be remembered. Hopefully my body can remember all by itself how to produce the chemicals it needs to for me not to go off the deep end again!
So I indulged with Bert and Steph about my ephinany on the amount of chemicals i was pumping into my body. Holy carp!
But once again...i am so glad they were there. I needed them. My doctor knew I did so he helped. but he also knows i am a tough nut and i don't see him unless I need to. so he was great when it was time for me to be Off!
I will Remeber the Pinks in a fond way.
There are some I really think need them. they saved my life and I am sure they will save yours too.
I don't have to always be angry. I don't have to have anxiety. It doens't EVER have to be perfect.
Life its too short for that CRAP!!! Mountain has been wonderful thru all of it. we are happy. WE have stuff. Stuff that i will address later. But I think its all workable. Like Bert said.............Fruit Salad.
'Just okay' is good enough for me!
They needed adjusting AGAiN!
Friggin anxiety pains dopiensss. I wasn't into it anymore.
I was drinking more to compensate to feel what I could consider 'Normal'.
I was dizzy, forgetting stuff, tired. Holy F tired!! I nearly fell asleep on the highway home from my Bobo's!!! that doesn't EVER happen to me.
Dopey. Oh so dopey.
i was done.
saw my doctor yet again. He said adjustment. Bigger dosage or different drug.
Yah. I said OFFF!
I am done.
They were great When i needed them. SAved my life. TAught me how its supposed to be. How I am supposed to feel. Kept me from driving into traffic. They served there purpose. I am Alive and Loving it!
So the process to go off was interesting.
Had to go to half a dose to start. That was supposed to be for a month. Now maybe you don't remember this....but when I started i was on half a dose and could barely tie my shoes. So I did the half dose for 4 days and said tahts it! Cold turkey bitches!!!!
If I am gonna feel like shit and not function than I might as well just FF'n do it and get it over with.
so I did.
well. Let me tell you.
It was a week I will never forget.
I threw up. but I spent a lot of time over the toilet or next to a bucket.
work? Oh of course I did. Nothing stops me. You should know that. Kept it togetehr for the customre and then barely held it together in the back. My Staff is amazing! they were so great during this time. I don't have secrets, so everyone knew what I was going thru.
It was the paper bag sounds that were really wild.
Voices.....oh yah. I heard em'
everytime I turned my head it sounded like a paperbag was crunching in my ear
How wild is that. Of course i'd always heard it the whoel time I was taking the Pinks but it was never as loud as when I was detoxing.
The best part was the dizzy.
sometimes the ground moved all on its very own self while I was just standing there trying desparatly to hold it down!
Then there were the emotional outbursts.
i went thru a few days where I had this outpouring of love. I just really felt Love. I tried to keep most of it to myself and Mountain as i didn't want to freak anybody out. Than the crying and the tears. Holy moly out of know where shit!
Anger.
Frig. The pills were great cause they stopped me from analizing every little thing.
However...there were some choices i'd made in my stoned state that I hadn't thought thru. than other things that came out of it that I still just overlooked cause by the time it came time to think I couldn't remember what the issue was.
Hence the Removal of Kaila.
So now here I sit.
no more wacky spells of dizziness when i look over my shoulder. the ground does Not have a mind of its own Damnit!!!
My house is a mess and disorganized but i will deal with it.
That was something esle. I just got so laid back.
Frig! I had laundry as far as the eye could see for the last 8 mnths. its was all clean. but Hell it certainly wasn't put away or even folded. Holy frig! recyclable stuff.....everywhere. I jsut couln't time manage to get to it. i spent so much time staring into space with NO thoughts......it was unbelievable.
but Yet i am grateful.
Especially when it comes to a night like tonight when I can just enjoy with Charlotte and have anice time. I've learned and my body has learned how its supposed to work. Hope the lesson sticks. Hope the chemical inbalance I suffer has fixed itself at least a little.....
Well and of course now kicks in the PMS for this month and everywhere I look I can see clutter and dirt. my voice raises but I am able to keep it down for the most part.
Old coping skills? Maybe.
Now my body is going thru adjustments of its own.
i am allergic to avocado's
Cherries??
I have been suffering all week long with the Yuck and gross sexiness of the dripping or crusted up nose and eyes.
but that is all part of my body once again finding itself.
i have been excercising and pounding back water like crazy!!
i fianlly lost 2 pounds!!!
thats of course after I gained 3 from starting to work out to begin with.....FFFF!
Muscles never forget and they are always excited to be remembered. Hopefully my body can remember all by itself how to produce the chemicals it needs to for me not to go off the deep end again!
So I indulged with Bert and Steph about my ephinany on the amount of chemicals i was pumping into my body. Holy carp!
But once again...i am so glad they were there. I needed them. My doctor knew I did so he helped. but he also knows i am a tough nut and i don't see him unless I need to. so he was great when it was time for me to be Off!
I will Remeber the Pinks in a fond way.
There are some I really think need them. they saved my life and I am sure they will save yours too.
I don't have to always be angry. I don't have to have anxiety. It doens't EVER have to be perfect.
Life its too short for that CRAP!!! Mountain has been wonderful thru all of it. we are happy. WE have stuff. Stuff that i will address later. But I think its all workable. Like Bert said.............Fruit Salad.
'Just okay' is good enough for me!
Date Night
Charlotte and I have a date tonight!
I asked. She accepted. Guess that means I am paying.
I am taking her to see the new Harry Potter This evening. It just opened 7 hours ago!
I hope to get out of work on time if not early so that we can grab a bite to eat too before it starts.
YaY! Date night with my girl!
I asked. She accepted. Guess that means I am paying.
I am taking her to see the new Harry Potter This evening. It just opened 7 hours ago!
I hope to get out of work on time if not early so that we can grab a bite to eat too before it starts.
YaY! Date night with my girl!
Monday, July 09, 2007
Berry Fest Vent?
Well I am not nearly as worked up now as I was on the weekend.
I vented all over Mountain. So WE'll see.
It was rather ridiculous. And I just don't even know what to do except keep my mouth shut and do my job.
So I turned up Friday morning. Our tent looked fine enough. It wasn't as new or fancy as the others....but whatever. It was up and it was shade.
My Harryman was already there sipping on a coffee patiently waiting. Since I hadn't been given any plan of how things were going to work and nobody had picked my brain about anything I went about my business of opening the restaurant.
The boss duo had spent all the previous night setting up the tents and tables. They should just be able to stock the fridge that was out there.
Which they did. I never knew it took so many people to stock a fridge before.
Anyhow.....Besides the fact that there were too many tables and they were all rounds that seat up to 8.........I shake my head everytime I think of it. I went in to arrange them so you could get around them. Get rid of the extra chairs....what was it they did the night before again?? Salt & Pepper??? Hmmmm.
There were a few points in the day that were just ludicrous.
The first thing that took place.....well.......bossgirl is out behind the patio bar. Nobody is in her tent. Fine. They were all coming in. Great! I was busy. I had Harry man to give me a hand. Which he did. Then a couple of tables sat on the patio. She phoned inside. Now this was not the first time she phoned inside......So I sent Harry out to her to man the bar while she takes the tables. Harry come back right away with the orders She handed him written down on 2 pieces of paper.
You've got to be Fucking kidding me!!!
I look outside....she is back behind the bar. DOING NOTHING!!!!
I am busy. I can do the restaurant by myself but I'll be damned if I am doing outside too! There is a tea that needs to go outside.....I grab it and take it out to her. As I am walking towards her she is frantically pointing at a table that it goes to. I snap at her.....'I don't have time for this!'
So she thinks i can't handle it, calls BM so she can come in and help me and he can go behind the bar!!!!
What the Fuckin' Hell!
I have Harry!
I'm not doing someone else's job too!
Throughout the day there were numerous phonecalls from her in to the restaurant. BM doing the same thing. So and so's food is up. so he would call her to get her to send them in! WE were busy. Fulltime not stopping busy.
'the food will get cold'
Guess you should have hooked up those fuckin heat lamps you got a month ago When you ran off to Alberta!
We will get it when we get it!!!
So many fucked up things all day the little stuff .......holy carp!
Another big one though......
we had a bar outside.
It was selling draft. There was a keg. Only....get this......she wouldn't pour it unless she had the chit from the bar inside to prove that it had been rung in!
So the whole purpose of it being faster for the customer.....Bar outside......lost.
I was in the bar Friday night. Not one drink was made by the bar outside.
People were mad and complaining when they came in cause she was such a bitch.
We have one machine. This machine...computer...ordertaker...visa/debit/mastercard....bill printer....does Everything. 5 of us on it. 5 of us waiting. Whatever....that was workable...but the rest.
Oh another good one!
The kitchen sinks clogged. We had one working one and 3 that were backed up and full of disgust. BM was doing dishes for a bit till our dishwasher got there. He fucked off. I assumed it was to do something or get soemthing or whatever for the sinks. Cause of course they were over flowing.....
nope. I must be dumb. He went to get signs made for the tents out front cause nobody knew or could see the restuarant sign that it was Mitch Miller's.
not that i hadn't suggested to Bossgirl herself, to print off a pile of the take-out menu's so that we could have them on each table and hand them out....no. Why would I have done such a thing?!!!
Now not only is the dish-pit a disaster....his kitchen crew of 2 needed to be relieved. Its hot they are working their asses off. And he fucks off to get signs!
Then instead of dropping them off so she can figure out how to put them up cause of course she is still just holding the pavement down........he spends another half hour out there doing it.
And and the kitchen! Frig Asshole Kyle is back there. Waht a complete dillhole! Now I am stuck with him! Cause Jill-bert gave her notice and that was her last weekend. Yup. She gave 3 wks seems to me. Has he hired anyone? Oh no. Hire? whats that!??? But thats a whole other vent.
Anyhow......there is more. But I am sure you can see from this.....
so now I am torn. I can't work like this. It is just so riduclous.
RAy made me nuts cause he Never had a plan. fine I made my own. And they worked!
This guy makes my nuts cause he seems to have a plan. but it only includes himself and his girlfriend!
So I go to work everyday with a smile on my face and remember I am there for the customer.
I vented all over Mountain. So WE'll see.
It was rather ridiculous. And I just don't even know what to do except keep my mouth shut and do my job.
So I turned up Friday morning. Our tent looked fine enough. It wasn't as new or fancy as the others....but whatever. It was up and it was shade.
My Harryman was already there sipping on a coffee patiently waiting. Since I hadn't been given any plan of how things were going to work and nobody had picked my brain about anything I went about my business of opening the restaurant.
The boss duo had spent all the previous night setting up the tents and tables. They should just be able to stock the fridge that was out there.
Which they did. I never knew it took so many people to stock a fridge before.
Anyhow.....Besides the fact that there were too many tables and they were all rounds that seat up to 8.........I shake my head everytime I think of it. I went in to arrange them so you could get around them. Get rid of the extra chairs....what was it they did the night before again?? Salt & Pepper??? Hmmmm.
There were a few points in the day that were just ludicrous.
The first thing that took place.....well.......bossgirl is out behind the patio bar. Nobody is in her tent. Fine. They were all coming in. Great! I was busy. I had Harry man to give me a hand. Which he did. Then a couple of tables sat on the patio. She phoned inside. Now this was not the first time she phoned inside......So I sent Harry out to her to man the bar while she takes the tables. Harry come back right away with the orders She handed him written down on 2 pieces of paper.
You've got to be Fucking kidding me!!!
I look outside....she is back behind the bar. DOING NOTHING!!!!
I am busy. I can do the restaurant by myself but I'll be damned if I am doing outside too! There is a tea that needs to go outside.....I grab it and take it out to her. As I am walking towards her she is frantically pointing at a table that it goes to. I snap at her.....'I don't have time for this!'
So she thinks i can't handle it, calls BM so she can come in and help me and he can go behind the bar!!!!
What the Fuckin' Hell!
I have Harry!
I'm not doing someone else's job too!
Throughout the day there were numerous phonecalls from her in to the restaurant. BM doing the same thing. So and so's food is up. so he would call her to get her to send them in! WE were busy. Fulltime not stopping busy.
'the food will get cold'
Guess you should have hooked up those fuckin heat lamps you got a month ago When you ran off to Alberta!
We will get it when we get it!!!
So many fucked up things all day the little stuff .......holy carp!
Another big one though......
we had a bar outside.
It was selling draft. There was a keg. Only....get this......she wouldn't pour it unless she had the chit from the bar inside to prove that it had been rung in!
So the whole purpose of it being faster for the customer.....Bar outside......lost.
I was in the bar Friday night. Not one drink was made by the bar outside.
People were mad and complaining when they came in cause she was such a bitch.
We have one machine. This machine...computer...ordertaker...visa/debit/mastercard....bill printer....does Everything. 5 of us on it. 5 of us waiting. Whatever....that was workable...but the rest.
Oh another good one!
The kitchen sinks clogged. We had one working one and 3 that were backed up and full of disgust. BM was doing dishes for a bit till our dishwasher got there. He fucked off. I assumed it was to do something or get soemthing or whatever for the sinks. Cause of course they were over flowing.....
nope. I must be dumb. He went to get signs made for the tents out front cause nobody knew or could see the restuarant sign that it was Mitch Miller's.
not that i hadn't suggested to Bossgirl herself, to print off a pile of the take-out menu's so that we could have them on each table and hand them out....no. Why would I have done such a thing?!!!
Now not only is the dish-pit a disaster....his kitchen crew of 2 needed to be relieved. Its hot they are working their asses off. And he fucks off to get signs!
Then instead of dropping them off so she can figure out how to put them up cause of course she is still just holding the pavement down........he spends another half hour out there doing it.
And and the kitchen! Frig Asshole Kyle is back there. Waht a complete dillhole! Now I am stuck with him! Cause Jill-bert gave her notice and that was her last weekend. Yup. She gave 3 wks seems to me. Has he hired anyone? Oh no. Hire? whats that!??? But thats a whole other vent.
Anyhow......there is more. But I am sure you can see from this.....
so now I am torn. I can't work like this. It is just so riduclous.
RAy made me nuts cause he Never had a plan. fine I made my own. And they worked!
This guy makes my nuts cause he seems to have a plan. but it only includes himself and his girlfriend!
So I go to work everyday with a smile on my face and remember I am there for the customer.
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Friday & Saturday!!!
I am Excited about tomorrow and Saturday!!!
I hope its as busy as we anticipate it to be!
Tits up and out ladies! Give your best Gam forward!
Never let em' see you sweat.
We have a Bellini machine. YaY! for that. $6.50 a cup. I think its a bit steep but then again its one of those red plastic beer cups....so hey! Its probably right on target!
Kegs of Bud for outside!
Burger and Beer special 10bux.
Inside is where I am supposed to be posted. I know. What The Hell! Thats fine. I think I will be able to float better anyway from there. All I care about is a breakfast early lunch crowd tippage. After that its all gravy anyway.
SAturday is an extra shift so its all good. And my old Buddy Harry will be there to give me a hand! How cool is that?
I am exzcited.
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I hope its as busy as we anticipate it to be!
Tits up and out ladies! Give your best Gam forward!
Never let em' see you sweat.
We have a Bellini machine. YaY! for that. $6.50 a cup. I think its a bit steep but then again its one of those red plastic beer cups....so hey! Its probably right on target!
Kegs of Bud for outside!
Burger and Beer special 10bux.
Inside is where I am supposed to be posted. I know. What The Hell! Thats fine. I think I will be able to float better anyway from there. All I care about is a breakfast early lunch crowd tippage. After that its all gravy anyway.
SAturday is an extra shift so its all good. And my old Buddy Harry will be there to give me a hand! How cool is that?
I am exzcited.
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Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Rich Folk
With a pool in the back yard, guest room and a pool change room I feel like I have a million bucks!
As we get ready for Berry Fest this weekend. I think about last year. Seems to me I was on my way to Alberta and pretty near half-way there.
Now I am fighting to get this wieght loss rolling. So careful as to what I am eating.
Finally not feeling the effects of the Pinks lack anymore. All is good.
charley is at Gramma's.
I went clothes shopping and it wasn't as bad as i thought it was gonna be. I still have a heck of a time buying pants.
I find that my weight is staying the same, but all my muscles are tightening up. Which is fine I guess. Now I just have this extra skin that is kinda getting that hanging look about it. Reminds me of after i gave birth.
I like Curves very much. Its jsut so easy. Now I just have to sweat more to lose the fat. Too bad I couldn't do the circuit in the 30 degree weather we've been having.
I've been very busy lately so I haven't been making blog a priority.
sorry Dudes!
WEll and I don't know what to talk about these days.
Anyhow....it is bedtime for me. Gotta get up early and see if I can twice the circuit!!!
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As we get ready for Berry Fest this weekend. I think about last year. Seems to me I was on my way to Alberta and pretty near half-way there.
Now I am fighting to get this wieght loss rolling. So careful as to what I am eating.
Finally not feeling the effects of the Pinks lack anymore. All is good.
charley is at Gramma's.
I went clothes shopping and it wasn't as bad as i thought it was gonna be. I still have a heck of a time buying pants.
I find that my weight is staying the same, but all my muscles are tightening up. Which is fine I guess. Now I just have this extra skin that is kinda getting that hanging look about it. Reminds me of after i gave birth.
I like Curves very much. Its jsut so easy. Now I just have to sweat more to lose the fat. Too bad I couldn't do the circuit in the 30 degree weather we've been having.
I've been very busy lately so I haven't been making blog a priority.
sorry Dudes!
WEll and I don't know what to talk about these days.
Anyhow....it is bedtime for me. Gotta get up early and see if I can twice the circuit!!!
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Sunday, July 01, 2007
berry festival
8 AM friday to 8PM friday.....bar
8Am Saturday to 8pm saturday.......bar
He'll Pay cash for your time.
Bert, Stef, Erin, Shanna....whats up.....
Bert and Stef Friday......split up the time???
Ummmm......Get back to me
8Am Saturday to 8pm saturday.......bar
He'll Pay cash for your time.
Bert, Stef, Erin, Shanna....whats up.....
Bert and Stef Friday......split up the time???
Ummmm......Get back to me
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
no more nanny girl
it Appears as though it is all over.
A bed is left and a couple drawers of some kind.
I have been left with her debt and with9out her keys.
WoW! Just like I was as if her mom or something.
House is locked tight when I am out. No need to go out of my way to change those locks. Like I have so much free time.
Its been a week since I visited the Gym. Went this morning. Damn my body misses it. if I have to I'll go twice a day to get rid of this BS fat that is covering my body!!
Hope to be on a steady loss now. In my dreams??? Maybe
but I'll fucking do it!!
I'm pissed about it and totally uncomfortable.
i am supposed to be 127 not 140!!!!
Fuck!
A bed is left and a couple drawers of some kind.
I have been left with her debt and with9out her keys.
WoW! Just like I was as if her mom or something.
House is locked tight when I am out. No need to go out of my way to change those locks. Like I have so much free time.
Its been a week since I visited the Gym. Went this morning. Damn my body misses it. if I have to I'll go twice a day to get rid of this BS fat that is covering my body!!
Hope to be on a steady loss now. In my dreams??? Maybe
but I'll fucking do it!!
I'm pissed about it and totally uncomfortable.
i am supposed to be 127 not 140!!!!
Fuck!
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Little Bitch
That littel Cow!
I never got a hold of the tenancy officer I was supposed to. She wasn't 'in' on Friday. Bitch! How convenient.
So I scoured over the tenancy pages in the internet.
There is nothing that covers ...taking in an under-age run-away. Giving her a place to stay so she doesn't have to live on the streets... retraction retraction retraction .......oh wait. She did that anyway.
But seriously. There is nothing covering our situation.
Boarders?
Room-mate?
All verbal contract?
So I had to look at what WAS there.
There resolution officer she spoke to advised her that it was okay to break-in to my house if she was locked out. Who the Fuck is this Bitch?!!
Kaila took it legal....so did I.
I wan't going to give a shit about the money she owes me for the phone and rent. but since she's taken it to that next level.....so will I. You wanna be a grown-up? Well here you go.
I downloaded the proper form from the website. filled it out. Oh hey! It said all the same stuff I had said in the one I typed out for her! What a surprise!
She didn't stay the night.
But she did turn up SAturday afternoon, with the drug dealing boyfriend, while we were out, and moved out almost all her crap~
All thats left is her bed and a couple shelves.
I'm sure she will come back when I am work to get the rest.
I jsut want her out. I'm pissed about the phone bill. but thank-ful I cut it when i did!
So tomorrow when I get on the phone I will be asking the tenancy bitch to now help me file to get the money she owes. I wasn't going to,but frig. I'm sure when her next & last of the phone bill comes its going to be over again. So FFFF that. I already had to pay a 200 dollar bill. the extra pay-day this month was supposed to be a xtra check to put towards other stuff. Like maybe into the bank with my other down-payment house money.
Anyhow.
its almost over i think.
So for that i am glad.
But yah. Just so you know. Its even really hard to throw your own kids out if they don't want to go. There are laws and things to protect them.
So Who's Protecting us?
I never got a hold of the tenancy officer I was supposed to. She wasn't 'in' on Friday. Bitch! How convenient.
So I scoured over the tenancy pages in the internet.
There is nothing that covers ...taking in an under-age run-away. Giving her a place to stay so she doesn't have to live on the streets... retraction retraction retraction .......oh wait. She did that anyway.
But seriously. There is nothing covering our situation.
Boarders?
Room-mate?
All verbal contract?
So I had to look at what WAS there.
There resolution officer she spoke to advised her that it was okay to break-in to my house if she was locked out. Who the Fuck is this Bitch?!!
Kaila took it legal....so did I.
I wan't going to give a shit about the money she owes me for the phone and rent. but since she's taken it to that next level.....so will I. You wanna be a grown-up? Well here you go.
I downloaded the proper form from the website. filled it out. Oh hey! It said all the same stuff I had said in the one I typed out for her! What a surprise!
She didn't stay the night.
But she did turn up SAturday afternoon, with the drug dealing boyfriend, while we were out, and moved out almost all her crap~
All thats left is her bed and a couple shelves.
I'm sure she will come back when I am work to get the rest.
I jsut want her out. I'm pissed about the phone bill. but thank-ful I cut it when i did!
So tomorrow when I get on the phone I will be asking the tenancy bitch to now help me file to get the money she owes. I wasn't going to,but frig. I'm sure when her next & last of the phone bill comes its going to be over again. So FFFF that. I already had to pay a 200 dollar bill. the extra pay-day this month was supposed to be a xtra check to put towards other stuff. Like maybe into the bank with my other down-payment house money.
Anyhow.
its almost over i think.
So for that i am glad.
But yah. Just so you know. Its even really hard to throw your own kids out if they don't want to go. There are laws and things to protect them.
So Who's Protecting us?
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Heck DArn
DAmn I fucked up!
i may acutally be over the legal barrel.
you've got to be kidding me!!!
somebody get her the FFF out!
i may acutally be over the legal barrel.
you've got to be kidding me!!!
somebody get her the FFF out!
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Rumours
well the kaila thing is interesting.
she is so 16
came here after her work and found she was locked out.
Got Nasty phone call at work. Whatever. Bite Me!
she came back with the dumb boyfriend about 7
the boyfriends mother picked them up just about 8:30.
but not after I had a few words with her. Just enough I think. So now boyfriends mother is just pissed. "She's not coming to our house!!!!" Nobody wants her.
I feel bad for her that she let the bridges get burnt. but oh well.
I suggested to her as she was leaving and calling me a Bitch to give her mother a call and move back home.
Hey whatever...the sneaky little cunt. I cancelled all that had to do with her phone. Frig! she managed to get some stuff added to it. Eventhough she is not an authorized user. Even after I told her no. FFFFF! should have had that password on it sooner....my own fault. Ohg well. I'm sure it will all be over soon.
Mountain has groomed up his horse and rode in to save the day!
he will be here tomorrow after work as well. Just to be sure all is okay. Whatta man! I'm sure its not all too bad. He can sit and relax on the back porch, start up the BBQ have some quiet in my greenspace................
SPEAKING OF MY GREEN SPACE!!!!!
Rumour has it.
the people that I had come thru Monday night......
he's been next door tons making sure and checking it all out with the real-estate agent, Harvey Goodwin, what can you dig up Liz?? on what the suite and property and such and such is like.
So i think its a flip!
He and his wife and his son....something....are looking at the place to buy fix it up and flip it for a bigger profit.
NOw I don't know.
Waht does that mean for me?
will they start with the other side first?
I would think.
How long would it take them?
Does that mean I leave during or for the reno's on my side?
So anyhow it sounded interesting to say the least. Maybe that means I have more time while they fix the house!!
how much does my rent get 'adjusted'
So I don't know.
Anyhow....one thing or several at a time.
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she is so 16
came here after her work and found she was locked out.
Got Nasty phone call at work. Whatever. Bite Me!
she came back with the dumb boyfriend about 7
the boyfriends mother picked them up just about 8:30.
but not after I had a few words with her. Just enough I think. So now boyfriends mother is just pissed. "She's not coming to our house!!!!" Nobody wants her.
I feel bad for her that she let the bridges get burnt. but oh well.
I suggested to her as she was leaving and calling me a Bitch to give her mother a call and move back home.
Hey whatever...the sneaky little cunt. I cancelled all that had to do with her phone. Frig! she managed to get some stuff added to it. Eventhough she is not an authorized user. Even after I told her no. FFFFF! should have had that password on it sooner....my own fault. Ohg well. I'm sure it will all be over soon.
Mountain has groomed up his horse and rode in to save the day!
he will be here tomorrow after work as well. Just to be sure all is okay. Whatta man! I'm sure its not all too bad. He can sit and relax on the back porch, start up the BBQ have some quiet in my greenspace................
SPEAKING OF MY GREEN SPACE!!!!!
Rumour has it.
the people that I had come thru Monday night......
he's been next door tons making sure and checking it all out with the real-estate agent, Harvey Goodwin, what can you dig up Liz?? on what the suite and property and such and such is like.
So i think its a flip!
He and his wife and his son....something....are looking at the place to buy fix it up and flip it for a bigger profit.
NOw I don't know.
Waht does that mean for me?
will they start with the other side first?
I would think.
How long would it take them?
Does that mean I leave during or for the reno's on my side?
So anyhow it sounded interesting to say the least. Maybe that means I have more time while they fix the house!!
how much does my rent get 'adjusted'
So I don't know.
Anyhow....one thing or several at a time.
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Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Evicted
Well so......
this have escalated.
Verbal, Verbal, Verbal. Nothing written you stupid girl till now!
You wanna be a grown up. Well here you are a Grown up.
Get The Fuck Out!
You teach my daughter that taking papers out the paper box is okay?/?? You fucking little slutty cunt.
you bring my girl home in a truck driven by your little friend. there is Not enough people or insurance to protect either of you.
you constantly dress with your cleavage out and never come home....thats it!
Getout.
Don't fuckin threaten me? What! you are seriously playing with your life.
So if you are in the area...please drive by. Make double sure all is okay. My neighbors and the Police have been notified, school has been told. but you know....everyone works....a surprise never hurt anyone. (kaila)
i am officially on REd Alert!
see anything funky. Anyhting at all...please call the local police....859 5225 non emerg line. Thanks!
this have escalated.
Verbal, Verbal, Verbal. Nothing written you stupid girl till now!
You wanna be a grown up. Well here you are a Grown up.
Get The Fuck Out!
You teach my daughter that taking papers out the paper box is okay?/?? You fucking little slutty cunt.
you bring my girl home in a truck driven by your little friend. there is Not enough people or insurance to protect either of you.
you constantly dress with your cleavage out and never come home....thats it!
Getout.
Don't fuckin threaten me? What! you are seriously playing with your life.
So if you are in the area...please drive by. Make double sure all is okay. My neighbors and the Police have been notified, school has been told. but you know....everyone works....a surprise never hurt anyone. (kaila)
i am officially on REd Alert!
see anything funky. Anyhting at all...please call the local police....859 5225 non emerg line. Thanks!
Monday, June 18, 2007
Sold??
first showing of my house was a couple hours ago......
Man-a-livin I hope my rent doesn;'t get unmanageable.
i wonder if they will buy.
If they do and live in the other side that would be just fine. Just don't make it hard for me to stay.....
Man-a-livin I hope my rent doesn;'t get unmanageable.
i wonder if they will buy.
If they do and live in the other side that would be just fine. Just don't make it hard for me to stay.....
Sunday, June 17, 2007
I am Sooo Wet
Yup. that was me!
That was us.
camping.
WoW!
I spent Friday at sports-day Hootin and a Hollering for ...."go Queen! Come on Ott! Run Lottie Run!! Go Charlotte; Go Charlotte; Go Go; Go Charlotte!" while all her teammates cheered on some kid named Charley.....................
It misted on us but it was good. Yes thats right I stayed out in the rain. Got wet out ther eI did. Even my hair. Went for a very nice afternoon tea with Charlottes daycare Lady. got to know each other on a different level. It was pretty cool. Especially since i have created an unfolding in my own house. something i will get into later involving Nanny Girl.
Mountain arrived about 4:30 or so and damn it we ARE taking all that wood!
I went pee and checked the locks of the house.
WE got there and set up. I the tent. Charley the beds Mountain the tarp and the fire. All good.
we went for a wonderful walk to the lake.
I questioned myself the whole time on ....did my feet grow....why do these shoes suck so badly,....I really should have worn my other ones?
We sat by the wonderfully warm fire that Mountain built. Marshmellows were consumed it was a good time. The Queen went to bed. Mountain and I sat up.
it was nice. His quitting had taken the 2 day backseat once again. thats okay. Its hard, I know. He kills himself over it more than I ever could. And........its not my place. Its his demon to battle. When he needs me to hold his hand I do. Guilt and blame have no place here.
I got tired just thinkjing about how early Charlotte was gonna wake up.
We went to bed.
The rain started.
It rained all night.
We woke to rain.
Charlotte was awake by 7AM. Mountain was up and out of his bag making fire!
All of a sudden our roles fell into place.
DAmn it!
I had to get up and cook!
I know. What The Hell! When we had spoken of camping....there was mention of disapointment when I said if it doesn't come in a bag, box, or add water I don';t bring it.
Well i got weak. Its his first trip with us. Gotta be sensitive. So yah. I packed eggs, bacon and hashbrowns. I Know! What The Hell!!!
Frig. It was all happening so fast. There was fire. There was rain. I hadn't had enough coffee or washed my face. But yet, somehow, i felt it was time to make breakfast. Obviously the clean air was hurting me.
So i hooked up the propane to the stove deal. i know it made noise i hadn't really heard before. But the coffee.....the nights sleep hadn't kicked in yet.
i lit the match..........
Flames and fire everywhere.
i officially don't have any eyebrows out of place or hair on my knuckles. My eyelashes found protectiopn under the night befores mascara
Well it is late.
i am tired.
too much adrenilin for one night
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That was us.
camping.
WoW!
I spent Friday at sports-day Hootin and a Hollering for ...."go Queen! Come on Ott! Run Lottie Run!! Go Charlotte; Go Charlotte; Go Go; Go Charlotte!" while all her teammates cheered on some kid named Charley.....................
It misted on us but it was good. Yes thats right I stayed out in the rain. Got wet out ther eI did. Even my hair. Went for a very nice afternoon tea with Charlottes daycare Lady. got to know each other on a different level. It was pretty cool. Especially since i have created an unfolding in my own house. something i will get into later involving Nanny Girl.
Mountain arrived about 4:30 or so and damn it we ARE taking all that wood!
I went pee and checked the locks of the house.
WE got there and set up. I the tent. Charley the beds Mountain the tarp and the fire. All good.
we went for a wonderful walk to the lake.
I questioned myself the whole time on ....did my feet grow....why do these shoes suck so badly,....I really should have worn my other ones?
We sat by the wonderfully warm fire that Mountain built. Marshmellows were consumed it was a good time. The Queen went to bed. Mountain and I sat up.
it was nice. His quitting had taken the 2 day backseat once again. thats okay. Its hard, I know. He kills himself over it more than I ever could. And........its not my place. Its his demon to battle. When he needs me to hold his hand I do. Guilt and blame have no place here.
I got tired just thinkjing about how early Charlotte was gonna wake up.
We went to bed.
The rain started.
It rained all night.
We woke to rain.
Charlotte was awake by 7AM. Mountain was up and out of his bag making fire!
All of a sudden our roles fell into place.
DAmn it!
I had to get up and cook!
I know. What The Hell! When we had spoken of camping....there was mention of disapointment when I said if it doesn't come in a bag, box, or add water I don';t bring it.
Well i got weak. Its his first trip with us. Gotta be sensitive. So yah. I packed eggs, bacon and hashbrowns. I Know! What The Hell!!!
Frig. It was all happening so fast. There was fire. There was rain. I hadn't had enough coffee or washed my face. But yet, somehow, i felt it was time to make breakfast. Obviously the clean air was hurting me.
So i hooked up the propane to the stove deal. i know it made noise i hadn't really heard before. But the coffee.....the nights sleep hadn't kicked in yet.
i lit the match..........
Flames and fire everywhere.
i officially don't have any eyebrows out of place or hair on my knuckles. My eyelashes found protectiopn under the night befores mascara
Well it is late.
i am tired.
too much adrenilin for one night
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Friday, June 15, 2007
sleep in much?
I mean really.
does she have to wake me up between 6 and fucking 30 every morning!!!
i have been extra tired this week and not feeling all my best and every day she is up and in my room with that friggin pig noising it up!
Go Away!
then I haven't had coffee yet or brushed my teeth and she is asking stuff of me.
ARE U NEW!!!! DON'T TALK TO ME YET!!!!
Now I know she is excited cause we are going camping and I know she is excited cause its sports day and I a m going....but Frig!
I guess I am extra frustrated cause normally I just talk myself down and say "tomorrow is saturday" But this time it won't matter cause eventhough tomorrow is SAturday....we are camping. There will be no good sleep. Let alone sleeping in.
Grrrrr.
She better have a good time this weekend. I mean its not like I go camping for me!
This is already going to be such a test for Mountain and I. He is so bitchy these days cause he is trying really hard to quit smoking.
I hate it when he is bitchy. And no, not an asshole. A Bitch! He is more of a Bitch than I could ever hope to be.
Well I am sure everything will be fine.
I have a couple mags
I'll pick one up for Charlotte this morning.
Its gonna be a definant milestone-learning experience-adventure for all of us I am sure.
I am already looking forward to going to bed early sunday night!!!
does she have to wake me up between 6 and fucking 30 every morning!!!
i have been extra tired this week and not feeling all my best and every day she is up and in my room with that friggin pig noising it up!
Go Away!
then I haven't had coffee yet or brushed my teeth and she is asking stuff of me.
ARE U NEW!!!! DON'T TALK TO ME YET!!!!
Now I know she is excited cause we are going camping and I know she is excited cause its sports day and I a m going....but Frig!
I guess I am extra frustrated cause normally I just talk myself down and say "tomorrow is saturday" But this time it won't matter cause eventhough tomorrow is SAturday....we are camping. There will be no good sleep. Let alone sleeping in.
Grrrrr.
She better have a good time this weekend. I mean its not like I go camping for me!
This is already going to be such a test for Mountain and I. He is so bitchy these days cause he is trying really hard to quit smoking.
I hate it when he is bitchy. And no, not an asshole. A Bitch! He is more of a Bitch than I could ever hope to be.
Well I am sure everything will be fine.
I have a couple mags
I'll pick one up for Charlotte this morning.
Its gonna be a definant milestone-learning experience-adventure for all of us I am sure.
I am already looking forward to going to bed early sunday night!!!
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Camping
oh how fun!
Since I have...or Charlotte has smoething going on every weekend until the end of July......
WE have decided to go camping this weekend!
The 3 of us!
Out came the camping stuff last night.
Did my camping food shop after work.
Picked up another camping chair and sleeping bag.
The weather is supposed to be good. But we'll see. I have tarps. With a second person I am sure they will be much easier to put up!
Heehee!
It will be interesting no matter what.
A weekend in the woods with Mountain Man and The Queen
I excited!
Since I have...or Charlotte has smoething going on every weekend until the end of July......
WE have decided to go camping this weekend!
The 3 of us!
Out came the camping stuff last night.
Did my camping food shop after work.
Picked up another camping chair and sleeping bag.
The weather is supposed to be good. But we'll see. I have tarps. With a second person I am sure they will be much easier to put up!
Heehee!
It will be interesting no matter what.
A weekend in the woods with Mountain Man and The Queen
I excited!
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Thursday, June 07, 2007
I take things To heart
Wow.
seriously.
i believe people when they tell me something.
i mean, Yah, i have my moments, many moments of unstrust. but for the most part I believe. I love to believe in the best of human nature. I take people for their word. I also realize that is a fault i have and it hurts me.
but does it hurt me cause I let it?
Or does it hurt me cause it can?
Is that the same thing?
Do I make up the rest?
or is it really happening?
BTW....Totally Loving Curves!
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seriously.
i believe people when they tell me something.
i mean, Yah, i have my moments, many moments of unstrust. but for the most part I believe. I love to believe in the best of human nature. I take people for their word. I also realize that is a fault i have and it hurts me.
but does it hurt me cause I let it?
Or does it hurt me cause it can?
Is that the same thing?
Do I make up the rest?
or is it really happening?
BTW....Totally Loving Curves!
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Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
so I've been dabbling on facebook.
I find it fun for a second than its over. Yet so addictive.
Quite honestly I'm just getting bored of the computer these days.
Carp@!
I think my 3 dimensional life is taking over!!!
My neighbor in the other half of the duplex moved out last weekend.
I guess the landpeople are gonna fix up her side before they put it on the market.
Frig! they have a lot of work over there. Her bathroom floor is rotten. Ick!
So I don't know.
WE are holding out as long as we can though. Enjoy the yard while we have it. I'm still getting rid of stuff. 5 years of accumulation. Thats a lot of carp!
I find it fun for a second than its over. Yet so addictive.
Quite honestly I'm just getting bored of the computer these days.
Carp@!
I think my 3 dimensional life is taking over!!!
My neighbor in the other half of the duplex moved out last weekend.
I guess the landpeople are gonna fix up her side before they put it on the market.
Frig! they have a lot of work over there. Her bathroom floor is rotten. Ick!
So I don't know.
WE are holding out as long as we can though. Enjoy the yard while we have it. I'm still getting rid of stuff. 5 years of accumulation. Thats a lot of carp!
Sunday, June 03, 2007
3rd Place!!!
My Girl played so well!!
I was so nervous.
She was nervous too.
gramma, great-gramma, papa and Mountain were all there.
I filmed it with my little digital.
I thught she did way better than the others. With no mistakes. She got 85 out of 100! But I guess taking your music up is a no-no. Not that she even looked at it once, but anyhow.
with her leg a tappin to keep her beat she played and she was amazing!
The Pink Panther....with her own special ending!
I WoooHoooed at the end of course.
And The Queen beamed.
Gramma gave her the Mosted special bracelet I ever did see. Silver, with a treble clef hangin off it.
What a great day!
What a great day!